"Wan Huan and I have never seen or eaten so many delicious foods. The next day, she sent clothes, shoes, stationery, school bags, and she said that she would give us money to go to school. I couldn't have dreamed of this before. Wan Huan and I used to go to the vegetable market to pick up rotten vegetable leaves, sometimes by rummaging through the garbage bins. Or I started messing around in the hospital, and I found that the hot water room in the hospital or in the corridors of the wards could find leftover meals from the patient's family members everywhere, so then I started picking them up in the hospital, oh no, it was stealing, stealing those hospital water heaters, corridor windowsills, winter windowsills with windows open, and there was a natural big refrigerator outside, and there were many people who would put their meals there. I'm not stupid, I steal on the twelfth floor today, change to the fifth floor tomorrow, and change to the eighteenth floor the day after tomorrow, and my family sometimes doesn't care if they find out, and they won't pursue it. What's more, they weren't allowed to put their food there in the hospital, so sometimes they thought it was the nurse who threw it away. As for going to school, to be honest, we all ate at that time, and we didn't think about going to school, but for me and Wan Huan at that time, it was tantamount to a fantasy, it was just a dream! ”

Wan Qian glanced back at me and smiled apologetically.

"Look at me, I don't know what's going on today, I'm telling you this."

I reached out to take her hand, "That last sentence is superfluous." ”

Wan Qian smiled sheepishly.

"Don't say it, sometimes people are really hypocritical the older they get."

"When we are young, how many years do we need to be hypocritical? At that time, the hypocrisy was also false hypocrisy. At that time, it was not hypocritical at all. When I was in high school, I liked one of my favorite words: teenagers don't know the taste of sorrow, and they are worried about new words; Now I know all the sorrows, and I want to talk about it, but I am in the cool autumn. ”

"You left a word." Wan Qian said.

"Fall in love with the floor?"

Wan Qian smiled and let go of my hand.

"I thought I had met a nobleman, like a dream, as described in a few fairy tales I had heard, that the children of poor families were favored by fairy-like characters at the most critical time. Wan Huan and I both went to school, we had enough money, decent clothes, and plenty of fresh food, and I thought our good days were beginning. ”

Wan Qian took another deep breath.

"We've had pretty good times. That woman often came, and when she came, she took me and Wan Huan out to eat, drink and have fun, and she gave us the first time in many lives: the first time I ate KFC, the first time I went to the playground, the first time I took pictures, the first time I wore new clothes, the first time I had a full meal, the first time I entered the school gate---- I went to school, and he went to kindergarten. For the first time, Wan Huan had her own brand-new toys, and Wan Huan went to an extracurricular class for the first time...... It was all the woman's money. The woman said that money had never been an issue for her. ”

"Yes."

Wan Qian turned her back to the night.

What is the biggest problem for her? If only I had known how sinister the world was, I would have known that there was no such thing as a free lunch. A person inexplicably right

Hello, behind it definitely

There are so many reasons why people don't know or don't want to be known. ”

If people can live again, many people will see each other as if they are not seen, and many things will be remembered rather than forgotten. If there is a button in life, you can delete it with one click, and irrelevant people and irrelevant things can be cleared and blocked from your life with one click, how good life should be!

But life never makes us too fulfilling.

People live, who is dissatisfied with their hearts? Who doesn't hold a bitter hand?

"Later,"

Wan Qian spread her hands.

"I found out that she was actually the head of a human trafficker, the eldest sister of a child trafficking ring. The so-called child who once made me envious of all the happiness in the world is just a prop. She has been lurking in the pediatric departments of various places and major hospitals for a long time, and whenever she has the opportunity, she will sneak into the obstetrics and gynecology department or use the identity of her patient's family to chat, set porcelain, and pull relationships with the mother, and then steal the child and sell it while others are unprepared. The boy traveled to the pediatric high wards all the year round, at most ten days, at least one week, and he was able to recuperate for a few days after he succeeded, but within a few days she would use various means to make the boy continue to have a fever, and the high fever would not go away, pneumonia. Of course, if he makes trouble at night and the doctors and nurses are not there, she will give him a large dose of diazepam to put him to sleep. ”

Wan Qian smiled weakly.

"It turned out that everything I saw was fake----- relatives who came to visit, identities, and even diseases."

Wan Qian's eyes were strangled with pain. She spread her hands out. Years later, I still feel that Wan Qian's actions that night seem to have two meanings: her hands are open, as if she wants to give up everything, and she seems to be full of anticipation for the world and eager to embrace it. Maybe she once opened her arms and tried to hug someone with affection, seriously, attentively, and emotionally, but then she found that she had nothing to rely on, and at the same time she had nothing to hug.

