"You have repeatedly forced yourself to surpass the limit, do you think it is interesting to do this, He Beichen?" Eucalyptus looked at the boy sitting on the sofa and suddenly became a little more reproachful.

Beichen shook his head, but he looked helpless, "Then what do you say you want me to do?" What do you say? Can you help me figure it out? His voice was unusually excited, and his eyes began to turn red unconsciously.

"You tell me what I have to do to break free from this."

He looked at Yan Eucalyptus's expression of unusually helplessness, and Eucalyptus pursed his lower lip, he didn't know how to answer his question.

After a while, he began to remain silent, and he felt that this was not something that he could solve, and if he talked too much, it would be no different.

"I don't know." He looked at him very frankly, it was obvious that he couldn't give He Beichen a sense of security, and he couldn't change all this.

He Beichen is like a person struggling in the sea of suffering, but what can Yan Yu do, he can't do anything, he can only stand on the case stupidly and watch, he can't help him anything, just look at him very uncomfortable.

"Yes, you don't know, you don't know, you don't know how much pain I have these days, how much I want to die." He Beichen said and poured the beer in front of him into his mouth.

"Didn't you just give birth to me, did you? If you don't like me, just let me die, why torture me again and again? ”

Bei Chen couldn't help but have a wry smile on his cheeks as he spoke, as if he had gone crazy and poured beer into his stomach with all his might, as if he had lost his mind.

"Beichen, don't drink Beichen, if you drink it again, you'll have stomach problems." Fat Eucalyptus looked at him worriedly.

His eyes were full of anxiety and, of course, a little fear, and he wanted to snatch the bottle from the boy's hand.

It's just that it's too late, Bei Chen has already poured the bottle of cold beer into his stomach, he raised his head in embarrassment, and slammed his empty hand on the ground.

"What the fuck are you going to do? Can't I just rest for a while? Did you raise me just to get me into a prestigious school? What if I don't fucking go to college? ”

He Beichen said a few foul words one after another, and his injured hand scratched his hair messily.

"What if I was born crippled? Like the child who was missing a leg, she threw it on the side of the road. He Beichen smiled inadvertently as he spoke, but that smile was a little cold, which made Eucalyptus feel scared.

"That's why I'm going to put up with you for the rest of my life? I can't live like a normal person, why the fuck are you telling me? Why are you? If I don't live, what qualifications do you have to make me so miserable? ”

The young man's eyes were a kind of distraction that he had never felt before, and in the next second, the action he made made Fat Eucalyptus feel unprepared.

I saw He Beichen smash a finished beer bottle like his own head, and the wine bottle was broken, which was a sad breaking sound.

The blood on the young man's forehead flowed, but he looked at himself and smirked, the blood on his forehead flowed down his cheeks to the corners of his mouth, but he was as bitter as ever, it was an incurable smile, the pain went deep into the bone marrow.

Eucalyptus looked at Bei Chen's out-of-control appearance, and suddenly panicked, the young man's voice trembled, as if he was very afraid of him, "Bei Chen, you, what are you doing?" It's okay if we don't drink it, don't drink it. ”

He went up and was about to snatch the remaining wine bottles, but was pushed away by He Beichen.

"Don't stop me, this is the wine I bought, why don't you let me drink it?" He looked at him and smiled bitterly, and the tears in his eyes fell uncontrollably.

"I really want to drink myself to death, if I don't dive to death, I can get it and be free, and I don't have to live in this world with debts every day."

He Beichen's words were very sad, and Eucalyptus didn't know if he was talking nonsense, but no matter whether He Beichen was sober or not, the young man's heart was already distorted, and he was no longer the one he saw.

He was dressed in black, and he was in an embarrassed state of looking up and drinking, so he couldn't get in touch with He Beichen, who was bookish.

"Not really. Beichen, don't think so, I know you've been under a lot of pressure lately, but it's good for you to adjust it, there's no need to look at the whole life so sadly, I think. ”

Eucalyptus pursed his lower lip, looking cowardly, he didn't know how to persuade him, but he was interrupted by He Beichen again.

"What do you think? What do you think? You think I don't want to live like you, I don't have to worry about anything, I don't have to think about anything? But is it possible? ”

"The reason why this world is for me to go to school is because I can squeeze oil out of my body. Xie Lan, why did she support me, it wasn't because she pointed to me to support her. ”

He Beichen's words were too sharp and cold that Yan Yan had never heard, "I'm a pig raised by her, and I will have to slaughter sooner or later when I raise it." ”

His voice was hoarse, tears streaming down his cheeks, smashing several blood marks on the floor.

