If there is an afterlife, be a bird and fly through eternity, without the distress of being lost.

There is a fiery hope in the east, a warm nest bed in the south, a remnant sun in the west, and a fragrance awakened in the north.

If there is an afterlife, I hope that every time we meet, it will be eternal.

- Sanmao "Say it to yourself"

Five years later

May 2015, Secret City

It's another year of cherry blossom season, many years later, Lu Yinyin has never seen such a beautiful cherry blossom rain, 26 years old, she suddenly found that all the memories were sealed in the corner, sunrise and sunset, flowers blooming, so repeated, so reciprocated.

Sometimes, Lu Yinyin always thinks that if you can stay in the past forever, without looking at the past and not asking about the future, then you are the best self.

It's just that everything in the past is gone, some people are no longer the young men of the year, no longer young and frivolous, no longer obsessed with dreams, life still makes us drift away after all, speechless indifference, wordless stumbling on the life she hates and loves.

Lu Yinyin is still the same Lu Yinyin, impulsive and willful, stubborn and stubborn, cute and cute, lively and cheerful, she has never revealed her vulnerability and sadness in front of people, she has been used to licking her wounds alone, five years, the years have been very loving to her, Lu Yinyin is still full of the shadow of an eighteen-year-old girl, the heart of a girl who has been stopping at eighteen years old still expects all the good things.

Time after all, all relationships become strange and estranged, at the beginning we went from strange to familiar, and from familiar to strange when people dispersed at the end of the song, today, and then recall, those past have been blurred, we don't remember, which day in which year, month, where to meet and where to disperse, everyone's youth always has to meet such a few people, meet and cherish each other, but when they turn around, they say goodbye one by one, but everyone says goodbye in a different way.

For the last farewell of youth, as of today, Lu Yinyin still hasn't thought clearly, what kind of way to say goodbye to youth in his own way, until he was awakened by a phone call in a daze, insomnia all night, all the troubled thoughts came to an abrupt end, and a beautiful day always has to begin.

There are many stories in this world, there will never be the ending you want, Lu Yinyin pretended that he had never answered the call, and skillfully pulled the string of numbers into the blacklist, all because he was young at that time, and always thought about the future too well, but the deep and deep voice still echoed in his mind, and he couldn't get rid of it.

How long does it really take to forget a person? Why is it that after five years, I still can't be calm, my heart still can't help but hurt, and my mood will still be affected, everything has been five years, until Lin Mo Nian found her three years ago, and Lu Yinyin, who was sold by a small newspaper, fled for a while, unwilling to have anything to do with him.

Lu Yinyin shook her head hard, trying to shake off the messy thoughts in her mind, there was no possibility in this life between her and Lin Mo Nian, so she could only face the reality, she should go on a blind date safely, get married when she should get married, when she reaches a certain age, she should do things that match her age, she has an eighteen-year-old girl's heart, but she is completely dead to love.

Anyway, it's not that person, it doesn't matter who it is, when she was seventeen years old, she once threatened to find someone who loves each other for the rest of her life, but at the age of twenty-six, she suddenly didn't have any requirements, as long as there was such a person who loved her very much, she would try to accept others and marry herself.

It's no wonder that Lu Rujun keeps arranging blind dates for her, it's just that from college to now, everyone around her has been in love, getting married, and having children.

Lu Rujun was worried and scared, and even doubted her daughter's mate selection orientation, because Lu Yinyin likes to stick to Qi Xiaofei all day long, but one is her daughter and the other is her daughter-in-law, and the sister-in-law sticks to her sister-in-law, it seems that there is no problem, just when Gu Jinyan came back from the army, his sister Gu Jinxiu came to their house to chat, and then casually asked, can you match these two children on a blind date, after all, this is a childhood sweetheart who grew up together, everyone knows the roots, if it happens, wouldn't it be a beautiful thing.

Gu Jinxiu said a lot of things cracklingly, such as all kinds of domestic violence on the Internet now, all kinds of tricky and strange mothers-in-law, most of them are because girls can't know people clearly before marriage, and their family Xiaoyan is something that everyone watched grow up, and her parents will definitely not treat Lu Yinyin harshly, and they will definitely be better than her daughter.

Lu Rujun listened to Gu Jinxiu's analysis, and finally clapped her hands, and the blind date was decided, one is that she doesn't want Lu Yinyin to marry far away, it's best to be under her nose, and the other is that she does have these messy worries, in case these people introduced by others don't know about it, what if she is not good to Lu Yinyin in the future.

