After a pause in his hand, Su Bai's wine was poured out, and the wine collided with the bottom of the glass, making a gurgling and clear sound, the sound was really tempting, I wanted to drink it all.

"Konoleaf. You have an impression, right? She's dead. ”

Yesterday's Xiaoye really became today's me. We are all outcasts. Throw it away when it's used up, it's still full of filthy things, Xiaoye's is a child, what about mine? I subconsciously touched my lower abdomen, which contained his body fluids. I felt a bout of nausea. For myself.

I hate the world, I'm not afraid of his ugliness and sin, I hate my own naivety and ignorance, and I'm being played around like a fool again and again.

The wine bottle was back on the table, and I didn't look at Su Bai.

"After Xiao Ye died, I haven't drunk again."

Actually, it's just that after Huaiping left, I didn't drink again. Did I snub him for a while? I spent a lot of time in that empty room, constantly inquiring and remembering, constantly regretting and reminiscing, non-stop, non-stop.

Sometimes Zhang Ruolei came, leaned against the door for a long time before I found out that he was coming, he looked at me thoughtfully, and then walked away without a sound. I thought he was considerate and knew that I would be fine after a while, and I asked him to help me find Huaiping's whereabouts, no wonder he was so hand-eyed, but there was no good news to tell me.

Does he think I don't love him anymore?

Or Lao Zhou?

He thinks Lao Zhou has a leg with me? He's angry? Jealous? He guessed my mind wrong?

I'm not, I don't have any other men.

I want to go to him and beg him not to leave me.

Don't leave me, Huaiping is already gone, and if you leave again at this time, it will kill me.

I looked at Su Bai, and Su Bai looked at me. She didn't say anything, the room was silent, not even a sound was heard. I feel so bored. Is there no window in the box? I want to open it, I want to breathe. I feel like a good glass of red wine at this time, and I need to have a chemical reaction with carbon dioxide in the air.

I raised my glass and drank it in one gulp, and when I was done, I started coughing violently. Su Bai sat across from me, and the heavens really favored her. Hahaha, she's really the darling of fate. What is she? What am I am?

I?

A big girl in the room?

The world is shaky. I said goodbye to Su Bai and asked him to put it in his bag. I don't want to say anything, I don't know what to say, what can I say more than goodbye?

Su Bai didn't chase it out, I felt that there were a lot of people on the street, in a trance, this wine was just right if I didn't drink it, I drank it a lot, and as soon as the wind blew, it began to go up. Stretched out his hand to stop the taxi, go home, I still have a home, like Tao Le in "Gone with the Wind" to Scarlett, Tao Le is Scarlett's eternal healing place, she will not be knocked down by everything if she has land, Wei Xili, Bai Red, nothing, nothing, what does she Scarlett care about? No.

She must get what she wants, even if she is willing to risk the taboo of the world.

Is she robbed all the men who are not the best girlfriends?

The driver said that I got out of the car, and the driver said that you haven't paid yet. I threw down the money, turned around and went into the neighborhood, went upstairs, opened the door, and there was a person sitting in the hall.

Who?

Huaiping? The snitch thief who broke into the house? Zhang Ruolei?

Sure enough, it was Zhang Ruolei.

I sneered, leaned against the door and looked at him silently, he was really handsome, with an angular side face, a knife carved and an axe, and money, young and promising. All the perfections in this world have been taken by him.

What is he here for? Funny. He won't tell me that the woman he loves the most is always me, he has unspeakable suffering, and he can give me anything but his name.

I took off my shoes, put the keys on the cloakroom in the entrance, walked over and sank into the couch, he smoked a lot, and after being with me, I didn't like the smell of smoke, he didn't smoke much in front of me. Now that he is smoking so fiercely, his heart must be full of torment or pain.

Do you want to show me? This bitter love drama?

What kind of character am I in his life plan? What about leaflets? Thinking of Xiao Yelai, I feel a thrill. I won't follow in Xiao Ye's footsteps, I want to see what kind of means he wants to use, and for what purpose, so that I will end up the same as Xiao Ye?

I don't look for short-sightedness. Unless......

I thought of Huaiping. However, Huaiping has been heard from for quite a long time. He won't ......

I reached out and grabbed the remote control and pressed the TV. It's not embarrassing to say a little, I'm tired of that kind of deathly silence now, like the end of the world, like the beginning of the world, like this world is a big wasteland, uninhabited.

A variety show is being staged on TV, the host interacts with the stars, and the audience laughs loudly.

