I shouted at Zhang Ruolei, "It's all your fault, I should have let him make it clear yesterday." ”

Zhang Ruolei never quarreled with me. He is good at this point, when I was with Huaihai in the past, it was okay when I first got married, and then I didn't quarrel, I let him, I always felt that it was not easy for him to support his family outside and work for others, he would have a lot of pressure outside, and sometimes he had to be angry with those shit bosses or customers, so I never took him seriously when I got home.

Later, when he came home, he often had a cold face, and when he talked to me, he rarely spoke, and he often didn't have a good tone when he spoke. But I never thought about anything else I could do for him other than sympathy, understanding, tolerance, and concessions.

After being with Zhang Ruolei, what kind of temper I have, how unreasonable it is, he can basically tolerate and understand, he never pointed to me on the tip of the needle, nor did he say anything too serious to me. He is like this, I will regret it after losing my temper, and I will take the initiative to show favor to him, and he will accept it with a smile, and treat his wayward daughter like a tolerant father.

I know I shouldn't blame him, even if I interrogate Huaiping all night, Huaiping doesn't want to say it, he won't confide in me again, otherwise he won't take drugs.

I know that if Huai Ping wants to leave, no one can stop him, who will watch him twenty-four hours a day? He's a big living person, and he can't look at it. Besides, even if you can see someone, can you see his heart?

I started crying, it was too complicated feelings, Huaiping came unexpectedly, and it was even more strange. I don't worry about his extenuating circumstances, he is not small, but in the adult world, he is still a child, not to mention that he is penniless, has no skills, and has no education, how can he survive outside alone?

And, am I that scary? He's in a hurry? Like his father, am I that hateful? Are you going to leave me? His dad was like that, and so was he. Isn't he denying me in disguise? Am I not qualified? Not qualified enough to be his mom? Didn't I take good care of him? Is he blaming me?

I hate myself, what are I talking about? I should have opened those letters and studied every punctuation mark in the first place, but now it's good, how can there be regret medicine in the world that sells well? Where do I find those letters? Where can I find out what the letters are about?

After a lot of confusion, Zhang Youlei silently stayed by my side, and when I cried enough and made enough trouble, he came over and patted me on the shoulder and asked me to listen to his arrangement.

I said I still listen to your arrangement?

When he said this, I became angry again. Why don't you stay here? Huaiping saw that you thought I had a lifelong trust, so he left me and didn't want me.

I whimpered and cried, and I felt unreasonable.

He hugged me and gently swept my back like a child: "That's fine, you only have me." ”

Looking up at the window, it was cloudy for a day yesterday, and it snowed early this morning, Huaiping came back from the south and was thinly dressed, so how could I not worry about my stomach? I begged Zhang Ruolei and said that he should find a friend in the public security system, but he didn't go against my intentions, and he didn't tell me the truth, he just said that he would arrange it for a while, and he would notify me as soon as there was news.

I burst into tears and laughed, I have been busy with Xiaoye's affairs for several days, we haven't been to work for several days, and he and I have piled up a bunch of business.

The first thing I did when I arrived at the unit turned out to be to receive Xiao Ye's successor, and I heard that he was waiting outside my office door early in the morning. I thought it was a routine visit, nothing special, but who knew that he went around in circles for a long time and asked me why I changed their home.

Did you change their home? To be honest, I don't even know that I, the head of the purchasing department, don't even know about it. The people at the bottom are really getting bolder and bolder, and they are becoming more and more disagreeable. They don't think that there are no tigers in the mountains, and they are slow, or that some people want to take this opportunity to sneak around and shoot horses, afraid that I will see things and think about people?

I suppressed my suspicions and sent them away. Then I convened a meeting of department personnel, and when I asked, I learned that it was indeed changed, but it was not done by someone from the procurement department, but by Zhang Ruolei's direct order, and he had already contacted the supplier for the change, but I just asked my subordinates to contact it.

When did he arrange this? It was too fast, and I didn't even know it.

I went to him, and when I started talking, he knew what I meant, sent the others in the office away, and closed the door.

"There are two reasons: first, I think you gradually forget the leaf; Second, in the past, Xiao Ye gave you kickbacks, but I think now, you don't need this anymore, so as not to cause trouble for yourself in the future. ”

I never thought about this, Zhang Ruolei can be regarded as a rainy day for me. For a while, we didn't have anything to say, he made sense, I couldn't find a place to refute, but I always felt that something was wrong, but I couldn't say anything to me.

The sixth sense of an inexplicable woman.

It just so happened that someone knocked on the door again, and I knew that he had a lot of business, so I had to quit first.

