Despite that, I don't know if I was possessed by the god of luck in the third year of high school, and my grades went up all of a sudden, I remember that when I was in the first and second years of high school, I was about twenty in the class, but in the third year of high school, I suddenly jumped to the top ten, and then every time I was in the top ten in the monthly exam, I couldn't fall off.

There are many people in my class who have better grades than me, but I am the only one who is as stable as me.

In the first semester of the third semester of high school, I actually got the second place in our class, that time was the final exam, and when I came back after the New Year, I found that the grade director actually posted the ranking of that time, of course, the scores were not announced, and the names of the top 20 students in each class were put in the form of honor lists.

I saw that my name was firmly in second place in our class, and my heart blossomed, and I wondered if you would take a second look when you got there, and then noticed my name, and whispered in my heart, wow, her grades are not bad.

Of course, these are just my conjectures, and you probably won't look at it, and you don't bother to read it. The whole senior year of high school, this is the only period when I think of you, other times, forgive me, there is only study in my heart, and there is no other miscellaneous thing that disturbs my hearing and hearing.

I don't want to compare myself to Hyosung, I think the only external things I have are better than her, and I don't seem to be able to compare to her in anything.

I remember when I came home in the second semester of my junior year of high school, my dad suddenly asked me, do you know Gallen?

I thought my dad knew my heart for you and was here to teach me a lesson, but looking back, it's not right, I like you all the time in the depths of my heart, and no one knows about it except myself. Immediately breathed a sigh of relief, pretending to be casual and replied, I know, I have always been classmates in the same school.

Later, my dad told me that he saw you at a dinner party, and your dad should have taken you there, and you happened to be sitting next to my dad. At that time, your dad said which school you went to, my dad listened to it, and turned around and asked you, hey, you also went to that high school, what a coincidence, my daughter is also there, her name is Nan Yao, do you know each other?

You nodded, and said, well, yes. And then you don't have any other communication during the whole meal.

To be honest, when my dad told me about it, I couldn't express the strange feeling in my heart, I just knew that it was a little embarrassing. I also casually asked my dad, how is he, how is he handsome, there are more little girls chasing him in school.

I saw my dad reply slowly, of course, with a little disdain, probably every father can't bear his daughter to praise others in front of him, who called us their lovers in their previous lives.

In my dad's eyes, he thinks you look like that, wear small glasses, maybe he doesn't like to wear glasses, in short, he doesn't have a very good impression of you, and he also said the key point. He said that you have the appearance of peach blossoms, and you can't get rid of the troubles caused by various peach blossoms in this life.

I didn't expect him to be really accurate in his old man's eyes, you do have a lot of peach blossoms, woo, to put it bluntly, probably the number of boyfriends I talked about in my life is not as many as the number of girlfriends you talked about when you were a student.

In a word, I was already very light on you in my junior year of high school, although I still miss you in my heart, but that degree is already minimal.

Once, I happened to meet my junior high school tablemate on the stairs, and she was with Hyosung at the time, holding each other's arms, and I could tell that they were very good.

My classmate greeted me warmly, then turned to Hyosung and said, "Nan Yao, you know, fellow Gallon."

I saw Hyosung nod and say, you know, Gallon often mentions her in front of me.

I was running by 10,000 alpacas inside me, with a black question mark face, and what I wanted to know was what did you say about me in front of Hyosung? I'm really curious, because your girlfriend uses the word "often", which means that you mentioned me more than once in front of him, but I really can't think of anything you can say about me.

After graduating, we went our separate ways, and I remember I came to you once when the acceptance letter came down, and it was probably a polite question, and you honestly told me that you didn't like the city where I went to college. To be honest, I never wanted to go to the same university as you when I filled out my application, so it doesn't matter which city it is.

I think God probably won't embarrass us again this time, and four years of college are enough to forget one person. Then I went back into my darkness, just as I had been silently by your side all these years. But as long as I'm young, you'll never hear me.

Only when we are all old will you receive this letter from me, from a girl who liked you more than everyone else in her school days, and you never paid attention to her. She's always waiting for you, and you never call her. Maybe you will come to me after this, and I will be unfaithful to you for the first time, and my heart will be dead and I will never hear your call again.

