"We didn't even find a place to sit and talk, I just asked him what he had been up to all these years, and he said he was busy eating. Hehe, it's the same as before. ”

Ye Shan also chuckled in his heart, yes, he is like that.

"Then, when I asked him about you, his expression froze."

"And then?" Ye Shan even became excited to breathe.

Under my questioning, he finally said that it was over, no matter what happened, it was over, and there was no need to ask about the past, and it didn't matter what the reason was. These are his exact words. ”

Hearing this, Ye Shan's heart suddenly turned cold.

- It's not important, it's not important.

However, she has been pregnant for several years, and possibly even longer.

"Ye Shan, are you okay?"

"It's fine." Ye Shan smiled bitterly, "Yes, what's important, it doesn't matter." After saying that, tears fell inadvertently.

"I still say the same thing, Lin Qinghai is a hundred times better than him, a thousand times, what you want to catch is what you are now. I'm telling you this just to tell you that Tang Wending doesn't care about you, you should be damned. "Liu Jia is simply well-intentioned.

"I see, Jia, thank you!"

Hanging up the phone, Ye Shan's heart couldn't calm down for a long time. She also thought that Tang Wending might miss her at some point, as much as she missed him, even if it was just for a few seconds. However, it's not like that, if it weren't for Liu Jia mentioning it, he might have forgotten all about the past.

This night, Ye Shan couldn't sleep, she looked at the outside light on the curtains, tears flowed through her temples, wetting the pillow towel. She couldn't wait to chase after Tang Wending immediately and ask fiercely, how could she be so ruthless, how could she be so ruthless......

Over the years, Ye Shan has always thought that maybe one day she will meet Tang Wending unexpectedly in a certain city, so she must catch up and ask the reason for the sudden disappearance of those few times, and she must ask if those past days are sincere.

Unfortunately, I didn't meet it once. Never.

Therefore, Ye Shan thought that they would never get along again, and those questions and answers would become her eternal knots and seriously affect her life.

Suddenly, she had an idea: find Tang Wending and ask for clarification.

At this time, Lin Qinghai, who was lying next to Ye Shan, turned over and did not wake up. Ye Shan felt sorry, but she decided that she had to do that, and no one could stop her.

Early the next morning, Ye Shan hurriedly turned on the computer to contact Tang Wending, and sending an email was her only way. Unexpectedly, as soon as I opened the mailbox, I saw an unread email in the inbox.

Tang Wending - it must be him, Ye Shan is sure.

Her hand holding the mouse trembled, and even her heart trembled.

"I'm sorry!"

That's all there was in the email.

Ye Shan's eyes suddenly moistened, he was sorry for her, but these three words were far from making up for the harm he had done to her, and these three words seemed so irresponsible.

Ye Shan quickly tapped on the keyboard and wrote:

"Yes, you are sorry for me, because your life has become abnormal, because you and I have lost a lot. If you really feel sorry, you should come and meet me and help me tie those knots. If you're not hypocritical......"

After sending the email, Ye Shan couldn't cry anymore. So far, this is the first time she has complained about Tang Wending, and even a little angry, so that she felt suffocated, she walked to the window and exhaled heavily, but it still couldn't calm her excited emotions.

She wanted to talk to someone, she wanted to vomit as fast as possible, otherwise she felt like she was going to suffocate to death.

The first person Ye Shan thought of was Chen Qihua. Since the last time he and Lin Qinghai were introduced, they haven't seen each other for more than half a month. However, Chen Qihua is still like that, as long as Ye Shan makes a phone call, he must say "OK".

In front of the café they frequented was a row of plane trees, now with a few leaves left.

It's really heart-wrenching to see the lush trees become like this. Fortunately, it will become lush again in the coming year, but it will be different.

Ye Shan thought leisurely.

"It's getting colder!" Ye Shan's thoughts were interrupted by Chen Qihua's approach, who was wearing a khaki jacket.

