Shen Yinan frowned, Rao is what he cares about, he has no qualifications and no position, talk to me about what the opposite sex is around me.

Of course, I won't tell him that Lu Huainian was hundreds of years ago, even if I have the possibility of developing with any man in this world, it will not be possible with Lu Huainian.

I clasped my hands and glanced at Shen Yinan, "What did you do when Ling Xue and I stood at the ends of your scales?" Since you have the face to abandon me and give her up, then be firm, and now Baba running in front of me will only make me feel that you are inferior to Lu Huainian from head to toe. When he forgot me, he didn't have too warm feelings for Zhou Yixuan, but he didn't do anything to be sorry for her; When he thinks of me, he is also brave enough to drop everything and take me away. What do you compare yourself to him? “

If you say it further, it will only get more and more ugly, as long as it is about Lu Huainian, it will be a stab in Shen Yinan's heart, if he is not afraid, I have nothing to worry about.

"Do you want to hear it again? Didn't you say that I wouldn't be able to let my guard down when facing him? I'll tell you why. You may already know it, but if you hear me say it myself, you'll be a little more complete. I'm not like you, who I love and who I don't love, I make decisions neatly and neatly, and I will never drag the mud and water, and the thread will not be broken. “

I walked over to the table and poured a large glass of warm water to moisten my throat.

Shen Yinan followed my footsteps closely, and he had a masochistic sense of early death and early superbirth.

"Before telling you, I'll judge according to my speculation to restore you and Ling Xue, oh, and Qiao Keyun. The reason why you have been protecting the two of them is because you feel guilty. Do you think that if it weren't for you, Ling Xue wouldn't have been remembered by your enemy Tang Mingshun and almost destroyed. Do you think that if it weren't for you, the person named Dai Chenyuan would not have been killed by Tang Mingshun in order to save Ling Xue, and because of this, his fiancée Qiao Keyun would have lost the man he liked. Am I right? ”

I pieced these things together little by little from the conversation between Tang Mingshun and Ling Xue in the garage two years ago. At that time, I was only thinking about finding a way to save myself, and I didn't think about it at all, and it was only after the fact that I was out of danger that I remembered this stubble.

It's a bit unexpected, but it's reasonable.

At that time, Shen Yinan and Ling Xue should have loved each other very deeply, they were still so young and belonged to each other, if Ling Xue really had an accident, he would never forgive himself for the rest of his life. Later, he returned to Jiangcheng and separated from Ling Xue, and Qiao Keyun seemed to become his girlfriend.

But in fact, his attitude towards Qiao Keyun is that he has never admitted her identity, but he has never debunked it. He even compensated Qiao Keyun a lot materially, as long as she wanted, he gave her as much as possible, if it wasn't for my temporary intervention, maybe in the future, Shen Yinan would also give Qiao Keyun's position as Mrs. Shen.

I don't know how much Qiao Keyun loves her dead fiancé, but I have witnessed her love for Shen Yinan, which is not fake. She seems to be very afraid of Ling Xue, I guess she originally loved Shen Yinan, because of the death of her fiancé, she relied on Shen Yinan, but Ling Xue discovered her true face, so she never dared to clash with Ling Xue head-on. Moreover, the Qiao family was not the opponent of the Ling family, so Qiao Keyun completely gave up and did not dare to fight with Ling Xue not long after he returned to Jiangcheng.

Shen Yinan was silent, I knew that most of my speculations were facts. However, if I don't figure it out, it's not as important to me as it used to be.

I pulled out the dining chair and sat down, "You and Ling Xue are childhood sweethearts, each other is each other's first love, right?" “

Shen Yinan asked very lightly, "What do you want to say?" “

"What I want to say is that first love is very beautiful, although there are many failures, but it still does not detract from its beauty. If you happen to meet someone who can hold yourself in the palm of your hand, you probably don't have any regrets in your life. I have known Lu Huainian since I was seventeen years old, and at that time I only felt that I was begging for a living in the mixture of dragons and snakes, and his appearance was so dazzling that I almost blinded. I started to keep an eye on it, but I didn't dare to approach it. There are a lot of women who like him, and I'm really afraid that one day I will see him bring his girlfriend. ”

The past is like smoke. I can't remember many details now, but I still remember the feeling of my heart racing. For the first time, because of a boy's gains and losses, he felt more inferior and felt that he was not worthy.