In the afternoon, Xiao Ye's successor called again, asking me if there was room for things to turn around, I politely rejected him, the man said that it was a pity that I couldn't serve me, and said that he would be on call where he was useful in the future, and he was duty-bound.

I thought to myself, what is the meaning between you and me, between me and you? But now that people say that, and some people like to hear it, I'll just listen to it.

I was busy all day, it was the end of the month, the finance had to settle the accounts, and the payment dates of each supplier were different, the payment methods were also different, and there were a bunch of bills. There was a problem with a batch of parts, and other people in the purchasing department contacted them, but the other party did not give us a clear answer for a long time. But production can't be stopped, and it can't be delayed for a day. I called the head of the other party, saying that I had to go through the legal process before the other party handed over the truth to me, and I didn't want to return it during the conversation, and it was indeed a huge quantity, although the product was slightly flawed, but it did not affect the function. It also implies that I can mean to me, and let me raise my noble hand.

It is a major feature of China's business environment that businesses do not stress the relationship and do not pay attention to integrity, and it is inevitable that they will not follow the crowd, and if they go with the flow, the situation will only get worse and worse in the future. Zhang Ruolei never worried about this, he always said that I was worried about the sky, he believed that things must be opposed, just like Hong Kong at the beginning, there was also a chief inspector at that time, and the police openly accepted benefits. The social environment couldn't have been worse, but the Independent Commission Against Corruption was later established, and that bad situation was reversed by headwinds.

He is always optimistic about this kind of thing and never complains. He felt that people living in this world had to follow the trend. What is homeopathy? Don't be high when you're greedy, and don't stretch out your hand when you're high. When to say something, people and things and even the world are not static, and if people want to live in this world like a fish in water, they must know how to be flexible.

I said that he was unprincipled, and he laughed and did not explain. He always believes that whether it is a person or a career, you must first be able to ensure that you can survive, and then talk about other schemes, if you can't even survive, it will be in vain for you to have great ambitions. Zhang Ruolei also likes to quote scriptures when talking about these, saying that Li Hongzhang also said Fang Xiaoru, said that Hong Chengchou was subdued at the end of the Qing Dynasty, and said that Wen Tianxiang would rather bend than bend.

He also said, women too, Wu Zetian, Cixi, those palace fighting dramas that you women love to watch, which one of the last laughs is not the one that survives the fittest?

I adored him at this time and looked at him like a fan. I don't think I have admired Huaihai, at that time he rarely talked to me about work, nor about personnel, most of the things we exchanged together were trivial, how much did the child eat today? What do you like to eat, which kindergarten parents are young and beautiful, Teacher's Day, is it time to express it to the teacher, or there is an activity in the school today, Huaiping was selected.

Often I say it, he listens. Sometimes he listens and listens, snoring, I pity him for working hard for the family, physically and mentally exhausted, sometimes take Huaiping to live next door.

Now that I think about it, Huaihai treated me like that at the beginning, and the reason why my marriage with him came to that point should not be all his fault.

At that time, I felt that losing my marriage was a disaster that ruined my life, and I blindly resented Huaihai in my heart, and I also lamented that fate treated me too unfairly.

It wasn't until now that I staggered to my feet, and I realized that I didn't think about things and people differently than before.

The person who can make you completely relieved of the past will always be yourself. When you change, the world changes.

I'm just still obsessed with Huaiping's affairs, and I desperately want to know his whereabouts. This is not excessive, in this world, he is not the only person who is related to me by blood, but he is the person who can most involve my joys and sorrows.

It's not like he's in a drug rehab center, at least I know where he eats well, lives well, and people are.

The world was more complicated than he imagined, and he was still a child.

In addition to this, I have a serious concern. I know that many people who have had a history of drug use will relapse. Especially, when their life experiences are not understood, they are not happy, they can't find their purpose in life, and they are empty and dazed.

When I don't have work at work, I look up information about drug addicts on the Internet, and those information are generally accompanied by shocking pictures. They were skinny, and many ended up with a layer of skin wrapped around a moving skeleton of bones. Large and small pinholes are densely packed all over the skin, and there are also people who have contracted AIDS because of this, and the hollow eyes and eye sockets are deep, and if they are backlit, you may even wonder if they have lost their pupils.

I was horrified to watch, and I would often wake up in the middle of the night by those images.

When I think of him, I cry, silently, with long tears, or my eyes are dazed, looking at a certain place, but I don't know what I'm looking at.

When I hear a half-sized male voice calling my mother on the street, I will subconsciously turn around. Once I saw a boy who was about the same size as Huaiping, I knew it wasn't Huaiping, but I followed him, and I kept following him, until the boy stood still and turned around and asked me, "Auntie, are you okay?"

I said no, my son is about your age, he went to college, and I miss him a little.