"What's wrong with you?" Chen Qihua sat down and found that Ye Shan's eyes were red, and he was very surprised.

"There's something going on." Ye Shan did not shy away from it.

"I'm listening."

"You're going to think I'm a bad woman."

"I only know until I hear it." Chen Qihua made a gesture of please.

Then, Ye Shan told Chen Qihua the whole thing with a sad expression. The leaves of the sycamore trees outside the window fell more and more, but Chen Qihua became more and more silent.

"Remembering the past." Chen Qihua muttered that when he heard it, he should have thought of Youlin, so he would seem a little sad.

"Disappointed in me."

"Nope." Chen Qihua came back to his senses, "It's just heart-wrenching." ”

After a while, Chen Qihua continued: "Perhaps, you don't love that person anymore." What you care about is the 'reason', the reason why he disappears every time. ”

"Maybe." Ye Shan looked out the window.

"Have you thought about the future?"

"What?" Ye Shan turned her head.

"He came to you, and then?"

"Ask things clearly, I don't want to live with my baggage anymore."

"What about after you let go of your baggage?"

Ye Shan bowed her head and was silent. She didn't know if Tang Wending would appear, and where would he come "after".

"If things are like in a TV series, the hero has a last resort to leave, and the heroine finds out that everything is just a misunderstanding, and then they plan their future lives."

Looking at Chen Qihua's serious expression, Ye Shan knew that he was worried that she would be like Youlin, so she would leave the hurt and walk away.

"We're not characters in a TV series. Besides, he's not my hero anymore, and I'm not a heroine. ”

"I hope that's the case." Chen Qihua picked up the coffee and didn't speak again.

After seeing Chen Qihua, Ye Shan felt even more bored and couldn't do anything. She spends her days opening and closing mailboxes, closing mailboxes, opening mailboxes, and repeating them. However, Tang Wending still did not reply.

This situation lasted for four days, and in the end, Ye Shan was completely desperate.

"What's wrong with you?" On the fourth night, when Ye Shan nestled in the sofa and pillowed her head on Lin Qinghai's lap, Lin Qinghai asked gently.

"Huh?" Ye Shan was still staring at the TV.

"You look sullen."

"Ah, nothing, maybe it's because it's getting colder."

"Haha!" Lin Qinghai stroked Ye Shan's hair while laughing, "Women always like to associate their mood with the weather. ”

Ye Shan was speechless, just laughed dryly.

Lin Qinghai knew that she didn't want to say it, so she didn't ask anymore.

When the entertainment program on TV ended, Lin Qinghai said lightly something that touched Ye Shan the most, he said: "Shan, you are free, I don't want you to move here to restrict you, I just want to see you every day." ”

was moved, which had already made Ye Shan speechless, she got up and threw herself into Lin Qinghai's arms and hugged her tightly.

Warm and reassuring.

Ye Shan had this feeling again that night.

Then, Ye Shan tried to forget about meeting Tang Wending. Since he didn't even have the courage to reply to the email, since his apology was just hypocritical, what was the use of meeting. He's just an irresponsible person, just a coward.

Ye Shan thought of Tang Wending as best she could, so that she could live with peace of mind.

However, when I met with Chen Qihua, I occasionally talked about it.

"I'm ridiculous." Ye Shan laughed at herself.

"Sort of." Chen Qihua said bluntly.

"Isn't it time to be comforted?"

"What is there to be comforted in, you are so strong, and besides, it is not something to be comforted about." Chen Qihua drank coffee indifferently.

"Actually, I'm to blame."

"Why bother?" Chen Qihua looked at her, "Is it so difficult to settle down and live a good life?" ”

"It's not hard, I will." Ye Shan raised the corners of her mouth.

Outside the window, the leaves of the plane tree were almost gone, and the dry branches were bald there. When everything is exposed, the scars look so ordinary that there is nothing to pity about.

However, the expectations in her heart have not completely disappeared.