Marriage is a major event in life, in her selfish heart, Lu Rujun not only hopes that Lu Yinyin can be happy, but also hopes that she will not be too far away from herself, and Gu Jinyan is really a very good candidate, after three years of training in the army, she is indeed more calm and responsible than before, so this time Lu Rujun resolutely will not come by Lu Yinyin's temperament, so he directly blocked her at the door of the unit and brought everyone to her, she has to go, and she has to go if she doesn't go.

And Lu Yinyin had a meal with Gu Jinyan the night before, and promised to go shopping with him the next day, I wanted to sleep lazily on the weekend, but I didn't take shopping seriously at all, anyway, Lu Yinyin's words have never been a problem, and it's not a day or two, and he has been so virtuous since he was a child.

But Lin Mo Nian is like a corpse, always after a period of silence, he ran to her and staggered, a phone call made her unable to sleep anymore, Lu Yinyin is really tired of this kind of life, she should indeed find someone to marry herself, so that Lin Mo Nian has no reason to harass her, since she has the courage to stay in the secret city, she is ready to fight against those memories, five years, she has hid enough, and she is tired of running, it is time to have a complete break.

At this time, Lin Monian, who was thousands of miles away in another city, was very anxious to hope that the train would arrive at the station quickly, so he went back to school to do the work of the graduate dissertation defense, Lu Yinyin actually started a date with Gu Jinyan, and Gu Jinyan's spatial dynamics must have been shown to him, to demonstrate to him, and he also wrote a special sentence "My little Qingmei".

The following was quickly swiped by comments, everyone has not seen Lu Yinyin's living treasure for a long time, and most of them are puzzled and asked, isn't this Lin Mo Nian's daughter-in-law? The most annoying thing is that Gu Jinyan is very patient to reply one by one, it is all in the past when it was completed, how many years has the old yellow calendar, the two of them have already turned the page, and soon his little Qingmei will become a member of their family.

So there was another blessing under the comment, and they all joked that when to drink the wedding wine must be notified in place, after graduating from secondary school, their classmates have not seen each other for many years, Lin Mo Nian gritted his teeth angrily while reading the comments, but he couldn't do anything, he didn't seem to be qualified to interfere with others, men are not married to women, who can control free love.

Lin Mo Nian and Lu Yinyin's circle of friends has not been updated for five years, many former classmates don't know about their breakup, Lu Yinyin doesn't want to say it, as if breaking up with him is a shame in her life, and Lin Mo Nian doesn't admit or accept the fact that they broke up, so in the past few years, the two have been in such a stalemate, and she hides from him.

It's just that what makes him panic is that Lu Yinyin's heart seems to be no longer hot no matter what he does, his little girl is getting farther and farther away from him at a faster and faster speed, and he is about to catch up with her footsteps that no longer have a trace of nostalgia for their past, but without Lu Yinyin's Lin Mo Nian, he will really die.

And Lu Yinyin, who crawled out of the bed, wore pajamas with chicken-like hair on top of his coop, rubbed his sleepy eyes, walked to the living room barefoot, and shouted "Mom, Mom, what are you eating this morning?" ”

Lu Rujun, who was bending down to pour water for Gu Jinyan, saw her daughter appear in front of the blind date she had just gone on a blind date yesterday in such a thunderous shape, and hurriedly said to Gu Jinyan, "Oh, Xiaoyan, let you laugh, Yinyin, this child usually cares about his image, but he probably didn't wake up and sleepwalk." ”

Lu Yinyin glanced at her mother expressionlessly, and actually stretched out her two hands forward, jumped up to Ji Yunzhe, looked ahead, and said with words in her mouth, "Where did you go last night, I still haven't settled the account with you." ”

Ji Yunzhe pouted helplessly, slapped away his sister's two hands stretched forward, and said, "Okay, stop acting, the little kid who will never grow up, is there no money to spend again, no, I only have so much in my wallet, it's not enough for me to get it for you, you don't have to settle accounts with me, you spend your brother's money rightly, when will I use you to pay it back." ”

As he spoke, he took out a few pieces of Grandpa Mao from his wallet and stuffed them into Lu Yinyin's hand, looking at this scene from the side, Gu Jinyan, who still looked natural just now, laughed out loud, a pair of good-looking dimples, so that Lu Yinyin especially wanted to poke with his fingers, for seeing Gu Jinyan appear at their house in the morning, Lu Yinyin didn't feel any discomfort at all, Gu Jinyan and her brother are good brothers, people come to play with their brother, what does it matter to her.

