Yonghe proposed to Sanping one night in the depths of winter. Then, in the spring and summer of the following year, the two got married.

Sanpei used to hate winter. In the winter, her fingers were frozen and stiff, and she had difficulty holding the piano and playing the strings. It's fine at home or at the time of the show because there will be heating. But during rehearsals — which took up most of her time — many rehearsal venue owners, or theater managers, refuse to turn on the heating in order to save electricity.

Moreover, in the winter in the south, those cold winds can penetrate into the bones from the surface of the skin, and whenever this time, Sanping hopes to be able to stay in the quilt 24 hours a day, and if he can't sleep, he will open his eyes in a daze, and when he is sleepy, he will directly close his eyes and sleep...... She often has the feeling of "it's better to be a waster".

Morihei didn't allow it, he was like a tireless shepherd, holding a whip in his hand at all times, driving Sanpei's sheep to run forward. Sen Ping didn't care if Sanping packed up his things before he ran forward, he didn't care, he only saw whether Sanping was continuing to run forward.

But in such a bitter winter, Yonghe firmly identified with her, such a person who walked in the world with only one head, such a person who had lost most of her feelings—he saw her mutilation, felt the scars she thought she was unbearable, and the haste and confusion that she had so much trouble hiding - he accepted them all with a smile and accommodated them. He said that this is only 30% of herself she has shown, but it is already so beautiful - "If one day, you show yourself 100%, what kind of beauty you will be, I am looking forward to it." ”

Yonghe injected a steady stream of warmth into her rigid body and heart, and her ten fingers were finally dexterous; Her legs are finally full of strength. She never tires of winter, and more than ever before, she is looking forward to the beginning of spring next year.

But he couldn't wait for the day when she fully revealed herself. She also completely sealed herself under the hard ground at the moment when he left forever.

Aside from picking up the violin, which is also her most proficient movement, mechanical or against her will, what else can she do if she doesn't do this?

What else does she dare to do?

She didn't know. She never knew. She didn't even know how to spend that short day — it was their wedding anniversary — she didn't know. Every year, on that day, she tried her best to hide herself, she knew that Lu Yi and Miss Cheng were worried about her, but only that day—no matter whose care and worry it came from—she didn't need it, she couldn't bear it anymore—sympathy, pity, and on that day, for her, it would be the last straw that crushed her.

And this year, Xiao Fei has lived with her for more than three years, and the days of the first two years were the days when Xiao Fei went out to class, so she could bury herself. But on this day this year, it happened that Xiao Fei was at home in the spring, and she wanted to take advantage of Xiao Fei's inattention, go out to find a place with fewer people, sit in a daze, or whatever-she wanted to stay alone.

The closer this day gets, the heavier the stone in her heart becomes. The more she gasped, the more anxious she became. Sometimes I was even forced to open my mouth to breathe, which eased a little.

The night before that day came, she stared dryly, staring at the ceiling. When the needle had just reached the 3rd position, she got out of bed and opened the door in the dark, and when she was about to continue to take a step, she ran into something.

"......" she kicked the thing lightly. Like a kick in the leg?

"Sanping?" Xiao Fei's voice came from the darkness. Immediately afterwards, Sanping heard the sound of rustling, and then, Xiao Fei's voice sounded in Sanping's ears, "Can't you sleep?" ”

Sanping was very flustered, and she quickly said "um", only to find that her throat was tight and her voice was hoarse.

"So you're going to read a book? Hungry or not? I'll give you a hot glass of milk. ”

Xiao Fei's voice rose slightly, echoing in the empty room, making Sanping panic.

"No need...... she replied weakly, but she didn't stop Xiao Fei, who was already walking forward. Xiao Fei walked away for a while, and noticed that Sanping was still in place, he stopped, turned around and asked, "What's wrong?" Come on! ”

Sanping followed Xiao Fei with difficulty, came to the living room, and sat on the small sofa in front of the bookshelf.

