"Are you so busy that you don't even have time to call me back?" Bai Xue drank red wine and asked herself.

In the interview process, the HR directors of the world's top 500 companies often select outstanding talents from tens of thousands of candidates every year when they tour the recruitment of major universities around the world, and they all mention stress testing and adverse quotient in unison.

As we all know, adversity quotient is a person's frustration tolerance and ability to deal with adversity. In modern life, everyone experiences a frustration every day, which is time pressure. There is never enough time to do what you should do, what you want to do, what you want to do, what you want to do,

It is said that whoever gains time wins the world. So the training in time management is overwhelming. However, as people value time more and more, they often ignore cultivation and character.

When you are busy, a person's temperament is most likely to be exposed. People with poor character are chased by time, and once they don't have enough time, they become in a hurry, and all the principles and standards of life are left behind. However, people with good character can stay in danger, which is a kind of stress management ability.

Don't lose your temper when you're busy, don't care about gains and losses when you're busy, and don't shirk your responsibilities when you're busy, which is the embodiment of character.

Time is the highest standard for testing character, but you don't have to wait that long for a lifetime, just look at when he's busy, you know that the male god and goddess accidentally become a scumbag shrew when they are busy.

I don't know when it started, Han Yi's busyness became Bai Xue's doubts, there were fewer meetings, fewer contacts, and even the feeling changed slightly.

Leaving because of Zhong Ying'er, angry because of Hao Yali, is there really no Han Yi's fault in this? She always thought about it and didn't want to think about it anymore.

She didn't fall asleep when Han Yi sent her a message, she just didn't want to reply. In the past, the phrase "I miss you" would have excited her for a long time, but now, it seems a little hollow.

The so-called best time is not because it is beautiful, but because it is eternally lost; We can only summon it with nostalgia, which is why it seems incomparably beautiful. I hope that all the years that have passed will be precipitated into the best times in memory.

In this city that is both familiar and unfamiliar, she is like many people, and even inferior to others, and her life is ordinary and uneventful, not worth recalling. But in the eyes of many people, she is envious of this kind of day.

A lot of the time, it's all alone, eating alone, hanging out alone, staying at home alone. But that's it, there are always some people who think she has a story and think that she is doing well. Stories, what stories can there be? She suddenly felt that there was no vigorous love. How good can it be? Is loneliness a good thing to live by? Even, the future may not be worth looking forward to, if it goes on like this.

In the dim light of the night, she lost sleep and thought a lot, but she never understood what she wanted. Looking at the rows of light and dark houses outside the window, is there someone like her in the dark, unable to sleep for a long night. Under the moonlight, there are no fireflies flying quietly, no frogs calling, no crickets calling, quiet

Terrible.

She drank by herself, and because of Han Yi's casual lie, her thoughts exploded, and all the pent-up doubts came out of her head. Has Han Yi changed? All the warmth of the past, whether it stays at her fingertips. She stared at her slender fingers carefully, did she flick it and there was nothing?

If she sees a stray cat, she misses it and thinks if it will still hide under the big boulder at the end of the path. She looked back and looked around, but she couldn't see it anymore, and the path suddenly became cold. She will miss it very much, and she would rather believe that it has been picked up by a good Samaritan and is living a good life, with fish to eat and a loving owner. How good it is to have a belonging, no more wandering.

Over the years, she has not traveled a lot of places and met many people like Han Yi. Every time you walk through a place, you will have a new understanding; Every time you meet someone, you will understand some truths. I have seen many things, heard many words, some of which have been deeply remembered in my mind, and some of which have been lost on the way and can never be recovered.

She has been to very few places, met very few people, has no feelings, and does not understand any reason, she just thinks that Han Yi is her pursuit, and she can't wait to stick with him all day long.

They fell in love with each other, it was summer, and it was about this time. Not long ago, Han Yi came to see her to commemorate the fourth anniversary of his confession, and then went to New York, when it was a trip, Han Yi also proposed to her. But, very strangely, this feeling is very strange now, she seems to have everything, but it is like nothing, and the feeling of gain and loss always comes out in the dead of night.

That summer, it was very hot, but her heart was still extremely refreshing, and she has not forgotten Han Yi's affectionate confession. At that time, she was extremely firm that she would only bump into this familiar embrace in the future.

Before they were together, she was so afraid, afraid that she would continue to have a crush on Han Yi, and afraid that she would be alone. And that feeling, why is it still there?

