After a month, I didn't see him come to pick me up, I called him, he sometimes didn't answer, and then asked, saying that he was in a meeting, I said I wanted to go back, he said what was the hurry, I will go to see you tomorrow.

I said no, it makes me look like a house, you won't marry anyone again, I'm afraid I'll make trouble.

He said you make trouble, I know you care about me.

I was dumbfounded, sometimes I really didn't speak, and the two of them looked at each other without saying a word, but they didn't feel embarrassed. Sometimes the video, at my house, he sent me a video, he took a bath, wrapped in a bath towel, chatted with me, ate, sometimes just soaked a bowl of noodles, pointed at the camera, told me that this is the top instant noodles, he ordered it himself, delicious.

I asked him why he didn't go home?

He said this is not home?

yes, this isn't home? Where is not home? The person in front of you is your sweetheart, and the place where your sweetheart stays is your home. We have come all the way from primitive societies, from nomadic to commune, and bodies and minds are on the move all day long. Many people want a happy end in their lives, and after searching for several years and not being able to get it, they suddenly discover: Oh, it turns out that there is no end to life.

After another month, I started to get bored, which felt amazing, sometimes I thought it was good, sometimes I felt like a canary, and I wanted to go out, the sky was high, and the sea was wide and the fish jumped. This silence makes me feel safe, but it also makes me afraid. People are always like this, they have to look forward to Shu, they have to think about it, and I am just such a greedy person.

Zhang Ruolei came less and less, and there were fewer calls and videos. I don't want to spend any more time here, Aunt Zhang said, stay here, what's wrong?

I shook my head, I wanted to say that there was nothing wrong with it, just because I couldn't think of anything bad. I want to see bad things, because in the real world there must be bad things. It was so comfortable that I was terrified.

I said to Zhang Ruolei, if you don't come again, I will mobilize all resources and leave.

He said wait, I'll pick you up.

He did what he said he would, and he came the same day. That night, he didn't leave, at night, it was still that room, it was still that bed, he was so excited that he couldn't help himself, and only now did he know what Xiao Biesheng's new love was. He said I love you. These three words make my face blush and my heart beats, but I don't get tired of hearing it a hundred times or ten thousand times.

In the first bed, men always like to say those love words that make your ears warm and your heart beats. It's a pleasure to fish and water, but it's not really true. For example, he said that he misses you to death, not because he likes you, but because he loves you. If I like it, I want to do it with you once, and if I fall in love with you, I want to do it with you in the future.

What is love? Do you know?

He leaned over me, sweating on his forehead, sometimes for too long, and his sweat dripped down and fell on my skin, but he didn't stop, and I made him greedy, and the last days were happy, and according to him, he had never felt the sense of officialdom, and he couldn't stop it.

He gasped, the breath of two men tangled in the darkness, becoming one.

Zhang Ruolei said: What is love? Love is love. I love you.

There seemed to be an inexhaustible amount of strength in his body.

"Love has to do it."

He said.

I hugged him and went up to the sky and into the ground together, feeling like rushing to the clouds, the illusion of not touching the ground with my hands and feet, and then I felt that I suddenly fell to the ground, and the dust settled when I flickered.

At the extreme, he endured it and ran down, I said what are you doing? He was silent, took out the safety measures that had been prepared in advance, and I was relieved to lie back on the bed.

Zhang Ruolei said, I can't let you suffer that sin again.

He returned, the sweat on his body was cold in the air, his hands were on his back, and the other was cold, and after a while, his skin was burning hot.

The next day, we returned, Aunt Zhang stood at the door, and the old lady stood at the door. I thought she was going to cry and make trouble, and I didn't want her to stand silently in the wind and wave goodbye to us, which made me wonder if she was really unconscious, or if she just wanted to be a bystander.

I thought they would be more reluctant than me, after all, there is no village in front of the village, there is no shop in the back, the world is isolated, and people will inevitably feel empty and lonely after a long time in it.

But I didn't want to feel reluctant, and tears warmed my eyes first.

Aunt Zhang said with a smile, it's not that you won't see each other in the future.

But how can people think that the difference is goodbye?

With warm people, you can be with a little more than a while, so why bother parting?

The old lady smiled and held my hand clearly, and said, life has come, and we must say goodbye in the end. Everyone has to face the end of the song.

This is too literary and too sad, too sober and too clear. I was stunned for a while, I only knew how to shed tears, and I didn't know how to take it.

Zhang Ruolei was silently beside me, he looked at me, took my shoulders as he left, put me in his arms, and gently swept my back. I lay in his arms and wept bitterly, unable to help myself. I told Zhang Ruolei that when I was so vulnerable, they took care of me and accompanied me, and no one had ever treated me like this.

Life is so hard, I can't bear it.

Zhang Ruolei said that I am greedy, I want to be a clear stream in the turbid world, and I want to enter the world without being in the red dust.

