Maybe they're right.

But I can't be the second old white. You can't die. I won't be with him anymore.

No one heard me swear such a poisonous oath. These vows are always worthless in the face of reality.

The whole company is in the lanterns, Mrs. Zhang does not often come to the company, once came, he called me to go, is to let me help him make a pot of tea, after the brewing he asked me, how is this tea?

I said I don't know much, but good tea is good tea, and good tea should also be paired with good tea utensils to complement each other.

Old lady Zhang nodded with satisfaction and smiled.

His relationship with Lao Bai deteriorated.

Lao Bai forced him to ask for something, but it was something he couldn't give her in his life. I could have given it to her a long time ago, but unfortunately she was so old that she still couldn't see it. Like me, I wouldn't have wagged my tail and begged for mercy from Zhang Ruolei.

One day, I met Lao Bai in the long and narrow corridor of the company, and she stopped me. Say you look good.

I said okay.

She said remember, don't be the next me.

I say that everyone can only be herself.

Lao Bai glanced back at me, and that glance was bottomless.

But she still couldn't see me into her world.

Everyone, can only be herself.

Zhang Ruolei's wedding date is approaching day by day, and within a few days, the company has received another invitation from top to bottom--- me and Lao Zhou.

Zhang Ruolei called me to the office, and on the table was my invitation, he looked at me for a long time, and I waited with a smile.

He didn't speak, he looked at me with those eagle-like eyes.

What to see? Life, it's life, it's not fucking acting. Who are you showing? What do you expect? Let me be like Xiaoye? Die for you?!

I smiled, with no joy or sorrow on my face and no joy in my heart. When betrayal becomes a habit, you are powerless to grieve. What about sadness? He won't look at me more, he won't pity me, he won't show even the slightest mercy for me.

He looked at me.

I smiled, bowed my head, and touched the plea with my hand.

"Know you're busy. So......" I looked up at him.

"If you don't go over that day, the ceremony will definitely arrive, and it doesn't matter if you don't see anyone. The next day, you get married, Lao Zhou and I will take a month's wedding leave after attending your wedding, and we will go on our honeymoon. ”

Zhang Ruolei's lips began to tremble, he didn't speak, he was dumb.

"If it's okay, I'll go first."

After a half-second pause, I turned around. I had to turn around and turn around to keep him from seeing the tears streaming from my eyes. I held my back up like a poplar in the desert, and my high heels made a sonorous sound when I stepped on the marble floor. The tears fell and fell to the ground and fell apart, but it was quickly annihilated by the sound of the heel hitting the floor.

Lao Zhou came to pick me up every night, he leaned in the sunset, the whole person looked radiant, he was not young, I thought we would become a pair of confidants who forgot their years, but I didn't expect to become partners in life in the end. How ridiculous this world is, just like when I was thinking about how to give Zhang Ruolei more love, he abandoned me and turned to the arms of other women.

Maybe it's for the money, maybe it's for something else. He always has a full heart, as his qualified woman, I should or should support tolerance and understanding, I want to, but I can't. I'm just an ordinary and ordinary woman, I can't do it.

I swiped Douyin that day, and there was a passage in it, in which a man shouted hoarsely at a woman's back: For the rest of my life, my Majesty the Queen, the minister has retired, and this retreat is a lifetime.

When I got there, I closed the short video platform. Lao Zhou was next to me at that time, and he asked me about my wedding dress? I said you do. He asked me if the wedding was good. I said you do. He asked me, how many seats do you have on your side? I said you do.

He said, "Huh? ”

As soon as I looked down, tears fell. Immediately, he laughed again, and said forcefully, "Originally, you are about to become my husband, but I don't know how many relatives and friends I have here." ”

Old Zhou Kuanren smiled and said, yes.

After thinking about it, I realized that I had fallen for him.

"The invitations have been sent, and you still ask me how many seats I have?"

He smiled again, looking a little sly.

He was skinny, and I had never looked at him before. There is a layer of skin on the neck that is slightly slack, it looks a little old, there is not much hair, the head is smaller, like a rugby, the hand is slender, the ring finger of the right hand is a little traumatic, and the third knuckle is a little bent.

I laughed and said you can fight too.

He said that at that time, he could do anything, and what would not? In order to survive, like a dog grabbing a bone, the bone is just one piece, everyone has to grab it, and if you want it, you have to do whatever it takes, don't die.

I held my chin in my hand and said I'd be interested in learning about your past.

Lao Zhou said, then you be careful, you are going to fall in love with me. Because a person is suddenly interested in that person's past, is really interested in him, if only interested in the present, most people only want to fall in love with her, and those who are interested in the future are people who have no sense of security about this relationship, and they are not sure whether the future road will be carried on by two people together. Therefore, only falling in love with a person will interest him in his past.

I blushed and withdrew my hands, overwhelmed. Lao Zhou looked at me with interest and smiled.

