I reverted to the mechanized mode of being a person, getting up at seven o'clock every day, washing up and eating the same breakfast, leaving the house around half past seven, driving for about twenty minutes, and arriving at the courthouse before eight o'clock.

It's like a machine.,Enter the instruction mode.,You don't need to think about it.,Just live your life according to the book.。

Xiao Dong was the first to notice my abnormality, but he had been at work for a while, and he made an appointment to say that he had something to talk about during lunch.

"Why is it so bad lately?"

I held the glass of water and was silent for a moment, "No, I don't." ”

I didn't plan to tell him about my divorce, after all, it wasn't a happy event, and there was no need to spread it around.

Xiao Dong took a sip of tea and commented with a poisonous tongue: "Pale face, puffy eyes, dark circles, frizzy hair, Xiaoru, are you too stressed by your mother-in-law and daughter-in-law?" ”

My heart hurts, I even have the relationship between my mother-in-law and daughter-in-law, how can I get pressure from my mother-in-law and daughter-in-law?

"The court is not a shopping mall counter, and it doesn't need any image points." I looked down on my face and slammed back.

Xiao Dong shrugged, "Indeed, but you look so bad, I'm afraid that your Zhou Yu will be disgusted one day." ”

If it really hurts, he will poke it wherever it hurts.

I bowed my head and said nothing, and when the food was served, I changed the subject. But the next day, Xiao Dong suddenly called me to the office, and the first thing I said was to ask, "Did you have a problem with Zhou Yu?" ”

Slightly stunned, he frowned and asked back noncommittally: "Why do you ask that?" ”

"Today, they have a case sent over for review, didn't it all come from your husband in the past, this time it was someone else, I casually asked Zhou Suo, and that person actually told me that Zhou Yu was going through the resignation procedures."

Dimission?! My eyes widened in astonishment, why did he leave?

Xiao Dong stared at me for a moment, "It seems that you don't know, how can I not discuss such a big matter as resignation?" Did you two quarrel again lately? Come on, let's talk about it, what are you arguing about? ”

I suddenly felt like a deflated ball, unable to pretend to be in front of familiar people, and buried my head in a low voice: "We are divorced." ”

Xiao Dong: "What did you say?" I didn't hear you. ”

Taking a deep breath, I said word by word: "I have divorced Zhou Yu." ”

Xiao Dong was stunned, "When did it happen?" ”

"Years later."

After only responding with two words, Xiao Dong immediately thought: "The day you asked for leave on the seventh day of the first month?" ”

I just nodded.

But Xiao Dong sneered, "Jia Ru, do you treat marriage as child's play?" Marriage and divorce are a joke. ”

My heart is as uncomfortable as being pricked by a needle, not to blame Xiao Dong for saying it is unpleasant, but because my marriage and divorce are too frequent.

Xiao Dong waved his hand at me, "Let's go out first, it's annoying to see you like this." You leave me after work, and I'll interrogate you later. I left the office and returned to my seat, pinched my eyebrows, and stood there in a daze.

This is the aftermath of divorce.

divorced Chen Huan before, not only did his emotions not fluctuate too much, but he was also very rational, except for the fact that he was a little embarrassed when he bumped into Zhou Yu at the beginning because of Chen Huan's female ticket girl, I was very calm when I dealt with the divorce later.

Unlike this time, the whole person has become bad.

I often keep my eyes open all night until dawn, and it is cold from lying down to getting up in the bed, and my feet have never warmed up. I have a cold constitution, and there is a stove around me during the previous time, and he likes to cuddle me to sleep, and these things will not happen. Now even if I leave the heating and air conditioning on overnight, it doesn't work.

I'm trying to break free from this quagmire, but I probably won't be able to do it overnight. In fact, the responsibility lies with me, and it is I who indulge myself to get closer to him again, to love.

Only after comparing did I understand that I was just completing a marriage process with Chen Huan, so I didn't have too many regrets when this process was terminated. Unlike Zhou Yu, I have spent almost half of my life with him, from childhood to teenager, to adulthood, and the green years and youth have been given to him, and in addition to love, there are habits that cannot be quit.

For me, it's not the other half of the bed that is empty every night, but the heart that can still hold back and not think about the past, but now it is thrown out with blood.

There is also the drop. When I had a dispute with him about values and ideas before, even if I was tired, it would arouse my fighting spirit, and I would think in my heart that this person was frivolous in life, and I would always beat him one day; Later, his family showed up one after another, and I was able to see the tricks, until his parents came back and began to feel tired. But even if you are tired, it is better than an empty heart.

Suddenly, it's empty, and there's no purpose in doing anything. Holding the case at work, driving around the city after work, I don't want to go back too early, because when I walk into an empty home, I will remember the past and his bits and pieces.

There are traces of my life everywhere, but since the seventh day of the new year, this person has faded out of my life.

Xiao Dong intercepted me when he got off work that day, and said to me who was about to escape-If you can escape the temple where the monk can't escape, you can do it. I had to follow him into a coffee shop near the courthouse, the one that used to order takeout.

Xiao Dong asked me if I was still Mocha, I shook my head and said a glass of juice.

He raised his eyebrows, "Zhou Yu's habits?" ”

I was silent.

