(a)

It's been a long time since the family sent money. And because after that incident, for a long time, Xu Anqi did not recover. She quit her previous job as a tutor and never went to work as a school cafeteria waitress.

Every day, I either stayed in my bedroom to pass the time, or I ran to the lover's slope alone and watched the clouds in the sky. She wished she was the clouds in the sky, drifting anywhere with the wind. But she wasn't, and she had to lick her sadness alone.

Xu Anqi, who has never been absent from school, has also begun to learn to skip class. She was afraid to walk into the classroom, afraid that her classmates would know about it. Whenever she saw their unfriendly smiles, Xu Anqi's heart felt that they were talking about something. The whole body is completely uncomfortable.

Xu Anqi's academic performance has been declining, which can be seen from the papers corrected by the teacher. Many teachers in the department have noticed Xu Anqi's strangeness, and they instinctively think that even children from poor families in college will slowly change with this environment. The obedient students in their eyes will also start to skip class, start reading novels in class, and start deserting alone under the influence of their classmates.

However, this is not the time of high school. University teachers do not interfere with students' learning, as long as you do not disrupt their classroom order in class, as long as you do not make special violations. They don't have time to take care of your life and study.

Regarding Xu Anqi's abnormal performance, the teachers in the department were reluctant to ask more. After all, they are only a few years apart, and they are already adults. Who would interfere in Xu Anqi's life without flattery.

Next, the second semester of the sophomore year will soon be over, and the department's bursary will start to apply again. Xu Anqi signed up, after all, the money can cover the living expenses of the next semester. Thankfully, I was able to apply this time like last semester. After all, this is a part of her life, and without this bursary, Xu Anqi's life would be in poverty.

I filled out the form, submitted the application, and handed it over to the department. Then it's just a matter of waiting for good results to come down.

Back to the dormitory. Jumo and Song Kexi are complaining. "In these days, which family is so poor. Not all of them can afford to eat or dress. I didn't see any of them asking for food, so why should they get a bursary? This time, we also went to apply. ”

"That is, what do we have not to gain. My family's small coal mine was damaged this year, and it is still losing money. My grandmother is sick all the year round, and my father is still unemployed, and he is still a small self-employed person. I'm going to apply too. Song Kexi complained to Jumo.

"It's just that my dad hasn't received the project money this year, and the family can't open the pot. Now 100,000 is urgent, and there is an urgent need for a bursary to get by. Although it is not much, it is only two or three thousand yuan. Or be able to solve a month of life. We can't underestimate that. "Ju Mo vassal.

Seeing Xu Anqi coming back, Ju Mo opened her mouth wide and said, "Dear Anqi, this time you should be sure to apply for a student loan." Last semester, you were already on the list. This time should be no exception. Don't worry, we don't dare to compete with you for the 3,000 yuan bursary. We only need 2000, and if the teachers and classmates are unfair, we can get 1000. ”

"That is, the emperor takes turns. Whoever stipulates it, it's just a few of them who have it. I propose that we have a share in it. Song Kexi also added later.

Xu Anqi was not in the mood to reason with them, so she took a book and walked to the study room next door.

At this time, Jumo and Song Kexi continued to complain about their "poor" family affairs, and they talked pitifully.

(b)

Except for Song Kexi and Ju Mo who were competing for this bursary, almost half of the people in the class joined in this fight. Many people whose families were not poor have also become extremely poor households this time. Many of them were originally urban residents, but this time they also said that they were suburban areas, and many of them had big businesses, but this time they filled in the application form as self-employed, and many of them had an annual income of millions, but this time they also wrote that their annual income was only a few thousand. Many grandparents who did not die were also written to return to the West, and many parents who were still alive were also filled in with perennial illness.

In short, most of the people in the class have become poor households and relief households. Everyone shouted poverty in front of the class committee cadres and teachers, saying that without this bursary, the family would not be able to open the pot and would not be able to live. There were even many classmates who ran to the teacher's office and cried and said, "Teacher, you must save me this time." Both my parents died, and my grandmother died young. My family doesn't have any financial resources, and this bursary will be a great help for me. "I don't know if what these people said is true or not, but it touched the teacher.

For a time, the office of the teacher in the department became a place for the students in the class to cry. There are those who shout poverty, those who cry bitterness, those who cry sorrow, and those who shout that they can't live. There is no way to tie up the teacher, and they can't find how to deal with it, which makes them sad.

The selection of bursaries was at an impasse. Seeing the grimaces of these forces, Xu Anqi was extremely angry. In this era, for the sake of money, anything will be done.

