Putting my phone down, I looked out the window. The sun was good.

I suddenly remembered the first time I saw Cao Cancan, I was sitting in the back seat of Uncle Zhao's car, that kind of fear, that kind of cowardice and fear;

I suddenly remembered that after the incident at the east window, I didn't dare to look up at Aunt Qin'er's eyes, I didn't dare to dissect her inner world through her confused eyes, I was afraid to see Aunt Qin'er's helplessness;

I also remembered the way my mother looked at me before she died, and I, after I was ten years old, I owe her, Mom.

Is the grievance of this world revenged? I think it's pretty much there.

I didn't tell Liu Zhen about the stomach surgery, and at first, I didn't want Arauy to know. Although he still looked weak when he returned to Toronto after being discharged from the hospital, Arauy saw it as the result of the loss of his son one after another. However, Arauy still found clues in the drugs I was taking.

When she found out that I had been alone to have my tumour removed, Arauy cried loudly. I smiled and told her, "It's okay, cut it, it's all right." You see, my hair is still there, and it's still beautiful. ”

Arauy once asked me; "You say, how much suffering does a person have to go through before it can be counted as true growth?"

I said, I don't know.

In the autumn of that year, I returned to Nanjing. When Arauy went to see me off at the airport, he told me, "Muxi, stay with your family." Don't leave again. It is said that one glance is ten thousand years, and too often, you don't even have time to raise your eyelids to look at that look, and the people around you have left you for ten thousand years. I nodded.

After returning to Nanjing, I did not go directly to Cao's house, but found Liu Zhen.

So, the opening scene appeared.

I sold my car, my house, my luxuries. However, I still felt like I had nothing.

In the past few years in Toronto, all the beauty I boasted of was rewarded with one resounding slap after another in my pain.

That year, when I got into Liu Zhen's Cayenne, I was the poorest beggar under the sun, even though I was not short of money.

Everything in Nanjing makes me familiar and unfamiliar, Liu Zhen drove the car, took me through the bizarre night of Nanjing, when the hurried people walked under the neon, I saw my young and ignorant self, and the youth that was drifting away, and I insisted on going my own way!

I chose to see Liu Zhen, in the final analysis, I owe her a word of sorry.

Cao Ge didn't rush me back, for the people of the Cao family, as long as I arrived at this piece of land in the motherland, it would be at home.

Liu Zhen and I leaned together, we reminisced together, and we were sentimental together.

In the photo, I saw Li Kai, who was given away by my hatred, and greeted me: "Hey! Cao Muxi! In the end, it was I, Li Kai, who won! The advantage of being one step ahead is that you can watch you behave recklessly in the world! ”

I saw in the photo that Jiang Shanshan, who was sent away by me for the second half of her life because of hatred, narrowed her eyes and smiled at me: "Hey! Cao Muxi! Now you know the benefits of money, right? It's like me when I was in college, my soul piled up with banknotes is vulnerable! Didn't your mother teach you to be a philistine? Haha~ Learn to see the world with a normal heart, anyway, I can't learn. I wish you a speedy return from your studies! ”

I seemed to see my mother feeding me buns again, and that year, I was 7 years old;

I saw Aunt Jean sorting my schoolbag and pouring a glass of milk for me, when I was 11 years old;

I saw my grandmother's cunning and mean appearance, and saw her helplessness in trying her best to protect her son, that year, I was 12 years old;

I saw Cao Qi wearing a tie, with a graceful appearance, and his gestures were all seen by the chic charm of a man, that year, I was 13 years old;

I also saw Zhang Jing's just right makeup, she was shuttling up and down the Cao family's mansion, that year, I was 14 years old;

I saw Cao Ge perming his wavy curly hair, bright and moving;

I saw Ziyunfei enchanting and charming, full of charm;

I saw Cao Cancan and Kan Tao talking about their youth in the sun;

I saw Song Zitian's heart under the appearance of Song Zitian's child;

I saw Liu Zhen's timid eyes looking at me in college;

I saw Shen Yue's helplessness and tears hiding in the corner at night when no one was around, desperately trying to live;

......

I saw the 33 years I had come along the way, I saw my presumptuous and flamboyant flying under the blue sky, and I saw those mediocre people as if they were in a different world.

Time is indeed a good thing, he has allowed me to grow up slowly in the past few years in Toronto, but I also understand how much time and energy I have spent for so many years to perform this long-planned farewell ceremony?

Say goodbye to whom?

Say goodbye to youth;

Say goodbye to your younger self;

Say goodbye to all the mediocrities in my life who pass by.

I don't know, when I encounter these mediocre people in my life again, should I raise my left hand, or my right hand?

Two months later

moved out of Liu Zhen because his father was sick. Cao Cancan told me the news.

She asked me, "Mu Xi, you're back, are you still leaving?" ”

"No, I'm not leaving."

"Mu Xi, if you can, please take care of your father for me. Although I am relieved before you, please forgive me for not being able to take care of his old age. Perhaps, everyone has a heart that they can't get over in their lives, and when I mention care, I think of my mother. Perhaps, the prophetic awareness is not the same as the later awareness. ”

I can understand that.

Cao Cancan got married in a different place 3 years ago. After marriage, she doesn't seem to be as happy as she imagined. In the end, she broke her promise to Aunt Qin and went to find an ordinary person to get married.

And this is the right person, which is to say the compatibility of the three views.

When Cao Cancan disappeared at the end of the air floating in the annual rings, I knew that the girl who had a loud voice to me debating right and wrong had said goodbye to each other's desolate youth road.

Seeing each other again, it is already middle-aged.

My father, who is a little older, still doesn't talk much at home. A few years later, during the Spring Festival, my father suddenly lamented that the only regret in his life was that he did not have a "Family Portrait".

Yes, the population has passed, things are not people, and "Family Portrait" has become the only lonely point for his father Cao Mu.

Liu Zhen later found a boy who loved him very much, and the two adopted a little girl together and regarded it as their own.

Arauy's husband, who is Canadian, is said to be a top student. Not much to talk about, but would make Arauy breakfast and do laundry.

Shen Yue later settled down, found an ordinary person, and lived an ordinary life, and when her younger brother grew up, her pressure naturally decreased.

I heard that after Kan Tao got married, he left again. Didn't look for it again...

I heard that Song Zitian went abroad for a few years and came back, and founded an animation and game company with his friends, and his career is booming, but his feelings have been vacant...

I heard that Jiang Fei has been staying in Nanjing and working as a public official in a government agency, and his children are already quite old...

I heard that Zhao Song was later sent back to China for other economic frauds to await trial, but I didn't mention to others that he cheated me out of my money...

And I, the year after returning to China, was introduced by my family and married a very down-to-earth person. When the book was finished, the child had just finished his first birthday.

Illness? Do not worry. Reviewed on time and nothing happened. It's just that some things that are not easy to digest are afraid that they can no longer be eaten.

My 33 years, with its ups and downs. It wasn't until the years after the watershed that I really became the philistine person that my mother called me.

Perhaps, it was only after I re-stepped into the land of the Cao family that I was touched by the philistineness of my mother and Aunt Qin.

Nianhua is a song,

While you are singing lullabies and sunset red, the mediocre world is impermanent, the mediocre world is safe, and everything has something to expect and look forward to.

When I was young, I sang a song of praise for life, but I forgot that the philistine man stood at the forefront of the overture, waiting for the interlude of this piece. It's just that I can let it be rearranged into my life at the end, and my mother said, Cao Muxi, you succeeded!

The story, is it here?

That's it!

Thanks to the little Z who wrote for me.

I wish you all the best for the rest of your life, readers.

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