Although Cao Ge and Xue Hao took a lot of effort to explain this truth to Cao Cancan, Cao Cancan was still a child after all. Just like me at the time, I don't seem to understand what the two of them are saying. It wasn't until I grew up that I experienced some so-called love that I realized that this adult world is really as they say, and the thing of feelings is really not as simple as understanding and simple cognition. No matter what kind of relationship is established, maintained, or even broken, there are too many external objective factors that interfere with your determination and make decisions.

After Cao Cancan said that sentence to Xue Hao, he turned around and ran upstairs crying. Xue Hao was still squatting down and talking to her at that time, he looked at the darkness at the stairs that was gradually obliterated, I don't know what Xue Hao's mood was at that time, was it sentimental or helpless?

These remarks, after all, are not in class, the two of them are not teachers, they are just telling Cao Cancan through their own life experience that the thinking of adults is complicated and the reality of society is gloomy. They are guiding Cao Cancan out of the haze and out of the pain of his mother's death. Of course, since you are not a teacher, you have no right as a bystander to judge whether this vivid life lesson is a success or a failure.

However, until everyone went to sacrifice Aunt Qin'er, Cao Cancan never mentioned my mother again, and his mood was relatively stable. Compared to the previous days, it can be seen that there is a little relief. I suspect that so much advice must have been listened to a little bit.

After Aunt Qin's death, Cao Cancan gave me a new understanding of her. My impression of her, from flamboyant and domineering to a little sensible, and now to a melancholy teenager, I suddenly found that the multifaceted nature of people sometimes seems to be really difficult to detect without great sorrow and joy. Cao Cancan has changed from a tsundere little jaguar to a little girl who is now quietly riding on a boat, and this kind of personality gap makes me feel a cold sense of desolation and helplessness every time I pass by her.

Xue Hao and Cao Ge took their mother to the hospital for a test on the day of the sacrifice to Aunt Qin, but the results took a few days to come out, maybe the medical level of that era was not as advanced and developed as it is now, in short, I have the impression that it was a few days apart. During dinner in the evening, Cao Ge asked me to come home at noon to see my mother recently, and I hummed and changed the topic.

Uh-huh, yes, but I know my temper after all, and I didn't go.

These days, I'm still going out early and returning late to school. During the day, I would wander the streets of Nanjing, and I was afraid that passers-by would find out that I was a truant child wearing a school uniform, so I brought a coat with me. However, Nanjing in November is still relatively cold, and after a few rains, the wind blowing is intimidating.

I would choose shopping malls, underpass entrances, newsstands, etc., to wander around the streets of strangers I had never seen before, and to see them doing the most mundane things. At that time, I thought, if this person all looks the same, there is no such thing as mediocrity and non-mediocrity, after all, the nature of human existence is determined, and the general direction of everyone's troubles, worries, happiness and hopes is the same. They all crown vulgar thoughts in everyone's joys, sorrows, and sorrows, and instill them in their own vulgar desires for life. This in itself is the commonality of human beings, and only fate gives everyone a difference.

I sometimes sit on the steps and think about Aunt Qin, I think of her when I see someone who looks a little like her walking by, and I occasionally see my mother crossing the road in a panic at the intersection of red lights, just like her flustered life without regulations, every step is a line that needs to be crossed.

During that time, I was very free, and although the death of Aunt Qin made me feel very heavy, the days of wandering the streets of Nanjing occasionally made me feel a little relaxed. Later, I thought that the reason why I became more and more indifferent to this society and was able to face up to the unfair treatment of my own fate may have a lot to do with that time. Because I have seen too many similar or different lives, and I have seen too many similar and colorful plots. Is it true that the more you see, the more you experience, the more you think, the more negative people will become? In short, I suddenly found that I had lost the capital and mentality to be able to entertain myself.

And it was only a few months ago that I showed this kind of self-entertaining skill.

One day, I suddenly remembered Cao Ge's suggestion to ask me to see my mother, I thought about it, and finally stopped.

The distance between me and my mother, which is not far away, was originally stuck on the same line, but with the death of Aunt Qin, I don't know why, and suddenly, the distance between us widened. It was as if one of the few remaining threads between me and my mother had suddenly broken. Gradually, I became one with my mother and my father—the strangers I knew most well.

During that time, the days flew by. It's another week, on Saturday, Cao Cancan was sitting on the sofa with a comb after breakfast to comb his hair, and suddenly remembered the doorbell outside the door, but no one paid attention to who came and went in the house recently.

When Wu's mother entered the house with a child, I had just come out of the bathroom and was dumbfounded.

"Kan Tao?! You, you, how did you get here? "I grew my mouth in surprise.

Cao Cancan heard the name I shouted, she suddenly became calm, she turned back suddenly, and when she was sure that it was indeed Kan Tao standing at the door, she threw the comb in her hand on the sofa, turned around and ran over.

"Kan Tao, why are you here?"

"Ah, I was supposed to be here a few days ago, but then I didn't think it was appropriate. I'm thinking about you~you~"

"Is it cold outside? Come on in! Cao Cancan hurriedly beckoned Kan Tao into the house. After sitting down, Kan Tao politely greeted the adults, and sat on the sofa nervously.

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry! Get on the couch! Kan Tao said embarrassedly.

"It's okay, it's okay!" Cao Cancan hurriedly comforted.

"Well, you, are you okay?" Kan Tao has no subject in this sentence, I thought he was asking Cao Cancan, after all, her mother had just passed away, and it was normal to ask about such a big thing. As a result, I wiped my hands and looked up, but met Kan Tao's gaze, which scared me.

"I'm not good." After Cao Cancan finished speaking, he lowered his head and sobbed quietly. Kan Tao hurriedly picked up the paper on the coffee table and handed it over, as a result, the moment Cao Cancan took the tissue, he cried loudly, crying so that Kan Tao was stunned, he was nervous and scared, and he didn't know how to persuade him, I saw that his face was red.

"You, hey, I don't know how to persuade you, that, I borrowed the class notes from your class leader, I copied a copy, I don't know when you can go back to school, this note should be of some use to you." Kan Tao said, taking out a thick book from his schoolbag and placing it on the table. Then, he took out another one and put it next to the book: "This is for Cao Muxi." You, if you two are at home, if you are in a good mood, take a few looks. Kan Tao lowered his head after speaking.

He looked very funny at the time, and the person who used to make fun of me at school is like a kitten today.

Cao Cancan saw the notebook on the table, suddenly stopped crying, she reached out and picked it up and opened it and turned a few pages, wow~ started again, scared Kan Tao kept looking at me, and that look was asking for help.

"Thank you, you're so nice." Cao Cancan said while crying with his mouth wide open.

"Ah, no, no thanks. I'm afraid, just thinking, you two can't go to school recently, don't, don't delay, otherwise you won't be able to pass the exam, and you will have to repeat the grade. Cao Cancan's cry was very loud, and thanks to her crying, everyone didn't hear it, Kan Tao was talking about the two of you.

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