"Sister, are your parents asleep?"

Han Yi entered the door lightly, after all, it was already 0 o'clock in the morning, for fear of arguing with his sleeping parents and the cute and handsome little nephew.

"Sleep." Sister Han Yi helped Han Yi pull the suitcase into the house, and whispered: "Why didn't you tell me in advance, you only sent me WeChat half an hour ago, why did you finally come to my trip, and you still feel like a thief!" ”

Han Yi got off the plane, and when he got in the car, he didn't want to disturb his parents' rest and was going to go directly to the hotel for a night, but then he saw that his sister in the circle of friends posted a news, knowing that she hadn't slept and told her that she had come to Changsha. My sister has loved him since she was a child, so naturally she wouldn't let him stay in a hotel, so she ordered him to come to the house by phone.

"In just one day, I have to rush back to Shanghai tomorrow night. Looking at the comments of your brother-in-law in the circle of friends, it seems that he is not at home, right? Han Yi walked into the living room, put down his backpack, and took out his laptop.

"Your brother-in-law has something going on at home, so I'm going back. He said he would only be back the day after tomorrow, or I would ask him again during the day, and if I knew you were coming, I guess I would have to come back tomorrow······" My sister muttered, poured a glass of juice for Han Yi, handed it to him, and put away his notebook, "It's so late, don't work, no matter what, I'll get it tomorrow!" ”

"Okay, okay, then you can give me a bowl of noodles to eat!" Han Yi smiled, and he was very happy to see his sister, when he was a child, his sister often cooked for him and Han Min, and below, even if it was just fried rice with oil and salt without eggs, and a few noodles decorated with green vegetables, they would all be eaten with relish.

My sister looked at him distressedly, she must have come in a hurry, she was tired enough, and she forgot to eat dinner.

"Good! Then you take the box into the innermost guest room, go take a shower first, the sheets and bedding are all new for you, just come out to eat later, if you can't sleep, chat with me, I have a lot of things to ask you. As she spoke, my sister coiled her hair and walked to the kitchen, and turned around and whispered to Han Yi: "Be quiet, don't wake up Yu Heng, otherwise you won't be at peace again!" ”

The reason why she hadn't slept at this time was precisely because the little ghost at home was noisy and refused to sleep, so she had just been able to sleep quietly, and she was really afraid that Han Yi would wake him up in his small room, so she specially reminded him.

After taking a bath, Han Yi still kept persuading, and took advantage of his sister's lack of notice, so he secretly took a look outside the door of Yu Heng's room.

"Come out and don't wake up!" My sister tugged at Han Yi's ears, "As soon as he wakes up, he will be noisy, and no one will want to sleep at that time!" ”

"Pick your ears and save some face!"

Since he was a child, he has not been plucked by his ears, and Han Yi is also accustomed to it, so he can only be obedient and obedient.

"Hurry up and eat noodles, it'll be lumpy after a long time!"

The elder sister sat opposite Han Yi and quietly watched her younger brother eat fragrant noodles, a big bowl of lean meat, eggs, tomatoes and vegetables, which was enough.

"How's business going in the store?" Han Yi ate with a look of enjoyment, eating a bowl of noodles at home was completely different from eating outside.

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The sister who was used to it suddenly got up and went to the refrigerator to get a can of Coke, "It's not good, I don't care much, Yu Heng is starting to enter preschool, and now there is a cram school, how can I have time to take care of the store, anyway, the lease period is almost up, and it's time to close." ”

Sister Han Yi opened a clothing store two years ago, but due to the impact of online stores, there is basically no room for profit in offline physical stores, Yu Heng is growing up day by day, and slowly she also decided to devote herself to the family, being a housewife and a full-time mother.

"Just turn it off, don't be so tired, go out and play more if you have nothing to do, and enjoy life."

Han Yi also feels sorry for her sister, she went out to work after graduating from junior high school, although the salary is not high, but she will send some money back every month, subsidize her parents and supplement the family, and give her younger brothers and sisters living expenses, in short, she has a hard time.

Not long ago, Han Min's graduation ceremony sister was delayed because of something, Han Yi and Han Min both felt very regretful, in their hearts, the status of the sister needless to say.

"How can I have you under pressure, don't just talk about me, adjust your mentality! The day before yesterday, my sister was chatting with me, saying that there was something wrong with your company······"

Before my sister finished speaking, Han Yi scolded: "Han Min's big mouth, I'll drive her away when I go back to Shanghai!" ”

"You're still to blame Minmin! If you don't tell us anything, Mom will have to ask her all day long for your news. In short, remember, you can't wear yourself out just by making money! ”

Sister Han Yi's eyes blamed him, but they were also full of love.

