[A certain blank space in my heart was only left at first, and no one could tell what it represented. That blank is simple and casual, and he would rather quit his comfort zone than let it be covered with dust - He Yansheng! 】

How many nights, the handwriting on that piece of paper has been seriously touched by her countless times. It was a beautiful memory that she cherished alone, and she was reluctant to end it without beginning.

On the night of the end of the college entrance examination, Zhong Zixi locked herself in her room, and she didn't even go to the farewell party organized by the class.

Zhong Yu only thought that she was tired from the exam and didn't bother her, that night was a constant interweaving of tension and relaxation that she had never had, and she didn't even feel like this during the college entrance examination for two consecutive days.

Whether the topic of youth is beautiful or youthful, she wants to draw an end to her youth this night. Either take it a step further or take a step back and go to the end of the world.

Life is not just like that, either is a way to live.

Zhong Zixi opened the computer interface to display the QQ number and password, she carefully pressed the enter button, and the system prompted, "Good evening, I want to grow up, congratulations on your official launch, it's time to get off work, please spend more time with your family." ”

'I want to grow up' is Zhong Zixi's screen name, and when she was thirteen years old, she changed her screen name to 'I want to grow up', which has continued since then and has never changed.

And tonight is her first choice when she grows up, no one can help her, and tonight she just wants to face all kinds of emotions when she grows up alone.

Whether it is joy or sorrow, treasure it alone.

Zhong Zixi clicked on the top bar, that was the conversation between her and H, the conversation for six years was very long, and Zhong Zixi turned it over for a long time.

The sliding button of the mouse kept pressing up and down, and the fingers suddenly stopped. Zhong Zixi looked at the conversation between the two in the dialog box, and the corners of his mouth raised a beautiful arc, graceful and warm.

Memories are like flowing water, slowly attacking, sweet and salty.

Is it there? Are you there? Are you there? Zhong Zixi knocked three question marks on the screen with a face, showing that important things were said three times.

In. That's H's usual way of answering.

The smile is raised at the end of his eyebrows, and every time he chats with H, what makes Zhong Zixi happiest is that this man will always reply to him as soon as possible, even if he doesn't reply in time, he will tell the reason.

This kind of valued feeling made Zhong Zixi happy.

『H, let me tell you that when I came back from class today, I passed by the square of our community, and I saw that the kindergarten near our home was rehearsing the June 1st program in the square. Zhong Zixi's fingers quickly tapped on the keyboard.

And then? You're up there too? 〗

Zhong Zixi looked at the double question mark on the screen? The water I just drank almost couldn't help but spray on the screen.

How old is she, she'll go up and join in the fun! Do you want to be so insincere???

And this kind of conversation is very H.,Probably only he would be so straight and ask himself if he also went up to join in the fun.,He can't think about whether something interesting happened?

Amount...... Have you always been so straight? Can your family stand you like this? Zhong Zixi silently thought about the scene of his conversation with his family, and the picture seemed to be too much

After abstraction, it was better for her to turn back silently.

The sound of Didi came from the system, and Zhong Zixi quickly lowered his head. Hmm! …… Pretty good! I didn't ask and didn't really care. 〗

Okay, it's pitiful to be your family, but fortunately I don't have to be your family. The girl's age is simple, she can say whatever she wants, it is straightforward and clear, and it is simple.

Why? I don't think there's anything wrong with being a family with me, I feel like they're enjoying it. He Yansheng recalled seriously for a moment and felt that such an answer was quite pertinent. 【#¥ Aiqi Literature &~Fastest Update】

Zhong Zixi stared at the screen, his brain kept rotating at a high angle in all directions, and only then did he come to a conclusion - "H, this is tsundere!" ”

Amount...... That cute kid, you don't have anything else to say? Zhong Zixi stopped the loss in time and terminated the topic in an instant.

None. It's still two simple words.

Alright! I know you don't have anything new, let me tell you, I saw a little boy standing at the end of the line on the stage, and then the teacher asked all the children to spin in circles, and after the children finished the turn, they all sat down, and only the child looked at everyone with an innocent face. The little hand kept touching his head, as if to say who am I? Where am I? What the hell am I doing? That innocent cute look is really funny. 〗

And then? Did the kid find a seat? 〗

Zhong Zixi looked at the dialog box on the screen and found that H finally had a normal reaction.

Hey, you finally have another reaction, are you cute by that child's cute picture? 〗

No. 〗

I think you just don't want to admit your curiosity? Hmph, the mouth is straight. 〗

In fact, He Yansheng is really not, he has no feelings for children, and sometimes he thinks that the little guy is noisy and troublesome. The reason why she had the reaction of what she thought was normal was that she wanted to coax her, and didn't want her to think that she was too boring.

