The voice was clear in my ears, and I didn't want to open my eyes, I didn't want to see him.

He doesn't love me.

This is an indisputable fact.

He may not want me to be Ling'er, otherwise why wouldn't he dare to face it.

A stream of hot tears rushed out of my closed eyes and crawled down the corners of my eyes.

I want to get rid of his hand holding me, I don't want such love, I'm no one, not Cheng Keling, not Tan Xiaoyue, but who is me?

Can anyone tell me who I am.

At the end of my rope, what he sent me was a destruction, which caused me endless painful struggles in the abyss.

Zhan Yunting, I don't want to be redeemed, I only want to curse you, I hope you will never be able to ask for a lover again in this life and this life!

I also seem to be laughing maniably in my dreams.

"No!"

These words were like a sharp sword piercing my body, penetrating my lungs, and the sharp pain spread from my chest to every hair in every corner of my body, inch by inch, engulfing my breath.

Another burst of darkness hit, I fell asleep deeply, I saw Tan Jincheng's face, looking at me with a hideous face and smiling, and the gloomy gaze made me shudder.

He always looked at me suspiciously, which made me feel so cold.

I wanted to run, I wanted to run away from his eyes.

But Liu Shuxian's face appeared, her distorted face kept dangling in front of me, and then she stretched out her hand and pinched me, I shook, it hurt!

On the other side is Tan Mingyue's disdainful face, she keeps kicking me and twisting my face, I hurt so much!

And that Tan Ziqi, who always touches me, stretches out his hand like me from time to time......

Suddenly, Tan Mingyue and Liu Shuxian grabbed me and pushed me downstairs...... Yes.......

I woke up screaming.

"Ling'er!"

"Month"

"Satsuki!"

"Mom...... Mommy wake up! "There were fine beads of sweat on my forehead, and I looked at the purple room full of my relatives.

"Ling'er, you scared your mother! You're awake! "I saw my mother sitting on my bed with Zhuang Zhuang in her arms.

Big big eyes looked at me watery, "Mom! Wake up! Why did you sleep so long! Are you hungry? ”

I collapsed instantly, reached out and hugged Zhuangzhuang, hugged it in my arms with all my might, and cried.

At this moment, to be honest, only Zhuang Zhuang is my only relative, and my memory only stays at the moment when I gave birth to him.

Only he and I have been dependent on each other for 2 years, and I continue to take him to work hard in the suffering, but I can only move forward tenaciously, not daring to think about anything, not daring to hope.

Zhan Yunting's handsome face carried a sharp pain from the depths of his soul, and his eyebrows wrinkled together in pain, "Xiaoyue, you...... What happened to you? ”

What else can I do? It's really a mess.

"Ling'er, don't cry, don't scare Zhuangzhuang!" My mother patted me on the back, "You see it's all right now, it's all over!" ”

"You all go out, I want to stay with Zhuang Zhuang alone!" I sobbed, no one looked at me, just hugged Zhuang Zhuang, "I want to stay with Zhuang Zhuang!" ”

"Month! ......" Zhan Yunting's voice sounded, and he didn't continue, he still had a handsome face as before, demonic and evil, he had the capital to make women crazy, but he no longer moved me for reasons.

What could be more ironic than the fact that he didn't love me by admitting it himself.

"All out, thank you!" I repeat it again!

The father patted the mother on the shoulder, "Anhe! Let's get out! Give Ling'er a space! She'll figure it out! ”

My mother reluctantly sat beside me and looked at me, and after a long time, she got out of bed, "Zhuangzhuang, accompany my mother well!" ”

"Hmmm! I know! Mom thinks about me! He talked to himself obediently.

I heard my brother say to Zhan Yunting, "Yunting, come out!" ”

"I ...... Month! Shall I accompany you? His voice seemed to be pleading.

"Get out!" I looked at him and screamed.

Zhuang shook in my arms, his arms wrapped tightly around my neck.

I patted him on the back and whispered comfortingly, "Don't be afraid! If you don't shoot strong, your mother didn't say anything about you! ”

Tears flowed like a flood again, "Zhuangzhuang, mom only has you, only you!" ”

Zhan Yunting's face turned pale, he gave up all struggle and resistance, and he didn't bother to argue and explain, so he left a back in silence.