"Beichen, you shouldn't say that, no matter what, she loves you. You can't. ”

"She loves me?" The boy pointed at himself in distraction, and his injured cheek began to giggle uncontrollably.

"Is there anyone in this world who loves me, she loves me and makes my life so miserable. I knelt in front of her like a dog every day, and obeyed her. ”

"Why did she let me go to a prestigious school, I can change the life of the second half of his body, she pointed to me to provide for her for the elderly, so that her quality of life in the second half of her life can be improved to a higher level, isn't that so?"

The boy stared blankly into the eucalyptus' eyes and kept pouring wine into his mouth.

"You think she raised her dog for what she did to help her take care of the house, you know?" He Beichen lowered his head and let the blood continue to flow.

"There are no people in this world who love me, and I am just a pawn in their hands. I'm just a pawn, they're just trying to perfect their board. ”

"In fact, if there is no me or something, this earth still turns, and anyone can live without it."

The more he spoke, the more excited his voice became, such radical words were really a bit unexpected by Yan Yan, when did he start to completely die in life, he didn't understand, and he didn't understand.

"You shouldn't say that, Beichen, how do you know that no one in this world loves you." Eucalyptus's voice calmed down, and he wanted to get closer to him.

At the very least, he could make He Beichen feel that there was hope in this world, not just monotonous gray as he said.

"When you are disheartened by everything, don't forget that there is still a Fan with you." Yan Yu said to himself, but he didn't know that doing so was undoubtedly sprinkling salt on Beichen's wounds.

"We've broken up." He Beichen didn't know how to spit out such simple words, but he felt that his heart hurt like a pinprick, "She left me." She doesn't want me anymore. ”

Bei Chen said, the tears in his eyes kept falling down like beads with broken threads, he was fragile at this time, in fact, he was not as strong as he usually looked.

Stripped of that cloak of hypocrisy, he was about the same as children of the same age, and even his heart was no longer as clear as theirs.

"Huh?" Eucalyptus opened his mouth, as if he suspected that he had misheard, and just as he was about to ask something, he suddenly felt that something was wrong.

So, he didn't speak again, just sighed heavily. "So, when is it?" The young man asked slowly, and looked a little cautious.

"A few days ago." Bei Chen seemed to fall into memories as he spoke, but such memories would only make Bei Chen feel more painful.

"She told me that she didn't know how to love me, that she needed a feeling of being needed by others, but I couldn't satisfy her, so she chose to leave."

At this time, He Beichen seemed to have lost his mind, and stupidly poured beer into his stomach.

"How so?" Yan Yan's brows couldn't help frowning, as if he didn't believe what he was hearing now, "Then, she took the initiative to leave you?" ”

The young man carefully wiped the wound on He Beichen's heart, for fear of hurting him. He Beichen just nodded, and didn't say a word, just a little more tiredness on his bleeding cheeks.

"She said she wouldn't tell her. How do you let me tell her? I told her that the wound on my face was inflicted by myself, and I was a psychopath, what do you think she would think? How do I tell her? ”

He Beichen couldn't help choking up when he said this, he was pulling at his wound again, letting its blood bubble up.

"But." Eucalyptus didn't want to see He Beichen give up on himself like this, "If you tell her, how do you know that she won't be able to accept it?" And, you actually need her a lot, don't you? ”

His voice was very soft, he was really afraid that He Beichen would go crazy again, but all this was also expected by him.

The beer bottle in his hand was slammed to the ground by him, and in the blink of an eye, it became a messy pile of debris.

"She accepts? What if she doesn't accept it? Why should a shady person like me love her? She's so sunny, so cheerful, the cutest girl I've ever seen? ”

"And what about me, what qualifications do I have? People like me don't admire to love her. His voice was very low, not at all like the usual self-deprecation and ridicule, but a kind of inferiority that went deep into the bone marrow.

"Why, you have so much, you still feel that you are not qualified to love her. He Beichen, you don't know how many people envy you, you have a tall figure, a handsome appearance, and a talent that ordinary people can't have. ”

"But I don't have anything, do I? There is no love, no freedom, no hope in my world. ”