When I woke up one night, my head was still a little groggy, but the pain in my body also reminded Lin Shen that he knew everything he should know.

"Are you alright, did it hurt you last night?" Zhang Mu's face suddenly came into his eyes, his hair was a little messy, and he was not wearing clothes. Lin Shen suddenly felt a little shy.

"You didn't go?"

"Why am I leaving, your reaction is so funny, shouldn't you be frightened?" Zhang Mu suddenly smiled a little ironically, and there was suddenly no mildness in his smile.

Lin Shen suddenly didn't know what to say, be responsible, it's impossible to be responsible, the current person. But I was drugged, this person shouldn't be a good person, I should order something to make up for my loss, but, this person is so good-looking, I can be regarded as taking advantage of it, and it's good to treat him as my piao.

"Give you money to buy medicine, I don't have that much cash with me, and you will be my girlfriend in the future."

Zhang Mu got up to wash, Lin Shen looked incredulous, but he still picked up the money, five hundred yuan, more than enough to buy medicine, is it considered compensation? Lin Shen got dressed silently, and the thoughts in his heart turned a thousand times, maybe he would never see it again in the future, so good.

"Then thank you" Lin Shen didn't know what this man's name was, and he didn't want to ask, so he went out of the hotel with Zhang Mu, looked at another couple, and was a little embarrassed, and couldn't help but be envious and jealous, they were together because of true love. Lin Shen thought about giving it to the person he loved the most for the first time, and then he got married. met Wang Ye, and the second time he was like this, stupid, he always doesn't have a heart, how can he be so stupid.

In Lin Shen's view, men are the most rational and cruel creatures in the world. I also blame me for being stupid, because I was confused by others for a while, drank alcohol, and forgot my brain.

There is never a sudden love in this world, only, reality, interests and desires. If I hadn't been lucky enough to have the slightest impossibility, I might not have ended up in such a field.

But then I thought about it, there are too many girls in the world who are stupid to lose themselves, I am not the only one, nor the last, and no one is pitiful for hypocrisy.

After breakfast, Zhang Mu drove her to school, got out of the car, and went down to Linshen to open the door.

"I thought it was a clean one, wasting my time." This was the last sentence that Lin Shen heard before the car drove away. Linshen's footsteps are deep, thinking that I can't hear it or on purpose, it's okay not to see it in the future, it's better never to see it, scumbag.

Lin Shen didn't know why, he always felt like he was going to faint when he walked, and when he slept, he kept feeling countless masks and looking at her with a sad expression.

Those obviously terrifying faces, I don't know why, the sadness and hideous ugliness that emerged, and the ridicule that could not be concealed, seemed to be about to swallow up the depths.

It's still so dark at night, Lin Shen has always doubted what the reason for his existence in this world is, and he has never figured it out, relatives, I have rarely seen it since I was a child, I went to school and left school alone, it rained, there was no umbrella, I always looked forward to it, when it rained, my mother would pick it up, and my mother didn't pick it up once, except for the first day of school.

Lin Shen was honored to get the pick up from his parents, that was the only time, that time passed, Lin Shen never waited again, her mother asked the neighbor to pick her up by the way, most of the time the neighbor picked up her child, waited for two minutes, did not see it and left.

No one asked her if she was tired, whether the road was far away, what to do if it rained, and what to do if there was danger on the road.

It rained very hard that day, and Lin Shen was narrowed by the neighbor's boys, and the living expenses were gone, and Lin Shen was hungry again at noon, and I still remember that Lin Shen was beaten, and a few fists were hammered on the body, saying that she was a waste, a poor ghost.

The rain of that day ran down my head, flowed through my eyes, and shed tears together, walking on the street and seeing the warm side of picking up and dropping off children, I thought to myself, as long as I don't cry, no one will know that I am crying, no one will know that I am so ashamed.

Why are mom and dad so busy? Why do I just have a pair of shoes in one winter, and I just change two old cotton jackets from others, why is this rain so emotional, is it unbearable, and he is also crying for me.

It seems that no one really cares about me, and my classmates have always looked down on me because of their poor family. What is the sin of poverty, is poverty a sin?

These past events keep coming to mind in Linshen's mind, since she was a child, her mother took money to give her living expenses, and her father's money, addicted to gambling and piao, rarely gave money to Linshen, Linshen is an only daughter, in the absence of father's love, more dependent on her mother.

My mother was a traditional woman, and she held on to this broken marriage for many years. Under all kinds of unfair treatment, Lin Shen thought of suicide, and he didn't have any intention to live in this world anyway.

I don't know why, I can't let go of her mother, after so many years of perseverance, she always feels sorry for her mother.

Even if, in the process of growing up, she has always been alone and has given little care, even if she only provides the ability to survive in this world. But she is the only one in the world who truly loves Linshen.

Die like this, how to let her conscience go on, what will she do in the future, the only person she can rely on when she is old is me.

Such behavior is undoubtedly selfish. What should I do, I'm so miserable, all that keeps me is endless darkness. It's dark.

But the hand holding the knife kept trembling, he couldn't do it at all, standing by the bridge, and he didn't have the courage to jump, so many people in the world looked down on love and sex, so why bother to be hypocritical here.