In the end, I don't know who proposed, "Princes and generals, rather have a kind?" We should learn from Chairman Mao's call and move towards common prosperity, and everyone has a share. Since everyone is shouting poverty, it is better to divide it equally among everyone. In this way, the mouth of which one is blocked, and no one will say anything. ”

When the department teacher heard this suggestion, he thought it was a good way to solve it. So the class committee meeting was urgently recruited, and it was announced that the more than 20,000 yuan of bursaries in the class would be divided equally among the students. The average person has four or five hundred dollars.

A sum of money from the state to subsidize poor students eventually became a farce for Xu Anqi's class. It's like a lion, a wild dog, and a vulture on the steppe dividing up a wounded deer. In the end, the deer was torn to a bloody pulp.

Receiving the more than 400 yuan in his hand, Xu Anqi's heart was sad. yes, is this the biggest joke fate has ever played on her?

(c)

When people are down, even dogs will bully you.

Just went through an ordeal, and soon experienced another pain. Fate always hurts the poor.

With the money in her hand, Xu Anqi really wanted to cry. She began to doubt her mother's words that reading could change her fate. However, she studied hard and eventually changed something.

Yes, it's ironic that it changed my life. Let her go through one ordeal after another. It turned her into a person covered in scars. That's fate.

I knew it earlier, just like the other girls in the village. Do farm work, find a strong man, and work in the mountains. Perhaps, the days are still dull, and there are no waves. I won't go through so many things later.

Xu Anqi is like a small boat without support, floating around in the sea at the hands of the wind and waves. Nowhere was her harbor.

Lin Feng made dozens of calls to Xu Anqi, but Xu Anqi never replied to him. She didn't want to see him again because she didn't deserve him. She was already a crippled person.

Returning to the dormitory listlessly, he saw Song Kexi and Jumo celebrating in the dormitory, and there was also a boy he didn't know. They took beer and snacks and partyed in their dorms. Seeing Xu Anqi coming in, Song Kexi said, "Anqi, I'm in a happy mood today, and I'll invite you to dinner in the evening." Grandma's, this time I also got a bursary. ”

Jumo picked up a chicken wing and said in a weird way: "Yes, bursaries are much more difficult to get than scholarships." This time it was really God's favor for us. If you like to be happy, you must not live up to this amount of white money. ”

That is, the last thing that Lao Tzu looks down on is some people, and his eyes are fixed on the bursary. Why should these countries give them money? The world is fair and competitive, and everyone has a part in these families. Song Kexi took a piece of chocolate and stuffed it into his boyfriend's mouth, "Honey, it tastes good, feed you." ”

Seeing them like this, Xu Anqi felt very uncomfortable. She wondered why God favored these people who had already gotten too much, but was so stingy with her.

Xu Anqi lifted a plastic bucket, did not answer Song Kexi and Jumo's questions, and went to the boiling water room to fetch water. When leaving, Song Kexi's boyfriend asked very strangely: "What's wrong with her, she seems to be unhappy?" ”

"Leave her alone, Angel has always been like this. Hey, Qinggao, where will you have fellowship with us people. She is Snow White, and she is a young woman of literature and art, so we dare not compare with her. When Ju Mo said this, he deliberately made his tone yin and yang.

Xu Anqi knew that this was sarcastic about herself. But she pretended not to hear and walked out of the dormitory quickly.

(iv)

Lin Feng's phone rang again. Xu Anqi still hung it up resolutely. They hadn't seen each other for a month since they last came back from Xi'an. She didn't want to see him, and she didn't want him to come back to accompany her on the road ahead.

Xu Anqi wants to make these sorrows a thing of the past. Forever and ever, no longer to be mentioned.

Many times, Xu Anqi wanted to commit suicide in the past, went to the small pavilion on Lover's Slope, and prepared to jump off the pavilion. But she tried several times, but in the end she didn't have the courage.

Many times, she also went to the balcony on the top floor of her dormitory, and imagined that she was a little bird, falling from the sky, then arcing in the air, and finally falling onto the hard stone slab. Then there is blood all over the body, and this blood will slowly drain until it stops the heartbeat.

However, every time she gritted her teeth and was about to end her life, her mother's words would always ring in her ears. There is always the back of my mother busy in the field. If she goes away like this, what will my mother do? In order to study for herself, in order to make Xu Anqi a talent, her mother gave up almost everything herself.

But she was so uncompromising, she felt ashamed of her mother's upbringing.

The resentment in my heart, the hatred in my heart, can only be divided into tears in the end.

It all has to go on. For the sake of her mother, Xu Anqi had to continue to stay in school. Although she felt very dirty in her heart, she couldn't help it. The family owes a lot of debts, and she needs to pay them off after graduation.

