"Everything in the future is unknown, we never know what will happen tomorrow, but you have to believe that no matter what happens in the future, I will face it with you. I'm going to go through it with you. ”

"Thank you, Dr. Lou. ”

"Lately I've been thinking so much that my brain can't control it at all. Although I obviously feel that the situation is much better. But I still feel controlled, but I believe that I will get out of control, and as long as I think about it, what I strongly want will definitely get better. Did you say yes? Dr. Lou nodded, "Yes." ”

"Dr. Lou, as long as you stay with me, I will be very happy. I put my arm around Dr. Lou again and leaned on his shoulder.

Oops, it feels so good, we're married.

"We're already husband and wife, aren't we, Dr. Lou?"

"I'm so old this year,

Before he finished speaking, he suddenly heard a male voice say, "Do you know how scum is created?"

"When I look back, it's still the same mental patient who likes to play the doctor. I fell asleep in a daze, and vaguely seemed to hear them both talking, but I didn't hear what they were saying. When I woke up again, I saw Dr. Lou also asleep in my bed, oops, he seemed very tired, maybe it was too much work. I didn't bother him, I just watched him, and I knew that my mental illness wasn't healed because I still felt someone controlling me. But some time ago I thought about it and found a loophole, that is, no one will be watching a person 24 hours a day, because this person may not be idle to that point. This is just a guess on my part, anyway, I am now married to Dr. Lou, I feel like this, holding the red book and looking at it, the real marriage certificate, I can still see my slightly sickly eyes, but I am very happy. Dr. Lou is healthy, relaxed, happy and happy, and the photos we both took in this state made me feel as if the whole world was full of happiness and security. It's a little unreal, but it's a real thing. It's just that the reality is too happy, so I can't believe it, that's right, that's what I want, marry someone like Li Yifeng, but I don't know what kind of person Li Yifeng is, so I don't dare to go to him, because I don't want to be a star chaser, because I'm poor, this is one of them, the second is that I will imagine the taste of this peach every time I eat peaches, I imagine that it should be the taste of ripe cracked peaches that I ate when I was a child, and that feeling is an unexpected sweet and juicy peach with some sour feeling, that feeling I can't forget it in my life, it is one of the best peaches I have ever eaten in my lifeLater, there was a new flavor of peach, which is a variety grafted with plums and large red peaches, called nectarines. Although the taste of this nectarine is not so crisp and hard to bite, it is soft and glutinous with a slight overall hard bone feeling, and the feeling of chewing and chewing nectarine honey juice also makes people feel that the whole world has only a steady stream of happiness, and I feel that I am wrapped in all the happiness of the world, from the tip of the tongue to the heart, and then to every nerve in the body, I feel that the blood in the body is peach juice nectarine juice honey is surging, and the brain excitement is like water constantly overflowing from the body...... I want to say in my heart: Thank you, Momoko-kun. So I think I'm like this for the things I don't know, in the face of the unknown that I'm about to face (people, things, Some of them I always have to imagine in my mind, what will happen when I encounter it, whether I can accept it, what will be the worst situation, whether the worst will destroy me, what will I want from the situation, what can I get from it, if the worst happens, will I leave a shadow in the rest of my life, and can I guarantee that all my optimism will wrap up the worst situation, so as to draw what I need from the bad situation, and then treat everything I don't need as air or dust, or the other side of the coin, because at any time, people can do what anyone wants to do, including bad things, of course, so people can't predict the future of the idea arises, because people are always summing up experience, and the past experience is not very suitable for the future situation, so people should be optimistic, only enough optimism enough suffering can make people become tenacious, enough to cope with the future life, and some life people can never predict the pain, so it is more necessary to face the state of mind when the pain, I was like that during that time. I think I can die without being afraid, what else do I have to be afraid of, God makes me believe that what is more terrible than death is that life is better than death, and I can't die after death, that is, I can't die if I don't live well, but then God made me believe that what is more terrible than living and dying is that I feel that I can't live and die, and I am always considered ignorant and mentally ill monsters, which reminds me of a famous saying on the Internet, that is, unspeakable grievances are real grievances. At that time, I couldn't say anything, because anything I said would be considered mentally ill, or there was nothing I could do about it. I went to the doctor in a hurry, and I met the kind of doctor who saw the money and opened his eyes (the doctor), until I met Dr. Lou and met Fengyulou, in fact, I also heard about it. I thank Dr. Lou in my heart for his heart as a healer. Suddenly, another sentence came to mind, everything that develops to the extreme will develop in the opposite direction, and the extreme of things will develop in the opposite direction. This is the law of eternal existence. Isn't my situation the opposite of the extreme? Dr. Lou fell asleep and was very quiet, and I thought that no one forced me to go to university. I got a high score, and no one forced me to be a productive person, and no one looked down on me because I had been a farmer all my life, and no one despised me because I had achieved nothing, because I was not important, everyone had their own things to do, they all had their own lives, in fact, not many people who were idle would care about the life of a person at the bottom of the society, if there was a certain amount of food and earning, there was really nothing to do, and I wanted to find a special way to spend time. Otherwise, who would do that? Or are you tired of having money? I can't figure it out. Although the book of secrets says that you can imagine yourself as you want to be, and it also says that we are one. I also tried to imagine myself as a person with 500 billion yuan, or even 5 people with 500 billion yuan, but I really can't imagine what kind of life a real rich person lives, because I always feel that the happiest thing for a person is not to become a rich man, but to be a happy rich man. If a rich man is really poor and only has money left, then what is rich? What capital does he have to show off his wealth? Because he doesn't even know what the reason for showing off his wealth is, he only knows that he will always be richer than the richest person in the world, more prosperous than the most prosperous person in the world, but he has never thought of being happier than the happiest person in the world, because he does not feel any happiness. He no longer has the happiness of being able to eat when he is hungry, nor the happiness of being able to dress warmly when he is cold, nor the happiness of being able to fall asleep when he is sleepy, because these are all rich for him, he will have delicious food, a wardrobe larger than the average person's bedroom, and more boring time (it seems that no one cares about anyone who sleeps for seven days and eight nights), and I, as a person, isn't a person's most primitive desire to be able to eat when hungry, sleep well when sleepy, and warm when cold? This is the idea that came from what I experienced in a closed room when I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital for the second time. I think I'm just a human being, a simplest animal. This is the most basic need of an animal. In this way, the animal will have a minimum of health. Because TA follows the laws of nature. The law of man, the law of the earth, the law of the earth, the law of heaven, the law of the Tao, the law of nature, this is the truth.