"Don't worry, I'm fine! The company is not much of a problem, so don't worry about it. Han Yi said and suddenly thought of Han Min and asked, "What about Han Min?" She should have arrived around the same time as me, huh? Is it a delay? ”

"How did you know she was coming too?" Sister Han Yi asked, only then did she understand that the two of them had colluded and deliberately didn't tell her and her parents. "As soon as my parents went to sleep, she called me and said it was a 4 a.m. flight. I guess what, it turns out that you made an appointment in advance! ”

Han Yi and his sister chatted about their parents' shortcomings, and suddenly they didn't ask about their feelings, so Han Yi prevaricated in a few words. Compared with career problems, Han Yi is more reluctant to interfere with his family emotionally, and perhaps the most important reason is that he always feels that his parents don't like Bai Xue very much.

After Han Yi's Gu left and right talked about him, his sister felt that there must be a relationship problem, but she no longer persecuted her younger brother, but told him about her emotional experience with Yu Heng's father.

Maybe it's because it's a new day, you don't have to think about the company's profit and loss at all, you don't have to think about the snow thousands of miles away, you don't have to worry about turbulent feelings, Han Yi has another leisure and elegance of reading a book before going to bed.

After Gu Jia read the letter sent from the army, she cried without warning. Tears blurred her carefully painted eye makeup, and in the crowded street, the two of us stood there in such a daze, I didn't know what was going on, I didn't know how to comfort her, I didn't know

Dao should say something at this time to seem more appropriate, only know that when she is so sad, I should not eat corn anymore, the corn cob in my hand is hanging in the air, and I don't dare to continue chewing in my mouth, sweeping towards her with her residual light, she doesn't say a word, clutching the pages of manuscript paper tightly, and her thin body is constantly shaking.

I've known her for five and a half years, the first time I saw her crying outside, she has always been a very strong and face-loving girl, alone outside, oppressed by the boss, harassed by the boss, overtime all night, no salary, no relatives in the city and other practical difficulties given by reality, but she is still full of vitality, she told me a lot of stories she has experienced, and any one thing taken out of it is enough for me to collapse in a daze. But even so, I have never seen her cry out tired, let alone cry.

If I hadn't seen her today, I'd always thought she was the kind of Ultraman who was beaten with iron and couldn't cry.

After she switched from crying loudly to sobbing silently, I chewed the full corn kernels in my mouth twice, swallowed it quickly, and cautiously asked, "What's wrong?"

She handed me the brown paper envelope of her phone, which I opened cautiously, looking carefully at the short page and a half of words.

"Shawscarlett's?"

She didn't reply to me, just took out the powder from her bag and blindly slapped the powder on her teary face to touch up her makeup, but while patting the powder, she couldn't help but cry. Laughing and crying.

Xiao Scarlett was her boyfriend, a boyfriend who was a soldier.

They fell in love for a year and were just in time for the conscription fever, and the country shouted slogans to defend Diaoyu/Island. Xiao Sijia was full of enthusiasm and couldn't hold it back, so he put down his studies and went to serve as a soldier. He said that his father had a dream since he was a child, that he had to defend the country, but it had never been realized, and that he had to implement it from the beginning.

At that time, Xiao Si Jiayan II.

It took two years, and all their communication for two years came from one-sided phone calls and letters to each other. Because of the particularity of the army, the phone can only be called, not answered, so at that time, she held the phone every day, regarded it as a treasure, looking forward to the ringing of the bell, looking forward to the large number of garbled characters on the caller ID.

We teased her that she was completely reduced to a mobile phone slave.

She smiled and didn't speak.

We asked with some disapproval, he has been a soldier for so many years, and you have waited for him for so long. Do you think it's worth it, not to mention that you are confident that you will still be together after he retires?

Of course, she said with certainty.

Her expression was so resolute that we didn't dare to ask any more questions, and we firmly believe that she was full of confidence and did not have any doubts.

She always took great care to put away all the letters carefully and stacked them neatly in a beautiful tin box. Placing the tin box at the top of the high bookshelf, we could not control our curiosity, and very immorally opened the tin box in her absence, and peeked at her and Xiao Sijia's letter, in which she wrote:

Xiao Sijia,

When I watch other people's boyfriends and girlfriends together, I can only hold my mobile phone and listen to your untouching but beautiful love words, and after being with you, I feel that I can't leave at all

Turn on the mobile phone, because for me, the mobile phone is you, I am not afraid of the four-year-old gap, ten yuan fare can reach your door, since this is the case, I am not afraid of not being able to see each other, but what I am most afraid of is that I can't wait for you. Sometimes you have to give up something, like waiting for a long time for the bus and finally taking a taxi, but you can't say that the time you spend waiting for the bus is wasted. Whenever I need it and you're not there, some resentment arises in my heart, and I don't know where it ends up. I only know that it is uncomfortable, it becomes vulnerable, and it touches my heart at every turn. Long-distance relationship is that I can't cry silently, and you don't know it on the other end of the phone. I choose that I bear.

