On the morning of the score, Xiao Fei was woken up by the sound of Lu Yi banging on the door. Xiao Fei sat up on the bed, was stunned for a while, heard a knock on the door every few minutes, and secretly cursed "neurosis" in his mouth, and then got out of bed slowly.

When he opened the door, Xiao Fei was a little frightened by the formation outside the door. He thought that Lu Yi was the only one who had a convulsion, and he thought about opening the door and giving him a punch, who knew Yu Yun, Granny Yu, and Teacher Jian...... Even Miss Cheng is here.

Xiao Fei stayed a little embarrassed, not even knowing how to speak.

"What are you doing?" Lu Yi rushed up and patted Xiao Fei, "Check the score today!" ”

"Hey......" Xiao Fei watched a group of people enter the room in a hurry, a little speechless, "You're not worried that you will cause me a lot of pressure like this?" ”

"Ah," Yu Yun glanced back at him, "what we're worried about is whether you alone will not think of doing stupid things if you don't do well in the exam." ”

Xiao Fei shook his head, closed the door and walked into the living room, seeing that the group of people had automatically and consciously found a place to sit down, and were now looking at him. Xiao Fei was looked at uncomfortably, "You guys are really ...... I thank you for that, but ......."

"It's okay! If you can, you can go up, but if you can't, forget it! Lu Yi shouted.

"No, I think Xiao Fei can be on it." Teacher Jian sat next to Granny Yu, looked at Lu Yi seriously, and said, "As long as Xiao Fei's performance is stable, there will be no problem with your school." ”

"But even if it's online," Yu Yun, who came out of the toilet, added when he passed Xiao Fei, "There is also the opening exam." The entrance exams are the main event. ”

Xiao Fei had a little headache.

Miss Cheng bought breakfast and came over, and the time to check the score was ten o'clock in the morning. After everyone had breakfast, they began to chat with each other while waiting for the score check to begin. Xiao Fei sat on the side, listening to Miss Cheng and Lu Yi chatting, watching Granny Yu, Teacher Jian and Yu Yun also chatting, turned his head to look at the sunshine outside the courtyard, and suddenly became in a trance.

They're all with me.

To be honest, Xiao Fei is not as indifferent as he seems on the surface, especially the score check. "If you can get on, you can't do it" is just a stubborn sentence he said around his neck - he must be on it, he was so nervous that his heart was about to jump out.

Now that there are so many people with him, he is still nervous, but not so scared.

It's like there's finally a way out.

Just thinking about it, the mobile phone in the pajama pants pocket rang, and he took it out to see that it was Sanping.

"Morning." Xiao Fei immediately picked it up.

"Good morning." Sanping's voice came. Xiao Fei unconsciously scratched the back of his head with his hand.

"I checked the score today," Sanping should have said with a smile, "Are you nervous?" ”

"I'm not nervous now." Xiao Fei replied honestly, "Now the big guys are all in our house, and they said that they would wait for the score together." ”

"That's an exaggeration." Sanping was happy, happy for a while, she was silent for a while, and then continued, "I'm sorry, I'm not here today." ”

Xiao Fei didn't know how to reply to her words for a while. The two of them were silent for a while, Xiao Fei couldn't help it, so he could only speak by himself, "It's really okay...... Hey, the score is out, I'll call you. ”

"Okay." Sanping replied very simply.

Putting down the phone, he exhaled, then looked at the weeds in the corner in a daze. The weeds in the yard have always been sorted out by Sanping, and after Sanping was hospitalized, Xiao Fei didn't think of getting rid of the weeds. Now the weeds in the backyard are almost crawling to the yard wall.

"What do you think?" A soft greeting came from behind him, and Xiao Fei didn't have to look back, he knew who it was.