After graduation, what can she take to pay it back. She couldn't say it herself. Because of this, Xu Anqi went to the teacher in the department and reflected the situation at home.

This bursary made Xu Anqi's life embarrassed. In addition to the tuition fees for the next semester, I hope to apply for a student loan. However, the teacher of the department replied to Xu Anqi that due to the limited number of places and because she missed the registration period. Therefore, they have nothing to do.

This setback after setbacks hit Xu Anqi and made her feel hopeless about this world. With only a few hundred dollars in her hand, what should she do? What else could she do in the coming days?

It is absolutely impossible to ask for money from the family, and the school's grants and loans seem to have been lost. asked Lin Feng for help, but Xu Anqi was unwilling to kill him. Xu Anqi didn't want to see him again.

In fact, you shouldn't have met him in the first place, and being with him was a mistake in itself. If I hadn't dated him at the beginning, maybe Xu Anqi would still be living in her own fairy tale world. blame yourself for fantasizing about Cinderella, meeting Prince Charming, and dreaming of becoming an angel. However, in the end, he was bruised all over his body.

The problem of money is difficult for Xu Anqi. It's time for her to raise money for next semester's tuition and living expenses. The holiday is coming soon, and Xu Anqi will definitely not be ideal for the final exam, and she is not in the mood to review, let alone go to class. It is impossible to get a desired grade. In just two months, how did she raise tens of thousands of yuan. When I think of this, I feel very anxious.

I counted the friends around me, and there was really no one who could borrow money. After I came to school in the countryside, I rarely met strange friends. At school, she had few friends. Even Song Kexi and Jumo in the dormitory and Xu Anqi just raised their heads to meet each other and lowered their heads to do their own things. Although we have been sleeping together for almost a year, I really can't talk about any friendship.

I have this doubt in my heart, and I can't eat well these days. Xu Anqi finished thinking about the friends around her, but she couldn't find one who could help. What to do, what should she do? My heart is like an ant on a hot pot, feeling too helpless.

(5)

When Angel Xu was worried about this, she received a surprise phone call. It was a high school classmate Sun Li who called. She told Xu Anqi that she had found a lot of people, and finally found out about Xu Anqi.

Sun Li and Xu Anqi studied junior high school and high school together, but because of her poor grades and early love, she was expelled from school when she was a sophomore in high school. Eventually, she went to work in a big city, and she has not been heard from since.

She called Xu Anqi, and Xu Anqi still didn't believe it. After confirming it again and again, I found out that it was indeed her.

The old classmates met and were especially happy. They made an appointment to meet at a teahouse in the city, when Xu Anqi saw her. I was amazed by what I saw. Sun Li was dressed in stunning clothes, wearing shiny pure cowhide high-heeled leather shoes. The makeup is intense. There is a big difference between going to school and high school.

Now she is sexy, charming, and has too much seduction for men.

"Old classmate, it's been a long time. You've changed, you're getting prettier. When Sun Li saw Xu Anqi, she was very enthusiastic.

In front of her heavy makeup and glamorous dress, Xu Anqi felt that she was dressed in a pair of white sneakers and blue old clothes, which was simply a dirt bun.

"You're good now. Learn from you. Xu Anqi praised sincerely.

"Where, where, eat with a mouthful." Sun Li told Xu Anqi that since she was expelled from high school in her second year, she came to the city and worked many jobs one after another. I have worked as a waiter in a restaurant, as a nanny, as a salesperson in a cultural company, and so on. However, these jobs made her feel shy. Every time I see a lot of money in other people's hands, and see them buy beautiful new clothes, and I can only wear the bargains I have found at the street stalls, I feel very uncomfortable.

Why, everything good is taken by the people of the city. They just got the right birth and were born into a good family. At that time, Sun Li felt very unconvinced. She wants to change her current situation through her own efforts.

However, after working hard in the city for a year, she has no background, no connections, and no funds to back her up, and it is a problem for her to even support herself. For a year, she wakes up earlier than the chickens, sleeps later than the pigs, and labors 14 hours a day, sometimes even sleeplessly.

But by the end of the year, in addition to the expensive rent and living expenses, she had hardly bought any new clothes, and the deposit on the card was less than 2,000 yuan. If she continues like this, when and when can she have her own home, and when and when can she have her own piece of world. This made Sun Li fall into a deep confusion.

How difficult it is for rural people to develop in the cities. Because this is not the city they are staying in at all.