That smile reminded me of Mrs. Zhang and Zhang Ruolei. Zhang Ruolei, I never know what he's thinking, Lao Zhou? Could Lao Zhou be a more dangerous character than Zhang Ruolei?

I suddenly became afraid, and I also remembered what Zhang Ruolei once said to me: "Don't provoke Lao Zhou, he eats people and doesn't spit out bones." ”

With a chill from the soles of my feet, I hugged my shoulders, and Lao Zhou turned his face to look at me and said, "Is it cold?" ”

He held out his long fingers and turned up the air conditioner.

I shook my head and said, "No, it's not cold." ”

I think if I regret my marriage now...... I don't know if Lao Zhou will ......

Lao Zhou said, "Don't go. Tonight. ”

I want to say yes, and I'll be his in a few days anyway. But I don't know why I rushed out of my mouth: "People say that it's not good to be together before marriage." ”

Lao Zhou smiled, I got up to say goodbye, and Lao Zhou got up to see me off.

When he got home, Lao Zhou said, "I want to go in and sit." ”

I couldn't find a reason to say no, so I readily agreed. When we went upstairs, I opened the door and turned on the light, and I saw Zhang Ruolei sitting in the living room.

I was startled, it was a woman after all, almost without thinking.

"Didn't you give me back the key?"

Zhang Ruolei was silent, and Lao Zhou was silent. I stood in the foyer in embarrassment, in a dilemma, as if it was not my home, but suddenly broke into someone else's house and was arrested at the scene.

But Lao Zhou went in and sat on the sofa quietly like the owner.

I think that if you really do it, Lao Zhou should not be able to beat Zhang Ruolei. I think of Lao Yang, the old Yang who is a little grateful, the first blind date I decided to have a serious relationship.

If they do it again this time......

I'm a bit of a mess, I haven't dealt with a situation like this.

Zhang Ruolei said: "You can't marry her." ”

Lao Zhou stretched out his hand and poured tea, one cup for himself, one cup for Zhang Ruolei, and another cup for him, and motioned for me to drink it with his eyes.

I didn't move.

Lao Zhou was not reluctant, and poured himself a drink. Take a sip and put the cup down.

Asked him rhetorically, "Can you find a man who gives her a better ending besides me?" ”

Zhang Ruolei was dumbfounded.

He didn't say anything, he didn't drink the tea that Lao Zhou poured for him, there were few puffs of cigarettes left between his fingers, he took a few breaths, squinted his eyes and looked at the void, and then, pressed the cigarette butt into the ashtray, got up, and left.

I wanted to ask him for the key in my hand, but Lao Zhou said no. Lao Zhou said that no one knows how many keys he has in his hand, so he doesn't have to be obsessed.

But what do you do with so much? Does it make sense? In a few days, this will also become an empty city, and I will not come back, let alone Huaiping. There are so many interesting people, they were willing to do anything for such a room, and they dared to do anything. Now it is, but no one needs it anymore.

Zhang Ruolei is also interesting, since he has a spare key in his hand, why do he make such a gesture of returning the key? To draw a line with me? I kept a hand first. Is it knowing that you can't forget me so easily? Or did I not beg him and let him stay, so I was mentally unbalanced?

Lao Zhou is still drinking tea, and I said that I still drink so much tea at night, and I am not afraid that I will not be able to sleep.

He smiled, get used to it, no one cared about it before, and you look at me a little later.

I smiled and sat down next to him. Sitting next to him, I felt a little sure, a little safe, and after thinking about it, I seemed to be able to see my future at a glance.

I either go to work or don't go to work, Lao Zhou will definitely help me find Huaiping, but is Huaiping willing to come back? Lao Zhou is much older than me, maybe when he goes out, other women will stick on him, he either refuses, or he doesn't refuse, I don't care. What women want most in their lives is stability, and I have thought about it for half my life, and now I can finally achieve it.

I can't move the feelings that hurt my muscles and bones, I don't have that skill, and I don't have that ability. I also admit that it was a little childish and abrupt to talk about marriage with Lao Zhou at the beginning, but when I think about it, people in the past were blind and dumb marriages, but they are much happier and more stable and worry-free than people now.

Many things in life will be crooked.

People must learn to accept their fate.

Lao Zhou patted the back of my hand and said that it was getting late, and it looked like you couldn't stay with me here, so I went back.

I sent him to the door, and he reached out to hug me, and I dodged away. I didn't want to dodge, but my body was so honest. I was a little sorry, and I took the initiative to hug him back, Lao Zhou didn't treat me like a husband, more like a father. He didn't mind, hugged me and patted me on the back.

The door closed behind him, and the great darkness and hollowness followed. I turned around and chased him to the door, trying to chase him back and let him accompany me, but my hand touched the doorknob but still retracted.

I need someone to accompany me so much, I don't really want to face this long and depressing night alone, I can't sleep, I've been taking sleeping pills for a long time, I'm a little afraid to take it anymore, I'm afraid of addiction, then I may be dependent on it for the rest of my life.