"Wouldn't it be too cruel to say such things to my face?" Ji Qingmo smiled bitterly.

It was this kind of Mo Nian that he liked, so he couldn't reprimand Mo Nian, but heartache was unavoidable.

"If I lie to you, it's disrespectful, right?"

Mo Nian said: "I have always thought you are very powerful, so I don't want to play with your feelings. ”

"I ...... Awesome? Ji Qingmo didn't know for a while whether Mo Nian was talking the opposite or praising sincerely.

"Isn't it?"

Mo Nian said: "The truth that Ji Shisheng can't bear is that you have been silently remembering, he couldn't face me directly after remembering those things, and he collapsed for a while, but you have always been by my side, even if I said something that made you sad and did something that disappointed you, you didn't hurt me and ran away from me." ”

As Ji Qingmo said, he has always faced the mistakes and mistakes in his memory and has not escaped.

"If I had met you a little earlier than Ji Shisheng, would you have fallen in love with me at first sight?" Ji Qingmo said suddenly.

How could he hold back this?

Even though it's just an "if", he can't help but think about it.

He is obviously so much better than Ji Shisheng, but he lost in time, how can he be willing?

However, Mo Nian smiled, and she replied frankly, "How would I know if it happened? ”

Ji Qingmo was stunned when he heard this, and then smiled helplessly: "You really don't give me a little thought." ”

"Didn't I say that? If you do that, you will be insulted, and I respect you very much, and I have not been defeated by that memory. ”

Mo Nian said, suddenly smiling, she said seriously: "But no matter what, what you have is only memory." ”

Ji Qingmo was stunned, he looked at Mo Nian, a little dazed, and didn't seem to understand.

"No matter how cruel things you remember, those things are memories for you, you are not the one who experienced these things personally, you are just a spectator, and one day you have an extra memory of someone else in your mind."

Mo Nian paused: "That's all." ”

“…… What do you want to say? Ji Qingmo inexplicably felt a little irritable, he vaguely understood what Mo Nian meant when he said this, which he didn't want to hear, but he felt that if Mo Nian's mouth was blocked, he would be like in the past, covering his ears and stealing the bell, deceiving himself.

"The person who really experienced this, was kidnapped with me, was trapped in the fire with me, couldn't save me if he wanted to save me, and watched me being smashed in the leg and engulfed in the fire, it was Ji Shisheng, only Ji Shisheng, not anyone except him, even if you have those memories, you can't be equated with him."

Mo Nian said: "Personal experience is different from recalling memories. ”

Ji Qingmo clenched the steering wheel: "Just now you said you respected me, and now you completely deny me?" ”

Mo Nian shook his head: "I didn't deny you, I know that even if you recall those memories and face the facts, it is not easy, after all, when you first woke up, you didn't know who you were, and I wouldn't underestimate your strength." ”

"I just want to say that no matter who it is, you can't empathize with Ji Shisheng."

Mo Nian said softly: "He is the one who has really experienced those pains and despairs, and the pressure he faces is different from that of you who has memories. ”

"You don't feel the same pain as him, so you can't use your feelings to evaluate his ability to bear." Mo Nian said.

“…… Aren't you really favoring him? ”

Ji Qingmo pursed his lips, "You like him, you don't like me." ”

"Whether I'm partial to him or not, you should understand."

Mo Nian didn't explain anything, her frank appearance made it impossible to suspect who she was favoring.

"You want me to understand him?" Ji Qingmo asked again.

"I'm just telling you about it, and anything else is not up to me, it's up to you what you think and how you choose."

Mo Nian's words changed: "It seems that there is something off-topic, obviously talking about your business." ”

"You always talk about Ji Shisheng all of a sudden." Ji Qingmo didn't seem to be surprised.

Mo Nian smiled lowly: "Yes, some people's names and faces will always suddenly appear in their minds. ”

"I have been forcing myself to contradict Ji Shisheng, won't I feel tired?"

Mo Nian asked, "After all...... There are some things that you don't really like to choose the opposite. ”

Ji Qingmo was silent for a while before he spoke: "Maybe I'm used to it, and I don't feel tired anymore." ”

"That's ......"

Mo Nian's words changed: "That's why you didn't notice that you were also reluctant when facing me?" ”

Ji Qingmo was stunned: "What? ”

"Even if it's Shi Sheng, it's impossible to cater to me in everything, obviously in terms of time, he is the one closest to the memory of his childhood."

Mo Nian lowered his voice: "You follow me in everything, even if you hate it, you are forcing yourself to follow me, do you really think such an unhealthy way of getting along is good?" ”

"Niannian, isn't the word unhealthy too serious......" Ji Qingmo's expression was a little reluctant.

"It's a light story."

Mo Nian said: "I've been watching you, I know very well that if you continue to develop like this, when you face me, it will become more and more painful, but you will not choose to leave me, then you can only torture yourself, even if I hurt you at the beginning, you can still smile and not be sad because of those memories in the past, but one day, the happiness that those memories bring you will be consumed by me." ”

"If you liked me, it wouldn't be like that." Ji Qingmo knew that he also had an element of anger when he said this.

"Are you sure?"

Mo Nian asked rhetorically: "Even if the person I liked at the beginning was you, do you think I will always like you?" ”

"Won't it?" Ji Qingmo never thought that Mo Nian would change his mind.

"No, it won't."

Mo Nian said: "A lover who is obedient to everything does make people very happy, but as long as I love you more, I will find that you are forcing yourself, even if I persuade you ten times and a hundred times, you will still force yourself for me, if I want you to become normal, don't be so humble, don't force yourself, I will choose to leave." ”

"Because, when things get to that point, I will wonder if you really love me." Mo Nian said lightly.

"Doubtful ......?" Ji Qingmo didn't expect Mo Nian to say this, "I like you...... Do you still need to be skeptical? ”

"Why not?"

Mo Nian looked at him and said in a serious tone: "Think about it carefully, you are good to me, everything goes according to me, a large part of the reason is that you feel that you owe me - to be precise, Ji Shisheng owes me, you don't want to be like him, so you have to behave differently from him, since he escapes, you have to face me and compensate me." ”

"Maybe one day, because of your accommodation, I suspect that you are only trying to atone for your sins, so you deceived yourself that you liked me and were good to me."

Mo Nian said: "Haven't you thought about these futures? ”

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