How can life be so fulfilling?

Zhang started the car, turned around, the red door of the vermilion wall, the courtyard of the deep house, and closed little by little in front of my eyes.

I'm back, hometown, are you okay?

That night, I couldn't help but turn the dragon and the phoenix upside down, and I said that he was extravagant. He hugged me and I didn't speak, I pushed him. He asked me and said that if one day you left me forever, I would never be able to sleep with you again. So now I have to sleep a few more times, and I have to sleep enough.

I was amused by his logic, and I couldn't help but ask him why he said this.

Zhang Ruolei said, if one day I have nothing, will you still be with me?

In the dark, I glared at him, wanting to say, you thought I was with you for money.

But when the words came to my mouth, I swallowed them hard, so why not! Didn't I choose to be with him because he had a lot of money?

No, no, no, let me take a good look at it, at first or for money, but then it was because we fell in love with each other. I walked quietly into the depths of time alone, and that night a few years ago, he came, and then without speaking, he picked me up horizontally, like a beloved lion.

That was the first time we delivered to each other, and it's been out of control ever since.

To this day, I still love him and want to be with him, even though he betrayed me and seemed to have betrayed me. But now he is like my poppy, and he makes me want to stop.

I forgot that everything that makes people addictive is toxic.

I sighed deeply in his arms, not in a hurry to explain to him. Zhang Ruolei kissed my forehead with his lips, and we were all silent, unconsciously, hugging each other and falling asleep.

The next day I was going to work, but he didn't allow it, saying that my position was already being represented. What do I mean by that? Does a glass of wine release military power? I'm going back to work.

He was silent and said wait, wait, wait.

I said I couldn't wait. Why do you always have to wait for me?

I have a sense of foreboding, wondering what is going on these days? The Su family didn't look for me again, and I didn't contact them, and I don't know if Su Bai was buried or not.

In addition, I also miss Huaiping and worry about Lao Zhou's lawsuit. People are stupid like this, knowing that many things are fruitless, but they are still worried.

I got angry and asked him what was the difference between staying with the old lady and staying here if that was the case?

He looked at me, thought about it, and said, "Okay, let's go."

We went to work together, and sure enough, someone had been temporarily taking my place for a long time, and when I came, he withdrew from his original position.

The work is on schedule, Zhang Ruolei seems to be busy with more things than before, after a few days of work, I finally understood what happened, Zhang Ruolei is ready to sue Su Mu, in my absence, he has done everything, what forensic identification, all kinds of things, has been put on the agenda, and at the same time another lawsuit is being carried out in an orderly manner, he wants Su Bai's shares in the Su family, and it is inevitable that the Su family will not agree, which also needs to be put on the court.

Zhang Ruolei's decision surprised me, I know that he is a businessman, businessmen are more profitable than parting, I also know that he doesn't necessarily love Su Bai much, in fact, I don't even know how much he loves me, is it like loving Xiaoye and Su Bai? I don't know yet.

He made me feel strange, and I felt cold and cold.

That night, we had a fight.

I said why are you doing this? I don't want to sue Su's mother, I understand her.

Zhang Ruolei had a gloomy face and didn't say anything.

I said that even if you prepare everything, I will not cooperate, I don't believe that the court was opened by you, and in my absence, you can sue Su Mu.

He remained silent.

I said Zhang Ruolei, I don't understand you more and more, isn't your Zhang family's industry big enough? When you returned to China to take over the Zhang family's industry, your two aunts dismantled your platform, they are now powerless here, they are all suppressed by you, the Zhang family's huge industry is all yours alone, you are an only son, why are you so unsatisfied? What exactly do you want? What exactly are you going to do?

He opened the cigarette, took one out of it, and before he could light it, I snatched it with my hand, and I said you talk, you talk.

He still did not speak, nor did he look at me.

There was a long air of silence between us, and the silence made me feel suffocated. My mind was in turmoil. I felt that he was getting farther and farther away from me, that I couldn't read him more and more, and that I never seemed to read him, strictly speaking.

Is this love real? Is he true to me? In a different place, if I were Su Bai, would I be Xiao Ye or Su Bai one day? What does a woman mean to him Zhang Ruolei?

I cried, my shoulders twitched, he came over and hugged me, I pushed him, and he hugged me again.

I said that you are terrible, Su Bai is your fiancée, and her bones are not cold. She is still pregnant with your child.

Zhang Ruolei was silent, turned on his mobile phone, and asked me to show a photo, which was a DNA test report, one of the specimens was Zhang Ruolei, and the other was the embryo that Su Bai had time to give birth to in the future. The conclusion is that it is not the product of Zhang Ruolei.

My eyes widened in amazement, I couldn't believe my eyes, I always felt that something was wrong, but I couldn't find the slightest flaw. My ears rumbled, and I could only hear what Zhang Ruolei said to me a few days ago, if one day I had nothing, would you still be with me?