Cheng Siyuan dragged Zhan Yunting out of my room, the door was closed, and I hugged Zhuang Zhuang and cried loudly.

I cried until the sky was dark, and Zhuang Zhuang also cried with me, and he kept wiping my tears with his little hands.

"Mom, don't cry...... Yes...... Why are you still crying! Babies are scared! What's wrong with you, Mom? Who upset you? Mom? ”

"Mom's ......"

I couldn't control myself, "Strong, okay with mom?" You are my mother's whole life, my mother only has you as an achievement, you are the only achievement in my life, without you, my mother is nothing! ”

I looked at the tears in my arms, and cried like me.

"Mom, what is Sen's achievement?"

He tirelessly asked, even when he was crying, "How strong are you......?" You are my achievement! ”

I hugged him in my arms again, "Mom can't lose you, if you weren't sick at the beginning, Mom wouldn't have taken that wrong step, strong!" ”

"Where are the ifs? Can anyone tell me how I can turn back! "I cried and looked at Zhuang Zhuang from time to time.

"Mom doesn't cry! Strong will protect Mom! "He knelt in front of me and wiped my tears with his little hands.

I don't know how long I cried, I gradually lost my voice, I just hugged Zhuang Zhuang and fell into deep thought, I was thinking about everything ethereal, thinking about how I would face the future.

Zhuang Zhuang saw that I didn't cry anymore, and he wiped his eyes and looked at me pitifully, "Mom, the baby is hungry!" ”

I looked at his face because of crying, and his skin was tight, shiny, his red little mouth was half open, seeing that I was looking at him, he involuntarily stretched out his pink little tongue and licked his lips, "Baby is hungry!" ”

My nose was sore, and tears were falling down my eyes, and he immediately said obediently, "I'm not hungry!" Mommy doesn't cry, baby doesn't hunger! ”

I sniffed and put him on the ground, "Go ahead!" Let's go eat with my grandmother! ”

"What about Mom?" He looked at me a little reluctantly.

"Mom is tired and needs to rest!" I said to him, "Go! ”

"Then I'll get it for my mother! Are you a good mother with your baby? ”

"Hmm!" I perfunctorily told him, "Go ahead!" Mommy doesn't cry anymore! ”

Then he became happy, "Then you wait, the baby will go and get it for the mother!" ”

After he finished speaking, he ran to the door, "Brain, mom is hungry!" ”

He reached the doorknob with his feet, and before he could open the door, the door was pushed open, and Zhan Yunting walked in, "Dad! I'm going to get a good seven for my mother! ”

"Good! The baby is so good! He rubbed his head as he spoke, and let Zhuang Zhuang run out.

He came to me tentatively.

"Get out, I don't want to see you!" I said to him in a cold tone.

At this time, I really didn't want to see him, although his handsome face was so confusing to me, but I didn't want to let myself fall into a helpless state again.

None of this can hide the fact that he doesn't love me.

I can't use my past to pray for him to love me.

"Satsuki, I just want to tell you about my state of mind, you misunderstood what I meant, I ......"

"Get out! Please give me some dignity! I didn't look at him, and said lightly.

He just stood there, wearing a creatively tailored white shirt and two straight legs under his neat suit pants, and he stood there at a distance, looking at me helplessly with a hint of helplessness in his eyes.

I feel really sad, this man does not belong to me, but I think that I am strong and keep a primitive faith, and I am glad that I have everything that has happened even forcibly, and I have our flesh and blood, I can move him and have him.

After suffering for 10 years, crawling through 2 years with difficulty, and pretending to be stupid for 1 year, I finally understood that Zhan Yunting didn't love me, and the price of understanding these truths was that my family was almost ruined.

Even in Jiangcheng, where I just left, there was endless public opinion attacking me, just because of his existence, I was suffering endlessly.

However, all the joy is hard to hide, he does not love me.

The Ling'er he loves is a shadow of me who was lost in the past.

And I live by his side, but he doesn't love it, that shadow and Tan Xiaoyue are completely two people, he understands, I understand, others will not understand.