So the person who tried to hug had to retract his arms in embarrassment in the end.

"There is no worst human being, only worse. I thought that Wan Huan and I were already miserable, but I didn't expect that behind the seemingly happiness, there was a deeper suffering than my brother and me. ”

Wan Qianfu hugged her shoulders again.

"I started stealing babies from major hospitals, and even omitted the process of taking the baby in and pretending to be sick. Because of my age, no one guarded me, so I picked up the child and threw it into my school bag when no one was prepared, and when I went out, they met me at the door. I can't help it, because Wan Huan wants to live the life he has now, and he gradually adapts to it, and relies on it, and the life he needs makes him ......"

Wan Qian paused, "Actually, you can't blame him for this. If it weren't for my covetousness for that moment......"

"Do you believe there is cause and effect?"

Wan Qian's speech stopped abruptly, and she turned to look at the wall clock hanging in the middle of the living room.

"It's all this time, let's rest."

I shook my head.

"Not too sleepy."

"Me too."

"Did my experience scare you?"

I smiled, "At my age, I may not have seen it, but I must have heard of it."

A lot of gossip about the world. How can you be easily intimidated by a past? ”

Wan Qian gave me a grateful glance.

"Will you look down on me for that?"

I pouted.

"It's redundant."

"No one knows about this past. But this past has been pressing on my heart for a long time, and my heart has always been like an invisible boulder, sometimes pressing me so hard that I can't breathe. ”

I put my hand on her arm.

"One should learn to let go of oneself. Isn't there a saying? Letting go of others is compassion, and letting go of oneself is wisdom. ”

She gratitiously shook my hand back.

"Today, I talked to you and discussed, and I feel that most of my thoughts have been shared."

"It's an honor!"

I replied.

"And then?"

I asked. Asking Wan Qian about her past, I don't think I'm being rude.

"Then I wanted to quit, I was thirteen years old, I was in junior high school, I didn't want to do that anymore, but I couldn't get rid of her. At that time, I was too young to know any means or methods, only brute force and ruthlessness. And the idea is still simple, I feel that I have sold my life for you for so many years, and I should be unconditionally satisfied by my proposal to leave now. If I had the brains or the ability to transfer Wan Huan first at that time, maybe ...... The woman naturally disagreed, she smiled hideously, and said, I will never agree, after doing it for so long, you have been trapped in this dirty and filthy quagmire, since you made the first transaction, do you think you still have a chance to get out? ”

Wan Qian further explained to me: "They do that kind of thing, do business, do business. ”

She smiled wryly, as if she had heard the most ridiculous thing in the world.

"I shuddered with rage, and I thought she was too insatiable and unreasonable. However, when my hand is stretched out to those innocent families and children, how can I not be driven by desire, and how can I talk about heavenly principles and morality! People can only see the unbearable of others. ”

Wan Qian's tone began to be inexplicably calm.

"I don't know what to do, it's been a few years! How many babies have been transferred out of my hand over a few years? I don't remember it anymore, and I don't want to. How many families have been ruined and ruined because of me? My conscience, at that moment, never hurts. I have never felt compassion for the babies who are crying or laughing in my hands. In my eyes, they are not people, just one commodity after another that can help me change my life for a better life. ”

Wan Qian's eyelids drooped.

"Who is worse! In fact, a lot of the time we don't know who is the worse person. We are hurt by others, and at the same time we hurt others ruthlessly and unjustly. When others hurt us, we want to break the other person's body into pieces, but when we hurt others, we feel that we have all kinds of reasons, all of which are excusable, and we have the last resort. ”

"Human nature is often not to be looked at." I say.

"I didn't think about negotiating with her at that time, I just thought that I was done, and she heard it. So I didn't show up again, and then one time I got out of school

, she came to me. persuaded me to change my mind, of course I decisively refused, that night, I waited for a long time after school, at that time Wan Huan was already in elementary school, I waited for a long time, and I couldn't see him. I didn't know what to do, I didn't know what to call the police, I didn't know what to call the police. The woman appeared to me and said that if I did not agree to continue to be at her mercy and to help her with all those things that would not have her conscience, I would never see my brother. It was only then that I realized that some things, some of the endings, were predestined many years ago. Every word, every thing you do, and every decision you make right now, right now, don't think it at the time, but after many years, you will find that all of them are the test of fate and the foreshadowing laid by you. ”

(End of chapter)