"Misunderstanding?"

"The pillow you saw on the day of the breakup was indeed given by Ding Lin, but everyone in our dormitory received such a pillow.

Before that, several juniors and sisters in the same department held a farewell party in our dormitory to bid farewell to Ding Lin...... She needed to take a break from school for some reason, and that meeting was the last time everyone was about to go their separate ways. As a parting gift, everyone received a pillow. I didn't know you would mind that much, and if I knew it would lead to our breakup, I would never have accepted it. ”

"So in your opinion, I'm an ignorant girlfriend who is jealous and unreasonable because other girls give you gifts, and is noisy and wants to break up?!" Su Guo pulled his hand out of Qin Yao's hand vigorously.

"So you took this pillow as a misunderstanding of our breakup? Crime boss? Su Guo was a little angry, and a nameless fire surged into his heart, "I spent ten years in exchange for the identity of Qin Yao's girlfriend, do you think I will give it up because of a pillow?" ”

"But you didn't come to me again after the quarrel that day......"

"I didn't look for you?!" Su Guo jumped up from the sofa excitedly, staring at Qin Yao's face that was ignorant and confused, "I regretted it less than ten minutes after the quarrel!" I went back to look for you, but what did I see? I saw you holding Ding Lin, just downstairs in your dormitory! So many people are looking at you, and I heard someone saying, 'Doesn't this man have a girlfriend?', yes, Qin Yao, you had a girlfriend at the time!" Even if you break up, it won't take more than ten minutes, but you're holding other girls who like you! ”

If it weren't for Su Guo mentioning it, Qin Yao might not have remembered that he had hugged Ding Lin.

Looking back on it today, I really can't remember the details of that time.

He remembered that he seemed to be angry for a while after Su Guo left, but it didn't take long for him to rush downstairs to find her, but he was stopped by Ding Lin downstairs in the dormitory, Ding Lin probably said something like "I'm leaving, I'm afraid I will never see each other again in this life" and then hugged himself.

But even if the hug should only last a few seconds, by the time he wanted to push the other party away, the other party had already let go. Of course, he didn't know that Su Guo would see this scene at that time.

"Ding Lin's matter was even more of a misunderstanding, she suspended school at that time because she was suffering from depression." Therefore, in front of Su Guo, Qin Yao has always been reluctant to mention more things about Ding Lin.

"Every time I quarrel, every time I say I broke up, I reconciled first. You always rely on me to like you a little more, and bully me unscrupulously......

"I thought Qin Yao, can't you, can't you coax me even once? My heart is not made of stone, I will also hurt and be sad, even if I am an ordinary friend, I can't be so badly trampled by you......

"So when I saw you and Ding Lin hugging each other, I made up my mind that I wouldn't come to you again this time! Unless you take the initiative to come to me to ask for peace, I will never forgive you! But...... You're really ruthless......"

Su Guo later learned that Ding Lin was not with Qin Yao.

In fact, whether it is Ding Lin's suspension or her depression, she doesn't need to know.

She was not afraid that Ding Lin would become her strong opponent, in fact, she was not afraid of any girl who was close to Qin Yao, even if most of them had ill intentions towards Qin Yao, she was never afraid.

What she was most afraid of at that time was Qin Yao himself, whether Qin Yao himself liked herself and cared about herself, and she didn't have any sense of security about this, because she didn't feel the same liking and caring as she did in Qin Yao.

Su Guo felt that she was not so humble and unconfident at that time, but Qin Yao was too dazzling, not only in her eyes, but also in the eyes of everyone.

Su Guo didn't know how far Qin Yao could accompany her, her greatest hope was to go to the end with him, but it was always like this, the more you expected, the more disappointed you became, and you fell into a deep circle.

Suffering from gains and losses, at a loss.

Although Su Guo was drunk to death in the bedroom, her mobile phone was not turned off, she did not turn off and did not receive any words from Qin Yao, and even the last time he went abroad was from others.

Su Ran laughed at her and said Su Guo, you were really completely abandoned, and the other party fled directly to the other side of the ocean and broke off relations with you.

"No, I regret it, I really regret it!" Qin Yao stood up, the light in the living room was blocked by him, and a shadow was over Su Guo's head, it was the shadow from Qin Yao, just like every day and night since he was twelve years old.

"You saw me downstairs with Ding Lin in the dormitory because I was about to explain to you that I wanted to take back the word 'breakup'.

"But I can't find you anywhere. I've searched your school over and over again, every classroom, every corner I thought you'd be in, but I still couldn't find you.

"I can't get through to your phone either...... That's when I realized how bad I was, it was you who always took the initiative to appear in front of me, but once you disappeared, I couldn't find it......

