It was quiet in business class back to London, I cried all the way and woke up for an hour and a half with snot. I knew it was rude, so I went to the toilet and cried, but everyone else needed to go to the toilet too, so I went back to my seat and continued to cry. Maybe the other passengers thought the girl was a psychopath, and I couldn't stop crying. Let them misunderstand, and our lives will not intersect.

I went to Chan again, and I asked him, "If I'm willing to spend money to let that girl leave Jay, would you be willing to break up with Alice?" ”

"I told you I loved her." Chen's righteous words.

"You...... And what about that girl? Or, I can give you another sum of money, and you can do whatever you want, as long as you don't come to pester us anymore. ”

"Money is a good thing." Chen Xie smiled evilly, "Xie Yihua, if you don't have money, you are nothing." ”

Our chat ended unhappily, and what I was waiting for was not Chen's answer, but a slap in the face from Alice.

It turned out that Chen recorded the audio, and Alice heard the sentence I said to him, "Would you like to break up with Alice?" And Chen said to me, "I told you, I love her".

"Hua, you're disgusting!"

I didn't have time to explain, and she left.

I don't understand what Chen thinks, why he would ruin my relationship with Alice like this.

Zhang Cheng's betrayal and Alice's misunderstanding made me feel the cold of midwinter.

It was a long time later, when I arrived in a different place, met new people, and experienced new storms, that I suddenly realized that a woman who is blinded by love is very terrible. But I was the same at the time.

I waited for Jay's explanation, but day after day, Jay never showed up, and it was only a flight and a half back to London, and he didn't want to come back to see me, and I didn't even have a phone call.

I was walking on the bridge over the Thames, I saw the houseboats that lived by the river, and I thought about moving to the West End, but I stayed in the East End for the sake of art. I kept walking to the East End, until my eyes were dry, my feet were sore, but there was no answer I was looking for.

At the beginning of September, the weather in London gradually began to cool again, and the temperature did feel low, because as soon as I arrived home, it rained heavily in London, which seemed to signal the end of summer.

There's nothing left for me to be nostalgic for.

Because of Jay, I didn't even want to stay in London to work, I was going to Paris, and within a few days after graduating, I had already received letters from several units in Paris, but this turmoil made it impossible for me to stay in Paris anymore.

So I started packing my things and decided to go back to China.

I threw the two leftover pieces of pizza in the trash can, which was Jay's favorite Korean barbecue flavor that I grew to love as well. The two wardrobes were full of my clothes, and I took them out one by one, keeping what I liked and throwing away what I didn't.

I flipped to the white dress I was dancing in at the orientation party two years ago, and I threw it in the closet after that night.

......

My most precious thing was not Chanel's brooch or LV's bag, but the small box of records and diaries, all of which I left in London. I didn't want to go back with the memories of these years, they were precious, but they forced me to go back to that house. So I gave them to Mrs. Dooris.

"If I'm going back to London in the future, I'm going to get these things back. If not...... You can throw it away for me. ”

"Hua, where are you going?" Mrs. Duris asked me.

"I'm back home." I said, "Go back and see my family, I don't know when I'll be back in the UK." I kind of hate this place now that I've been in for four years. I wanted to find a new place to spend some time and figure things out. ”

I gave her an extra four weeks of room payment to thank her for taking care of her for the past two years.

"Please take it, or I'll be embarrassed."

"There's really no need for Hua." "You always want to use money to solve something that you think you're embarrassed about," she said. ”

I was struck by her words and hung my head in embarrassment.

"I'm sorry."

I still gave her money, at least that way, it would make my heart feel better.

I'm leaving.

I waved my sleeve, not wanting to take any of the clouds with me.

The plane stopped at Shanghai Pudong Airport, changed flights halfway, and finally stopped at Xiamen Gaoqi Airport. When I got out of the cabin, I was in a trance, I didn't return to China for more than two years, the crowd of people changed from white skin and blue eyes to yellow skin and black eyes, and Chinese with a Hokkien accent was as foreign as the original foreign language, but it constantly filled my left and right ears.

My mother was very happy to see me, but my father was always indifferent, I knew that I didn't like him, I was as stubborn as him, I would never show any emotion in front of each other, and I even ignored my mother in "love the house and the black".

"Yihua, rest for a while, and I'll call you when dinner is ready."

I gave a perfunctory sigh and went back to the room where I had lived as a teenager.

The quilt is still the same quilt, the piano is still on the opposite side of the bed, and there are awards on the wall: the first prize in the youth group of the Chopin Piano Competition, the first prize in the junior group of the Little Mozart Piano Competition, the first prize in the Fujian Bel Canto Competition, and so on......

I lay in bed tossing and turning and couldn't sleep, I missed London, Mrs. Duris's Longjing tea, the graffiti in East London, and Mr. Ming. I don't even know how he's been doing, but I don't have to worry about it, he's doing well.

And what about Alice? When will she clear up her misunderstanding of me?

Thinking about it, I fell asleep.

My mother came in quietly and woke me up, and I went downstairs with her, my father was already sitting at the dinner table, and my sister was still at school, and she would not be back until tomorrow afternoon.

The meals were the ones I missed the most when I first came to London, such as braised water soup, crucian carp soup, prawns, Chinese cabbage and so on.

I took a few bites of the cabbage, and my mother scooped a small bowl of crucian carp soup for me.

"Thank you." I said to her.

Her smiling face changed suddenly, but I didn't think so, I was used to saying thank you to anyone. I say thank you to the Chinese, thank you to the British and Americans, Vielen Dank to the Germans, Merci to the French, and ありがとう to the Japanese.

I'm used to it.

She stopped talking, bowing her head and eating her own food. My father saw everything through his lens-pierced eyes.

After eating a small bowl of rice in an awkward and unfamiliar atmosphere, I was about to go for a walk, but my father stopped me.

"What for?" I didn't say it in a good mood.

He threw me a stack of A4 papers, and I realized after reading them that he had presented a record of my overseas spending on one of my credit cards, and spent a very large amount between the year before last and my graduation this year.

"Any questions?"

"Do you need to spend that much money as a student?"

"Of course." I'm hard-mouthed.

"Your sister is reluctant to let us spend even the money to go to a summer camp in Germany, so it's good for you to spend money without blinking an eye."

"Aren't there just a few broken money in our family? We'll always only trade money between us, won't we? ”

I was so excited that I didn't know why, but lately my emotions have always been easy to get up.

"Is it the kind of student you should have as a student to spend money like this? Starting tomorrow, I'll ask that bank to lower your credit card limit. ”

"Why?"

"You were born to me!" He was angry and yelled at me.

I'll admit I was a little intimidated.

My mind is a bit confused and I have some headaches.

"You never cared about me, but now you care about me, and you are the best parents in the world." I laughed maniacally.

"You shouldn't have given birth to me, it's so painful to be a human being, and anyone will abandon you. It's good to be a brute, hahaha......"

He slapped me.

My tears were thrown out, and I don't know where they fell, maybe on the backs of his evil hands.

I sneered viciously at them, then ran back upstairs and hid in the bathroom crying for a long time.

I collapsed, the memories of embarrassment and pain clapping against me, I was overwhelmed, and I felt another sharp pain in my abdomen, and then I fainted on the ground.