After a long time, you will get used to it, and you will be afraid of the crowd and the excitement. I always want to be alone in the quiet. A person walks on the road with earplugs and listens to loud music; looked at the romance and sighed at the sad experience of the hero and heroine. At this time, she wondered if she would be lonely like this forever, and be lonely for the rest of her life.

Han Yi's text message didn't eliminate her worries, she just didn't like the feeling of being deceived, and the bad mood had been fermenting like this. Is the person who warmed her whole past and promised to grow old with her unconsciously?

She always thinks of Han Yi's romance, caring, seriousness, and hard work, misses the warmth he gave, and also thinks of the loneliness he doesn't want to accept and has to accept. She was even thinking that if Han Yi asked her to give up her current ideals and job to live in Shanghai with him, she would agree, but he didn't.

Remembering that they held hands and walked on the familiar road. When the lights were bright, I saw my high school alma mater and remembered last night's dream.

In the dream, she saw what she hadn't seen for years

Han Yi, who has met before. In the dream, the background is just right, the sun is just right, his smile is just right, and the wind is gentle. He walked up to her, his eyes full of tenderness and a smile on his face, as if he was going to drown her.

If, just if, if he met him again at this time, would he still have the look of his dreams? The one with a simple smile, the one who loves to write, the one who loves photography, the one who loves to play the guitar, and the one who loves romance. Now it seems that only the success or failure of his career can affect his smile, and the time that can remind him of her is when he puts down his work, at one or two o'clock in the morning. She is jealous, eating Zhong Yinger's vinegar, Hao Yali's vinegar, and his career.

Holding a glass of rich red wine, he sat in the room where Han Yi used to live, looking out the window.

She knew that no one would blame me for stealing red wine again, because no one knew. After drinking, she always becomes very sad, especially when she is alone. She also knew that no one would pass by her in a hurry, only her, like a ghostless ghost, wandering here.

The house that was once full of their joys and sorrows is now the only one. In a few rooms, the furnishings are still the same, as if nothing has changed. In the refrigerator, there will still be a lot of milk, because Han Yi knows that she will always have a glass before dinner.

A gust of wind blew, turning the pages of the book on the table, shaking off a blank piece of paper and opening the box of her memories.

That year, she used a night study hall to write a love letter, and on the occasion of graduation, she mustered up the courage to send it out, which was the craziest act she had ever done. After Han Yi refused, he took away the laughter and laughter she once had, leaving her with only longing and sadness. At that moment, a forced smile froze on her face, and her heart was actually full of loss, even if she refused, it was extremely hurtful.

In the year when she was a classmate, she was happy to look at him secretly, and at that time, she already felt the breeding of love, even unrequited love. At that time, she unscrupulously imagined what her ideal future would look like.

Once, did you really like someone like that? I still can't forget it. The heat of that feeling, although it has cooled down in the reunion and dispersion of life, will still show its existence in a familiar place, just like now, even if it is together, she is overwhelmed.

The years have taken away their once immature faces, and it seems to have taken away their promises.

There's such a poem that says about the best of times:

Some people say that what cannot be recovered is the best

Unrestrained childhood, young and pure first love

So we can only remember the past

Some people say that being in the moment is the best

Ambitious and successful, heart-to-heart happiness

Therefore, we must cherish and grasp the present

Others say that a certain moment is the best

There is ice cream in the summer when you can lie in bed

So we should spend every day in earnest

The years go by so fast that it's panicking

It's often the best of times that can't be caught

Perhaps, that's it, the best times are always fleeting, and it's impossible to grasp them.

She does

's bad mood only exists in her heart, because she doesn't empathize with her, she still loves Han Yi, but that feeling is very uncomfortable. Wouldn't it be better to say it? If you ask Han Yi: "Can you put down your work and accompany me more?" Why are you lying to me? Are you and Zhong Ying'er still disconnected? Is the baby in Hao Yali's belly yours? ”

What kind of answer will you get? Was it the answer she wanted to hear? Will it make them quarrel and then break up?

What could she do?

Many times when we realize what the best time is, it has been lost forever, lost in the long river of memory, and can only be recalled, not recovered. Not telling others may be her way to protect these moments and not lose them.

"Why don't I want to live every present without leaving too many regrets? Am I thinking too much? With doubts and drunkenness, Bai Xue talks in the night, eager to be understood, but also afraid of being exposed.

(End of chapter)