Before you know it, the consultation is already halfway through. Dr. Wu feels that today's consultation has made a lot of progress. Even though Sanping was still skeptical about the method and outcome of the treatment, she had fully trusted Dr. Hu, and this was a good start.

"What was the reason for your suicide?" Dr. Hu finally asked the question. In fact, he was still worried that the time was not ripe, and he was worried that Sanping would not be able to bear the weight of this problem.

But at the same time, he also knew that it was a good time, and Sanpei had already appeared and started to hallucinate, so he planned to give it a go.

Sanping, who was still talking freely just now, was silent again after hearing Dr. Hu's question.

Dr. Hu didn't rush, he was waiting.

Sure enough, Sanping spoke again—the desire to survive made her speak.

At that time, Lu Yi had just confessed to me. I'm scared. Sanpei took a deep breath and said with difficulty, "I don't like him, I mean, I don't like that kind of like, I like him as my friend, but I don't have that idea at all." As soon as he confessed to me, I panicked, I didn't know how to respond to him, and I felt that I was good or bad. I wanted to promise him, but I thought of Yonghe again, and I felt that I had betrayed Yonghe, and this was not right......"

"So you chose to commit suicide?" Dr. Hu asked duly.

"Yes. It's too hard. Sanping nodded, and then said, "Now that I think about it, although I don't want to die now, I still feel that at that time, death is liberation." ”

"Well, temporary relief." Dr. Wu was noncommittal. Sanping frowned and asked, "What do you mean?" ”

"I didn't mean to say that you weren't right." Dr. Hu said softly, "But if you think about it carefully, if you succeed in committing suicide at that time, your life will really be gone, not to mention the things of liberation, you no longer exist in this world, and the problem will not exist." ”

"That's what I'm here for." "My goal is to make the problem disappear. ”

"Do you have to die in order for the problem to go away?" Dr. Hu said word by word, "Then what is your long-term struggle?" Isn't it true that you suppress your true desire to listen to your father and become a violinist just to prove something? Besides, your death doesn't make the problem go away. Your problems are still there, only in your corpse, in your short life. When others come to see you, they will know that your problem never really goes away, because you never want to face it and solve it! All you've been doing is running away, running away from problems, running away from pain, escaping reality. ”

"Judging from this suicide, you are running away again. I don't know before, you didn't know what Luyi meant to you. Let's talk about the confession of the road this time. He confesses to you, and you have two choices – accept or reject. If you like it, you accept it, and if you don't like it, you will reject it. For you, the solution that is right for you is to refuse, but will you be afraid that if you refuse, he will continue to be good to you? Will he still be your friend? You are afraid to bear the consequences of this choice, and there is really no way to accept him against your will, in order to escape, you choose to commit suicide - of course, the reason for your suicide must be more than this problem, I wonder if Lu Yi confessed to you This matter reminds you of another pain that you are unwilling to face. And that pain is even greater than the pain of having to deal with the confession of the road. ”

Sanping's face became worse and worse, and when she heard "another pain", her face was even more dead.

"Do you remember the last time I asked you, why did you dispose of all the relics of Yonghe? In fact, the nature of your act of handling relics is the same as that of your suicide. Suicide is another way for you to escape, another lie for you. Your whole life is surrounded by lies – there are lies from others, but what really breaks you down is your own lies about yourself. And my advice is that you stop lying now. Only if you stop lying and then go and face your problems and pain directly can you really get better. Doctor Hu looked at Sanping earnestly, "I know you can't say the most painful memory in your heart now, but it's okay, you don't have to force yourself." ”

Sanpei's expression began to turn painful and he began to shake his head violently. She threw the pillow on the floor, stood up, and began to walk anxiously back and forth in Dr. Hu's room.

Xiao Fei and Lu Yi found a random restaurant at noon and had lunch, and everyone dispersed. Lu Yi insisted on sending Miss Cheng. Granny Yu was also a little tired, so Yu Yun planned to drive Granny Yu home first, and then go to the hospital to see Sanping in the afternoon. When Yu Yun asked Xiao Fei if he wanted to go to the hospital with him, Xiao Fei shook his head and remained silent. Yu Yun looked at Xiao Fei, didn't say anything, nodded, and drove home with Granny Yu.

Teacher Jian was fine in the afternoon and wanted to go to an art gallery in the town to have a look, he looked at Xiao Fei who was walking on the side, lowering his head and kicking the stones, and asked tentatively, "Do you want to go with me to have a look?" ”

Xiao Fei shrugged, "Whatever." ”

"Hey, you have such casual energy, but you really have a fight with Yu Yun." Teacher Jane was happy.

Xiao Fei thought for a while, turned his head and looked at Teacher Jian, "Teacher Jian, are you and Yu Yun classmates?" ”

"yes." Teacher Jian was happy, "I've known each other since junior high school, how long have you been today?" I'm too lazy to count, it's just some years, some years, hahaha! ”

"He's always been like that...... Hmm......" Xiao Fei thought about Yu Yun's face, couldn't find an adjective for a while, and got stuck there.

