I am Yang Huai, the cold-faced and silent Yang Huai with a turbulent heart.

I really don't know where to start in my life, I don't know if it started with my happy childhood in the morning, or when I was rescued from the pile of dead people.

My subordinates, the people around me all call me General Cold Face, and they are all afraid of me, so my normal state is to be alone, how can I not feel lonely and lonely. But looking back, it didn't seem like it was my nature.

When I was a child, I lived in Chendangguan, my father, grandfather, they were or were the guards of Chendangguan, this land is not only the hometown where I was born and raised, but also the place where our ancestors have guarded for generations. I am like all innocent children, go to private school, practice martial arts, and friends are naughty and mischievous, at that time although I was young, but I was the king of children, adults praised me for being handsome, strong in martial arts, young age, talent for martial arts is extremely high.

I proudly enjoyed this glory, but I didn't know how much jealousy and covetousness there was behind it. Perhaps it was the heavens who were jealous of the happy family that he took them back so quickly. My grandfather and father died one after another, and my mother couldn't stand the cruelty of my father's death on the battlefield, so she went with him, and the burden of the whole morning fell on me, but at that time I didn't understand the sinister human heart, I was the fat meat on the chopping board.

I thought that my uncles and uncles really wanted to help me, but I never thought that my closest relatives would show such ugly faces in the face of power and wealth. In the bloodshed of Chendangguan, they don't know how many people who had grown up here for generations, and the soldiers who had been fighting side by side with their grandfather and father. They didn't expect that such a big move would attract the attention of the Turkic king, that is, Liuning's stepfather.

It was the Turkic kings who sent me to suppress the rebellion, they punished the traitors severely, took over Chendangguan, gave it back to me when I was an adult, they rescued me from the pile of the dead, and brought me back to the Turkic royal city to live with the prince and princess. However, my joy and happiness are gone.

It is precisely because of this that I got to know Liuning. When I was reborn, I lost all my smiles, and all the children were afraid of my gloomy face, except for Liuning, and her brother Liubin. At that time, Liuning was still a pink and tender little girl, and she would timidly pull my sleeve and whisper: "Brother Yang Huai, play with us." ”

Liuning has been so sunny and optimistic since she was a child, she understands everyone around her, but she is very cruel to herself, when she was young, other children would cry to find their father and mother when they fell, and then naturally get loved, but Liuning never did this, she always got up silently by herself, patted off the dust on her body, and then smiled like a flower again.

Although I stay with Liuning and Liubin all the time, I always feel that I have lost that innocence. I practice martial arts desperately, study hard, the art of war, history books, many, much, I want to make myself strong quickly, have enough ability to assume the responsibility passed down from generation to generation, I want to protect Chendangguan for my grandfather, my father, I want to make Chendangguan stronger, I still owe an explanation to the people of Chendangguan.

I am very grateful to Liuning and Liubin, I thought they were my lifelong good friends, but as time changed, I found that some things had changed, Liuning was like a beam of sunshine, shining into my world, giving me warmth again and again, illuminating my darkness, and I found that I couldn't do without her.

When I grow up and become an adult, I will leave the Turkic royal city and return to Chendangguan to continue my unfinished business. Liuning has also grown up, she is still smiling like a flower, but she is slim.

After I separated from Liuning, I returned to Chendangguan, everything was as usual in Chendangguan, the people lived and worked in peace and contentment, and they were in order, but in my eyes, Chendangguan was not as good as before. When I came back here, there were almost no connections left from my father's generation, I was self-made, everything was going hard, and I had to do what I thought was shameful, political marriage.

In the midst of the hustle and bustle, I thought I had forgotten about Liuning, I thought I was still the same as before, the relationship returned to the original point, and I regarded her as a good sister. I chose the financially strong Nangong family, but after I met Nangong Lin, the young lady of the Nangong family, for the first time, I found that my heart was full of resistance.

The wedding with Nangong Lin, I did it very low-key, I didn't tell Liuning them, I was ashamed of myself for hiding it, and I was very sorry for Nangong Lin. Nangong Lin is a good girl, she is considerate, she never asks about my past, she is gentle and virtuous, and she is almost obedient to me.