Zhang Ruolei sat next to me and continued to spit out clouds and mist. If no one speaks, what will he say? I still have the advice Su Bai just gave me in my bag.

This world is too strange to me, I didn't originally want this, I just want my husband and children to warm the kang head, I haven't thought about anything.

It exceeded my expectations and exceeded my imagination. So it's a little bit hard to accept. On the other hand, what if I had thought of the world as a mess in the first place? Or wouldn't have seemed so stupid, clumsy as it is now.

I waited for him to open my mouth for a long time, and I even struggled with whether to forgive, if he really said that he couldn't give me anything but my name, should I give in?

I think I'm probably going to surrender.

Even if it's because of loneliness, because of loneliness. Only he knows how lonely and lonely I am in this world, and once, I also thought that I knew his loneliness and loneliness. I thought we'd spend the rest of our lives warming each other up and never leaving each other.

I never thought it would be like this, and I never thought it would come so quickly that it would catch me off guard.

I wanted to cry, and fell into his arms, his hands still running through my hair so easily, only he knew that they needed his touch, needed his comfort and comfort, and I would melt into his arms like ice turned into water.

If you're a fish, I'd like to be water.

I don't want to think any further.

Advertised, one after another. At that time, some people complained about the TV station, saying that they didn't know whether it was an advertisement in the middle of a TV series or a TV series in the middle of an advertisement. Now the Internet has become a trend, and those video sites that used to be free to watch are now charged, and people don't pay cables, all of them watch TV series online, watch variety shows online, like the TV series I watched recently, there are also advertisements in the middle, these online video sites continue the style of TV stations, but they easily replace TV stations, how ridiculous!

On the last cigarette, he reached out and slipped the butt into the ashtray and extinguished it fiercely. Then he took a key out of his coat pocket. I recognized it, it was this one in my house.

He's here for a showdown, not to admit his mistakes.

He's not wrong.

The key was placed on the coffee table, and when it sounded, it stabbed my ears a little.

Without saying a word, not a single punctuation mark, he got up from the couch and, then, walked to the foyer, changed his shoes, and opened the door.

He, gone, just like that.

He's gone.

The second man in my life.

When Huaihai left, he took most of my life.

When he left, it was okay, and I didn't seem to have much to lose.

As an adult, I will not cry and make trouble and hang myself again, nor will I beg him to stay, I will not be humble, I will not be lowly to the dust, and I will not commit suicide for him, making myself unhappy and depressed.

I won't know anything.

What he can do, I can do.

He slept with me, and I slept with him. We are tied. I just want you to see Zhang Ruolei that there is such a woman in this world who doesn't care and has never cared about you.

That's me.

I won't be like Xiaoye, who will put my life into it in the end.

I won't.

From now on, anyone can sacrifice for me, but I will not sacrifice for anyone again.

The law of the jungle, the law of the jungle. No one will give salvation to anyone, they can only save themselves. Don't cry, don't ask, don't ask for anything.

And in fact, I started to have insomnia. I can't sleep, and I accompany me for a long period of darkness, or maybe I accompany a large period of darkness for a long period of time. We poured out our hearts to each other, and then accepted each other's sorrows and tried to comfort each other.

My whole body quickly sank into the darkness, and in those places where my fingers were not visible, I could clearly see the small leaves.

Yes, Xiaoye, I see. What kind of ordeal have you been through, you say you always have nightmares in which a child asks you why you don't want him. You must have hidden something from me, you must have dreamed of the man who made you unable to survive and die. You must have missed him, and you must have tried to get rid of all the nightmares he gave you.

Why didn't you succeed?

No, I'm not going to follow in your footsteps.

You didn't sleep well, and then you became depressed. You can't figure it out, you can't understand why the people who were still talking to you and me in the morning changed their faces in a blink of an eye.

Don't think about it so much, only life is our own. We can't put our lives on men. What are they? Wouldn't we be able to live well without them?

I don't believe it!

I started taking sleeping pills again, small white tablets, a glass of warm water, and I could sleep peacefully all night. The next day, you can face the world full of energy.

I don't have insomnia, I don't miss you, my world, it's okay to have you, I'm afraid it will be better without you.

Some people in the company started talking behind my back, but they didn't dare to make a mistake with me, they looked at me like this, and finally came to a conclusion, thinking that I would be the second old white in this company.

They firmly believe in cause and effect, in reincarnation, in genes. The genes and life of the old Zhang family, including success, may be completely copied by Zhang Ruolei.

For them, everything and everything in this world is an endless, unchanging copy, no one is original, we are all born with our own destiny and reincarnation, and then very different lives, no one can be an exception.