For more than two years, every time I have a break and don't have to go to work, I want to run to you non-stop, and in our days together, the time we spend face-to-face together is particularly precious, and I don't dare to quarrel like a little couple who meet every day, and I feel that this hard-won get-together should sit there quietly and stare at each other, and I can't hope to turn everything in sight into what you are.

Xiao Scarlett, now I miss you very much.

But the neatly written letter was not sent after all, and lay quietly in the cold iron box.

After reading it, my heart was sour, and I wanted to ask her why she didn't send it, but then I thought about it, maybe she was afraid that Xiao Sijia would also have no bottom in her heart.

What is it like to be in a long-distance relationship, happiness cannot be shared, and sadness is not shared. Only by transmitting all the emotional life through a telephone line every day, only by typing lines and paragraphs of passionate words in front of a cold screen. You know nothing about his past, but nothing about his present. The sense of insecurity and panic brought about by not seeing, touching, and touching is the most powerless and terrifying part of a long-distance relationship.

What is it like to be in love with a service member, it may be a feeling of talking to oneself and talking to oneself. Every time I get in touch, I feel like a gift, a gift.

All good things come from memories. Comfort yourself on the basis of memories, encourage yourself to have the confidence to continue, keep fantasizing about a wonderful future with him, reminisce about the past, and zoom in on all the details of the happy or unhappy times together.

Because in the long time, the time around me is so short that it is not worth mentioning.

When Xiao Sijia made the last phone call, I was eating grapes on Gu Jia's sofa, and the phone in my hand rang suddenly, and before I could swallow the grapes and call her, Gu Jia ran out of the bathroom shirtless and picked up the phone happily.

Then she didn't say anything, and after hanging up, she went straight to the bedroom, picked up my coat and stuffed it into my arms.

She said, you go first, I'll stay by myself for a while.

I knew her too well for so many years, so I didn't dare to speak, silently picked up my coat, patted her on the shoulder and closed the door outside her house.

I knew Scarlett was breaking up with her. I just heard it. I heard it all.

When I walked downstairs with my coat to Gu Jia, the caller ID on my mobile phone was a long list of garbled characters.

Xiao Sijia didn't wait for me to speak and said, I don't deserve her, don't let her wait for me, find her a good family.

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Gu Jia only replied with two words, haha.

In the days that followed, Gu Jia began to work hard, and she was so busy that she didn't reply to my WeChat every day, and the content of the circle of friends also changed from selfies and updated jokes to work prospects, investment plans, and even the photos released were pictures of company activities.

She filled all her free life with work, so that she didn't have any extra energy to miss Xiao Sijia, she said to me on WeChat, I used to always want to find a sense of security in him, so I was always tempting, always secretly speculating in my heart again and again, but now that he has left me, I understand, no one can give you the feeling you want, and the sense of security is given to you by yourself.

It is said that time is a pig-killing knife, and with a flick of this bladed machete, two years passed at once. Gu Jia has gone from an outdated goddess to a standard leftover girl. She has worked hard for more than two years, but there are really people who are not naturally suitable for some jobs, such as Gu Jia, who is still running around in a vicious circle of looking for a job, unemployment, unemployment, and finding a job.

She doesn't seem to have changed her life from two years ago, except that her hair is getting shorter and shorter, she smokes more and more, and she doesn't mention Xiao Scarlett anymore.

Also, there are more and more unsent letters in the tin box in her house.

I thought that they would go their separate ways and never get along, but when I read Xiao Sijia's letter in my hand word by word, a hot sourness welled up in my nose, and my eyes were a little red.

In his letter, stroke by stroke, he wrote:

Jiajia, I'm back.

March 22 is our anniversary, and I remember it now. This letter was written on March 14, and my squad leader said that it would take six days to send the letter from Xinjiang to Shenyang, and I was afraid of being late, so I advanced it by two days.

It's been four years since I've been separated, in fact, I'm not used to it until now, and I have to look at your photos before going to bed every day, otherwise I won't feel at ease. The happiest time I have in the army every day is when I lie on the hard bed at night and take out your photos, and my heart is indescribably warm.

In the photo, you still have short hair, and now your hair is long. What do you look like with long hair, have you been fat or thin lately?

I remember that when I first served, the army strictly required that you could not call at will, and you could only contact you once a week, and once there was a limited time. It's too short a time to dare to complain, and writing a letter on the bed after washing up is undoubtedly the happiest thing. Asking the squad leader to help me send letters and get letters every day is what motivated me to survive in the most difficult stage.