Teacher Jian stood beside him, followed his line of sight, saw the weeds in the corner of the wall, and said in surprise, "Have they all grown so tall?" ”

Xiao Fei nodded, "No one cleaned it up." ”

Teacher Jian looked at him puzzled, "You're back, can't you clean it up?" ”

Xiao Fei was stunned for a moment, "Me? ”

"Isn't it who you are? Only you and Sanping live in this home, and Sanping is not at home for the time being, so this home is your decision. Are you waiting for Sanping to come back and weed? The grass is over the wall. Teacher Jian raised his hand and looked at his watch, and exclaimed, "Hey, it's ten o'clock, hurry up, go check the score." ”

"It's just ten o'clock, and the system must be busy right now." Yu Yun stood in the back room, looking out at the two people who were about to walk in from the courtyard, "It's okay to wait for fifteen minutes and then check." Anyway, the scores are set. After a pause, he looked at Xiao Fei, who had just walked in front of him with his head down, "It's okay to be nervous, don't be nervous." ”

"Who's blind and nervous." Xiao Fei replied casually, then sat in front of the phone, looked at the time on the phone at a quarter past ten, picked up the microphone, and dialed the number that he was already familiar with.

Everyone had already stopped chatting and was all focused on this side. Xiao Fei knew in his heart that they all had good intentions, but he was still uncomfortable, and his body leaned into the sofa when he held the microphone.

The phone was quickly connected, and the moment it was connected, Xiao Fei's heart rose to his throat.

entered the admission ticket number as prompted, and the mechanical female voice on the other side of the microphone immediately reported Xiao Fei's results. Every time Xiao Fei listens to a subject score, his heart falls into his stomach. After putting the microphone down, Xiao Fei let out a sigh of relief.

is higher than his estimated score, and it is more than a dozen points higher than the score line admitted to the University of Arts last year, if there is no change this year, he should be able to stabilize.

Lu Yi, who had been squatting next to him, couldn't hold it anymore, and reached out and shook his arm, "How is it?!" ”

Xiao Fei looked at the circle of people staring at him closely behind him, put on a relieved smile, and then briefly said the result.

When Teacher Jian heard this, he immediately clapped his hands happily, "Hey, I'll just say you can." ”

Lu Yi usually has no contact with education at all, and he actually has no concept of Xiao Fei's results, but when he saw Teacher Jian's reaction, he and Yu Yun, who had always been cold, also smiled a little this time and understood. He screamed exaggeratedly, startling Xiao Fei, and he didn't care, just spread his long hands and feet like an octopus, hugged Xiao Fei tightly, and kept muttering excitedly in his mouth - "Sure enough, it's my favorite cub."

Xiao Fei is finally down-to-earth now - his efforts have not been in vain, and he has also proved himself.

Everyone also breathed a sigh of relief, and immediately began to discuss what to eat at noon to celebrate.

Yu Yun walked over, pulled away the road meaning that was still lying on Xiao Fei, and looked at Xiao Fei, "Give Sanping a call, she should be in a hurry." ”

Xiao Fei nodded and took out the phone.

Sanping quickly answered the phone, "I'm here." ”

When Xiao Fei heard this "I'm here", he suddenly felt an indescribable feeling.

I want to cry, and then I want to run to Sanping immediately.

It's really contradictory. He didn't even know what he wanted to do.

"Hmm," Xiao Fei cleared his throat and then told Sanping the result. At the end, he added, "It's great to be able to go to the arts." ”

"Okay." Sanping replied, and then replied several times "yes".

She was so happy, very happy, so happy that her hands were trembling slightly. But she really can't express the full score of happiness in her heart for a point or two, she only hopes that Xiao Fei can also understand that she is really happy for him.

Xiao Fei said that she wanted to come to see her today, but she thought about it and refused. Today, she made an appointment with Dr. Hu for psychological counseling, and every time she finished psychological counseling, Sanping couldn't lift her whole body, and she didn't even have the strength to speak.

Before hanging up the phone, Xiao Fei's voice was obviously lowered. After hanging up the phone, Sanping looked out the window at the greenery in a daze.

"Sanping, get ready." Xiao Dan, the head nurse, knocked on the door and reminded him outside the door.

Sanpei answered and got up from the bed.

Sanping sat in front of Dr. Hu and didn't plan to speak.

She was already tired of the twice-weekly regular counseling, which she didn't understand the point. And every time she returned to her room after a consultation, she always fell asleep quickly - the tiredness from the bottom of her heart was so tired that she couldn't even make a fist move.

