Hearing this, my heart suddenly cooled, and my head slammed on the pillow according to the force of Guan Shi.

It's a concubine, it turns out to be a concubine.

In Guan Shi's heart, this concubine may be a concubine, a concubine who is vastly different from his wife, cannot enjoy the same rights as his wife, and has a low status.

But in my heart, this concubine is not even as good as a concubine, it is used to solve physiological needs.

That's right, I'm some kind of need of his.

I just forgot, I was impulsive, I just ...... Lost in yourself.

Looking at his cold eyes, I felt so ashamed and embarrassed, and tears flowed unconsciously.

Seeing me crying, Guan Yan frowned, the cold light in his eyes retreated, and asked me softly, "Does it hurt?" ”

And when I heard him ask me if it hurts, my heart hurt fiercely, and I thought to myself, since he used me as a concubine, why did he care if I hurt or not.

He is like this, one will be cold to you, the other will be peaceful to you, so that you don't know what he is doing to you, and you can't understand his heart at all.

I felt sad in my heart, and I didn't want to speak, so I didn't answer, but his movements were gentle.

I felt his movements lighter, but my heart was even more sad, for some reason.

"Don't cry, I'll just be lighter." Guan Yan's hand caressed my face and wiped the tears from my face.

I didn't expect Guan Shi to say such a thing to me, and wiped my tears from me, and at that moment my heart was warmed by him again.

But in the next second, I heard him say: "As long as you keep your duty, I won't treat you too badly!" ”

Keeping my duty was something I could only hear on TV before, but I didn't expect it to happen to me one day.

My heart was cold again, and I felt that I really didn't have a long lesson, I was slapped by someone, and someone else gave me a candy, and I immediately forgot the pain and forgot the lesson.

I didn't want to speak, so I closed my eyes gently.

After that, Guan Shi did not speak.

After a while, I suddenly felt that the burning sensation in my heart was gone, and it didn't burn at all, but the dizziness was still there.

I thought it was because the alcohol was over, but I didn't know that it was Guan Shi using his way to relieve my hangover.

Dizzy and dizzy, when Guan Yan hugged me and hit, my head was even more dizzy, and I wanted to sleep. Anyway, I didn't know what I could do about this kind of thing, so I went to sleep.

When I was in a daze, I suddenly heard Guan Shi talking in my ear, and I woke up immediately.

I only heard Guan Shi say: "In the past hundreds of years, Li Er has woken up no less than a hundred times, but every time she wakes up, she can't leave her soul clothes. He met you the first time he left the soul clothes, I don't know ......"

Speaking of this, Guan Shi paused for a moment before continuing, but not what he had just said.

What he said was: "When Li'er called you mother, I was startled, thinking you were her. I wish you were her, but unfortunately you weren't! ”

Hearing what he said, I was also shocked, I didn't know that Guan Shi also thought I was Cangli's mother.

But from his last sentence: It's a pity that you are not, you can judge that he already knows that I am not Cangli's mother, and I don't know what method he uses to judge.

But that's not what I care about, what I care about is how Guan Shi felt when he said the last two sentences.

I wish you were her, but unfortunately you weren't!

Although Guan Shi's voice was calm when he said these words, there were almost no ups and downs, but I can imagine how sad Guan Shi was from these two sentences.

His wife must be gone.

He must have loved his wife so much, that's why he said how much I wish you were her.

It reminded me that when he asked me to be his concubine, I didn't want to let him let me go, telling him that his wife would be upset if she found out.

Here's what he said to me: I wanted her to know.

At that time, I didn't understand what this meant, but now I understand that his wife is gone.

It's Guan Yan who has lost his wife, and it's not me, and the sad person should be him. But I don't know why, but when I heard his words, I also became sad.

I was sad and couldn't sleep for a long time, and it took a long, long time to fall asleep.

Maybe I was so sad before I went to bed, and I had a very sad dream after falling asleep.

I dreamed that I was sitting by the river and washing my feet, and I was washing, when suddenly a big white bird flew down from the sky and bit me on my calf, biting off a large piece of meat.

I was so frightened that I wanted to leave this dangerous place, but my legs hurt and I couldn't walk, so I cried so much that I cried until I woke up, and my throat was hoarse.

This dream was so real that when I woke up, I was still immersed in the sadness of the dream, and I didn't want to open my eyes.

I closed my eyes and slowed down on the bed for a while, only to realize that it was just a dream.

After relieving, I suddenly realized a very serious problem, that is, is he awake, is he next to me?

I quietly narrowed my eyes and looked in front of me, but I didn't see Guan Shi. Close your eyes again, turn around slowly, turn around, squint your eyes again, and don't close them.

After making sure that Guan Shi was not there, I opened my eyes with peace of mind.

