A person has been unemployed for a long time and feels like he has a lot of time. There was no one to talk to, and I became untalkative and didn't know what to say.

I remember a book I once read that said that if you are not what you want to be, then you imagine yourself as what you want to be, then you will be happy.

I hope to have endless money without making money, I want to travel around the world, I hope to marry Li Yifeng, I want to have the ability to be happy forever, I want to be healthy forever, away from anyone's interference and disturbance, I want to be free...... Of course, I also hope to do some good deeds, but I also hope that people all over the world can gain the ability to be happy forever, be healthy forever, hope for world peace, and hope that the lives of people all over the world will be free from any interference...... But can these wishes be fulfilled?

I do not know. Although these wishes have not yet been fulfilled, my mood has calmed down a lot.

I think my wish should play a little bit. Since I was away from my phone, I found that I was living a more primitive life, and I think I was still in this place......

"They're still controlling you," Dr. Lou said.

"You're still nervous. He continued.

"Yes," I said, "I'm afraid." "When I say that, I feel like Dr. Lou is scared too. I want to tell my heart out.

"I thought it was all God's punishment for me, when I was a child, I hurt small animals, and I vented my bad feelings on small animals. I am strong for small animals, I can control the freedom of small animals, so I rely on the strong to bully small animals. When I realized this, I repented, deeply repented, but it didn't improve the situation. I said, "I think it's probably because of cause and effect, I once read an article that said that if you do a good deed, you will get a good reward, and if you do a bad deed, you will get a million bad retribution."

I guess that's the case with me. When I was a child, I did a lot of evil things, which is why I had this fate.

Heaven has been punishing me. And I watched

"What article did you read?"

"It's an article about cause and effect in Buddhism. There is also an article that says that my life of doing evil and getting evil retribution is still good, and if I do evil things and still don't get bad retribution, it means that he did not accumulate good fortune in his previous life, and he will fall into evil after death.

I don't know what the evil path is, but I vaguely remember that the article's description of the evil path is terrible, and I belong to the present life, not the afterlife.

I relented and said, "So no matter what I've been through in my life, I hope I don't complain, because that's what I should go through."

Dr. Lou didn't speak. I said: "I once watched a clip in "Journey to the West", Tang Seng was a little scared before crossing the river, so he asked Sun Wukong if he could cross the river?

Sun Wukong said: Master, you don't know that everything has a fixed number. The master was frightened by the demons, ghosts, ghosts, snakes and gods along the way, and the master was relieved that my grandson was there, and he must ensure that the master went to the west to seek the true scriptures. As I said this, Dr. Lou smiled at the corner of his mouth.

Since then, I have believed that there is a certain number for everything.

"Sun Wukong must have experienced a lot from an ordinary monkey to the Monkey King who made trouble in the Heavenly Palace, but the most important point is that he wants to live forever. As a result, he learned a skill, and was driven away by the master because he loved to show off too much. In the end, he caused trouble everywhere, and then was finally recruited by the Jade Emperor to be a Bi Ma Weng. He was dissatisfied, and felt that the gods on the heavenly palace were useless, so he made a big fuss in the heavenly palace and was pressed by the Buddha in the five finger mountains for five hundred years, these five hundred years he must have experienced a lot of heart, feeling that he was just a little monkey Everything is just the beginning, so Guanyin Bodhisattva wanted to ignite him, and later met Tang Seng, his whole personality changed. Although his personality has become kind, he still has to go through hardships to obtain the true scriptures. That's why I think it's the same in this life, I always think that I'm already doing well, but maybe it's just the beginning, and maybe I'll have to go through a lot in the future before I can achieve positive results. So the tribulations of life never stop, and there will be a lot of joy in it. These joys are to be experienced, shared, and felt together. "Before I knew it, I was saying so much again.

I guess that's how my life is. I think Avalokiteshvara has been watching me, and the gods in the heavens have been watching everything in the mortal world.

"This life is a kind of practice. "Before I knew it, I said that.

This sentence was seen on the Internet. ”

"Actually, I believe in Buddhism.

I said, "My family has always been against me believing in Buddhism, they say that believing in Buddhism is superstition, and my mother says that Buddhism has harmed many people."

He also gave me a lot of examples. But I don't think that's what she really thinks.

I said. "I know.

Dr. Lou said. "Once, she also wanted to believe in Buddhism, and she asked me if she could believe in Buddhism, and I said yes.

I smiled, but she hadn't mentioned it since.

"Every year during the Chinese New Year, she would go to buy chickens and fish and have them slaughtered and then hang the carcasses of the chickens and fish on the clothesline, and when my brother and I were playing upstairs, we would accidentally touch the carcasses of those chickens and fish, and then I would feel very scared, or at least panicked.

When I was a child, she used to kill fish by herself, and those fish were covered in blood, and she couldn't drink water, and I felt that those fish must be very painful, and I asked my mother that those fish must be very painful, right?

My mom said yes. I said can you not kill them? My mother said they were just a dish in the sun, for people to eat.

I don't know why this idea is so ingrained in her, why can't this idea disappear?

Why can't she feel the pain of small animals, and the idea that small animals want to live?

"Whenever I discussed this with her, she always said to me what my grandfather told her: "Don't blame you for the chicken, you are a dish in the yang world."

My brother and I began to discuss that if one day chickens did the same to people, and they started killing people regardless of their struggles, and they ate human flesh and gnawed human bones, that person would not be able to escape.

However, this discussion did not completely change my mother's idea of killing and eating meat, in her concept, eating meat must be to improve life, and vegetarianism must belong to the days of poor families who eat bran and pharyngeal vegetables.

"Do you like meat?"

I asked. "I can be vegetarian for you. Dr. Lou said.

"I once read an article that said that eating a vegetarian diet can cultivate kindness in people. I said. I laughed.

Hehe. Finally met one such person. Someone who agrees with me.

"So we're all vegetarian from now on, okay?

I asked. "Yes.

Dr. Lou replied. "Hmph, that's great.

I said. Thank you, I thought to myself. Anyway, you're going to have to give me the freedom to be a vegetarian for the rest of my life. No matter what happens in the future, you have to give me the freedom to be a vegetarian. I thought to myself, so I said to Dr. Lou: "Anyway, I will be a vegetarian from now on, can you not interfere with my freedom?"

"I thought, God, I have repented of the evil things I have done, and no matter what happens in the future, my wish is to have the freedom to be a vegetarian.

"Yes. Dr. Lou whispered.