Guan Shi's sentence What do you know, and instantly smashed the courage I had finally mustered up.

I bowed my head, and I didn't dare to look at him, let alone anything else.

"Mother, mother......" Seeing that I lowered my head, Cang Li immediately raised his little head and called me mother, specially letting me see his poor little face.

Not to mention, Cang Li's pitiful appearance really touched me, and gave birth to a sense of courage in my heart.

A courage to want to protect him.

Besides, I promised him to talk to Guan Shi myself, but it hasn't worked out yet, how can I give up?

Thinking of this, I plucked up my courage again.

When I looked up and saw Guan Yan coming, I escorted Cang Li and stepped back, saying as I retreated: "Maybe I don't understand, but I'm really not a bad person." I promise you, I will never do anything to hurt Cang Li. ”

"In this way, you can promise Cang Li to come to see ......"

"Who gave you the right to mind my business?" Guan Yan's face sank and interrupted me.

I think I discussed with Guan Shi so sincerely, even if he didn't agree, he would tell me well, but I didn't expect him to come to me with such a sentence: Who gave you the right to take care of my business?

To be honest, I really didn't expect it, and once again I deeply felt that the generation gap between myself and him was not ordinarily big.

Not only the generation gap, but also the status.

If you can say who gave you the right, I think his status in ancient times must be unusual, and he must be the one who is high.

I sighed in my heart and defended myself: "No, I don't mean to care about you, I am ......"

"It's better not to!" Guan Shi interrupted me again, his eyes sparkled coldly, and warned me: "Don't think about understanding me through Cangli anymore!" ”

Suddenly I heard this warning, and I didn't realize what he was saying for a while, but I realized what he said after a while.

What he said was that I knew his name through Cang Li.

Could it be that I asked Cang Li what his name was, and it wouldn't work?

In my opinion, this warning was unreasonable, but it happened.

"......" I opened my mouth, I wanted to say something, but I couldn't say anything, it felt like I had a breath stuck in my throat, and I was so uncomfortable.

I couldn't figure it out, so I asked him what's wrong with his name? Didn't he ask me what my name was?

Thinking of this, I suddenly remembered that he had only asked my name, and as for the rest, he had not asked, probably because he didn't want to ask at all, and he didn't want to know about me.

I understand what he means, he doesn't want to understand me, and he doesn't want me to understand him, I'm afraid that Cang Li will have more contact with me, and I will ask Cang Li about him to understand him, so I stop Cang Li from meeting with me.

During this period of time, I thought that Guan Shi was a careful, gentle, and good person to me, but I didn't expect him to be so defensive about me.

I was afraid that Cang Li would tell me about him and prevent Cang Li from meeting me.

This reminds me of a sentence that some people are cold to you, not because they are naturally cold, but because they don't like you.

So this sentence, put on Guan Shi, that is, Guan Shi is careful and gentle to you, you think he is good, that's just what you think, you try to understand him.

Actually, I didn't think to know more about him, but he turned me away like this, and I ...... I felt an indescribable discomfort in my heart.

I think maybe he's just using me as a vent for him, and when he gets tired of it, he'll kick me away — kill me.

Realizing this, I should be scared and nervous, but I don't know why, I am not nervous or afraid, but some of them are unspeakably uncomfortable.

Guan Yan came over and took Cang Li away from behind me, Cang Li had tears on his face, looked back at me with teary eyes, and shouted for help: "Mother, mother......"

I can't help Cang Li's help.

I thought that it would be good for Guan Shi not to let Cang Li see me, so that Cang Li and I could cultivate a relationship, and he would be sad when he knew that I was dead.

But what about my discomfort?

"Come down and add to the fire!" After Guan Fan took Cang Li away with his small clothes, he said to me coldly, and turned around and left after speaking.

Seeing Guan Fan's indifferent attitude towards me, I felt even more uncomfortable, my heart was sour, and I wanted to shed tears.

For dinner, Guan Shi prepared a very sumptuous meal, chicken, duck and fish, as well as wine.

This is the first time I've eaten meat here.

But I felt bad, and I had no appetite at all.

However, Guan Fu was not affected, eating meat and drinking at the same time, and eating was very happy.

He didn't like to be a vegetarian in the first place, but when he saw meat, of course he was happy.

Seeing him eating so happily, I felt unbearable, and when I saw him pour himself wine, I suddenly had a thought: I want to use wine to drown my sorrows.

When he finished pouring the wine, I brought the flask and poured myself wine.

I just poured a little, and before I could cover the bottom of the bowl, Guan Yan's hand suddenly stretched out, stopped me from pouring wine, frowned and asked, "What are you doing?" ”

I felt uncomfortable, waved his hand away, and said, "Don't you allow Cang Li to see me, and don't you allow me to drink?" ”

"You ......" Guan Yan's brows furrowed deeper, and stopped me again: "You can't drink this wine......"

He said I couldn't drink it, I wanted to drink it.

I picked up the bowl and took a big bite when I looked up.