As soon as my eyes were all opened, I saw Cang Li suddenly appear out of thin air, with two little hands flicking, swaying towards me, with a sweet smile on his cute little face, and shouting happily in his mouth: "Mother, mother, mother......"

When I saw Cang Li, I was stunned for a moment, and then I thought that I hadn't dressed since I took a shower last night, so I hurriedly wrapped the blanket tighter.

But when he was wrapping in the blanket, he saw that he had already dressed at some point.

I'm pretty sure I didn't wear it myself.

Then there is only one possibility left, and that is to wear it for me.

Guan Shi is really careful, but he ...... My heart will never again be easily touched by his attentive care.

"Mother's ......" Cang Li has arrived.

I saw him walking and swaying, very cute, and I couldn't help but open my hands to hug him.

Cang Li took two quick steps, jumped into my arms, rolled in my arms, raised his head and said to me happily: "Mother, you are really my mother!" ”

How did you come to this conclusion?

I was very puzzled, very curious, and wanted to ask him, but I thought that Guan Shi said that he was not in good health and his emotions could not fluctuate too much, and I was afraid that if I asked him, he would think that I would not admit that I was his mother, and then I would be lost and sad again.

Forget it, I still don't ask, as long as he's happy.

However, I didn't ask, but Cang Li indirectly explained my doubts, and he was still very happy: "Daddy listens to my mother's words the most." Whatever my mother says, my father will listen. ”

"Mother, how did you talk to your father later?"

"Huh?" It's okay that Cang Li didn't ask, but when I asked, I remembered the drunken madness I played last night, and then I wanted to kiss Guan Shi, and my face burned.

Also, I remember that last night I talked to Guan Shi about whether Cang Li would come to see me, and he didn't seem to agree.

How come from Cang Li's words, I feel that he can come to see me at this moment, because he has obtained Guan Yan's consent?

I asked, "Did your father agree to you coming to me?" ”

"Mother, didn't you tell your father? Have you forgotten again? Cang Li looked at me suspiciously and asked.

I didn't want to think about anything related to last night, so I nodded and admitted, "I said it." ”

"Mother, what did you tell your father?"

Cang Li wanted to know the details, but where could I give him the details, so he said vaguely: "I didn't say much, just said that I hope he can agree to you to come to see me." ”

"Wow, wow, wow!" Who knew that when Cang Li heard my words, he was very excited, and jumped and jumped around my neck, "My mother is so powerful, my mother is really amazing." As soon as my mother spoke, my father agreed. ”

Where is it so exaggerated as he says? He's exaggerating.

If it had been true that as soon as I opened my mouth, Guan Shi would have agreed, as early as yesterday afternoon, Guan Shi would have agreed, and there would not have been those embarrassing things last night.

But as soon as I thought about it, I changed my mind again.

Cang Li is not exaggerating at all, if it is really his mother, as soon as his mother speaks, Guan Shi will definitely agree without saying a word.

Maybe I've heard Cang Li call my mother too many times, I just heard Cang Li say that my mother is so powerful, as soon as my mother opened her mouth, my father agreed to such words, and subconsciously substituted his mother's identity into himself.

After realizing this, I quickly sobered myself up, don't wait for Guan Shi to know, misunderstand that I am delusional to get something that I shouldn't get.

I pressed Cang Li's jumping body and said to him euphemistically: "Cang Li, it's modern now, it's not popular to call me mother, you call me mother, okay?" ”

"Okay, okay." Cang Li smiled and nodded in agreement, grinning and said, "My mother is my mother, and my mother is my mother." Mom, Mommy......"

"Good!" I naturally raised my hand and touched Cang Li's head.

Cang Li's eyes lit up suddenly, and he stared at me widely: "Mother......"

He wanted to call me mother again, but he held back in time, grabbed my hand that touched his head, and asked me expectantly: "Mom, when you used to say that I was good, you would also touch my head, do you remember?" ”

This question stopped me at once.

Should I tell the truth and say I don't remember, or should I consider his body and lie to him that he remembers?

Seeing that I didn't speak for a long time, Cang Li guessed that I didn't remember, but he was not as lost as before, and even comforted me and said, "Mom, don't worry." It doesn't matter if you don't remember now, when I talk more about the past, you will slowly remember. ”

As soon as I heard Cang Li's words, I knew what Cang Li would say next, and hurriedly stopped his words: "Cang Li, what about your father's ......"?

"Mom, do you want to know about your past with Daddy?" Before I could say the last word, Cang Li thought that I was going to ask him about his father and his mother's past.

And before I could deny it, he said to himself: "Mom, Daddy loves you the most, and he is good to you." As long as you are in the place, there is no one else in Daddy's eyes. Including me. ”

When it came to the last sentence that included me, Cang Li pointed to himself and made a very aggrieved expression: "If you didn't always ask Daddy to accompany me more, I don't think Daddy would have looked at me more." ”