"You see, the house prices right now. Two years ago, when I came to this city, it was only 3,000 square meters, but now it is 10,000. If you think about it, I earned 2,000 yuan a month back then, which was quite a lot. In addition to the rent of 6,000 yuan for the cheapest single room a year, plus the annual living expenses, you can only eat cabbage and carrots, but it also costs 10,000 yuan. Coupled with the usual communication and travel expenses, how much is left over in a year. Not only will there be no money left, but it may also be reversed. If this continues, what year will it be? Sun Li talked to Xu Anqi about her suffering in the past, "You don't know, I slept under the bridge and slept in the basement at that time, and I didn't eat for three consecutive days." How hard the days were. At that time, I thought that this was really not a place for people. ”

"Yes, this city has made us countrymen feel hopeless." Hearing Sun Li's complaints, the resentment that had accumulated in her heart for a long time also broke out.

"Yes, let's talk about you college students. In our rural areas, we feel that if we are admitted to a university, we can jump out of the farm. You can be an official in **. But is that really the case? No, it doesn't matter now, there are no connections, no funds, can you be admitted to the civil service? The answer is obvious. Besides, if you are not a civil servant, you should mix in the city. Looking for a company, looking for a company, just out of college undergraduates, only more than 2,000 yuan a month. What can be done. In addition to rent, living expenses, communications, travel, daily necessities and other expenses, how much is left? The parents used up all the family's savings to provide for a college student. I hope that after graduation, I can repay their kindness for raising them. Who knows, the proud college children in their eyes can't even support themselves. The house in the city, they don't even think about it. They can't keep up with the pace of life in the city. The theory that reading is useless began to spread quietly. In the teahouse, Sun Li took a sip of tea, and then said to Xu Anqi that people are helpless and desperate many times.

"You're absolutely right. But how do you change yourself? Seeing that you are living a really glamorous life now, haven't you survived? ”

"Some things are a long story. Let's not talk about it, drink tea first, and then invite you to dinner, and then get your hair done. ”

"Okay."

That day, I chatted with Sun Li for a long time. It's a rare thing to meet your fellow countrymen and your childhood classmates in this city.

At night, Xu Anqi did not go back to the bedroom, so she went to sleep in the room rented by Sun Li in the city for one night. She and another girl rented a two-bedroom apartment. The house is very simple to decorate. But it's chic. At night, they slept in the same bed together and talked about their childhood.

If only we could turn back the clock. Xu Anqi thought so.

(f)

Lin Feng was no longer in contact with Xu Anqi. I heard that he already has another girlfriend. When Xu Anqi heard this, what could she do in her heart? She knew that since this happened, this day would come up. It's just that this day came too early.

After getting in touch with Sun Li, one day later, she found a part-time job for Xu Anqi. It's to help a boy with his homework. The boy's name is Xiao Liang, and that day, Xu Anqi saw him in Sun Li's rented room. Short and short, with a white face, he looked thin and a little timid. Xu Anqi has a kind of love in his heart, he is just like when he was a child, kind, and a little shy.

"What grade are you in?" Xu Anqi asked him.

"I'm in the second grade of elementary school."

"Did the grades get good?"

"It's not good, mom will beat me." The little girl replied timidly.

"Well, then study hard. Make mom happy, okay? ”

"Hmm."

After taking over Xiao Liang's tutoring, Xu Anqi began to get busy again. I don't go back to my bedroom until late every night.

The appearance of the dormitory has changed dramatically. Song Kexi has been bolder recently, and even called her boyfriend to the bedroom to sleep. Despite this, Tang Zijun and Jumo did not have any objections. On the contrary, he felt very novel, and praised Song Kexi: "Your performance is good, you have broken the routine, and it is worth learning from." ”

At that time, Xu Anqi was a little disgusted. But the other two didn't say anything, and if she did, it would cause public outrage. He also spoke again. It's just that I went back later every night. She didn't want to go head-to-head with them.

Sure enough, it didn't take a few days. Tang Zijun also called his boyfriend and called him to the bedroom. They told me that they wanted to make a revolution to the students in the school. Why is it that girls can sleep in the boys' dormitories, but boys can't stay overnight in the girls' dormitories? Song Kexi and Tang Zijun were very proud of their approach and decided to stick to it to the end. And their boyfriends can't ask for it.

Perhaps, they who have read countless men, and they need more stimulation.

However, these phenomena that should not have appeared appeared in Xu Anqi's bedroom. Xu Anqi felt extremely depressed. What's going on in this era. The university dormitory has become a den. Women, since May Fourth, they are no longer as conservative as they were in the feudal era.