Later, I was highly praised for my performance, and I was transferred to Xinjiang, and my heart sank after listening to the peacekeeping force, and the first thing I felt was that I couldn't come back, not that there would be any problems with life safety, but that people in the peacekeeping force generally stayed in the army and did not retire. Then I called Da Zhuang and asked him what to do, and Da Zhuang told me all about the quarrel between you and your mother. I think your mother is right, I'm a stinky soldier, I have nothing, I can't give you anything, you're not too young, why delay your youth and let you wait for me.

I don't have the ability to marry you, I can't give you a good life, I can't even be by your side. In the real society, it depends on love alone

It's useless. I still understand the truth of poor couples mourning.

I really don't want to delay you when I break up with you, but Jiajia, you believe me, I thought about it before I told you. If I have time and money after I retire, and you are not married, I will definitely chase you back. If you get married at that time, I will be silent and good to you and your children for the rest of my life.

The two years you have waited for me, I will not be able to finish it in my life.

In fact, before I wrote to you, I asked Da Zhuang, and he said that you are not married yet, let me marry you home and meet my mother.

By the way, the house is ready, Da Zhuang said that your mother likes to sit north and face south, this set is, and a small yard is left for you at the door, remember that you used to like to raise flowers. The car is also bought, the full amount, if you want to drive it, you can drive, if you don't want to drive, then I will pick you up and go home from work, don't let you work so hard to squeeze the subway to catch the bus, I know there is not enough money to marry you home now, but I really can't wait any longer.

Even this time, I wrote to you instead of calling, because I don't know how to face you directly, and this way is more relaxed. I didn't change my phone, and now I'm transferred back to be the head of the regiment, and now no one controls the two of us on the phone, and I don't dare.

Jiajia, I have wronged you, I have been working hard for so many years, I want to give you a home.

The envelope was moist, I don't know if it was the soup from Gu Jia's hand that soaked it, or if her tears nourished it.

I urged Gu Jia to go to Da Zhuang quickly, ask about the causes and consequences of so many years, and make it clear that so many things backfired. Gu Jia agreed hesitantly, got into a taxi and disappeared from my field of vision.

I went back to her house alone with the key, and whimsically took the iron box from the top of my desk, flipped through the letters she had written, and looked at the dates marked on them, which had lasted for four years, and recorded all the moments of Shawscarlett's absence.

The latest date of the letter reads:

Now it's not appropriate to call you, so let's call you Xiao Xiao. There are too many people who have shared their love with me, but I still don't understand anything, I just understand that no one has to accompany anyone to old age, I have drunk a glass of spirits, I have drunk a bowl of Zephyr, fortunately, I have hugged you, this is a lifetime of happiness.

I'm most afraid of having you and losing you, but I still hope that at some point in my life, I once had you.

I once had the luxury of hoping that I could share the wind and frost with you all the way, but without you, the green onions were dipped in sauce, and I could carry it myself.

I looked at Shenyang shrouded in smog outside the window, and I always felt a little sunny and bright.

When there is wind under your feet and thoughts behind you, you have never sighed, and the road ahead is rugged and dangerous.

After 1,655 days together, he walked for 1,127 days, and they talked about a long-distance relationship about soldiers, with a romance that traveled thousands of miles, an endless cold war, three days of quarrels between the two ends, and the longing for the expected autumn water, so 1241 days have passed.

reminds me of the story of an old military wife, who met him at the age of 19, thousands of miles away, fell in love for 2 years, and had a long-distance relationship for 10 years after 8 years of marriage. At that time, there were no mobile phones, no Internet,

There is only a handwritten letter every day, but there is never less love because of the distance. Suffering from lovesickness and being drunk with lovesickness, only those who have experienced it know the preciousness of getting together and staying together, and only then do they know that truly loving someone is an obsession that goes deep into the bone marrow, even if the place where he follows the ends of the earth is home.

Later, I saw Gu Jia post a sentence in the circle of friends, which attracted countless likes and comments from mutual friends, she said so,

She said, "Every time I walk hand in hand with him, I hold his left hand, because I know that the right hand he salutes belongs to the state!" ”

In the impetuous ordinary life of reality, there is really love sticking to it. Even if he follows the ends of the earth, where there is him, it is home.

Han Yi is a very emotional person in his relationship, and he has a special feeling for soldiers, so this story moved him even more. There are also those prosaic numbers, 1655 days, 1127 days, 1241 days, without any meaning, but they record the feelings of two people.

He used to be the same, when he was in love with Zhong Yinger, when he broke up, he also had countless such numbers, but after falling in love with Bai Xue, they all began to blur, but there were new numbers again to record his relationship with Bai Xue.

Even if it is difficult now, Han Yi is still unwilling to give up like this, just like what was said at the end of the article, in the impetuous and ordinary life, there is still love sticking to it.

(End of chapter)