(Girls' Literature)

The weather outside the window was still as cold as before, and there was a layer of vague moisture on the inside of the window! I looked out the window with very mixed feelings, I was afraid that I would see my mother, and the fragile emotions in my heart would start to burst out without reservation, and this feeling was uncontrollable.

Yes, in front of my mother, this vulnerability, I think I still can't keep it, I think I will still return to my most primitive state, that is, my state as a little girl! I'm really afraid that I'm so careless, and I will completely burst out of this emotion that has accumulated in my heart, in this way, it is not a very beautiful situation in my heart, according to my mother's understanding of me, I must understand what may happen to me, but I definitely can't let my mother know, this side of the matter.

But I still didn't have any idea what I would do when I was about to meet my mother, after all, I couldn't pretend to be strong in front of her! That's true.

"Ai Xiaoya......" The car drove out of this muddy dirt road at this time, Zhang Yefeng drove the car, just looking back at me like this, I looked up at his gentle gaze, "What's wrong?" Mr. Zhang ......" Zhang Yefeng took a deep breath, "That, when you see your mother for a while, you better stabilize your emotions, no matter what, she is not young now, sometimes, don't let her old man worry, your matter, I heard Mimi say, haven't you told your mother that she is like this?" Or have you already told her? ”

Zhang Yefeng's inquiring gaze, like two searchlights, moved back and forth around me, I nodded gently, "Yes, I haven't told her yet, I'm fine, don't worry......" Zhang Yefeng looked at me, a warm smile appeared on his lips, "En, then I'll rest assured, in this way, you go upstairs first, I'll wait for you downstairs!" "The pickup truck is speeding on the road, I really admire Zhang Yefeng's memory ability, he can find our home in such a quick time, the road from the cemetery to our home is not so simple! It seems that his memory is really not ordinarily good, and he hasn't forgotten it for so long.

"Go ahead, don't show anything, don't worry your mother......" His words still lingered in my ears so gently, I opened the car door, downstairs, tears flowed out like a stream that had just come out of the ground! Because I saw that familiar window.

Mom, you see, I haven't seen you yet, but around you, I was pierced by your breath, and I seem to have a very thick protective net around me, Mom, do you say that because I have a blood bond between me and you, so I can't break through this barrier? Mom, tell me? As I went upstairs, I tried to take deep breaths, almost deep into the lobes of my lungs, and in the first few seconds of knocking, I finally couldn't stop the tears, folding the familiar door, I forgot how many times I had knocked on it, but this time, it was as if I was knocking on it with all my might. The door has become so hard that it's hard to open!

"Who?" This is the most familiar female voice in this world, the door is open, and my mother is standing at the door in home clothes, "Yaya? "He just looked at me like this, his eyes were full of surprise and incredulity, as if my arrival this time was really no different from a special forces airborne!" Mom ......, "Well, I admit that I've adjusted my emotions to what I think is the best, although I'm not a very good person at disguise, but at this time, I've almost put a strong layer of protection on my body, yes!" But I'm still afraid that my mother's sharp eyes will see through all this, which is all hypocrisy.

"Quick, come in, why don't you tell your mother when you come back? Why did you come back so quietly? Mom's voice also began to tremble at this time, I think there is a not-so-good aura exuded from my body At this time, my mother must have felt something!

"No, isn't this just a business trip? I'm thinking about being so close to our house, I'll be back, Mom, I miss you......." As I spoke, tears began to roll in my eyes, no, I have to insist, I can't cry, then everything will fail! "If you want me to come back and see me, isn't it, hey, you too, just got married, and something like that happened in Yunxiang's family, which makes everyone's heart not very comfortable, isn't it? You, I've known since I was a child, you love face, and you want to work your own, but sometimes, you can't push yourself to be so anxious, you know? ”

Mom said and picked up the apron, "You make it here first, I'll go to the kitchen and make you something to eat, look at the weather is so cold, if you don't eat, how can your body stand it?" "I thought that Zhang Yefeng was still waiting downstairs, it wouldn't be interesting if I kept spending it upstairs like this, and if I stayed at home for a long time, I didn't know if I would show my true state?

"Mom, no need, I'm going home on a business trip to take a look, I'd better go, my colleagues are still waiting for me......" I said slowly, my mother's hand holding the apron stopped in mid-air, her eyes were full of loneliness, I don't think she had time to figure out why she had just met her daughter and separated so soon, I'm sorry Mom, but I ...... After all, I was still afraid that I would accidentally say it.

"Oh, okay, you're right, colleagues are waiting after all, if you spend all your time at home, people must have opinions, I'm fine, you can come back to see your mother, your mother is already very relieved!" But I clearly saw her red eyes, Mom, you said you were fine, but why do I think you're fine? But what else can I do? Rao is because I don't have the ability to do this.

Mom, I'm not strong enough to be with you all the time...... I took out a wad of RMB from my bag, and I put the money in my mother's hand, "Mom, this money is the salary I saved, you take the money well, these days, I am busy with work, and there must be fewer opportunities to come to see you......" I gently stuffed the salary into my mother's hand, my mother was stunned for a moment, and then took it, "Okay, this is what my daughter gave me, then I will take it, my daughter has grown up, and it is my blessing to be sensible......"

My mother wiped her eyes and gave me a haircut, "My daughter has grown up, I believe that the hard days between you and Yunxiang will pass soon, I believe ......" My mother wiped my hair like this, my heart was tight, I was a little worried, if I told her all about the current situation of myself and Li Yunxiang, I didn't dare to guarantee that she would not faint directly, but I definitely couldn't say it. Looking at her black hair, which was gradually replaced by gray hair, I could only swallow all these words into my stomach.

Looking out the car window at the receding streets on both sides, I knew that I was getting farther and farther away from home at a time, and I was going to the provincial capital, where my comatose husband and my son who had just been born for more than two months! Zhang Yefeng took a breath gently, he touched my arm, and I withdrew the gaze that I had just looked out the window, "You haven't eaten all this time, why don't we find a place to eat something!" ”

I looked at my watch, it was four o'clock in the afternoon, "Are you hungry?" I asked him, and he shook his head, "I'm not hungry, I ate a lot before I came to pick you up!" I also shook my head gently, "Then don't go first, I can't eat ......." Zhang Yefeng turned around and continued to drive, but he no longer looked at me, but he handed me a piece of bread, "Eat, pad your stomach first, tell me when you want to eat......"

I didn't speak, but when I took the bread, I lowered my head and chewed so hard that my cheeks ached. Tears, the tears that seemed to be beads with broken threads, began to fall like this, and they all fell on the bread in my hand uncontrollably, and I wiped my eyes vigorously, and the corners of my eyes were a little painful by my rough movements, so painful. But most importantly, the injured part of my eye is not the corner of my eye, but my heart.

Zhang Yefeng didn't speak, I really appreciate that he didn't speak, otherwise I feel that in this environment, it would almost be to the point of being embarrassed to death! It's just that he separated one of his hands from the steering wheel, and right here, he grabbed my hand, and at this time, my hand didn't have time to break free, so he firmly grasped it in his hand, "If you want to cry, cry out, I won't tell anyone else, okay?" "Well, just this sentence, the sad emotion in my heart at this moment seems to be like a thousand troops, and it begins to flow out, I think the Jedi of tears will break through at this moment.

Zhang Yefeng turned out to be just a simple sentence from you, which could casually shatter my pretended strength, so that I had no way to continue to build a self-deceptive enchantment for myself.