When I got home, I sat on the bed with my phone in my hand, waiting for a message from the QQ group of the three of us.

I know the moon and Cheng Zexin, and I know that after I said these words to the moon today, she will definitely relay this matter to Cheng Zexin. Then without any action from me, Cheng Zexin will take the initiative to send the message. This is why when they asked me to ask Cheng Zexin to come out alone, I chose to refuse.

If I hadn't met the moon halfway today, I wouldn't have asked the moon to talk to her alone, and in the same way, if I had to meet Cheng Zexin alone, I would only feel very embarrassed in this case, and I wouldn't be able to say a word, which might make things worse.

I kept this action like this and waited for about two hours, and the avatar of our QQ group finally flashed. I couldn't wait to open the dialog, thinking that I would be able to see a happy ending, and I was a little excited. But what neither I nor the moon expected was that the message sent by Cheng Zexin was not related to what we were thinking.

She actually said goodbye to us.

She's going abroad, and if nothing else, it's supposed to be a flight to England next Tuesday.

As soon as I finished reading this message, the moon smashed my message in private chat like crazy. I opened it and saw that it was all about Cheng Zexin going abroad. I was just about to give her a reply I didn't know anything, when I saw the dialog box mileage Zexin's avatar flashed.

"Xiaobai, I'm sorry."

I've always felt that the combination of the words "I'm sorry" is very glaring, so I never like the words "I'm sorry" when they tell me I'm sorry. I've also told them not to mention those three words to me unless it's something big that requires you to say sorry. Now that Cheng Zexin has typed these three words, I only feel that the world is spinning, as if there has been a ten-magnitude earthquake in my world.

From making up your mind to contacting the school to finally preparing for the visa, these things add up to absolutely impossible to complete in one day, so Cheng Zexin should have been ready to go abroad, and it is more likely that she had already taken care of everything before we had problems, but for such a long time, she didn't even mention half a word to us.

She really should have said sorry to me.

As I watched, tears began to fall, and I wanted to throw away my phone and never read the messages again. But I couldn't control myself, so I still gave Cheng Zexin a reply.

"Don't cry."

I don't know what Cheng Zexin thinks, but I know that I hope she doesn't cry anymore, and I hope she cries more painfully than me. This feeling of being deceived and concealed makes my heart twist and ache, and it is really difficult for me to accept. I think if Cheng Zexin told me the news on the day he decided to go abroad, I would feel better than now.

At least when I found out about it, I wouldn't have had a problem with her, and I would have time to get used to the news and ......

And then I still can't accept this fact.

About five minutes later, Cheng Zexin sent a very long message, I read it word by word, and at the end of the reading, I was left to cry loudly.

"Xiaobai, I really want to say sorry to you this time, forgive me for not telling you about this matter in advance. In fact, I already knew and decided that I was going abroad a long time ago. For so long, I have been trying to escape this established fact, trying to change my father's mind, but you also know how difficult it is to convince my father from my point of view, I have quarreled and struggled, but after a year, I can only compromise. ”

"Nine times out of ten, life is unsatisfactory, and my biggest disappointment is probably that I can't choose my own background. I don't have the means or courage to sustain me against my father's wishes, so I have no choice but to leave you. ”

"This matter is not something I can control, but there is one thing that I can control, but I let it continue to develop in a bad direction, and I have not stopped it for half a minute, which should be the most wrong thing I have done in the past ten years of life. Actually, I don't say it, and you should be able to guess what I mean. The thing about the moon is still my fault in the end. I should have explained to you, and I should have stayed by your side when you were sad, but I didn't. Not only no, but I even thought that if the two of us broke up completely through this incident, I would be able to get out of here in peace. I'll admit that I really had such vicious and cruel thoughts at the time, but until now, I still can't convince myself to give up on you. ”

"I really don't know what to do to give up, I've tried and tried, but the thought of actually leaving you alone and going to a strange city makes me feel terrified. We've known each other for five years, and during that time, I've come to rely on you as my greatest support. Although I never told you about it, but since that time when I was sick and you insisted on sending me to the hospital, I felt that if there was anyone else in this world who loved me, it should be you Liang Xiaobai alone. There will be no one in this world who is better to me than you, and I want to live with you for the rest of my life as we long. You have a cat, I have a dog, and the two of us get together to watch TV series, eat delicious things, and then take our cats and dogs to play together in addition to studying and working. We can also travel together with a backpack, you write the travelogues, I take the pictures, and then organize them into photo albums, and when we are old, we can turn it over and over again to remember the days when we were young. ”

"But I broke my promise, and I don't know when I'll be back, and I don't know if I'll be able to come back."

"I can't get myself to ask for your forgiveness, because I myself feel unforgivable. But no matter what, I have to tell you, Xiaobai, you are the most important person in my life. No matter how young I am, I will never find anyone who is as important to me as you are to me. So I want to beg you, don't come to see me off, don't say goodbye to me, just give me a chance to make amends, and wait for me to come back. ”

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