Now a woman walks in front of her and tells herself that she has herself in her heart, that she wants to know the truest version of herself, and that this woman is the woman she loves but does not dare to approach.

Mang turned his head slightly and saw that Cong Xinyue was sitting quietly beside him, waiting patiently. Mang was a little worried again, he was afraid that this woman would leave him after knowing that he was such an unbearable person before.

Cong Xinyue, who was sitting on the side, seemed to see Mang's worries, and said softly, "Mang, no matter what kind of person you were before, what kind of experience you had, I won't leave you, you don't have to worry, I just want to know you better and get closer to you,"

Mang hummed softly, then nodded heavily as if he was about to make up his mind, and finally spoke, his voice low and slow, "If you hadn't asked me, I probably wouldn't have wanted to remember that experience for the rest of my life, because it was the worst and darkest time of my life." ”

Cong Xinyue didn't speak, but just used her eyes to soothe Mang's somewhat depressed mood.

"At that time, I was only sixteen years old and had just graduated from junior high school," Mang's eyes looked unfocused at the closed curtain from behind Xin Yue, and fell into memory, "At that time, I was not a good student, and my parents never expected me to be admitted to high school, just expected me to be admitted to a better technical secondary school or something, and I would have a skill to eat in the future." ”

"It's true that I didn't get into high school, and when I got the admission letter from the technical school, my parents and I weren't too surprised. Without the pressure of studying, my whole person feels like I have been reborn. Since that day I have rarely been home and have been fooling around outside. At first, I didn't have any goals, just to eat, drink and have fun, but then I had no money in my hand, and my parents refused to give it after giving it a few times, so I had to figure it out by myself. ”

"You've been working all summer?" From Xin Yue's light question, it was hard for her to imagine that the person in front of her was actually a gangster when she was a child.

"Yes, I don't have any money and I want to play, what should I do? I can only work part-time," Mang smiled at Xin Yue embarrassedly, "You must have only known how to read at that time,"

"Uh。。。。。。 It's okay, I'll always have fun after the high school entrance examination, do you think I only know how to read? "I glanced at Mang from Xin Yue, as if to say do you think I'm a nerd?

"Okay," Mang didn't bother to continue to say himself, "Anyway, I was looking for part-time jobs with a group of fox friends who were as big as myself at that time, what decent job can a sixteen-year-old child find?" In the beginning, we all went to the restaurant to work as waitresses, helping to serve dishes and collect money. The owner of the fast food restaurant I went to saw that I was pretty good-looking and had a flexible brain, so he asked me to be the cashier. During that time, I spent most of the day in that store, but the money I made was still pitiful, and it was only a few dozen yuan a day to survive, which was not enough for me to spend alone. ”

Cong Xin Yue nodded, "At that time, part-time jobs were almost like this,"

"But I'm not reconciled, I really want to show myself in front of my brother, but showing off requires capital, so I did something," Mang couldn't help but shake his head when he thought of this.

"What's the matter?" From Xin Yue, she felt that Mang must have done something bad at that time, so she asked carefully.

"I stole the money from the boss's cash register," Mang shrugged, obviously not quite agreeing with his behavior at that time, "because at that time I was still young and dared to take ten or twenty yuan, and when I was asked by the boss, I said that I accidentally found more people, and I was scolded by the boss." Even so, the money is still small, and I am still a little unwilling, because such a small amount of money is not enough to spend, and I feel aggrieved even when I am scolded by the boss, so I began to think of other ways again. ”

"I began to deliberately not place an order in the machine when the guest ordered, lying that the machine was out of order, and the guest had to hand over the fee to me, and then I told the back kitchen myself, and the back kitchen didn't take it seriously and said that I worked hard, and I could receive at least one or two hundred in the future. You know, one or two hundred was a lot of money for me at that time,"

"Didn't your boss find out?" Cong Xinyue asked curiously.

"How could I not have found out, I thought that the little action was seamless, and it was exposed in two days at the boss's place, and the boss also sent me to the police station, which was the first time I entered that kind of place, and I was still a little scared at the time, not that I was afraid of what the police would do to me or tell my parents or anything, but that I was afraid that it would affect me to find other jobs in the future."

"But probably because the police saw that I was only a half-grown child, and I didn't have any bad intentions, and I confessed my mistakes vigorously at that time, so they didn't do anything to me, and after a few words of education, they were locked up for one night and let my parents take me back. After I got home, it was naturally a beating, but I didn't think it was anything, and I thought that as long as I could make a lot of money in the future, I wouldn't have to look at my parents' faces. ”

"I didn't expect you to be a real bastard," Cong Xinyue couldn't help but scorn.

Mang laughed, "This is a bastard?" And then there's more jerks,"

Cong Xinyue just sighed lightly, which can be regarded as a response.

"After being beaten up by my parents, I didn't want to go home even more," Mang continued, "I wandered outside all day, and I couldn't find any serious work during the day, so I started to go to all kinds of nightclubs at night to find work to do, and I did all kinds of work in a mess." Studying was a burden for me, so I dropped out of that technical school when I was eighteen years old. ”

"My parents were also very worried about me, and asked someone to help me find a job, but it didn't take long for people to find my parents and say that they couldn't let me stay, and if I stayed any longer, their people would be ruined by me,"

"What did you do?" Xin Yue asked.

"That is, drinking, smoking, and fighting in groups," Mang lowered his head and didn't look into Xin Yue's eyes, "I also asked the boss's son, who was one year younger than me, to go to a nightclub with me, and skipped work for three days in a row." It was at that time that I fell into the darkest moment of my life, I was taken by a few big brothers to mess around in the KTV private room, smoking and drinking, and when I wasn't drinking, they would smoke a very strange cigarette for me,"

"Drugs?" Xin Yue's first reaction was that kind of thing. This also made Cong Xinyue stare at Mang a little nervously, although she knew that Mang was not addicted to drugs now, but she also seemed to understand why Mang had a soft spot for those injections.