Dream, that dark dream again.

There is no road left and right, but in the corner, a white gardenia blooms faintly.

Dark incense floats.

"Asu, it would be nice if you weren't Gao Huan's son."

"Why? I'm Gao Huan's son, what's the difference? ”

She smiled, only shaking her head slightly.

Until the end, I didn't know that I was Gao Huan's son, and I was different from others.

……

After my mother's death, my father ordered the room where my mother left to be locked and never opened again.

A few days later, the nurse Zheng said to me, "Asu, we are leaving Jinyang."

I am happy.

I hate this deep house, and one day, I'm going to kill everyone in this house.

People are really fragile and too easily influenced by others.

I was, for a time, give up on this idea.

Probably because I've known her for too long and been influenced by her.

Every time I go to her with Keiyuki, she is very happy.

Sometimes I quietly wonder, is she happy to see me, or is she happy to see Jingzhi?

Jiaruo is gentle and quiet, with a quiet and white face like a gardenia.

The first time I met her, I had just arrived in Fenzhou.

Jingzhi took me to the Chen Mansion to find her.

I followed Jingzhi and walked along the clear pond through the winding corridors of the Chen Mansion.

At the end of the nine-turn cloister is said to be an octagonal pavilion.

A girl in a snow-white short shirt was lying on the back of a beautiful woman near the water, staring stupidly at the red carp patrolling under the gazebo in a daze.

The sun shone obliquely on her face, setting a delicate outline.

"Jiaruo!" Salute her.

She heard it, turned her face to look at it, and smiled brightly.

I don't think I'll ever forget that smile for the rest of my life.

I haven't seen a smile like that since my mother left.

I followed Keiyuki briskly to the gazebo. She got up from the beauty and stood in front of us so delicately.

I quietly looked at her, and she was half a head smaller than Jingzhi.

She had a pair of deer-like eyes, dark and moist, like a little tear, and she was pitiful.

When I got closer, I could see that her white undershirt had silver thread embroidery. Just where the hem of the shirt was, on the left, was embroidered with a palm-sized gardenia.

On the white skirt of the flower, this time on the right, there is also a palm-sized gardenia.

I could smell the scent of gardenias.

At that time, I was young and not focused enough, and I was probably too distracted to stare at the gardenia—

Jingzhi pushed me: "Why are you stunned?" ”

I jerked back, looking at Jingzhi and then at her, a little bewildered.

She looked at me and couldn't help but chuckle.

At that moment, I felt my face burn.

That night, she walked into my dream. She danced in my dreams, like a frightening wave.

In the dream, she smiled at me, a girl with deer eyes and gardenias embroidered on her clothes.

My face is hot again.

……

When did I first notice that something unusual was between her and Keiyuki?

I don't remember exactly.

Probably started with Keiyuki's growing reluctance to go with me to her.

The two of them began to deliberately avoid me.

Every time I go to see her alone and come back, Jingzhi is always happy, and his whole face is glowing.

I couldn't help it anymore, and once I secretly followed Jingzhi all the way to the maple forest outside the city.

She was there waiting for him, looking forward to it.

Seeing him coming, the light in the eyes of the deer was so moving.

That brilliance hurt me.

They were so intimate, so intimate that I felt like I was shaking all over.

It was the most painful day for me since my mother died. For a moment, I felt that I was the only one left in the world.

This impermanence and uncertain destiny has no one to walk with me.

In this night's dream, I heard a voice, a strange and sharp voice saying to me,

They betrayed you! They have abandoned you!

Go get revenge on them! Get revenge on them!

A pair of huge claws pinched the girl in white fiercely, and then tore -

Blood gushed out, and she couldn't scream.

Those eyes kept staring at me, as if begging me to save her.

I gritted my teeth, why save her! She betrayed me!

When I woke up, I felt that the evil beast in my heart also opened its eyes.

I went to look for her, and when I went, I hated her.

Even the wind brought up by the clothes has murderous intent.

I am no longer the silent and shy teenager, I want to grab her like a beast, I want to hurt her like a murderous beast, I want to punish her!

I will punish these people who betrayed me!

In addition to her, there is also respect!

I'm the claws of my dreams, trying to tear them to shreds!

She was still dressed in white, and there was a girl's unconcealable joy on her face.

Before I could speak, she said, "I have good news for you." ”

Her smile was so bright, like the first rays of sunlight shining into the Zhug window on a spring morning, and I couldn't open my eyes.

I opened my mouth, but I couldn't speak.

Her melodious voice echoed in her ears all the time. She said,

I'm going to marry Keiyuki.

For some reason, I lost my mind in that moment.

The cruel thoughts that I had thought about vanished in that instant.

When I saw her so happy, I suddenly had a bitter and sweet feeling.

My heart was a little uncomfortable.

She didn't know that I liked her and was going to marry someone else.

I was disqualified from speaking before I could be rejected by her.

She still looked at me happily, and when she saw that I was unevenly dressed, she reached out to help me fix it.

"I'm the happiest person in the world now," she said. If only it could be like this forever. ”

Yes, everyone can see that she is the happiest person in the world.

She is married to Jingzhi.

Such a good respect, the respect that accompanied and guarded me when I was lonely and wandering, and the respect that stood up for me when I was bullied.

It's a proper Agan, the most loyal friend.

Then continue to be the happiest person in the world.

The happiness of her and Jingzhi will be guarded by me, a superfluous person.

I was willing.

Later, I returned to Jinyang, was made king by my father, and had my own fief.

Later, when the situation became tight, he sent Jiaruo and her infant child to Laiji to take care of me.

The Imperial Physician said that I would not live to be thirty years old.

Come to think of it, I'm not qualified to marry Jiaruo.

But I didn't expect that Jingzhi would die earlier than me.

When I returned to Jinyang, we had made an appointment to conquer the world together in the future. He led the troops to fight, and I planned the court, and we unified the north together and waved our army to the south.

But the city of Fenzhou was broken, and Jing was killed in battle.

When I rushed to Fenzhou with Jiaruo's mother and daughter, there was only a mess and scorched earth left behind by Yuwentai's army.

Keiyuki has been hastily buried, and I heard that the head has not been found.

He lay dead and resting forever in the darkness of the earth, not leaving a single word.

Jiaruo couldn't even cry, just looked at me and repeated the same sentence:

Asu, there is no more respect.

Half a year later, she died suddenly in her old house in Fenzhou under the torture of illness.

When I rushed from Linji to Fenzhou that night, she was already describing the withered oil lamp as withered.

She only said one thing to me:

"Asu, it would be nice if you weren't Gao Huan's son."

"Why? I'm Gao Huan's son, what's the difference? ”

She smiled palely. Shook his head.

And then closed his eyes forever.

She still didn't tell me the answer.

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