(g)

One day, Xu Anqi returned to the dormitory, and Song Kexi's boyfriend was sleeping in bed with her. Her thighs were exposed under the covers. Tang Zijun and her boyfriend are making out.

Xu Anqi felt speechless and fell asleep on the bed without taking off her clothes. The night was quiet, except for the wheezing of Tang Zijun and her boyfriend.

Jumo didn't seem to have returned to the dormitory much during this time.

Hey, who's going to care about her? Xu Anqi and her have never had a deep friendship. Her matter, for Xu Anqi, is just a gust of wind. Blow it and forget it.

Xu Anqi is still as usual, giving make-up lessons to the little girl and reading books usually. The days seem to have returned to peace.

One day, when Xu Anqi went out of the dormitory, she was shopping at the supermarket on the second floor of the canteen and saw a familiar figure, it was Lin Feng.

Does he also buy things here? I haven't seen him for so long, and I still miss him a little in my heart. However, Xu Anqi has always had a kind of rejection in her heart. Xu Anqi wanted to wait for this painful time to pass before asking him out for a good talk.

After all, she still loves him.

Xu Anqi saw him, standing in front of the rows of snack racks, as if he had nothing to do. It's not like I'm here to buy something.

Should I go over and say hello to him? I was hesitating in my heart.

Suddenly, the scene seen from the gap in the shelves made Xu Anqi a little unexpected. A girl, from behind his Lin Feng, hugged his waist. Then, the lips kissed him on the face.

How could this be. This girl, I know all too well. What is their relationship?

During this time, what happened to Lin Feng and her. Why did they behave so closely. Doubts grew in my heart. Xu Anqi didn't know whether to go forward, and said to Lin Feng, "Hello, bless you." Or yelling at him? "My heart was filled with contradictions and pain.

"Hey, isn't this Angel? Anqi, I'm shopping, come here, come here, I'll introduce you to my boyfriend, Lin Feng. Well, it's still good. Ju Mo pretended not to know that Xu Anqi and Lin Feng had a love affair, but instead showed off in front of her very ostentatiously to show her superiority.

After seeing Xu Anqi, Lin Feng looked very embarrassed. He didn't know what to say, but looked at Xu Anqi with a look that didn't know whether he was guilty or right.

In the supermarket, Xu Anqi felt that it was superfluous to feel good. A strong feeling of jealousy permeated her body. She couldn't say anything, so she ran out crying.

Come to the school's iris lake and look at the sparkling water. Xu Anqi cried hard. She thought she could accept the scene, but when she saw it with her own eyes, she couldn't control her sadness.

Actually, it was a mistake from the start. It should not yearn for love in itself, this road leads directly to the grave of hell. Because, Xu Anqi's life will not let her have love. She's just the biggest fool in the world, knowing that there are some things that she doesn't deserve. But he still waits stupidly like a demented person. Who knows, it is always yourself who hurts in the end, and the wound is still so deep.

That night, Xu Anqi did not return to the dormitory. She went to sleep in Sun Li's rented room. Sun Li told her that women must not believe in love. All the lies of love are to deceive the children in fairy tales. And they, girls from the countryside, no one really cares about them. These men just treat them as toys in their hands and throw them away when they have had enough.

Sun Li said that a woman without money can hope for anything. Wise women, all look down on these things, they become insensitive. Like the prostitutes in the red light district, they were the first to wake up. Since, finding a boyfriend who not only provided him with his own body, but also attached his youth and appearance upside down, but ended up with nothing, is it worth it?

Since they are all about pleasing men, why not please men who can bring you money and dreams. Therefore, there is nothing to be ashamed of in this world. Instead, they seemed wise. Just imagine, even the female stars in the entertainment industry have gone to sugar daddy, and they have been unspoken to get a lot of income. Some female civil servants, in order to get promoted and make a fortune, aren't they also automatically sent to the door by unspoken rules? Therefore, they are actually high-class prostitutes, but they have only been approved for a skin.

Nothing can't figure it out, everything should be forward. What kind of name, what reputation, what kind of love, can these make us eat well and wear warm clothes?

No, absolutely not. Sun Li chatted with Xu Anqi all night and told her about many very realistic things in society. From her conversation, Xu Anqi thought of her life, only to realize that she was really ignorant before.

Besides, what qualifications does a woman who has been violated have to say to others that she is perfect and innocent. Lin Feng didn't like himself as much as he used to. No, it won't. In his heart, a shadow has already been left. Angel Xu is no longer a perfect woman. She could no longer bring joy to his life. Therefore, he finally chose to give up.

What else can Xu Anqi blame him? She can only blame God for being mean and unfair to her.

