At this time, my heart was turned upside down, with mixed tastes, low self-esteem, and even wanted to harm myself and wield a knife from the palace. I'm a man, and I'm so ridiculed by my sweetheart, I'm still a fart? Don't hurt myself, just kill myself. I don't have the courage and mood to chase her and flirt with her, what should I do in the future? I closed my eyes, and a bitter and melancholy tear slid down my cheeks and dripped on the front of my clean black padded jacket. I suddenly felt extremely tired, my body was very tired, and I wanted to sleep. I simply got up and pulled a dozen more handfuls of rice stalks from the big pile of rice stalks, spread them on the ground in one go, and then lay down heavily, I was in a terrible mood, and I needed to get a good night's sleep to calm down. I have a habit of lying in bed and sleeping whenever something annoys me or can't be solved. When you wake up, you either have found a solution to the problem, or your mind has calmed down. The surroundings are quiet, the wind has stopped, and the empty fields in the cold winter make people feel a strange feeling of silence like a grave. I relaxed and lay lazily on the straw stalk, my drowsy brain swelling. I told myself to relax, relax, don't think about anything, just sleep. I could clearly feel my pounding heartbeat, and at this moment, I forgot the whole world, I forgot everything, and my mind went blank. All I could feel was my restless, surging heartbeat. I don't know how long it was, but there was a burst of "crackling, crackling" firecrackers in the distant village, mixed with the barking of dogs, and after ten minutes, everything stopped again, and the surrounding area was silent like a grave. When I opened my eyes, I found that it was already dark, no wonder it was so quiet. I got up and shouted unconsciously, "Oh no, my mother must be scolding me, I don't return home after dark, where are you going crazy to die?" I hurriedly stood up, rubbed my confused eyes, stuffed more than 30 straw stalks into the big straw stalks, and then hurriedly walked up the loess road and ran towards the village.

The village, with only eight or nine households, was unusually quiet in the cold winter, and the few families I passed by were closed, and from time to time I could hear people talking. My house is in the east of the village, and before I got to the door, I heard my mother's voice scolding me: "Dead boy, I don't know where I'm going to die, I'm crazy, I don't know how to go home when it's dark? "Although my mother is very beautiful, but her temper is very bad, she is the emperor in my family, except for my sister, my father and I are very afraid of her. My father himself looks ordinary, but when he marries a beautiful woman like his mother, he always feels that he is at a loss and takes advantage of his mother, so he has always been treated like a child by his mother and never resists and fights. And my father also regarded my lack of handsomeness as his own sin, because my mother always said that I was not handsome because of my father's ordinary appearance. Only my sister is not afraid of her mother, because her sister is as beautiful as her mother, and her mother always said that she will rely on her sister to support her when she is old, and she doesn't expect the two ugly monsters in the family to have anything to do.

I sneaked from Yang Yuyan's house to the door of my kitchen, looked into the door, and saw only my father sitting at the dining table in the kitchen with his head down, I was overjoyed and quickly slipped into the door. When my father saw me coming in, he whispered, "Where have you been, why are you only coming back now?" "I was picking up the bowl to serve the meal, my mother may have heard my father's voice, walked into the kitchen, saw me without saying a word, walked behind me with a tiger face and took a broom to shine on my buttocks, "snapped" twice, I pretended to be very painful and shouted: "Mother, my ass is going to be opened by you, can't you hit it lightly?" Tell me honestly, why did you go home so late?" I grinned and said, "Mother, I went after the rabbit." At four o'clock this afternoon, I was playing at the foot of Xiashan Mountain, and suddenly saw a snow-white rabbit running up the mountain from the grass. I also want to surprise my sister! If I catch a snow-white hare for her, she will be very happy! I didn't expect the rabbit to run so fast, and there are so many small trees and grass on the mountain that I can't catch it. Hey, it's a pity. My mother looked at me and said, "I will spare you for the sake of you catching the little white rabbit for Xiaoyan, don't you take it as an example, do you know?"

After eating, I went to my bedroom boredly to open the book and read, but I couldn't read a word. The dim kerosene lamp shone on my distracted eyes and depressed countenance, and my mind was filled with what Sister-in-law Yun had told me in the field that afternoon.

Thinking of Sister-in-law Yun's words that I was short and ugly, I suddenly felt ashamed of myself and ashamed of myself. It seems that Sister-in-law Yun really doesn't love me and doesn't like me. Hey, I really wronged a gentle and affectionate heart! Yes, why didn't I think that Sister-in-law Yun was much taller than me? I was indeed not a good match for her, I was a bit of a toad and wanted to eat swan meat. Beauty and love, two sultry things, really hurt me!

Looking at the current situation and Sister-in-law Yun's attitude, I have to give up this bad relationship with Sister-in-law Yun. There is no grass at the end of the world, oh, by the way, the father and daughter who boiled fritters at the door of our private school during the winter vacation last year, the eighteen or nineteen-year-old girl and Yunsao, Ban Hua, and Yang Yuyan have a fight, they are all big beauties. Hey, by the way, Yang Yuyan is actually quite beautiful, why didn't I discover her beauty before? Oh, I think I was fascinated by Ban Hua and Yun Sister-in-law, but I was accustomed to Yang Yuyan and turned a blind eye. Hmph, stinky cloud sister-in-law, bad cloud sister-in-law, I want people to hug and ask people to kiss and seduce people, but suddenly say that you turn your face, you don't like people, people don't rarely like you! The one who sells fritters, and Yang Yuyan, none of them are much worse than you! I was indignant and began to be happy again, yes, when school started, I went to find the big beauty who sold fritters, the water spirit is not charming! I don't read anymore, I can't read it anyway, I am very sad and happy, happily undressed and went to bed, and after a while, I fell asleep.

When I woke up the next morning, I was in a good mood, sweeping the floor and cutting pig vegetables, washing dishes and chopsticks and boiling water, my mother looked very strange, and couldn't help but say to me: "Little bird, the sun is coming out in the west today, right?"