Lu Yinyin looked at Grandpa Mao in his hand, Ji Yunzhe clearly knew that what she said was not the case, but he still forced money to her, and he was really afraid that she would really settle accounts with him, so he said, "Gu Er, what are you smirking at, I was woken up by hunger, I didn't eat enough last night, tell you, it's okay to laugh less, it is said that people with dimples laugh a lot, and when they get old, the skin on their faces will be saggy, and they will sink in." ”

Thinking that Gu Jinyan's face would be sunken, Lu Yinyin actually took the lead in laughing after speaking, a pair of beautiful little pear vortices loomed, Gu Jinyan couldn't help but be stunned, it was the little radish in his memory who had such a bright and bright smile, and then looked down at her and saw that she had been standing there barefoot.

Although it was not cold or very hot, he immediately got up and went to the shoe rack to get a pair of pale pink super kawaii slippers, bent down and put them at Lu Yinyin's feet and said, "Little radish, such a big person, how do you like barefoot has not changed, little fool, hurry up and wash up, didn't you promise me to accompany me to go shopping yesterday, I have been away from Micheng for more than three years, I really miss the days before, I want to go back to Yuanzhi to see, you go with me, okay?" ”

As she spoke, she reached out and rubbed her messy little head like a chicken nest, Lu Yinyin couldn't dodge, so she had to put on her shoes with a smile, and then walked towards the bathroom, and said without looking back, "It's been five years since I left Micheng, will we get lost when we go out in a while, I think it's better to let my brother and Xiao Feifei lead the way, it just so happens that Xiao Feifei and my brother are going to take wedding photos in a few days, so call her along." ”

Lu Rujun originally watched the interaction between Gu Jinyan and Lu Yinyin, and secretly rejoiced in her heart, seeing that this was a drama, maybe the development of the two would really become, but Gu Jinyan said it so clearly, she wanted to go out on a date with her, whether this girl was really stupid or pretending to be stupid, why did she have to pull her brother and her sister-in-law.

So Lu Rujun said at the right time, "Xiaofei is working overtime in the unit today, I heard that there is a new product manufacturer who is in a hurry, I guess I don't have time to take care of you, your brother will go to the new house to clean up later, and I don't have time to pay attention to you, you just go shopping with Xiaoyan, come, the money your brother gave is not enough to spend, I still have it here, he has been a soldier for several years, this reconnaissance ability is still there, it is impossible to lose you." ”

Lu Yinyin was brushing her teeth, and she couldn't justify herself for a while, and after she cleaned up and came out, Lu Rujun really gave her several more Grandpa Mao, what else could she say, it seemed that if she didn't go out with Gu Jinyan today, her mother would use all kinds of methods, and the baby was bitter.

Gu Jinyan was particularly patient to watch Lu Yinyin sit at the dining table and chew slowly, without complaining, she deliberately slowed down her meal, just to be able to stay at home for a while, inexplicably she didn't want to have more contact with Gu Jinyan, Lu Yinyin felt that this was too mysterious, in the past, every time he went to school, let Gu Jinyan wait for her for one more minute, he would complain and talk about her vigorously.

Could it be that Gu Jinyan wants to come with her? Yesterday it was indeed a blind date, although the blind date object was her hair, but today Gu Jinyan came again, and dragged her out to go shopping, if she went, it would be confirmed that she and Gu Jinyan went on a blind date, and the family would think that they were not disgusted with each other, there was room for communication and development, and the next step was probably forced marriage.

After eating, thinking of this series of things, Lu Yinyin suddenly felt a chill down her spine, how could she and Gu Jinyan have insomnia last night, just thinking about Lin Mo Nian, I didn't expect this layer at all, it seems that when I was eating last night, Gu Jinyan seemed to jokingly told her that he doesn't like white skin and beautiful long legs now, so he likes her type.

But if she doesn't want to go, Lu Rujun can definitely use a broom to drive her out, Lu Yinyin wants to take this opportunity, or hurry up and make it clear, although she decided to get married, but Gu Jinyan must not be good, they are too familiar, Gu Jinyan must have been forced by the family, probably trying to use her as an excuse to block the family's mouth first, but he won't really like her.

Lu Yinyin felt that he was really old, and he was becoming more and more self-indulgent, how vicious Gu Er's eyes were, when he was a teenager, his goal was to be white-skinned and beautiful with long legs, and now that he is in his twenties, his natural taste has improved, how can he like her little Lori, who has little soup and little water, thinking about it like this, he was relieved in his heart, and decided to make a calculation with Gu Jinyan later, and the two cooperated with each other to use each other to temporarily ease the tension at home to urge marriage.