(iv)

When I came back from Sun Li's house, it was already the afternoon of the next day. didn't go to class in the morning, Xu Anqi found a classroom casually and listened to a social and political life lesson. This time, Xu Anqi listened more carefully than ever before.

The politics teacher spoke very extremely, and as she listened, Xu Anqi began to feel very reasonable. He told everyone that they should not always live in fantasy and always dream that they can earn millions. In fact, these beautiful halos are only reserved for those who are prepared.

"What is most lacking in the 21st century? What is lacking is talent. What is talent, it is talent that promotes social development and promotes social progress. But how many such people are there are only a small minority. What about the so-called college students now, what are you, are you talented? Tell you, you're not. Why, what did you learn after a few years of college? Knowledge, technology? Or is it a means to make money? No, some people say that what you learn in college is the old theories that you can't use after graduation! I agree with this point of view, do you know about the recent abandonment of the exam by 10,000 people in Chongqing? Do you know that now college students come out to become beggars and sell skewers after graduation? What does this mean, talent doesn't have to go to college! ”

"So what are you doing if you don't go to college?" One of the classmates stood up and asked with some questioning.

"Classmate, I didn't suggest that you don't go to college. If you go to university, you have to look like you are in college, and you have to learn the knowledge and skills that you are interested in. The political teacher retorted, and Xu Anqi felt as if he had drunk some wine today.

"Thomas Edison once said that genius is 99 percent perspiration and 1 percent diligence. Lu Xun first mentioned that he used other people's coffee time to write. Yes, they don't believe in geniuses, they believe in themselves. Who said they can't become Bill Gates, they can't become Li Ka-shing, they can do it, you can do it too! Destiny is in your own hands, and you can change ...... by yourself" The words of the political teacher were inspiring, and Xu Anqi, who was sitting in the back row, was a little infected.

Next to Xu Anqi, there was a beautiful girl. She noticed that the girl didn't seem to be listening.

Gently touching the girl's shoulder, Xu Anqi asked in a low voice, "Why don't you listen, you speak very well, much better than most professors!" ”

"Hehe, I've heard it many times, hehe!" The girl smiled a little awkwardly, and she said that the teacher would talk like this as soon as he drank alcohol.

Xu Anqi continued to listen to the experience of the political teacher, and he spoke sonorously and passionately. Afterwards, the political teacher took another sip of tea. He said passionately to everyone: "Now we have to remember the two words on the blackboard, struggle." Strive for our ideals, strive for our better life in the future, and strive for our life values! Everyone said, it's not good! When the political teacher said this, the people in the audience were indifferent. yes, colleges are used to it. College students have become numb to the teacher's lectures and have lost much enthusiasm.

A classmate gently patted Xu Anqi on the shoulder: "Do you know who he is?" ”

"Politics teacher. A very good level of political teacher. ”

"No, he's not. Politics teacher, I got sick today and didn't come. He was working as a researcher, and he heard that he had divorced not long ago. There is a bit of a mental problem. This time, I think it's the top politics teacher's class. When the politics teacher didn't come, he would occasionally come to the class. ”

"I can't tell he's mentally ill."

"Haha, do you know what he has at home? There was a large telescope and he said he was going to greet the aliens and invite them to Earth. Everyone knows that he has mental problems. Don't you know? The classmate looked at Xu Anqi a little strangely.

Xu Anqi realized that most of the students in the classroom were doing their own things, some listening to music with earbuds, some reading novels, and some playing games. Few people listened to the teacher's talk in the audience.

"This teacher is all on paper. He himself is not a poor egg, and he always wants to get rich every day. However, in the end, not a penny was earned. Married three times and divorced three times. His wife said he was a psychopath. did not proceed according to reality, and even engaged in pyramid schemes for more than half a year. Specialized in deceiving school teachers and relatives. In the end, everyone didn't believe him. This classmate told me that what the political science teacher just talked about was the set of theories he had learned in the MLM organization, but his so-called "golden and jade good words" had long been rejected by the students. Because, everything must be based on reality, follow the Marxist viewpoint, give yourself the most suitable position, and then objectively plan your life.

After listening to her classmates' words, Xu Anqi felt that she was really a fool. There are still some illusions in my heart. In order to fulfill the expectations of the villagers in the past. What, as long as you are admitted to the university, you must become an official, and then the face of your hometown. In fact, this has always been unrealistic. This is just a fantasy that they have anesthetized in their hearts. The dream theory they instilled in Xu Anqi is actually a pyramid scheme.

Think of your love again. Xu Anqi thought that Lin Feng loved her all her life. Who knows, in less than two months, he was with someone else. This girl is still her roommate.