Also Why write an autobiography? Her life was sad, and she was terrified of her father. And for a long time, she thought that at least her mother was the one who could make her feel safe. But since she began writing her autobiography, since she began to look back at her mother's image and actions, she has become more and more frightened - the truth about her mother is so cruel that every time she thinks of her, she can't continue to think, let alone write it down.

To admit this truth is to completely deny her own life that has come so far - Sanping is unwilling and does not think that she can continue to write this autobiography.

And today, it was another torturous consultation, and all she wanted to do was sit in the waiting room and survive these two hours.

Dr. Hu sat opposite Sanping, and saw Sanping with his hands crossed, hugged to his chest, his mouth tightly closed, and constantly avoiding eye contact with him, he knew that Sanping had begun to resist psychological counseling treatment, and he opened his mouth to ask Sanping questions, and at the same time, his mind was also running quickly to find a solution.

"Would you like to tell me how your autobiography is going?" Dr. Hu asked softly.

Sanping had already made up her mind not to answer, but she still saw Dr. Hu's eager and hopeful eyes. After a stalemate for a while, she finally lost the battle, "I haven't written for a long time......"

Dr. Hu, who finally waited for Sanping's answer, did not feel relieved by this, on the contrary, he knew that this was just the beginning.

"Oh? Would you mind telling me why? Dr. Hu asked.

"I told you no." Sanping seemed to have put the "principle of non-cooperation" that she had just set for herself in her heart behind her, and she complained to Dr. Hu a little aggrieved, "I'm not in a good state, I'm not sober, I'm in a mess all day long, what else do you want me to think about the past, about my mother." My mom loves me so much, how could I doubt her? ”

"Sanping, I want to ask you a question, is that okay?" Dr. Hu asked, looking into Sanping's eyes.

Sanping didn't speak. She hugged the couch cushions that had been hugging her chest tighter.

"Take it easy, I'm just asking a very simple question." Dr. Hu smiled comfortingly, and Sanping relaxed a little, but still looked at Dr. Hu vigilantly.

"Why did you come to the hospital?" Dr. Hu asked.

Sanping didn't expect Dr. Hu to ask this question, she was stunned for a moment, and then subconsciously replied, "Because I'm sick." ”

"How sick you feel, can you tell me about it?" Dr. Hu nodded and continued to ask.

"I remember that I was going to kill myself, and then I was found out by Lu Yi, and he sent me here, and then I have been here ever since." Sanping was still thinking about the previous question.

"Sanping, I know about your suicide." Dr. Hu said slowly, "What I want to know is that you already know that you are sick, so can you tell me how it feels to be sick?" ”

Sanping was silent.

Dr. Hu sighed, he knew that Sanping's heart defense was set very high, and three feet of ice was not a day's cold, thinking about the pain and difficulties that Sanping had been suffering, he always had a deep sympathy for Sanping.

He wanted to step forward and gently pat Sanping on the shoulder, but he also knew that at this time, he should not take the initiative to have any physical contact with Sanping, which would make Sanping even more panicked.

"I know you want to get better." Dr. Hu kept looking Sanping in the eye and said affirmatively, "Otherwise, you won't come on time for every consultation; Otherwise, you won't be able to take your medicine on time every time. I heard from the head nurse that you are very cooperative with our work. Including writing an autobiography, even if you tell me now that you don't want to write anymore, but you tried. Even now, you are still communicating with me, which shows that your desire to get better is very strong. But you're still scared. Actually, what you're afraid of, isn't it a fact that you've always known? Do you think that once you admit or accept this fact, you will be knocked down and you will never get better? Sanping, I'm going to tell you, no. Whatever that fact you are afraid to accept, it has already happened, it has passed, it can't hurt you anymore, and you are now strong enough to turn around and take it down. ”

"So, don't resist the deep desire in your heart to move forward. With me, I will accompany you in battle until you overcome. Dr. Hu's eyes were a little hot, "And now, I want you to focus on your feelings and not run away from them." Can you tell me how you felt when you got sick? Seeing that Sanping had lowered his guard a little, Dr. Hu continued to ask.

"Actually, when you were hospitalized for the first time, you already asked me this question." Sanpei said, "I also remember that I answered before. But since you're asking again now, I'll answer it again. She put aside the pillow on her chest and no longer avoided Dr. Hu.