"Later, I still couldn't hold back, I quietly did a bad thing, I took him out of the bar while he was drunk, and stopped all the women from approaching him. For the first time, I realized that my own jealousy was so strong. It hurts my heart just to think about him being touched by another woman. After Lu Huainian woke up, I didn't dare to see him, so I ran out and hid. Finally, when I was nineteen years old, I felt that if I didn't tell Lu Huainian that I liked him, I would probably go crazy. So I did another cowardly and bad thing, I took advantage of his drunkenness, took him out, I confessed to him, anyway, he was drunk, he would not refuse, nor would he respond, I think this is very satisfying. ”

"But Lu Huainian is not so drunk that he doesn't know anything all the time, I kicked the iron plate this time. He asked me if it was me last time. I can only admit it. The second sentence he asked me, are you an adult? After that, he didn't come to the bar again for a long time. I thought I wouldn't see him again. Later, because of his holiday with some people, I saved him once, and just like that, slowly everyone said that I was his little follower. How good it is for the little follower to be able to look at him up close, unlike other women, who can't even get close. I feel like I'll be content with this for the rest of my life. ”

However, Zhou Yixuan appeared more and more frequently, and everyone knew that she was the granddaughter-in-law admitted by Old Man Lu, and she would marry Lu Huainian sooner or later. I was scared, but there was no way at all, and I even thought that Lu Huainian would be so cold to other women because of her. I forced myself to alienate Lu Huainian, this feeling was too painful, and I couldn't love it. I finally got farther and farther away from Lu Huainian, but I couldn't sleep every night, and I missed him very much. When he found me, I didn't hesitate to go with him. It was probably from that time that I knew that I would never be the first person in my life to let go between me and him. ”

"After Lu Jianbang found out about us, he deliberately made Lu Huainian suffer and gave him nothing, cutting off his financial resources, and he was no longer the second ancestor who surrounded many people around him. I was more scared than he was, he wouldn't be able to hold on, but he persevered. Those days were really hard, we needed money so much, but we felt that if we could even give up this relationship for money, it would be super sad. At that time, I was too young to know that there were so many thorns waiting ahead, if I knew, he would do the rest for me, and I might have been ruthless and left him. “

"Lu Huainian finally got the money, I asked him, and he said he wouldn't do anything illegal. I'll just believe him. But sometimes he was gone for days without any news, and I knew he was hiding something from me. He said he was going to Hong Kong to see his mother, and I both believed and didn't believe it. I'm the closest person to him, and I can feel the difference. It wasn't until one day that he fainted on the road that I learned that he had hidden it from me and donated bone marrow to others, because he was not well cared for, and he was in a hurry to make money, leaving very bad sequelae. I cried for a long time, I decided to go to Lu Jianbang, I wanted Lu Huainian to live back to his old life. ”

"Lu Jianbang knew that we couldn't hold on, so he wanted to send me away completely. My condition is that he will bring Lu Huainian back to the Lu family first. But Lu Huainian was only taken back and ran out again. This time he said that he wouldn't listen to me, and I couldn't bear to let him go, so I couldn't bear to leave in the end. We went to a lot of places, it was bitter and sweet, if it wasn't for him to fight for a breath, we would never have returned to Jiangcheng. That is, the last time I returned to Jiangcheng, there was a car accident. ”

He and Wen Yuan have a gentleman's agreement. He can give Wen Yuan his bone marrow, but Wen Yuan correspondingly, he has to protect me for him. I was so stupid that I didn't know anything, I thought that I was helped by a good Samaritan in a car accident, but I never thought that he had been putting himself behind me, giving me everything he could, and wanted to protect me for the rest of my life. “

"Later, he was brought back by the Lu family, and he forgot all the memories related to me. And I became Wen Ying, the illegitimate daughter of the Wen family. All my intersecting trajectories have been erased one by one, he is already the grandson that Lu Jianbang expects, and I am no longer Liu Ran, who only belongs to him. I had tens of millions of impulses to take him away after I recovered, just as he once wanted to take me. But I can't do it, and if he can be safe, God has heard my prayers. ”

"There are many things that you would never have imagined if you hadn't experienced them yourself, and there are so many thrilling things in the process. In addition, there are many other things, if you don't dig a little bit, you won't know that there have been people who stand in the way for themselves, worried about my future, worried about my well. I have been with Lu Huainian for five years, and I can't figure out how much he has done for me and how much I have done for him. This kind of mutual foam integrated into the blood and bones, relying on each other for life, you will never understand. “

I fixed on the sky outside the floor-to-ceiling window, thinking that Lu Huainian took off the scarf he wanted to give me today. Actually, I know everything. There are many things he didn't say, and he was pretending, pretending that he was a father and a husband, that he had a new life, and that the past with me was far away from him.

He didn't want me to be a burden. But he didn't know that I used to understand him like that. That scarf, when we were at our poorest, passed by a luxury store, and I told him that when I had money in the future, I would definitely buy it for him.

I said that I was covered with ashes, but in fact, how dare I touch the memories of the past again.