Therefore, the romantic love that Xu Anqi pursues is just deceiving children who believe in fairy tales. The short-lived love experienced by Xu Anqi in her life was just a flash in the pan. Xu Anqi was confused by this meteor, her eyes and direction, and she believed it so thoroughly.

(5)

Outside the school, ate a bowl of noodles. Then he returned to his dormitory in a haggard state. There was a lot of fun in the dormitory. When I went inside, Song Kexi and her boyfriend were tossing and turning on the bed. Tang Zijun took her boyfriend and danced disco with the music.

Jumo's bed was covered with sheets. Xu Anqi saw a familiar back. Jumo and this man are entangled. Actually, there is no need to look at his face, Xu Anqi also knows that it is Lin Feng.

I really can't believe that they will be so fast. I actually ran to the dormitory, and there was a relationship that shouldn't have happened, but it was sure to happen. So, Xu Anqi is still what he is now.

Hehe, Xu Anqi thinks that she has become a superfluous person.

"Angel, I'm back. Come on, come on, dance. Song Kexi was deliberately provoking Xu Anqi, she knew that Lin Feng was Xu Anqi's boyfriend. But he still said these things to hurt her.

At this time, the man on the bed heard Song Kexi's provocation. got up with a bone, and then looked at Xu Anqi with a pale face.

"You're in a dormitory?" The man who got up was none other than Lin Feng, and he pretended to be surprised and said.

Yes, they're already blatantly together. Whether Xu Anqi and Ju Mo are in the same dormitory or not, what does it matter.

Xu Anqi was very sad in her heart. Teeth bite their lips, hard. The bite broke the blood.

Even if they are together, why should they let themselves see it with their own eyes? also openly came to Xu Anqi's bedroom to have fun**. Too angry in her heart, Xu Anqi wanted to take revenge on them. After having this love head, Xu Anqi stared at Lin Feng on the bed a few times, his eyes were like knives, wanting to penetrate his heart.

"Lin Feng, you slut." After saying this, Xu Anqi ran out of the door angrily.

Alone, out there for a long time. Until the dead of night.

Xu Anqi knows that it is useless to cry in this world. No one would pity a rural girl like Xu Anqi. In the first place, he should not have been trusted.

If it weren't for him, Xu Anqi's life would not have taken such a big turn. If it weren't for him, the current Xu Anqi would still be a complete self.

……

In the evening, Xu Anqi spent one night in the study room. She didn't go back to her dorm, she didn't want to see them. Don't want to see their dirty faces.

When I woke up the next day, there were already students coming in the classroom. Then, Xu Anqi returned to the dormitory and began to wash. There was only Tang Zijun in the bedroom, and everyone else left.

"Angel, we didn't know at first. You are Lin Feng's girlfriend. However, men and women are the same nowadays, and who hasn't played a few good matches. Look down, it's not a big deal. There are so many people chasing you, just find one better than Lin Feng. ”

Xu Anqi didn't speak, then walked to the sink and began to brush her teeth. Suddenly, there was some pain in my stomach and some feeling of vomiting. What's wrong, could it be that I'm sick. Xu Anqi didn't care, endured this sad state, and finished washing. Then, it's time to review your homework in the classroom.

However, in the next few days, Xu Anqi's vomiting became more intense, and her whole body was sore. What's the matter, with doubts, Xu Anqi went to a hospital in the city for examination.

After the examination, Xu Anqi became pregnant.

This was like a thunderbolt from the sky, straining Xu Anqi's entire nerves. The doctor said that the child was 3 months old. She was advised to have surgery as soon as possible. Otherwise, after a while, the child can only be born.

What to do? What to do? Xu Anqi was confused for a while.

sent a text message to Lin Feng, which read: "Are you free? I want to talk to you! ”

"Between us, there's not much to talk about. Besides, we're okay with that. ”

"Really, it won't take a few minutes. I want to tell you something. ”

"There's no need. Now that it's over, I don't want to have anything to do with you anymore. After sending the message, Lin Feng quickly set his phone to reject incoming calls. Xu Anqi sent a text message, and he never replied.

The doctor said that the operation would cost at least 2,000 yuan, plus postoperative nutrition therapy. Let Xu Anqi prepare 5,000 yuan. How can Xu Anqi have so much money. In my mind, friends who can borrow money keep flashing. What a failure, I've been in school for so long, but I don't have many true friends.

Called Sun Li, her phone was not in the service area. Where did she go, but she was not in this city at the critical time. What can I do?