Suddenly, a fragrance flowed into his mouth and nose, and there was no spicy feeling of liquor at all, and he thought that Guan Shi also said that I couldn't drink this wine, because I was afraid that I would drink his wine, and he wouldn't drink enough.

I drank the wine in one gulp, and I was still unsatisfied, and I wanted to pour it again.

Guan Shi took out the flask from my hand and looked at me with a frown: "You really can't drink this wine." ”

"Who said that? This wine is like a drink...... Hiccup...... "I had a wine burp and felt a little dizzy in my head, and I touched my forehead with my hand.

"Look, I'll tell you you can't drink this wine." Guan Shi looked like I didn't listen to him and suffered a loss, and asked, "Are you dizzy?" ”

Didn't he not want me to understand him, and only used me as a tool to vent, didn't he kill me when he got tired of it, and why did he ask me if I was dizzy?

Why do you care so much about me?

Does he know that the more he is like this, the more uncomfortable I become.

I said uncomfortably: "It doesn't matter to you whether you're strong or not, you'll die sooner or later anyway." ”

I was just trying to vent the discomfort in my heart, and I didn't notice that when Guan Shi heard me say the word death, his face changed, and he said in a deep voice: "Don't say death casually!" ”

"Woo woo......" His voice suddenly became deeper, and I felt that his words were so heavy that they pressed on my heart like a scale, and I was so uncomfortable that I cried out.

Seeing me crying, Guan Shi thought I was drinking, and said helplessly: "I told you, you can't drink this wine, you want to drink it, it's uncomfortable, right?" Rub your head quickly. ”

"I'm uncomfortable, but it's not because of drinking......" it's because of him.

"What's the reason for that?" Guan Yan twisted his eyebrows.

Where did I dare to say the reason directly, covering my face and saying, "Why don't you allow Cang Li to see me?" Are you afraid that I will understand you through him? Are you so afraid that I know you? ”

"It's not!"

Guan Shi actually said no, I was stunned, thinking how could it not be, and hurriedly took away the hand covering my face and asked him: "Since it is not, then why are you...... Hiccup......"

Without warning, I burped again, again a long hiccups, and then the dizziness in my head increased, and at the same time I felt that my heart was burning hot, and it was very uncomfortable.

Now I believe in Guan Shi's sentence: I can't drink this wine, and I really can't drink it.

But is it too late for me to regret it now?

I rubbed my head with one hand and covered my stomach with the other, trying to say why I was going to say the next thing, but I wanted to burp as soon as I opened my mouth, and I was so scared that I quickly shut up.

Seeing this, Guan Yan said: "Open your mouth, don't hold it, let the wine smell come out." ”

"Hiccup—" Then, I burped a big wine in front of Guan Shi without any image.

It's a shame, my face burns.

If there was a mirror in front of me, I would have seen my face flushed.

After the wine burp, Guan Shi handed me a glass of water and asked me to flush my stomach.

He was still so attentive and considerate, but when I thought of what he said upstairs, my heart ...... I don't dare to think that his thoughtfulness is right for me.

Maybe he did this to me because he had some other premeditated plan.

But what was the plan, I don't know.

I drank the glass of water in a sad mood, and the burning pain in my stomach suddenly decreased a lot, and the dizziness was still there.

I wanted to pour another glass of water to drink, but Guan Shi stopped me and said, "I can't drink anymore, it will be counterproductive to drink again." ”

This time, I didn't dare to doubt his words, and obediently put down the cup.

"You want to see Cangli too?" Guan Shi suddenly asked.

To be honest, before Guan asked me this question, I never thought about whether I wanted to see Cang Li or not.

The reason why I talked to Guan Li about not stopping Cang Li from seeing me was purely to see Cang Li crying pitifully, and I promised Cang Li to talk to Guan Fang.

I want to ask if I want to see Cang Li...... My answer is, anyway, Guan Shi goes out every day, I'm bored here alone, and it's good that Cang Li can come out and talk to me.

So, I nodded, "Yes." ”

"You are the first woman Cang Li woke up and saw, so he mistook you for his mother."

Guan Shi's words can be regarded as an answer to why Cangli calls me my mother, and at the same time, it reminds me on the other hand: I am not Cangli's mother.

I said clearly: "Don't worry, I know in my heart that I won't treat myself as his mother." ”

"He's not in good health, and he can't fluctuate too much. Every time I see you, you make him sad, and I don't want him to see you. ”

When I heard the previous sentence, I realized that I had misunderstood Guan Xian, and my heart was full of guilt for him. But when I heard the latter sentence, my guilt about him was gone, and it was replaced by depression.

What does it mean that every time Cang Li sees me, I make him sad?

Did I make Cangli sad?

But when you think about it, it seems like this.

I won't talk about the scene of the first meeting, Cang Li cried sadly because I said that I was not his mother.

The second meeting was fine at first, but then because he asked me if I remembered the past, I said no, and he was lost.

The third meeting was fine at first, but then because I didn't remember the past and I didn't call him Li'er, he was even more disappointed.

The fourth time we met, that is, the one we had just met upstairs, I cried as soon as we met, and my mood swings were big enough.