Huang Siyao slowly walked towards the small western-style building.

Family! This warm word is inappropriate for that dreary, crowded mansion. It's a word that used to make people feel warm.

But Huang Siyao feels that all those great words have lost their meaning to her generation: love, joy, happiness, home, mother, father, husband, all these vivid words are now half-dead and dying day by day.

Home is where you live, love is an emotion that you cannot deceive yourself, joy is connected with a joyful ball, happiness is a hypocritical word, it is used to deceive people, your father is a self-satisfied person, and your husband is the person with whom you live spiritually. As for sex, the greatest of these great words is nothing more than a frivolous word, meaning a brief period of excitement and pleasure, followed by exhaustion. Lose! It seems that you are made of some cheap material, gradually wearing out, until there is no piece of armor left.

All that's really left is tenacious perseverance, and perseverance has its own fun. Experiencing the emptiness of life, step by step, piece by piece, can achieve amazing satisfaction, maybe that's why someone is involved in the life of a monk and a nun, right? They let go of everything, ignore the mundane, suppress their desires, and get the highest spiritual satisfaction from them.

What about money? Maybe we can't say the same about money. A person always needs money. The goddess of money and success, just like Tang He learned from Han Mengping, is the necessity of eternal life. You can't just spend the last penny and say that's it!

That's it, even if you live for another ten minutes, you need a sum of money for this and that. Just to make everything work mechanically, you need money. You can't do it without it. Money is something you have to have, and you can't do without anything else. That's it.

Of course, it's not your fault that you're alive. But you need money to live, it's the only absolute necessity, and the rest is still necessary, but money is indispensable. That's what you need!

She thought of Du Wancheng, and the money that could be obtained by following him. But she didn't want that money, she preferred to help Zhang Haifei earn a little money through writing, and she did.

"Zhang Haifei and I can earn hundreds of thousands, millions a year by writing!" She set herself this goal. Earn! Earn money, get it empty-handed, make money out of nothing! This is an achievement that one can ultimately be proud of! For the rest, it's all nonsense.

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So she went home with heavy steps, collaborated with him, and made a novel out of nothing, and a story means money. Zhang Haifei seems to care about whether his novels are considered first-rate literature, while Huang Siyao doesn't care. Her father said that Zhang Haifei's novels were empty, but he earned hundreds of thousands, millions last year, this is a simple but powerful refutation of him!

If you're young, you just have to grit your teeth and keep working until the money comes out of nowhere. That's a matter of strength. It is a matter of perseverance, a certain subtle but powerful will that exudes from you, and it also gives you inexplicable money: money with words written on a piece of paper. It's magic, and it's a win. Goddess of Success! If a person wants to sell his body, then sell it to the goddess of success! You can despise her all the time and yet keep selling yourself out to her. That's wonderful!

Of course, Zhang Haifei is still quite naïve, with many taboos and worship. He wanted people to say that he was "really good." That's a stupid idea, what is really good is what is actually popular, but what disappears after a while is not good. It seems that most of the "really good" people can't get a ride. In the end, people only live once, and if they miss the car, they will be left on the sidewalk and be in the company of other losers.

Huang Siyao is thinking about spending a winter in Beijing and spending it there with Zhang Haifei. He and she were kind of the ones who caught up with the car, so they could ride the car high up and show off.

What is hateful is that Zhang Haifei began to become in a trance, absent-minded, in a daze for a while, and became depressed. This is because of his psychological trauma. This simply made Huang Siyao crazy. What if he starts to have a problem with his brain? To hell, I tried my best. If you want to be disappointed, you will be disappointed to the end.

Sometimes she cries very badly, but even when she cries bitterly, she says to herself, "Fool, the tissues are wet with crying." What's the use of crying! ”

After parting ways with Duvan, she decided not to think about anything more. That seems to be the easiest way to adapt to change. She just wanted to hold on to what she already had, and nothing else. What she wants is to maintain these existing ones: Zhang Haifei, novels, farms, Zhang Haifei's wife's affairs, money, and fame, and move forward on these foundations. Love, sex, and all that sort of stuff are just summer ice cream, so lick it off and forget about it.

As long as you don't think about it with one mind, it doesn't exist. Especially sex, that's something that doesn't matter. As soon as the heart is crossed, the problem will be solved. Sex, a cocktail, with similar potency and meaning.

But a child, a little baby! That's still moving. She would approach the experiment with great care, considering with whom she would have the baby. Oddly enough, she didn't want to have children with any man in this world.

Du Wancheng's child? It's disgusting to think about! Besides, Zhang Haifei was quite disgusted with him.

Tang He is a good person, but you can't connect him with the children and the next generation, he is a person who finishes on himself. This is a strange person, and he has a problem with his tendencies in that regard.

All the people in Zhang Haifei's circle of acquaintances, those men, she couldn't help but feel disgusted at the thought of having children with any of them. Several of them may become lovers, or even Du Wancheng. But let them plant a child in you, these people are flashy, none of them are down-to-earth!

Phew, that's an insult to you, disgusting to you. That's it!

Despite this, Huang Siyao still remembers the matter of the child in her heart, which does make people look forward to it.

Await! She has to sift through the men to see if she can find a suitable one.

"Go to the factory, go to the countryside, go to all kinds of vast worlds!" This is what Huang Siyao thinks.

She even thought that it had to be a foreigner, a Japanese and Korean lady, a French flower, and a German maybe a little dull.

But, wait! Await! This winter, she will take Zhang Haifei to Beijing, and the next winter she will take him abroad to find an Oba in South Korea? Looking for a romantic one in Italy?

Wait, she's not in a hurry to have children, it's her private business, and it's the only thing in her soul that is taken seriously in her unique feminine way. She's not going to take any chances.