After Xiao Sang followed Chen Yuzhi to Sifang City, every time I received a letter from Xiao Sang, I actually wanted to ask, Xiao Sang, have you really not regretted it?

The answer, in fact, is yes.

It's like Xiao Sang once asked me about my feelings for Xun'er.

Sometimes I also ask myself, if I had known that Xun'er had suffered so much misfortune and injury after marrying Zhao Ling, would I have been more brave to take Xun'er away!

As soon as this assumption is just self-deception, Xun'er, more assertive than I thought, she knows what she wants to do.

Just like anyone who can't cast the spell of love after meeting the right person, Xun'er probably can't escape Zhao Ling's curse.

Although she didn't want to admit it, love had indeed come to her.

I didn't think that my kindness to Xun'er would one day be one of the reasons for someone to frame her. In the Zijin Palace, someone framed me for having an affair with Xun'er.

At that time, I would have a bad heart thinking that it would be good if I had a personal relationship, at least we could die together, but all this is fake, how can I bear someone to hurt Xun'er with me.

"I'm not a man anymore!" This sentence embarrassed me as if I had been stripped naked and let people watch, especially in front of Xun'er, which made me even more embarrassed. But in order to save her, this sentence is not so difficult to say, and when I think about it, compared to her life and innocence, my dignity is nothing at all.

Yet, even though I was mentally prepared, her sympathetic gaze still made my heart twist. You know, even a disdainful gaze, what I need most is her sympathy.

But at the same time, I am very worried that there is indeed a lot of danger around her, because His Majesty's ambiguity with her has led to the jealousy of other palace concubines. To be honest, I can't understand what Your Majesty is doing, and if you really like someone, how can you put them in danger?

I think that if Xun'er was willing, I would probably abandon some of the ones who took her away, but I understand that at that time, he, her heart, had already given Zhao Ling, because of Zhao Qi, the appearance of Zhao Ling's former lover, made her very strange.

If I can't take her out of the land of right and wrong, all I can do is make myself strong and silently guard her, the same is true for Xiao Sang, if I can become very strong, he will not suffer again and again, for all these tragedies, it's just that my ability is too weak.

Later, Xun'er left with Zhao Ling, and I received a letter from Xiao Sang, and they were in the Quartet. And Da Xiang also seems to be caught in the biggest crisis in history, with the threat of Wei on the outside and the uneasiness of the vassal king inside.

My heart began to worry again, Quartet, what a dangerous place, I hope Zhao Ling can protect Xun'er.

I feel like I've changed, I used to say that suffering was just for me to complain about God's unfairness, but now I've learned to hate.

As Murong Yao said to me before, maybe I have a tiger hidden in my heart.

I wanted revenge, I wanted revenge on the Shangguan family that made us dirty, and I began to hate the Shangguan family so much that I wanted to destroy it completely. Murong Yao let me know the raging anger in his heart, I once thought that he would destroy the Murong family with his own hands, but the final result was surprising to me, he chose to protect this declining family, even if Murong Yao was already a tiger with lost teeth, Murong Yao still wanted to protect it under his wings, for this reason, he chose to follow His Majesty and chose to marry a woman he didn't like.

I know that my abilities are limited, so I can only make the same choice as Murong and choose to believe in Your Majesty, because Your Majesty can give me everything I want is the ability to destroy the Shangguan family. I have long seen that the reason why my aunt Shangguan Guifei has been infertile since marrying His Majesty for many years is because His Majesty, or the Queen Mother, does not want her to get pregnant.

And I understand, in fact, the so-called four major families have long become a thorn in the emperor's side. His Majesty is an ambitious monarch, and he cannot allow anything that can restrain his power.

I didn't expect to see Xun'er again like this, she was drugged. When His Majesty summoned me, Xun'er was disheveled in his arms. I did not shy away from taking Xun'er from His Majesty's arms, and His Majesty asked me to detoxify Xun'er.

I understand that I'm no longer a man, maybe I can easily stay by Xun'er's side without arousing the suspicion of others.

But hasn't His Majesty always liked Xun'er, why did he give up this opportunity to get Xun'er? Again, I wondered.

When I was detoxifying Smoke, I probably knew why. Xun'er's name is always another person's name, his name is Zhao Ling.

No man can accept his own woman, but he says the name of this other man. But I don't even qualify for jealousy. What right do I have to say that Xun'er is my woman, think about it, it's not okay.

However, why is Xun'er still a virgin now? She has been married to Zhao Ling for so long, and she is still a virgin! What happened to their marriage? I had to start looking at Xun'er again, is their marriage really happy?

I don't know why Xun'er is interested in witch doctors, and I don't know why she is so interested in the prince and has to go to great lengths to detoxify him. I didn't expect that I didn't do anything, Xun'er, she actually succeeded. What is her relationship with the crown prince? Why did she care so much about this child who had not known her for a long time?

However, it didn't take long for Xun'er to leave again. I received the news because of the hunt of the Elders' Pavilion. After I told the news to Murong Yao, I wanted to chase Xun'er, but Murong stopped me, and he said, Xun'er will be fine. I hesitated, should I believe in the power of Xun'er?

I became interested in power, and due to His Majesty's heavy use, I jumped from the obscure role of the Shangguan family to the core of the Shangguan family's power.

Power didn't make me happy, my heart was always thinking about Xun'er and Xiaosan. If they were around, power would be nothing.

I received a letter from Xiao Sang, who said that although it had gone through many twists and turns, his relationship with Chen Yuzhi had finally been recognized by Chen Yuzhi's mother. And I also know that this recognition was bought by him with his own life.

I didn't expect that what I was waiting for was the news that Xun'er and Zhao Ling both died in battle.

I can't believe it's true. I couldn't wait to verify with Murong Yao, and he said that all this is true. I asked him, didn't you say you could trust Xun'er?

He was silent.

Again and again, despair makes me feel how unfair this world is. I just wish she was or, that's all.

I think this is probably the so-called ups and downs in the world, when I was completely disappointed in the world, she came back.

Can anyone tell me what the hell is going on in all this!

Even though Xun'er has changed her face, I remember her eyes, she is still her, and there is no change. I thank God that she's still alive, and that's enough.

She said she had come back for revenge.

I'm willing to help her, and whatever she asks, I ask to help her complete.

It's just that why am I so miserable in my heart! I know that Xun'er no longer belongs to me, but looking at her face, I at least have memories, why do I still feel a little lost?

The Huangfu family and the Elder Pavilion are fighting openly and secretly, and we are all watching from the sidelines. Although I understand that the Shangguan family may be next, isn't this also my wish?

The Elder's Pavilion will soon be destroyed, and I'm happy for Xun'er, does she really want to see this day?

Later, Shangguan Ye actually colluded with the Queen Mother to seek a usurpation of the throne, he was too naïve and did not understand the depth of our Majesty's scheming.

But I just want to keep Xun'er safe, that's all.