After a long time, no new news came from the dialog box, and Zhong Zixi thought he was angry. No way! Is it so stingy? She's just kidding!

She forced herself to look away from the computer screen and looked up at the window, where the sky was blue and the cirrocumulus clouds hung in circles on the margins, a bit like cabbage and a bit like mountains and rivers.

Blue and white, each frame has its own little story. If you string it together, it's the best movie, it's a movie related to reality, slightly astringent......

Zhong Zixi suddenly felt a little nostalgic for when he was very young, and when he looked up at that time, all his troubles would disappear. Because the blue sky and white clouds are so good-looking, the unknown that even a word needs to be constantly guessed now makes Zhong Zixi feel very lost.

Suddenly, I felt very lost, I wanted to cry, and there was no reason; Relieved, no excuses. The deep frustration was infinitely magnified, and she held back tears with one hand on her head.

Emotions are a thing that will be rendered, and a little idea can be constantly amplified and continued, until the whole person is wrapped in it and cannot extricate himself.

But she was reluctant, so she could only disguise her emotions and then be small

Xinyi asked on the screen.

You're not angry, are you? No one knows how much nervousness and uneasiness there is behind this sentence, maybe this is the love of youth, single and helpless.

This time, H is very fast, and it's obviously a very simple sentence. There was nothing to show up, but the sour tears that fell on her eyes moistened the entire eye socket, and they fell from the eye socket to the table uncontrollably, and the bean-sized tears were crystal clear.

At this moment, she is like an emotional geek, she doesn't need anyone to understand her joys and sorrows, she just needs to adapt to it silently.

No, why should I be angry? H replied quickly, and the tone was full of reason.

Then, why didn't you reply to me for half a day? Zhong Zixi asked back uneasily, wanting to determine the reason again and again.

I just went to the Internet to check what "straight mouth" means? And I'm not interested in it in the first place, and the reason why I'm curious is because of what you said about this story. It seems that all the stories you tell are interesting. 〗

Is there a person whose words can send you to heaven in an instant, or can instantly pull you to hell, from top to bottom there is no center of gravity.

She doesn't know if anyone else has it, Zhong Zixi has it, she has always had it all those years!

Something that may be just a word to others is like a tsunami for her, and the calm after the storm is the tiredness of exhausting all her strength.

Later that day, she didn't reply to him or ask again, Zhong Zixi didn't remember anything about that child, probably H said it was funny, just because it came from him, it was enough to make her happy for a long time.

Such proof is enough, such importance is enough. She has always wanted not much, a peace of mind, a sense of belonging.

All the dialogues in it, each one is a proof of happiness, sadness, joy, or helplessness, if it weren't for this dialog box, many things Zhong Zixi might not necessarily remember.

It is like a time machine, recording the unreserved display of her entire youth.

It seems that some kind of decision has been made, Zhong Zixi clicked on the input method, carefully deleted it, and finally chose the simplest opening line.

Regardless of success or failure, Zhong Zixi will not tell him this hidden caution now, because it is her own memory, which is worth recalling and cherishing alone.

If she was lucky, maybe many years later in the winter snow they chatted around the fire, and she would explain to him in detail how humble she had been over the years.

Maybe he'll be distressed, maybe he'll be incredulous, or maybe he'll blame her for just being a mediocre nuisance. But no matter what kind of Zhong Zixi doesn't regret it, after all, it is her whole youth with all her heart.

H, are you there? 〗

Why didn't you go out with your classmates to relax tonight? Tonight should be a meaningful day for you! 〗

The college entrance examination has long since left him. But the decompression after the exam is the last time that many people cherish their youth together, and the node of the end of youth.

Zhong Zixi said softly to the screen, "Yes, it's because it makes sense that I want to make peace."

People who are valuable to me have lived together! But she knew that it would be tantamount to ambiguity to say such things now, and she didn't like ambiguity, and she didn't want to define the relationship between the two as ambiguous before it even began.

That would be tantamount to blasphemy!

Maybe it's because it's too stressful and hard during this time. My body is a little overwhelmed, and I just want to come back early to rest. Zhong Zixi casually made up an excuse.

Are you alright? It's been hot in the past two days, and you can rest without distractions after the exam, don't think too much. 〗

His care and care made Zhong Zixi's heart on the verge of temptation keep jumping, if he hadn't given care, if he hadn't appeared in time in her darkest life, to be a guide and companion for her to rely on.

Perhaps, she would not be so obsessed with an answer.

For 'I want to grow up', 'H' is like the most dazzling fireworks in the sky. Knowing that fireworks are beautiful and only exist on the horizon, they are very short, and the short ones have all dissipated before they have time to record this picture.

How beautiful is the moment when you ascend and disperse, and how strong is the sense of loss after dissipation.

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