I didn't leave you a picture, I didn't leave you a mark, just like you didn't leave me anything. You will never recognize me, you will never recognize me.

Do you remember how many times I saw you during the summer vacation, during the summer vacation of my freshman year and the summer vacation of my sophomore year? When I met you during the summer vacation of my freshman year, you were standing in front of your house, and I happened to pass by there, and I remember very well that you called me.

Like a friend who has been absent for a long time, I was surprised at first, and then greeted you warmly, and I wanted to continue to talk to you, but when I saw Hyosung behind you, I swallowed back and started chatting with Hyosung instead.

Hyosung asked me if the mask I bought from her was any better, and I remembered that I had bought a box of masks from her during the second semester of my freshman year, and I couldn't remember the effect at all, but I replied that it was very good.

Immediately after a few words and a few innocuous conversations, I left. At that time, I still had some feelings for you in my heart, but it was not strong at all, and my heartbeat would speed up a little when we met, but it was not obvious. I didn't have the feeling of a deer running around anymore, and at that time I realized that my feelings for you had become weaker and weaker.

And when I saw you again in the summer vacation of my sophomore year, my heart was not wavering, there was no throbbing at all, and I had completely let go of you.

Forgive me, I have an ominous premonition, I actually think that you will never have a good love in your life, in fact, you should not leave Hyosung, you know that she loves you, even if there is a big problem, you have been persisting for six or seven years, it means that your personality is compatible, don't let other material conditions limit your love.

I didn't talk about it in the whole university.,I can't find that heart-warming feeling anymore.,There are actually excellent boys around me.,But I don't know that once I'm a little tempted by others.,There's a feeling of betraying you.,That feeling is still extremely strong.,I have to shy away from new feelings.。

I could have started a relationship in my junior year, and it was a good-looking boy. I remember very well that it was the first semester of the third year, and in order to make up the number of people in the college, we went to sign up for the National Day Parade. But my roommate and I went in late, so we had to add an extra stool and sit not far from the teacher.

As a result, the group of people was later than us, so they could only squeeze next to us with that kind of plastic stool, and the senior happened to sit next to me, and when he introduced himself, he said that he was from Dalian, and he was the head of their class, and then the dance teacher shouted "The handsome guy in the Northeast".

After calling too much, I couldn't help but be curious, and couldn't help but turn my head and peek at him, so dead or alive He also turned around at that time, and it was somewhat embarrassing when the eyes met, so I quickly turned around.

It's true that he's very handsome, and I didn't stay with him because he resembles you too much, but the two of you are just similar in face and body, not in eyes. His eyes are much better looking than yours, he is very heroic, a pair of sword eyebrows are thick and black, his deep eyes seem to be full of stars, he looks sideways, and his eyelashes are super curled and long. is very similar to the actor of Yang Guo in the new version of "The Condor Heroes".

The dance teacher really talked a lot of nonsense, and when he didn't stop talking for an hour, at that time, the senior secretly leaned into my ear and asked, which major are you?

He was so close to me when he said this that his breath was spraying on my ears, itchy, crispy. I couldn't help but snort, answered his question in a whisper without turning my head, and then logically added WeChat.

But in the end we weren't together, for the simple reason that seeing him reminded me of you, I don't want to live in your shadow for the rest of my life, so naturally I can't be with him. Although my reason is strange, for me, it is really a reason that cannot be ignored.

I just rejected a good boy, of course, it's not your fault, it has nothing to do with you. I don't blame you for looking like you and I missed out on his fate, you didn't do anything.

The whole thing is my fault, liking someone sometimes really becomes a fault, and now in retrospect, I feel a little sorry for that senior, in fact, he is not at fault, and he is good at everything, but I actually rejected him because of another boy who was completely impossible with me.

I now feel so stupid, so stupid, so stupid that I look down on myself, I'm going to hang myself from a tree, and anyone who hears something like that will look down on me, and think I'm a psychopath, a complete fool, who gave up the whole forest for the sake of a rotten tree......