I looked nervous, probably very embarrassed, and the classmates who entered the class on the front and back feet all looked at me in shock. I guess I must have messy hair, a pale complexion, and fine sweat on my forehead.

My eardrums were rumbling, and I seemed to hear the whistling wind in my ears, and the cold wind made my ear bones hurt. I lowered my head slightly, as if there was no connection between me and my body, and I just slumped and shrugged, I don't know what happened to me.

"Cao Muxi, come out!" Just as I was concentrating on my thoughts, a voice suddenly came from outside the classroom door, and I looked up as if I was frightened. The sound made my heart beat even faster. After calling my name, the teacher turned and left. I looked at her disappearing back, and suddenly felt that in addition to the figures of the classmates shuttling back and forth, there was also a time gap that had never been discovered. For a moment, I was in a trance. It was as if I was Doraemon, going through any door where I could dream.

Isn't it just that when you step out that door, everything is quiet?

The more trance-like it is, the more detached the soul becomes. So, I was wooden again. So much so that after a long time, a classmate bumped into me in the aisle, and when I looked up at him, he said righteously, "The teacher called you!" Didn't you hear that! I turned my head in a daze, slowly got up, lifted my stiff legs, and blended into the crowd one step at a time.

The road to "hell" is always shorter than imagined, and if I could, how I would like to pass through the road between the office and the Cao family, which can come and go far away.

Standing in the door of the office, my outstretched hand hesitated again. Opening this door, is it another heart-wrenching journey? On the other hand, if you don't open it, can you escape it? Fortunately, when a ray of light came out of the crack in the door, I saw that under the spilled light, there was only the head teacher. She lifted her chin slightly, pointed to the chair across from her, and motioned for me to sit down.

"Didn't you hear something you didn't want to hear? Well? The teacher's words, I was both shocked and surprised, my hands kept stirring, my mouth was like glue, I wanted to say but couldn't open my mouth. And my silence is obviously acquiescence.

"As your teacher, don't make any judgments about your parents and family, the teacher comes to you just to tell you that everything has a mature transition period, and after this time, it's fine. Teachers want you to be strong. Do you understand? I still didn't look up, biting my lower lip, feeling very uncomfortable.

Maybe a stubborn person like me, how many people in this world are like me, afraid of being cared for, afraid of being soft in their hearts, afraid of being guessed, when you feel that many of your little psychology are well hidden by yourself, in fact, you are waiting for a good time, so that you can burst into a sea of tears in an instant and drown the past.

I held back my tears and didn't fall, but my heart was already starting to surge.

"It's better for you to go home and discuss with your mother and take a break from school for a while, or, simply take a year off, which is considered a squat." After the teacher finished speaking, he stared into my eyes, as if waiting for my answer. I blinked and didn't speak. The teacher explained, "The teacher thinks that after this stage, it may be more beneficial to you. I'm afraid, I'm afraid that these public opinion campaigns will be detrimental to you and your growth! "I can actually understand, I know that the teacher is afraid that this bad remarks from the outside world will hurt my young heart too deeply, and then leave a shadow or some radical behavior. I smiled in my heart, no matter how sad things were, I have experienced them, not to mention the public opinion of people who have nothing to do with me.

After thinking about this, I suddenly felt that I seemed to be very sick, and I just ran away from the world, am I the one who wants to escape the world? Am I the one who wants to escape from reality and go to a place where there are no worries?

Be.

At that time, this conversation with the teacher made me suddenly dig out my two sides. I found that my psychological acceptance and assault ability to the great truth are very strong. In other words, I always leave my strong side to the eyes of all the people in this world, and the humble and fragile side, the vulnerable side, always sip alone in the middle of the night, and then become injured.

I didn't say anything about the teacher's suggestion, so I got up in a hurry and walked out of the door.

Suspended? Hehe~ Actually, I want to too. But does the world really allow me? I'm not Cao Cancan, I have nowhere to go, my body has nowhere to hide, and my soul has nowhere to put it. How did I bury my fate?

Like a puppet, I walked back to the classroom one step at a time. In the middle of the lesson, the bell rang to stop the hustle and bustle in an instant, and when time stood still in the familiar window in the corridor, I suddenly stopped again. The haze is far away from the stream, and the trees want to be quiet and the wind does not stop. My gaze seems to have lost the sensitivity of the previous few days, the time that stayed in front of me, indifferent to the flowers, and the loneliness of life parting.

The road of this life, with ravines and ravines, one foot deep and one foot shallow, is like what? Like the boundless wheat fields in the dark world, there is yellow and clear, but there is no harvest.

I don't know how I got through to the end of school, and the head of the river is like a bowl of paste that has been overturned, and the people who stir it up want to vomit. I thought that this terrible day was about to come to an end in the evening, but as a result, as everyone knows, there is still a good show waiting for me outside this gate.

Kan Tao and I went out of the school gate together. As soon as I looked up, I saw Kan Tao's mother. She snatched the schoolbag from Kan Tao's shoulder: "Quick, get in the car!" Don't talk so much nonsense with children with bad family style! Kan Tao's mother dragged a long tail note, and her newly permed hair was like instant noodles on the supermarket shelf, full of elasticity, and trembling with the force of her tone.

"Mom! What are you talking about! Kan Tao argued with his mother while looking at me awkwardly.

"Am I wrong? Heh~ I'll just say, the child of this director's family is so low-key~ I haven't seen a few pairs of shoes all year round, and it's really shabby! And this director's wife, tsk, thrown in the crowd, I don't know who can take a second look, no, now it's all right! The melons and fruits of the outer seedlings are not sweet, there is a reason! When Kan Tao's mother said these words, her eyes rolled and she was very arrogant. I heard Kan Tao, who was forced into the car by her mother, calling her mother vigorously, and he tried his best to stop his mother's behavior that hurt others and himself, but to no avail.

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