What's damn is that Xiao Dong deliberately ordered two cups of coffee and a glass of orange juice, and then said with a smile on the corner of his mouth: "If you don't drink it, I'll be guilty of drinking two cups alone." ”

He knew that I was not immune to coffee, and when he smelled it, he felt his taste buds jump. But still holding the orange juice in front of him, Xiao Dong shrugged his shoulders and did not continue to dwell on this issue.

"I called Zhou Yu once in the afternoon." Xiao Dong's first sentence stunned me.

He looked at him in a daze and asked, "What are you talking to him?" ”

Xiao Dong: "Don't worry, I have my own measure, and I won't say much about things that I should not be in charge of." Mainly asked about his resignation, it seems that he was transferred by his superiors, and it is uncertain where he will be transferred, most of them are promotions. And you also mentioned something about him, now let's talk about what is going on with the two of you, why did you go to divorce on the first day of work in the People's Civil Affairs Bureau after the New Year? ”

I hesitated again and again before I slowly spoke: "Xiao Dong, there are some things here that I don't want to say, there is always a reason for leaving." ”

"Something to do with his family?" Xiao Dong hit the nail on the head.

Awkwardly looking away at the window, he nodded frankly: "So to speak." ”

"Okay, since you don't want to say, I won't ask you the specific reason. Just one thing to ask you - can you let him go? ”

I pulled the corners of my mouth self-deprecatingly, "The marriage is divorced, and I can't let go of what I can talk about." ”

"He didn't think so, he even warned me on the phone."

Surprised, "What did he warn you about?" ”

Xiao Dong laughed, "Warning me not to attack you, how far away from you is." ”

“……”

This is indeed what Zhou Yu will do, but now what position does he take to warn Xiao Dong?

I heard Xiao Dong also say: "I asked him at the time, what position did he take to warn me, your second ex-husband?" He was so angry that he hung up the phone. ”

With Xiao Dong's poisonous mouth, if his heart is not strong enough, he definitely has the ability to drive people crazy.

Xiao Dong said again: "Actually, I can guess if you don't say it, most of the problems are on his side, and his family is part of the reason, but it is definitely not the main thing." With your temperament, it's not that there is no way out, I'm afraid it's hard to let go of him. But I don't seem to have given up on you yet, it depends on whether you really make up your mind to end the relationship, or just make a fuss, and treat marriage and divorce as a game. ”

I replied angrily: "Who would use divorce as a game?" ”

"Not necessarily." He deliberately glanced at me, and then smiled. Don't talk too much, just mean it.

After a moment of silence, I said rationally: "Since we are really separated, I have made a ruthless decision and a decision." ”

"Does that mean you've made up your mind? It is best to start a new relationship, otherwise you won't be able to really let go, and second, he is probably not so easy to give up. ”

Stunned for a moment, he lowered his eyes and said, "We are both divorced, how can he not give up?" And I haven't seen him in a while. Xiao Dong's eyes flashed, "It's a pity to listen to your tone?" ”

"Nope." He was a little annoyed by him, "Don't misinterpret my thoughts. ”

Xiao Dong said with a smile: "Whether it is misinterpreted or not, you know it in your heart." My suggestion is for you, if you adopt or consider it, you might as well consider me first. ”

I didn't react yet, but after a while, I thought of something, and looked up in amazement, "What did you just say?" ”

"I said that if you make up your mind to end up with him, starting a new relationship is the best way to cut off the relationship. I've known you for a short time, and we've worked together a little bit more. At least conceptually, we won't have too much collision and friction, and we can also negotiate. In addition, my family is very simple, my parents are retired teachers, and now the two of them are very open-minded, speculating in stocks and traveling twice a year, and they are now only urging me to hold my grandson......"

"Wait a minute." I stopped him in a panic, "Don't you have a girlfriend?" Why are you telling me this all of a sudden? Xiao Dong, what are you crazy about? "He's deliberately playing tricks on me, and I'm still uneasy as I think about it.

Because Xiao Dong looked relaxed and smiled just now, but he looked at me with emotion, and he said, "I forgot to tell you that I broke up with her a year ago." The reason is also to confess to you, her family wants me to give up the work of the court and open a training institution with her, I am not familiar with this area, and I am not interested, so I will separate if I can't talk about it. Adults talk about feelings more simply, if they are together, if they don't, they will be separated, and there is no need to waste each other's time. ”

I looked at him in amazement, I never knew that feelings could be so rational, and everything could be so clear.

I still remember a few times before when I had dinner with them, and the girl was generous, beautiful, and knowledgeable. Unexpectedly, after a while, he has been separated from Xiao Dong. Isn't this just unpredictable?

Xiao Dong saw that I was silent, and pushed the cup of coffee in front of me that he had not drunk, and his tone was not persuasive, but it was a common tone when lobbying the original defendant: "Xiaoru, you and I are three years apart in age, and we work together in the court and know the roots." I would never have mentioned this to you when there were people around you before, but now that you are single, if you don't want to be bothered by the past, you might as well consider me. Of course, I'm not in a hurry to ask you to give me an answer right away, you can think about it. ”

Without waiting for me to react, he clicked twice on the table and said, "Just like this cup of coffee, you know what it tastes like, and having a cup at the right time will not be a burden, but will be able to relieve stress." On the contrary, you deliberately restrain your appetite from drinking it, and in a way you are stressing yourself. ”

I ended up drinking that cup of mocha.