I also try to live a normal married life with her, accompany her to the street, accompany her to do what she wants to do, I think this is my ordinary married life, I will be in such an ordinary life, with Chen Dangguan to a stronger situation, and then live the second half of my life plainly.

And the turmoil in my heart started after that war, I knew that Liuning would definitely lead the troops to Chendangguan, I prepared the food she liked early, I prepared a room for her, all the furnishings were exactly the same as her room in the Turkic Royal City, I wanted to give her the feeling of home, I didn't even want her to meet Nangong Lin.

But I didn't expect that when I met Liuning again, everything was already wrong. I didn't expect that so soon, there was another person in her heart, and it was so deep, so deep, the first time she begged me, it was for him, and I, I was willing to do everything for her regardless of the consequences.

I devised what I thought was a perfect plan, and I thought I could subdue Jingli and keep Liuning safe, but everything didn't go as planned. I pushed Liuning into the aquatic fire with my own hands, I thought I could save her, but the fact was Nangong Lin, this beautiful girl who was infatuated with me and had a good life, died for me.

After I sent Liuning away safely, I returned to the fire, I wanted to follow Nangong Lin together, after all, in this life, I failed her, but when I watched her leave in my arms, I was afraid, I was reluctant, so I hid.

I hid in the dark, watching Liuning personally carve the tombstone for me and Nangong Lin, I watched her cry sadly for me, I actually had a little bit of satisfaction, I kept hiding in the dark, just like I had the unspoken love that I never said, until the last big battle, I saved Liuning, I thought that in this way she could stay by my side for a lifetime.

But I was wrong, even if I used a trick to make her pass by Tang Changyu, even if she was bruised all over Tang Changyu's side, I still couldn't stop her determination to return to Chang'an, so I could only compromise. I personally escorted her back to Chang'an, and she thought I had left, but I still hid in the shadows as before, quietly guarding her.

I watched her sad and decadent for Tang Changyu and Princess Huajin's wedding, I watched her being bullied by Princess Huajin, and watched her suffer all the grievances for Tang Changyu, how distressed I was, I don't know, I just want to take Liuning and leave, she is a fairy-like girl, she shouldn't live such a tormented and painful life.

But no matter what happens, she can't stop her determination to stay by Tang Changyu's side, she resents me, hates me, hates me for letting them miss it in vain, I can only be speechless, Liuning will never understand my thoughts, and I won't tell her, but there is one person, Li Junzhi, I never thought that he was so transparent, and I could see all these twists and turns.

He came to me and told me that only the supreme right can get everything you want, and you can protect what you want to protect. Such ambitious words, I listened to it, my heart moved, although I know that this is a point of no return, I know that once I fail, I will only have a dead end, but I am still willing to give it a go, because I feel that Liuning is not happy now.

But the day before the incident, I was shocked by my inadvertent eavesdropping. The life experiences of Liuning and Liubin turned out to be so tortuous, if one day this shocking secret is exposed, they will die without a place to be buried, even if they don't die, they are doomed, they live in Chang'an, and they will not be happy.

I am even more determined to succeed, seek power and usurp the throne, what about the rebellious ministers and thieves, once I succeed, I will immediately kill the prince, although the prince is so good to me, I can even feel the ambiguity of the prince to me, but history is always written by the victor.

But obviously, I can fight everything, but I underestimated Li Junzhi's city, he knew that we would not succeed, but he still encouraged us to go, just to disrupt the political situation, and did not care about our life or death. Things fell, the first thing the prince did was to protect me, I know, in this life, I have failed another person.

But even so, I am still certain to die, I know that no one will listen to the words of a rebellious person, so I left a suicide note, held it in my hand, and then sentenced myself in prison, all to tell Liuning, danger, this is the last thing I can do for her, I know that from now on I can not stay by her side, I can only pray secretly, may all the calamity be on me.

I hope Tang Changyu can be good to her, really good, good for a lifetime, and I can only bless her in heaven with regrets. Maybe I can't even do this, in this life, I've done too much killing, my hands are covered in blood, and I've failed two people who love me deeply, maybe I'll go to hell.

So I chose to end my life as soon as possible, and it was not my Yang Huai's style to linger, but I just hoped that my choice would allow Liu Ning to discover the danger lurking around me as soon as possible, but unfortunately, I failed to do so.