I had a showdown with him and asked him what he would do to let me go.

He smiled: "What's the matter?" If I don't let you go, are you going to push me into the lake to feed the fish? ”

I said, "Yes, actually, I always knew that my father fell into this lake because of you. I'm going to let you go to that world today to make amends to him. ”

A still calmly smiled evilly.

"Alright! I'll admit, that old thing does damn it. However, I think it may not be me who will go to that world for a while. ”

I was furious, and this sentence came out of his mouth in person, and it really gave me a lot of shock.

"He's your real father! How do you do it? ”

"You're right, he may be my biological father, but he has never treated me as his own son, in their eyes there is only you, it doesn't matter if I exist or not."

I was speechless when he said these words, and it seemed to me that sometimes, his parents did treat him excessively, but this was definitely not a reason for him to take his own father's life.

I said, "You shouldn't have killed him anyway." ”

He still has an expression that a dead pig is not afraid of boiling water, which is his usual expression: "I really don't want his life, I just blame God for not taking pity on him." ”

"What did you do?"

"That morning, I did move on the wheels, but I just loosened the screws on the tires."

"It's just that simple."

"Of course, I'm afraid that the tires of that car are strong, and if I don't drop them halfway, won't my efforts be in vain? I got into the car and waited on the side of the road by the lake, and when his car came, I rushed to his car at once. Anyway, I'm a cheap life, and it's a big deal to die with him. He probably saw that it was me, and slammed the steering wheel, and the tire fell off when it made a sharp turn, and the car crashed into the lake. ”

"You just watch and die?"

His eyes were cold-blooded.

"Save? Don't be kidding, what I want is his life, wouldn't it be in vain for me to save him? Fortunately, no cars passed by at that time, and no one saw it. I watched as his car sank, and I didn't even see the roof of it. Then, I went back home pretending to be nothing. ”

I was furious that a once happy home had been ruined by him in this way, and I could see my father pushing open the door of the room and covering us with a quilt in the middle of the night.

Many times my father would talk to himself.

"Alas...... It's all so big, and they kick the quilt. ”

This sentence should be said to A, because he is always dishonest when he sleeps.

A seems to be angrier than I am.

He said: "B, since we were children, we wore the same clothes, we had the same looks that outsiders couldn't tell the difference, and we were both children born to our parents. But I didn't feel how much they loved me, and I seemed to be a superfluous person in this family. ”

While I was still hesitating, he made the first move.

He said: "B, today you sleep in this lake, in the future I will live as you, enjoy my mother's love alone, I will let all the love she has paid to you for so many years be transferred to me." ”

He pounced, he was athletic and had more strength than me.

I was pinched by him in the bow of the boat, and at one point I almost ran out of breath.

I think of my father who sank to the bottom of the lake, and my mother, who has never been able to get out of the shadow of the loss of her loved ones since the loss of her father.

Everything is due to him, and in the future, he will continue to live in this world to harm others.

He should have died, not me.

I don't know where the strength came from, so I pushed A away from the pressure on me.

He obviously did not expect the strength of the resistance to be so great, and one rolled over and fell into the lake.

He was better in the water than I was, and it wasn't easy to get him dead, so he quickly floated up and grabbed the side of the boat to climb up.

Such a great opportunity, of course, I will not miss it.

I lay on the bow of the boat and pressed his head down.

It was not easy, and several times, his head popped out. I pressed it down again, and so on and so forth, he finally had no strength to struggle, and I pressed him into the water.

After that, I sat on the boat and calmed down for a long time, looking at the calm water, and suddenly I was a little scared.

I desperately shouted for help to the ships in the distance.

A was fished up, however, he had been in the water for too long and had no way to recover.

When her mother heard the news, she collapsed to the ground, and before she could say a word, she shed tears.

After a long day, he relieved himself and shouted A's name sadly.

I realized that it was my father, A, or me.

It's all her relatives, and she can't accept such a result.

I stepped forward and tried to learn A's tone to speak.

"Look at it clearly, is he A? You can't even tell your own son, are you still worthy of being a mother? ”

The mother was stunned for a moment.

"You're A?"

I said, "Do you want me to die so much?" ”

The mother never said anything more.

After A went, the already dull home became even more dull.

School started, and I didn't stay in school for a few days as A.

Even though I tried to imitate his cock, I dozed off in class and didn't answer a single question in the exam.

But I'm still afraid that others will recognize me, which should be a sign of a thief's heart.

I started skipping classes, scared to face everyone who knew A, including my mother.

Not only do I skip class, but I also often don't go home.

Even when I got home, I had to wait until my mother fell asleep, then open the door and go back to the bedroom that A and I shared.

At first, I couldn't sleep while lying on his bed, tossing and turning.

Later, I went straight back to my top bunk and felt solid in that place.

Actually, when A was there, I really wanted to sleep in the lower bunk, but I couldn't compete with him, I didn't expect that I was actually used to everything.

Slowly, I couldn't stand being a stand-in anymore.

My mother also seemed to really treat me as an A, and she didn't bother to care about me.

At this time, I really realized A's mood, and the feeling of being ignored was quite uncomfortable.

The semester was almost over, and in that small town in the north, the weather was too cold.

I was scared when the holidays were approaching, and the holidays meant that I was spending more time at home and spending more time with my mother.

I'm scared she'll recognize that I'm not A.

I have been planning for a long time, but the pocket money that my mother gave me has not been touched, plus some of the money I have saved before.

The day before the final exam, I bought a train ticket to South City B.

On the desk in my room, I left a note for my mother.

The content is simple: I'm gone, don't look for me.

Sitting on the train, I was in a daze. I hope that in the city I'm going to, I can no longer feel the cold feeling of the north.

Hopefully you can find some warmth there.

I even want to forget who I am? I don't want to be A or B, I want to be a new me.