In those days, Xu Anqi really felt the end of the world. Wandering the streets of the city every day, I can't find anyone who can help. I don't have the heart to go to school anymore. The whole person is like a wandering spirit, wandering the streets.

Tuition, living expenses, surgery fees, how do you get all this money? Even if my mother sold all the family property, she wouldn't have so much money. Since this semester, Xu Anqi's academic performance has plummeted, and even the meager scholarship has not been given to her.

Part-time job, part-time, in a short period of time, Xu Anqi can't raise so much money. What to do, a walk on a neon-lit street, preoccupied.

"Handsome guy, come and play ha!" Beside the rows of stores on the street, Xu Anqi saw many young women dressed in bewitching clothes, sitting sideways on chairs, lifting their skirts, revealing snow-white thighs, and smiling flirtatiously at the passing men.

There are some men who are superficially serious, and under the temptation of women, they stop. Then, after looking at the breasts of a group of women, after a few seconds of wandering, they finally picked out a girl they liked, and then held hands and disappeared from people's sight like a couple.

In the past, some people looked down on these prostitutes. However, it was only now that she understood what they had to spurn about. A person who has no way out, chooses this line of work, and earns his hard-earned money in a dignified manner. Who did you provoke? At this moment, Xu Anqi began to understand the voices of these women. What can they do in the face of money?

Xu Anqi walked while dragging her feet slowly. The whole person is listless.

……

"Little sister, is the service not? How much? 500 lines No, my brother likes you very much. A middle-aged man, perhaps with a little wine, patted Xu Anqi lightly from behind.

On this special street, at this special time, he may have thought that Xu Anqi was a prostitute here.

Instinctively resisted, and looked at the man with anger and hatred in his eyes. In the blink of an eye, I thought that I was worried about money.

Is this providential? Providence allowed him to be on this street, and he could only solve the difficulties he was facing by selling his flesh. However, in addition to this business, what else can Xu Anqi rely on to make money. Do you want to buy a lottery ticket and win five million. That's even more of a dream. Xu Anqi thought so.

"Little sister, what's wrong, I don't like my brother. How about adding 200 to you. When I see you today, I feel fated. The middle-aged man may really care about Xu Anqi and is willing to spend his blood.

It seems that this is a providential arrangement. Who calls himself a son of a pauper, for there is no other way for him?

"I'm expensive." Xu Anqi said carefully.

"How expensive?"

"It's expensive."

"Brother, do you like it? Brother will give 1,000 yuan tonight, how about it? The middle-aged man looked a little impatient.

Xu Anqi did not reply, and agreed in silence. The middle-aged man suddenly became happy.

"Let's go, sister, my brother will take you to supper first." After finishing speaking, he took Xu Anqi's hand and walked towards the delicious street.

……

That night was Xu Anqi's first time doing business. When he woke up the next morning, the middle-aged man did not break his promise and gave her 1,000 yuan. also left Xu Anqi's phone number, saying that she would introduce business to her in the future.

……

After experiencing it once, I can no longer extricate myself. Money, this thing, suddenly felt so important.

The next day, Xu Anqi bought a beautiful set of clothes and dressed them up. Then, I went to a more upscale bathing center, found the owner, and recommended myself to him. The boss saw Xu Anqi's slender figure and beautiful face, and immediately said that she would be their first sign.

Next, Xu Anqi did this business. I have a decent income every day.

After more than half a month, Xu Anqi raised all the money for the operation. Then he found a hospital and knocked out the child in his belly. In fact, in the end, Xu Anqi didn't know whether this kid belonged to those bandits or Lin Feng. Whoever it was, she thought he was a wild seed.

Angel Xu began to work as a prostitute. Tuition, living expenses, is no longer a concern for her. After having the money to spare, Xu Anqi sent some money to her mother. She always lied to her mother that she earned the money by working as a copywriter for a cultural media company. The mother who is too kind has no doubts about Xu Anqi's lies. Just persuade her not to be too tired and to pay attention to her body.

Hearing these words, Xu Anqi felt very guilty in her heart. Yes, a girl from the countryside did not walk on the road as the villagers imagined, but chose the most direct way to make money. Could it be her fault?

After that, Xu Anqi also changed some places. Until finally, I came to the current shop. met Sister Shu. After seeing Xu Anqi, Sister Shu was surprised. The surprise was followed by a brief silence. Later, she didn't let Xu Anqi teach Xiao Liang to tutor. And Xu Anqi has naturally become her peer and sister.

Later, as described earlier, Xu Anqi met Jia Xiaodao. Jia Xiaodao came out of the bar, saw the beautiful Xu Anqi, and took her to the Yindang Hotel......