Mo Nian's words made Ji Qingmo in a trance, he stepped on the accelerator, parked the car on the side of the road, and his fingertips sank into his slightly long hair.

"Nian Nian...... You're always saying strange things today, and it's giving me a lot of headaches. ”

Ji Qingmo said in a low voice: "Can you stop talking about it again?" I think it's all boring. ”

"It's boring, you shouldn't have such a painful expression, right?" Mo Nian said.

"Pain?" Ji Qingmo was stunned.

Mo Nian lowered the rearview mirror, and Ji Qingmo saw a slightly distorted and struggling face, twitching slightly, as if he was enduring some pain.

"When did you notice that?" Mo Nian said suddenly.

Ji Qingmo looked at her and didn't speak.

"You can't fail to find out."

Mo Nian was also looking at Ji Qingmo, "From the very beginning, you have been doing things contrary to your will, if you don't have a certain degree of consciousness, you can't do everything against Ji Shisheng, right?" ”

Ji Qingmo was speechless.

He couldn't refute Mo Nian, because what Mo Nian said was ......

All right.

"You have refused to discuss relevant topics with me since the beginning, do you think that you are very firm and will never be changed by others, or are you afraid that you will not be able to continue to deceive yourself after the reality is exposed?"

Mo Nian said again: "If it's the former, just talk to me about it." ”

Ji Qingmo was speechless, what if he didn't want to talk to Mo Nian?

Doesn't that indirectly admit that it was because of the latter that he never mentioned those things?

Mo Nian is really ...... Gave him a set.

"What do you want to talk about?" Ji Qingmo's tone was tired, it was the first time he had been forced to this point, but the person in front of him was Mo Nian, he couldn't scold, he couldn't escape, he could only obediently stay by Mo Nian's side.

"What were you thinking when you first found out you were an alternate?" Mo Nian asked.

When Ji Qingmo heard this, he was a little surprised.

In fact...... It's an interesting question.

He appeared when Ji Shisheng was eighteen years old, and he was also eighteen-year-old Ji Shisheng, except for the memory of the fire, other things were basically synchronized, and in this case, no one wanted to admit that he was a sub-personality.

Plus. Patient D's personality was not aware of the existence of the other party, Ji Qingmo did confuse his identity at first, and when he later found out that he was just a split personality, not Ji Shisheng himself, he was shocked and had mixed feelings.

"When I first woke up, I really didn't know that I was a parapersonality."

Ji Qingmo was silent for a while before answering Mo Nian's words: "It wasn't until I fell asleep and woke up for the second time that I found that something was wrong...... I'm just a split personality of Ji Shisheng, not myself, the real Ji Shisheng is a coward who is unwilling to face reality, so he pushes the real memory on me and makes me bear the pain. ”

"I hate him."

Ji Qingmo is very honest, not so much that he is talking about this with resentment, but that he is just expounding the facts, "Since you don't even dare to face reality, why do you still occupy this body and claim to be the master?" He was not qualified to use the name Ji Shisheng, and I felt sick when I thought about it, so I changed my name, and I didn't want to share a name with him until I got rid of him. ”

"He's a stain on me."

Ji Qingmo's tone was a little heavier: "No matter what the reason, he forgot the truth of the fire, and he didn't want to believe that he abandoned you and put himself in the position of a victim, even if he was hit by these things for many years, he couldn't stand up - his reaction made me feel very humiliated, the real me, shouldn't be like this!" ”

"In other words, do you think Ji Shisheng's reaction is different from your ideal future?" Mo Nian asked.

"Didn't Shi Sheng tell you?"

Ji Qingmo asked, "He should also be very disappointed in Ji Shisheng." ”

"Shi Sheng really couldn't accept Ji Shisheng's appearance at first." Mo Nian did not deny it.

"I shouldn't have grown up to be a coward like Ji Shisheng."

Ji Qingmo said: "The real me, like now, should firmly remember the wrong things I did, face my mistakes, overcome them, and work hard to heal myself, instead of blindly evading and shirking responsibility...... I can't accept that in any case! ”

This is the contradiction between Ji Qingmo and Ji Shisheng.

Mo Nian finally understood the reason why Ji Qingmo hated Ji Shisheng, he hated Ji Shisheng for throwing the responsibility to him and Shi Sheng, and escaping from reality.

"You're right, I've been at odds with him from the beginning because I don't want to be in his company."

Ji Qingmo said again: "The type he likes, I'm going to avoid, dress taste, home decoration...... I don't want to be like him, I don't want to think of that coward when I use something, and I don't want to be hungry! ”

"Including character?" Mo Nian asked.

Ji Qingmo glanced at her deeply: "Personality is not to disagree with him, but because I miss you." ”

Mo Nian was stunned: "Because of me?" ”

"Maybe you don't remember."

Ji Qingmo said: "You told me when you were a child, you like gentle boys, Ji Shisheng couldn't do it, but I did, you like it." ”

Mo Nian was stunned, she didn't expect Ji Qingmo to treat people so gently, it was because of her words when she was a child.

"He's been running away from you, and I don't want to forget anything about you, including what you said, I want to be nice to you, and I hope you won't be disappointed when you see me...... I've been working on it. ”

When Ji Qingmo said this, his eyes became gloomy: "But in the end, you still chose him." ”

He tried to grow into what Mo Nian liked, but Mo Nian chose Ji Shisheng, who was completely opposite to him.

Although Ji Qingmo has encountered many unsatisfactory things along the way, what hit him the most is that Mo Nian chose Ji Shisheng.

"It's not so much about choosing ......"

Mo Nian didn't know whether to say this sentence or not, but looking at Ji Qingmo, who was honest with her, she only felt that if she lied, she was insulting Ji Qingmo's gentleness.

"From the beginning, I only had him in my eyes."

Mo Nian still said: "I don't remember when I was a child, we used to meet and play, whether it was sad and painful, or happy and happy, I don't remember those things, my love for Ji Shisheng has nothing to do with everything when I was a child." ”

is different from Ji Qingmo because of what happened when she was a child, and her liking for Ji Shisheng does not bring any past factors.

Because, in her cognition, she didn't know Ji Shisheng from the beginning.

"It was love at first sight for me."

Mo Nian also knew that this word was too romantic and unrealistic.

But this is how she feels about Ji Shisheng.

"The first time I saw him, I liked him, but I didn't notice it at the time."

Until she was about to leave Jiangcheng, a second before Mo Nian cried on the plane, she didn't know how important Ji Shisheng occupied in her heart, "It was him from the beginning, I didn't think about others, so there is no question of who to choose between you and him, you are you, he is him, in my heart, I have never treated you as an item to choose at will." ”

What Mo Nian has always done is to treat the two as independent individuals, individuals who do not belong to her, persistent, unchanging, and pursuing Ji Shisheng alone.

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