I sat in the taxi, staring blankly at the scenery that flew away, the alcohol paralyzed my brain, and my courage was much bigger than usual.

Because I probably knew what the outcome would be, I kept burying my head in the soil like an ostrich, choosing not to look at it or think about it.

After getting out of the car, I walked into the gate of the community, and when I went downstairs, I took the spare key given to me by Su Chan, brushed open the access control, and took the elevator to the seventh floor.

When I arrived at the door of Su Chan's house, I didn't rush in, but stood in the corridor and silently lit a cigarette.

The nicotine entered my lungs, which cleared my brain a little, I opened the window of the hallway, and the cold wind of the night blew, and the effect of the alcohol gradually disappeared, but I still did not flinch, I had made up my mind, and I got an answer on this night, whether it was good or bad.

After the cigarette was finished, I walked back to Su Chan's door, and I didn't recklessly use the spare key she gave me to open the door, but honestly rang the doorbell.

But until the doorbell rang, Su Chan didn't come to open the door, I was a little puzzled, didn't Su Chan come back at this time, and was she still with Song Kai?

When I was thinking about it, I heard the sound of the security door opening, and when I opened the door, I saw that Su Chan appeared in front of me wearing pajamas and her hair was wet, obviously looking like she had just taken a shower.

Although she had just come out of the bathroom, her face was flushed, but I could still feel her cold attitude towards me from the expression on Su Chan's face.

Before I could speak, Su Chan sniffled, "Why is there such a big smell of wine and smoke, how much did you drink at night?" ”

When she spoke, the disappointment and boredom in Su Chan's eyes became even stronger, and I took all this into my eyes, and I felt a little sad inexplicably.

I looked at Su Chan and wanted to tell her directly that I liked her, but I was stuck, I couldn't say anything, paused, I still didn't immediately say what I wanted to say in my heart, but looked at Su Chan and said seriously, "I want to come and apologize to you, I didn't do anything at night." ”

Seeing me mention this matter, the impatient expression on Su Chan's face became even worse, "I don't want to mention this matter, you have drunk so much wine, just go back quickly." ”

After saying that, Su Chan was about to close the door, obviously because she didn't want to see me and didn't want to chat with me, I saw that when Su Chan was about to close the door, she stretched out her foot and stuck in the crack of the door, preventing her from closing the door.

If Su Chan closes the door, I am destined not to see her again tonight.

"I have something else I want to tell you, can you let me in?"

I am actually already a robber, my foot is stuck here, she will definitely not be able to close the door, Su Chan looked up at me, and finally did not stalemate with me here, but turned around and left, and went back to her bedroom.

I entered the door as I wished, but I couldn't figure out whether Su Chan didn't want to pay attention to me when she returned to the bedroom, or if she had other things to deal with first.

After thinking about it, I didn't bother her, but sat on the sofa in the living room, quietly waiting for Su Chan, and after a while, I heard a sound on the bedroom door, but Su Chan still didn't come to me, I kept my patience and continued to wait.

After about another five minutes, Su Chan walked in front of me, she had changed into light clothes, her wet hair was also dry, and she was still holding a glass of warm honey water in her hand.

Su Chan's face was still cold, and she handed me the water cup in her hand, "Drink the honey water, you can relieve the hangover, and I will send you back after drinking." ”

This is the relationship between us, I did something wrong, she scolded me on the phone, when I came to her, she was still angry with me, but she still gave me honey water to relieve alcohol, and when she saw that I was drunk, she was afraid that it would be unsafe for me to go home, and she had to sacrifice her sleep time to change clothes to send me home.

I took the cup of honey water with some silence, but I didn't drink it, put it on the coffee table, stood up and looked at Su Chan seriously.

She is really beautiful, so beautiful that women are jealous, and she is really good, so good that she can be proud of everyone in her generation, because no one has achieved more than her at this age, but she is too beautiful and excellent to become my biggest problem, because I love her but know that I am not worthy of her.

The comparison of advantages and disadvantages gradually made my inferiority complex a mountain on my shoulders, and I chased desperately, but I couldn't catch up with her pace.

In fact, what I love is not this beautiful skin, let alone the fame and money she carries, what I cherish is the relationship between us in the past twenty years, and what I love is this girl who has grown up with me since childhood, whether she is tall, short, fat or thin, beautiful or ugly, and whether she has money or not, what her family background is, because there is no one other than her who has accompanied me through so many years to understand and cherish each other so much.

Su Chan was a little uncomfortable by me, and said coldly, "What do you want to say, I'll send you back early after speaking, there is rain in the forecast at night, you should go back early and rest." ”

I watched her take a deep breath and whispered, "I don't know how to explain it......"

After a moment of silence, I looked at Su Chan seriously and said the most important words of the night in the most sincere tone, "I love you!" ”

All the words I had thought of before were discarded by me at this moment, because those words could not describe the feelings and experiences between the two of us, and I didn't need to say so much useless nonsense, I just needed to smelt the three most important words from it and tell her.

Su Chan was a little surprised, her red lips opened slightly, she didn't expect me to come over at night to say such a thing.

After saying those three words, I seemed to have exhausted all my strength, I could feel my body trembling slightly, and I could hear my heartbeat more clearly, and even had the illusion that my heart was about to beat out of my chest in the next moment.

I was a little out of breath, my eyes were staring at Su Chan, and I didn't dare to let go of the slightest sound, I was afraid that I would miss the answer I wanted to hear in a trance.

Even though I knew it was unlikely, I still had a faint illusion that she would come up and hug me, and tell me that she loved me the same when she promised me, and that everything would be beautiful when we were together......

Su Chan seemed to have come back from her surprise at this time, and her eyes looked at me seriously, but she randomly looked away, lowered her head and stopped looking at me, and did not speak.

The moment I saw her reaction, I knew Su Chan's answer, but she was afraid of hurting me, so she didn't say it directly.

I gradually lost hearing the beating of my heart, the feeling of hot blood on my head disappeared, my body stopped shaking, I calmed down, and my heart died.

I laughed miserably, and tried to say something self-deceptive as usual to soften the silence, but when the words came to my lips, I could no longer speak as lightly as before.

This time I'm serious, and since it's a serious beginning, there's also a serious end......

In the end, I didn't say anything, just stepped forward and gently hugged Su Chan, who was bowing her head.

Holding the girl in my arms, I had an unreal feeling, we hadn't hugged in a long time, and even I forgot what it was like to hold her, and I forgot the smell of her hair.

I fell into the memory, it seemed like we hadn't hugged since my sophomore year, maybe she had grown up and knew that there was a difference between men and women, or maybe I didn't have that much of an important place in her heart anymore.

A lot of things are actually predestined for a long time, but I have always been reluctant to see and think about them.

"I'm leaving, you have a good rest, you don't have to send me ......"

After speaking, I dragged my tired body out of the door of Su Chan's house, the moment I just stepped out of the door, I suddenly remembered something, I took out my key ring from my pocket, took down the key belonging to Su Chan's house, put it on the shoe cabinet, and then closed the door lightly.

At this moment, I suddenly understood what was said in the movie.

Those who really leave, close the door the lightest......