"Cold?" Teacher Jian picked it up, and seeing Xiao Fei nodding hesitantly, Teacher Jian continued happily, "I know what you think. I feel that Yu Yun is exquisite, he can do everything neatly, and what words change when they come out of his mouth, but I feel that he is not as easy to contact as Lu Yi, right? I'll tell you, he's always been like this. ”

"Anyway, when I knew him, he was my class president, he studied well, he was popular, the teacher liked it, his classmates liked it, and I liked it too, but after a long time, I felt that he was a heavy-minded person, unfathomable, not familiar to a certain extent, he really didn't open up to you easily." Teacher Jian continued to reminisce.

"He's been friends with you for so long, he must like you very much, right?" Xiao Fei finally understood why he had always had an unspeakable dislike for Yu Yun before, it was because this person hid deeply.

"Well, not really. There's a reason for all this. For so many years, apart from me, his family, and now you, and Sanping, oh, and Luyi, I haven't seen him care about anyone. Teacher Jian replied, "He is the kind of person who can usually live alone, he is good to me, and he can be friends with me because he has had an accident before." ”

"What happened to you before?" Xiao Fei's curiosity was aroused.

"It's nothing. It's just, hey, what happened before, now that I think about it, I still feel a little emotional, haha, it's been so long. Xiao Fei looked at Teacher Jian's non-stop talking, and felt that it was coke, like a little old man, and recalled the past, "I couldn't think about it at that time, I wanted to ...... That's it, I don't want to live anymore, it's also Yu Yun, who desperately pulled me, didn't let me jump, and told me a lot of big truths when it was over, and then he kept following me, afraid of me...... I'm afraid I won't be able to think about it again, and I'll do stupid things again. It's only the first time I've seen Yu Yun say so many things, what I heard him say the most before, it's class, class, homework, don't be like this......" Teacher Jian became more and more energetic, but Xiao Fei interrupted with a frown, "You...... Can't think of it? ”

Teacher Jian's current optimist appearance doesn't look like a ...... I couldn't think of it.

"Doesn't it look like it?" Teacher Jian glanced at Xiao Fei with a smile, and Xiao Fei nodded honestly. Teacher Jian sighed and continued, "This kind of thing, it doesn't seem to be recognizable. Did I tell you that I wasn't born to my parents? ”

"Huh?" Xiao Fei looked at Teacher Jian in amazement.

"Speaking of which, I'm quite similar to you, haha." Teacher Jian looked ahead and said, "But I'm different from you, I didn't know who my parents were by nature, and I was adopted by the old man later." Moreover, before the old man adopted me, my mother had already fallen ill and died. The old man just felt bored to be alone, and my mother didn't give him a child before she died, and he didn't have the heart to remarry, so he went to the orphanage and picked me up. ”

After the shock, Xiao Fei didn't know what to say for a while, so he had to lower his head and continue to listen.

"I was rebellious." Teacher Jian scratched her head embarrassedly, "I think my dad is hypocritical, and he wants to leave every day." My dad didn't say anything, but he didn't let me go, so he let me make trouble at home every day. It's been a while, it's time for me to go to school, and when I get to junior high school, I really can't think about it anymore, and I don't know where I can't figure it out, anyway, I just see that everything around me is not pleasing to the eye. That day, I thought about jumping off the roof of the teaching building, but I happened to be bumped into by Yu Yun, who was smoking there, and looked up to see a big fat boy standing there, startled him, and as soon as he threw the cigarette, he came to catch me. When he caught me, he was punched several times by me, and when I calmed down, I found that his face was blue and purple, and his skin was thin, white and tender, and he looked particularly terrible. He didn't pay much attention to it himself, but followed me for several years, and kept talking about the big truth. At first, I was annoyed and didn't want to listen, but then I listened to it and thought it was right, so I slowly learned to accept my situation. ”

Xiao Fei took a deep breath, he felt that the amount of information was too much.

"That's why he's the principal, he's born to do it." Teacher Jian sighed, "It was also the fate that was formed at that time, and I don't know if I relied on him or he relied on me, anyway, the two of us have been until today." ”

"It's the same as acting." Xiao Fei muttered.

"You say we're acting? Haha, you're not more like Sanping. Teacher Jian quipped, then said "hey", then stopped, turned around in place several times, Xiao Fei grabbed him, "What are you doing?" ”

"No, am I lost? Why doesn't it seem like this way? Teacher Jian's fleshy face, his facial features were crowded together, Xiao Fei looked at Zhile, "You don't know the way?" ”

"I'm a road idiot."

"Road idiot, road idiot still dare to lead the way?" After Xiao Feile finished, he reluctantly took out his mobile phone and clicked on the map.

"Isn't it addictive to talking, and you forget about me while chatting." Teacher Jian hurriedly came up, "Look for it, where is it, I'm so hot, there is air conditioning in the art museum." ”

"Don't rush, I'm looking." Xiao Fei checked the map, turned around, and pointed his chin in one direction, "It should be there." Let's go. ”

"Let's go." Teacher Jian pulled Xiao Fei forward, and after a while, he turned his head and said to Xiao Fei, "I feel now, your current appearance is a bit like the ghost I used to be." ”

Xiao Fei put his phone in his pocket and kept silent.

"But you're better than me, you're calmer than me, and you can think about things, so I want to remind you again, what knots are there, what problems are there, solve them directly, face them directly. How to say it, it's all fate, don't live up to it in vain. Teacher Jian said with a smile.

Xiao Fei glanced at Teacher Jian, "No wonder you can play with Yu Yun for so long." ”

Teacher Jian smiled.