Song Zitian invited me to dance, but the little passion I had just ignited was instantly extinguished by Shen Yue. My mind was full of Shen Yue, so much so that in the bar that day, I didn't even move the fruit plate, so I ended it hastily.

On the way home for Song Zitian, he asked me, "Mu Xi, who did you meet?" ”

I turned my face out the window: "College classmates." ”

"Female?"

"Hmm."

"In, then, selling liquor?"

"It should be. She seems to be the least cannibalistic girl I've seen in so many years. Since she first entered college, she has always been mysterious, but everyone doesn't think much about it, thinking that she is so beautiful and it is normal to have a boyfriend. As a result, the one I see today is not the one I usually see. I finished and lowered my head.

Song Zitian parked the car on the side of the road: "Actually, it's nothing, everyone has their own life, you, why did you see her, such a big reaction?" ”

I didn't answer directly, and there was a pause. For a while, Song Zitian didn't speak. He seems to be waiting for me as well. After a while, I sighed, "I don't know either. Like you said, everyone has their own life, but I always feel that I put something in my heart, that is, something in my heart, in, no, should I say, sustenance? Yes, pinned on her. However, when she was like this, I was suddenly very lost. It's that feeling, feeling like I'm disappointed in something that still has hope. ”

Song Zitian took out a cigarette from his pocket, lit it, spit out two puffs, and then said leisurely: "Cao Muxi, how empty are you?" You're actually pinning all your disappointments on strangers and pretending to be hope? ”

I didn't answer, but kept looking my face out the window. After Song Zitian finished smoking a cigarette, he called me: "Hey, Cao Muxi, look at me, come, look at me." ”

I turned my head to him in the driver's seat.

"Since you like this and that so much, can you put something on me? There are ready-made big living people who you shouldn't practice, a whole group of people on both sides, who are sentimental about this and that every day, are you bored or not? The corners of my mouth barely tugged into a smile: "I don't know what's wrong with me." ”

As soon as the voice fell: "Be my girlfriend!" I'm serious. I'll admit that I'm a bit of a ruffian, but what I said to you on the way here was true. It's been more than three years, and I've been waiting for you for more than three years. Hehe~ Maybe you don't believe it, but what I'm saying is really true. I can't guarantee anything else, but I can guarantee that I will be loyal to you. ”

Listening to Song Zitian's words, I sneered and laughed: "Loyal? You are a king and a subject! ”

"Ah, no, no, it's just, single-mindedly, single-mindedly." Song Zitian hurriedly explained. Although the street lights were dim and dark at night, I still saw Song Zitian's red face.

I looked at him and smiled faintly: "It's not that I don't believe you, but, I, I don't want to yet." ”

"What's your reason for this? Is it okay to be reliable? Yes? Cao Muxi? Do you see who says to reject others to say, ah, I'm sorry, I don't want to now. Then you think about it tomorrow, what's the matter, I still have to make an appointment? Song Zitian gave me a roll of his eyes as he spoke.

"I know, it's a bad reason. However, I also mean the truth. Now, I really don't have that intention. ”

"You listen to me give you an analysis, you say you, if you are with me, is there anyone who can make you happy? Someone to accompany you to talk about depression? If you have a cold and fever, you can't stay in bed with someone? What's missing, someone is paying you money to buy you? Maybe, I'll sign up for that chef class, and I can learn two dishes to cook for you? I'll go, Cao Muxi, so many favorable conditions are placed here, you don't want to prevaricate me back? Song Zitian's expression was very exaggerated, and I could see that I had forgotten what happened to Shen Yue just now.

I snickered in my heart: "You're not afraid that your mother will blow up the temple!" ”

"Hey, I'm kidding you. My mom had long forgotten how many years had passed. Take 10,000 steps back, even if she remembers, she won't stop the person I like. Feel relieved. ”

I still didn't speak. Song Zitian looked at me for a long time: "Are you someone in your heart?" ”

I was shocked: "No, no, really not." ”

"Okay, then, Cao Muxi, when do you want to fall in love, look for me. I'll make a number for myself first! After Song Zitian finished speaking, he took a piece of paper from the car, wrote a big number one on it with a pen, and pinned it to the zipper of his coat: "Look at it, Cao Muxi, I'm the No. 1 team member." Remember! Stop the whole bunch! ”

His action made me laugh so much that tears came out.

What happened later made me timid to even remember this paragraph. I'm not afraid that I can't bear to face the little beauty under the street lamp, but I'm afraid to face the person in that story.

In the days since I got home, I have been thinking about Shen Yue, and I have tried to argue again and again that she is not what I think she is, and must not be. This kind of self-consolation makes me even more cowardly to pierce the truth.

Before school started, Liu Zhen sent me a text message. It probably meant asking me when I was going to school, and I replied with a date and didn't say much.

On the first day of school, I was the first to arrive in the dormitory. However, I didn't see Jiang Shanshan's luggage this time, and of course, she couldn't be in the hospital at this time. Liu Zhen brought me her family's specialty, and this time it was not sugar, but dried sweet potatoes dried by her mother. Actually, it's quite delicious, but I can't eat it because I don't know the taste.

This time, Liu Zhen sat there chattering as she did when she reported for duty. It's just that this time, she is sitting on a chair on the ground, not Jiang Shanshan's bedside. Around evening, Jiang Shanshan arrived at the dormitory. She seemed to be quite angry, threw her luggage over the bed, turned and walked out, chewing a gum in her mouth.

Liu Zhen glanced at me, I smiled faintly, and didn't say anything.

On that day, I always felt that something was on my mind. It's like looking forward to the arrival of a person, and then to confirm something, but in the end, it is to no avail. This illusion is staged many times in an afternoon, just like the contradiction of people, the more you want to verify a thing, the more you want to analyze the truth of this matter, but you are afraid to face it, that feeling is actually very painful.

My mood has not been very ideal, so Liu Zhen talked for a long time, and when she saw that I didn't react, she gave up. However, she also asked several times, is there anything on her mind? I smiled, "No." ”

After packing my luggage, Liu Zhen asked me if I wanted to go to the library or cafeteria, and I refused her, saying that I was a little tired and wanted to lie down for a while.

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