Chapter 30: I Don't Like Money, But I Like Freedom
"Women should do the right thing at the right time. You should study well when it's time to study, fall in love when it's time to fall in love, work hard when it's time to work, get married when it's time to get married, and have children when it's time to have children. I didn't do any of the above well, and I gave up because I was ashamed to ask others for advice, and I didn't think about trying to understand it. I have never been in love, and my marriage was completely forced by the pressure of the people in the village, and I was afraid that others would say that I couldn't get married when I was so old, because I cared too much about other people's opinions, so I hastily put my life happiness into things. I have worked hard, but I didn't fight for anything, I was on the assembly line like a robot all day long, and I didn't dare to resist when I was oppressed. I had a baby in the second year after I got married, and I used all my energy and time to take care of him. I'm 40 years old this year, I haven't been on a plane, I haven't been where I want to go. If I could do it all over again, I would like to live my life well and at least be able to spend some time for myself. ”
Host: "We all want to go back in time and make up for the regrets of our youth. ”
Yang Sumei: "I just went back, but in a dream." ”
Host: "Can you tell us what kind of dream it was?" ”
Yang Sumei: "I went back to my school days, regained my self-confidence, upheld justice, won dignity, met my parents who had passed away for a long time, and confessed to the boy I had always had a crush on, and had a good day." ”
Host: "In that case, you are now single again, you can go to him!" Maybe your dreams will come true! ”
Yang Sumei: "I won't go to him, whether he's single or not." ”
Host: "Why?" ”
Yang Sumei: "I'm afraid that I will be disappointed, if he has become a greasy uncle, and he is no longer pure by the edges and corners of reality, I will be sad." I would rather he always live in my memory, always be that clean and handsome sunny boy, when I think of him, my heart will throb, the corners of my mouth will not help but rise, I am full of hope for life. Thank you to him, let me know the feeling of heartbeat and the sweetness of love, let me feel that at least my life has not been in vain, I also like people, for someone to worry about. Let him always appear in my dreams, and continue the relationship with me. Sometimes fantasy is important to people, isn't it? ”
Host: "Then will you remarry?" ”
Yang Sumei: "If I meet a good person, I may fall in love, but I will not get married again." I just jumped out of one grave, and there was no need to jump into another. ”
Host: "What do you think is the essential difference between falling in love and getting married?" ”
Yang Sumei: "When you are in love, you can be grateful to him for half a day when you wash a pair of socks for him, and after you get married, if you don't cook and wash for him, you will be complained by him for half a day." Once you step into the territory of marriage, many things will become taken for granted, and it will become your job, your obligation. I'm doing well now, so why should I serve others? Where to go, you have to report to someone, quarrel over some trivial things, do something wronged by yourself, isn't it okay to find trouble? I like this freedom now. ”
Host: "Then do you think women need to be able to get this kind of freedom?" ”