Chapter 10 Sadness is a thing, it is difficult but it will eventually pass
It's hard to be sad about this thing, it's hard, but it will pass eventually.
Su Guo felt that he was actually a "little Internet celebrity with Weibo quotes" who was delayed by his bank work.
Weibo famous quote The little Internet celebrity solemnly told her ex-boyfriend: That's right, I was very sad to break up back then, very sad, but no matter how difficult it is, I will come through.
Thinking that he was desperately chasing Qin Yao and stumbling with Qin Yao, even if he spoke badly and had a bad attitude, he never wavered in his determination to pursue half of it. Su Guo sometimes smiled: he was really young back then, and he had such a strong heart.
Su Guo remembered that he finally forced Qin Yao to be anxious once, and Qin Yao yelled at himself: Su Guo, if you don't stare at me, I will die, right?
She remembered that she replied to him without hesitation: yes, I will die! I'm going to die sad!
The young Su Guo has a strong heart that is not afraid of failure and harm, which is because she has enough confidence and expectation for the future, because she and he are still young, and she believes that it can take ten years to impress his hard heart.
And now Su Guo is no longer strong and lonely, because she has spent ten years proving her failure, so completely.
The ten years of hard chasing and the five years of separation only prove that he may like you a little, but this does not prevent him from continuing to like others, just like the younger sister back then, like Ye Chenxi.
Of course, it also proved that sadness does not die.
When she got home, Su Guo watched a boring emotional dialogue program for a while, then took a shower, and was sitting on the sofa wiping her hair while holding the remote control to tune the program, and when the doorbell rang, she was tuning to a very interesting program recommended by Lin Zhi before, what is it called "study hard" or something......
"It's coming, it's coming." I don't know if the dead man at the door came to borrow something again, borrowed a pack of toilet paper last time, borrowed a pair of chopsticks last time, and then borrowed a pair of chopsticks again......
Su Guo opened the door and saw the "dead man" outside the door, her first reaction was to close the door quickly! But it was so shocking that the few seconds of being stunned had already missed the best time to close the door. So the two of them could only stare at each other with big eyes.
"I have something to say...... And you say. Qin Yao probably came running over, and he was a little panting when he spoke.
Su Guo said, "Oh, then you wait, I'll go change my clothes." Why don't you go downstairs to the coffee shop and sit and wait for me? ”
Qin Yao suddenly stretched out his hand and slapped on the door that Su Guo was closing, and with a bang, Su Guoren jumped in fright.
Qin Yao said, "Isn't it inconvenient to let me in?" ”
The tone is a little anxious, and the attitude is even a little angry.
Su Guo was stunned, but quickly reacted, "It's convenient, please come in, please come in." ”
Qin Yao didn't see anything outside, and strode in.
I walked to the shoe cabinet first, and without waiting for the owner's arrangement, I opened the shoe cabinet door, took a look at it and then closed it, and directly changed into a pair of gray plush slippers with rabbit ears placed outside.
The shoes are small, and Qin Yao's feet are big, which is extremely discordant.
Su Guo closed the door, the corners of his mouth turned up, "What to drink?" ”
Qin Yao dropped the sentence "casually" and went into the toilet.
Su Guo slandered in his heart: Only Professor Qin did the act of visiting empty-handed and not treating himself as an outsider.
Although he was confused about Qin Yao's behavior, Su Guo still prepared "casual" for him.
Qin Yao came out of the toilet and saw the cups on the coffee table.
"Orange juice, cola, black tea and coffee, whatever you want."
"Give me a glass of water."
Qin Yao drank two glasses of water and watched half an episode of "Study Hard", during which Su Guo also dried his hair and changed his clothes.
"Alright." Su Guo said to Qin Yao and to himself.
Well, you can say it, and I'm ready to hear it.
"What do you think I'm going to say?"
Su really wanted to rush over and beat Qin Yao up! You can fucking bully people so unscrupulously just because I like you, don't you? Came to my house at night to disturb my mother's heart that had long been like water, and now she actually questioned me? The devil knows what you're going to say!
After Ma Jingtao's roar in his heart, Su Guo's anger eased a little. can't blame him entirely, it's not that she doesn't know that this person's IQ has always been higher than EQ, and he is extremely accustomed to using IQ to crush other people's IQ, including EQ.
It's a loss of conscience!
"That's it," Su Guo cleared his throat, sat up straight, and tried his best to show a serious appearance, "I will once again answer your question in the car with sincerity and sincerity-
Qin Yao, I have been very sad in the past five years since I broke up with you, very sad, you may not be able to understand it, maybe no one can understand it either......
But it's like the chicken soup for the soul on the bad street: time will heal all the wounds. It took me five years to finally put you down, and of course if you appear in front of me in six or seven years, I may automatically extend the time, which does not mean that I am lying to you, but I really can't be sure if I don't care anymore until you appear in front of me again......
"In the past, I was always worried about whether you liked me, if you didn't like me, would I continue to like you, and if you liked me, would I suddenly dislike me one day...... Later, I thought that if a person has a bad life, it is because he thinks too much and thinks too much about the feelings of others, and he is doomed to have a bad life. So, the rest of my life is so long, I decided to be true to myself, to live a little easier, a little freer, to live like myself.
"So Qin Yao, you don't have to blame yourself, you don't have to feel that you owe me anything, the ten years at that time were my wishful thinking, and the next five years were also the breakup I mentioned first, so you see that everything was made by me, and it has nothing to do with you."
Su Guo really felt that he had the potential to become a "little Internet celebrity on Weibo", and a whole pot of chicken soup for the soul was about to move him.
But just like she said to Qin Yao, time can heal all scars, and what finally settles in her heart must be those beautiful and lovely memories at the beginning.
Even if there are not many such memories, she can still drink to quench her thirst, as long as it is the Qin Yao she has loved, she will always be a demure and beautiful person who makes people warm.
Su Guo said so much, for the first time, he put his heart in front of Qin Yao, analyzed and appreciated his heart with him, and for the first time, he faced the entanglement that should have been explained clearly five years ago.
Without a trace of resentment and hatred, it is to have a good chat with the person I liked at the beginning, talk about my likes and sadness, and then solemnly tell you: It's all over.
Qin Yao held the transparent glass in his hand, his eyes stared at the little water stain on the mouth of the cup, the water stain persisted for a while, and finally dripped down the body of the cup and fell into the palm of his hand.
The water was lukewarm, but it burned the palms of the hands.
"What do you think I'm going to say......" There is no longer the previous aggressiveness, full of conceit, only a little unwillingness and loss remain.
Su Guo thought that Professor Qin was still drilling the horns of the bull, and was still immersed in self-guilt such as "I hurt Su Guo and I have a great responsibility", so he patted Qin Yao's shoulder as a confidant big sister, "Qin Yao, it's all over......"
"I don't want to break up." Qin Yao's voice increased in vain.
"But we broke up five years ago!" Su Guo couldn't cry or laugh, and he didn't know if Professor Qin's head was short-circuited.
"What if I said that the breakup five years ago was all due to a misunderstanding?" Qin Yao took Su Guo's hand that was placed on his shoulder, "We shouldn't break up for those misunderstandings!" ”