Xiao Fei picked up the small blanket placed on another small sofa, put it on Sanping's knee, and then confirmed with Sanping which books she wanted to read. Sanping's myopia was very serious, and her eyes were a little cloudy, Xiao Fei ran into Sanping's room, took out her glasses, and turned on the light. Sanping put his glasses on and pointed to a book at random. Xiao Fei handed the book to Sanping, asked Sanping to sit down obediently, and then went to the kitchen to give her hot milk. Sanping looked at Xiao Fei who was busy in the kitchen distraughtly, holding the book in both hands, but did not open it.

Xiao Fei walked up to Sanping with a warm milk cup, and seeing that she didn't open the book, he frowned, put the milk on the small table in front of Sanping, squatted down, raised his head, and looked at Sanping, "Don't you want to read?" And watching a movie? ”

Sanping became even more anxious, she looked at Xiao Fei with an unkind face, and her voice unconsciously lowered, "I don't want to do anything." ”

Xiao Fei nodded, turned his head to move the small sofa that was originally placed on the other side of the small table to Sanping, and sat down, "Then you drink milk, and we will talk for the next day." ”

Sanping didn't know what was going on with the anger that slowly began to stir up in her body, she kept reminding herself that Xiao Fei was just a little boy who was only fifteen years old, Xiao Fei was an orphan, and she told herself that she couldn't be angry with Xiao Fei no matter what.

After Xiao Fei sat down, he stretched his waist and accidentally kicked Sanping's leg with a pair of long legs. Sanping gave way, "Don't make trouble, you go to sleep." ”

"I'm awake, I'm not sleeping." Xiao Fei smiled and said, "Let's talk." ”

"There's not much to say."

"Whatever you want."

"What do you want to say?"

"I don't know."

"I want to go out."

"I'll be with you."

"No, I don't."

"By the way, go see Granny Yu."

"No, I don't."

"I don't know if Yu Yun is at home, go bump into him?"

"Did you listen to me?!" Sanping's voice was dyed with crying, "I want to go out alone." I don't want you to accompany me. You go away. ”

Xiao Fei didn't speak. Sanping stood up and walked to the door. Xiao Fei picked up the two long coats on the sofa, also stood up, and followed closely.

"What the hell do you want to do? You're leaving me alone, okay? She turned around and shouted at Xiao Fei.

Xiao Fei couldn't help his legs tremble too much, he put clothes on her, "There is still fog in the morning, put on clothes, don't catch a cold." ”

Sanping looked at Xiao Fei in front of him, as if he didn't know him anymore.

Xiao Fei stood in front of Sanping and saw that Sanping had finally collapsed. He saw Sanping crying and squatting down, hugging his head, as if he had used all his strength, crying, crying, and screaming. Sanping's face was full of tears, and he had no manners at all. Looking at Sanping, he knew that no matter how wooden this person was in ordinary life, once she started to vent, the whole person began to become flexible.

It was also at this time that he found out that Sanping had only grown a few years old.

In her shell, which had grown into an adult, there was a small figure, a small person, still in the form of the beginning of life, curled up in a cold and dark corner. Xiao Fei doesn't know how long she has been like this, and I don't know if she has noticed that the villain in her heart is herself. Xiao Fei just hoped that she could hug the poor villain in her own heart.

Xiao Fei suddenly remembered what Yu Yun said in the mental health class - those things that sounded obscure at first glance had planted seeds in his heart, and in the class at that time, he couldn't fully understand Yu Yun's words, but in the time that followed, in the time he was in contact with Sanping, he began to understand slowly.

He looked at Sanping in front of him, her face slowly turned from red to pale, and he was very scared.

He didn't want to "save" anyone, and he knew that he didn't have that qualification and ability, but he felt that since he saw someone in need, he couldn't turn a blind eye no matter what—not to mention that this person was Sanping. When he was alone, Sanping found him and led him home; Sanping has been alone for so long, he only had immature strength before, and he couldn't do anything, but today, although the strength of his hands is not big enough, it is enough to pull her.

But he was afraid that he would mess up, and even more afraid that Sanping would be like his mother, suddenly on that day, he would become cold, stiff, and unable to move.