"I waited downstairs in your dorm that night, and I couldn't think of any way to get you out, so I had to wait for you where you were most likely to be. At two o'clock in the morning, I finally saw you coming downstairs......"

Qin Yao didn't go back to the dormitory that day, he walked to the small northeast restaurant outside the school alone, the small shop where Su Guo often packed pots and wrapped meat for himself, and he was so drunk for the first time that he was carried back.

Qin Yao no longer remembered the hug between Ding Lin and himself downstairs in the dormitory, but Qin Yao would never forget that at two o'clock in the morning that day, downstairs in Su Guo's bedroom, he saw Su Guo with a man.

Qin Yao couldn't hear what they were saying, but it was obvious that the more the man spoke, the more excited he became, and then he suddenly turned around and left. And Su Guo, obviously didn't expect the man to turn around and leave, and after being stunned for a while, he almost flew behind the man and hugged him tightly.

He can't forget the scene of Su Guo hugging other men, and after so many years, he can still clearly recall that the night sky was so dark that night, and the wind was not strong but it was cold to the bone.

Qin Yao said to Su Guo that he regretted it very much, not only did he regret that he had broken up at the time, but he actually regretted that he didn't rush over and pull Su Guo back to him that night.

This is probably the so-called character determines fate.

Even Qin Yao, who was dazzling like a star in Su Guo's heart, had his inferiority complex and unknown. Even if he always shows that he never cares with a look of indifference and rejection, he can't escape the imprint of fate.

The first time Su Guo met Qin Yao was the first day he had just moved to that town.

That year, Qin Yao's father died, and his mother took him away from the indifferent family that had never accepted their mother and son.

But what difference does it make if you move to?

All your past will turn into gossip and follow you closely, no matter where you are. Since you can't escape, you don't need to hide.

The boy who once wanted to do better and hoped to be affirmed by others gradually faded from his edge and lived indifferently until he locked himself in a room without doors and windows.

At that time, Qin Yao felt that no matter whether he fought for it or not, he would still lose it in the end, even if it was Su Guo, who was always chasing behind him, under the tempering of time, he would eventually leave.

Since you are gone, it is better to let go.

"On the day we broke up, I went to Xiaobeibei to get drunk, and Su Ran took me back to the dormitory, and then I fell asleep for two days." Qin Yao said that the person she saw at two o'clock in the morning could not be herself, and she was probably in the bedroom at that time shouting to kill the shameless dog man and woman.

"I know, I've seen your sister and ...... today After her fiancé, I knew that everything five years ago was just a misunderstanding. You misunderstand me and Ding Lin, and I misunderstand you and others. Qin Yao held Su Guo's hand again, "I don't want to break up with you, I regretted it five years ago, we, let's get back together!" ”

Su Guo had known Qin Yao since he was twelve years old, and he had never known that there would be an expression on his face that he was desperate to get something, but he had to be cautious for fear that the thing would run away.

That thing is Su Guo.

If it was five years ago, Su Guo would definitely rush towards Qin Yao without hesitation, even if he disliked and spoke ill of her, she wouldn't let go of her hand! But—

"But Qin Yao, we won't break up because of those misunderstandings."

In the discipline of feelings, Su Guo is more qualified to be a professor than Qin Yao. It was a job that was well trained by the real emotional world and then covered with scars.

So she could see it more clearly than Qin Yao, and the breakup between them might indeed stem from those somewhat ridiculous misunderstandings on the surface.

But in the final analysis, it's because I don't love enough.

If you love, if you love deeply, all misunderstandings are just thorns that can be cut off on the road of love, not the south wall, and you only need to hit it once to break your head and bleed, full of devastation and unbearable.

No one has ever forced them to break up, locked them up without meeting, without explanation, and without bravery.

"Qin Yao, you have always been the light on my way forward, warmer than the sun and more brilliant than fireworks, I am like a shadow, a light chaser, always chasing your light...... This kind of chase is tiring, but still happy. ”

The separation of her parents was the first poppy planted in Su Guo's heart, slowly nourishing and budding in her heart, and Qin Yao's appearance illuminated her heart full of gloom with pure and beautiful light.

The opium poppy gradually withers until it disappears.

"But once your light is gone, I'll be a lonely ship without a lighthouse. I thought I would drift adrift at sea without direction, never getting to shore. Su Guo's eyes still have the struggles and pain of the past, so the smile can't be soaked in the bottom of the eyes, floating on the surface, just a form, "I have always forgotten that I also have my own route, I can no longer need the light of the lighthouse, even if I hit the reef, even if I can never get to the shore, it is my own journey, not as your shadow will always stand behind you......"

Not for anyone, just to do Su Guo himself.

The goal of life is not only Qin Yao, but also other things, such as working hard for the goal of "living well even without Qin Yao".