Chapter 149: The heart is like ashes
Song He used to feel that Yin Zheng was his savior, and he was all the support and pillar in his future life.
But now her fingers are not far away to shield Song He from the wind and rain, and even when Song He is most vulnerable, she will also land these ups and downs on Song He's head, so that Song He can support it alone.
"Yin Zheng ......" Song He's voice sounded, because he had been holding back a crying voice, which sounded extremely hoarse and depressed, and his voice trembled unconsciously, Song He looked at Yin Zheng's face and gradually lost all his feelings.
The heart is like ashes, probably Song He is like this now.
It's really boring.
At this moment, Song He suddenly didn't want to continue to entangle, what else did it mean? Because the children began to entangle each other, but Song He didn't want that!
Song He, oh, what I want is Yin Zhengzhen to really love her!
When all the thoughts in his heart had been shattered, Song He was no longer willing to say anything more to Yin Zheng, after all, Song He was not willing to be exhausted from being separated from Yin Zheng.
"Yin Zheng, let's go." Song He's voice sounded extremely weak, she didn't even want to think about Yin Zheng just said that she was ruthless, and even Song He had already broken the jar - was she ruthless? Since Yin Zheng thinks so, it is her ruthlessness.
Yin Zheng looked at Song He and wanted to continue to say something, and such an expression was also revealed on his face.
But when Song He suddenly saw Yin Zheng showing this kind of seemingly different opinions, and even tried to say something to change Song He's mind because Song He decided not to have children, Song He suddenly became angry.
"Yin Zheng, are you finished?" Song He suddenly couldn't hold back his tears, and tears rained down in front of Yin Zheng, and all the emotions in his heart were mixed in Song He's brain, making Song He suddenly feel that his head hurt.
She opened a pair of eyes that were still in tears, stared at Yin Zheng tightly and shouted, "The biggest victim is me!" It's me! Yin Zheng, why do you say that I am ruthless? What did you do again? What have you done other than keep stabbing knives in me, hurting me, and making me miserable! ”
Yin Zheng was shocked by Song He's sudden outburst, and in Song He's questioning, Yin Zheng was dumbfounded.
But Song He's questioning is not over yet, Song He seems to use these words, use every word in these words, to hurt Yin Zheng fiercely, in order to heal his pain and suffering.
Song He burst into tears, but looking at Yin Zheng's face, after removing the tears, only full of hatred remained: "Yin Zheng, you don't want to tell me anything, your first love, your past, and the dangerous situations surrounding you and me, you don't say a word, do you think it's for my good?" ”
"And the matter between you and Sun Yiran, do you think I will really believe Sun Yiran's nonsense? If I believe it, do you think I'd ever like to see you now? - Or do you think you'll see me again?! ”
"Yin Zheng, I'm not stupid, I don't ask if I don't feel it, I just hope that you can be willing to share with me because you love me, or rather, let's bear these together."
Until the end, Song He finally asked the idea that he had been hiding in his heart and constantly questioning, constantly making himself doubt in his heart.
Song He stared at Yin Zheng tightly and asked, "Yin Zheng, do you love me or not?" ”
And after Song He's question, there was only silence in response to Song He.
Song He didn't want to continue to ask, and even Song He already knew the reason for Yin Zheng's silence, so she climbed onto the hospital bed and reached out to cover her head with the quilt.
Yin Zheng didn't know when she left, but after a while, the door of the ward was opened again, and then, Song He felt that someone was gently pulling her to cover her quilt.
Song He raised his head and looked at Jason in front of him, and in an instant, the tears that he thought had been dried up slipped from his eyes again.
At this time, Song He was like an abandoned child, who could only cry and tears to tell the indescribable grief in his heart.
As soon as Jason approached Song He, he was immediately grabbed by Song He's wrist, and the force was so great that even Jason, who had always been able to endure pain, couldn't help frowning.
She squatted down, stretched out another relatively free arm, hugged Song He tightly, and was able to repeat a sentence over and over again: "It's okay Song He, I'm here, we can solve anything together, don't be afraid." ”
Jason split this sentence and made up the east and west sentences, trying to make Song He feel more stable, but she really didn't know how to persuade her.
This fact is simply a terrible demon that has descended on Song He with the power to destroy Song He, and even Jason, who has never believed in the Mandate of Heaven, can't help but ask in his heart: 'God, are you going to destroy Song He completely?' ’
But God didn't answer Jason's question, but just watched the tormented Song Ha go to a state of almost mental collapse with a malicious smile.
Song He didn't know how long she had been crying in Jason's arms, and she was almost unaware of it now, and she could only rely on instinct to avoid the torture and pain that God had inflicted on her.
When Song He raised his head again, Jason saw Song He's eyes flashing with an empty gaze that was almost dementia.
"Jason ......"
Song He seemed to have recovered himself, and even his speech sounded extremely normal, without even making a single trill, and looked at Jason with a worried eye very calmly.
Suddenly, I saw Song He pursing her lips and laughing softly without warning, as if she had completely accepted the unfairness given to her by fate, and she said to Jason: "I think about it." ”
Jason looked at Song He who was so calm, no matter how calm the expression on her face was, Jason knew that it was not like this, Song He was not calm in her heart - she had been holding Jason's hand as if she was using all her strength, tightly tightened, and Jason felt that her wrist was blue and white, with numbness from blood flow.
Jason seemed to have a hunch, and she was just about to say something, but she was interrupted by Song He, who showed an illusory smile on his face and said, "I want to divorce Yin Zheng." ”
A plain sentence has already decided the fate of Song He and the unborn child, as well as the fate of Song He and Yin Zheng in the future.
Jason knows that Song He doesn't have any reason now, she just follows her instinct to seek advantages and avoid disadvantages, and wants to reduce some of her own pain as much as possible, but Jason is sensible, and he is very sure now that Song He can't be allowed to do this.
"Song He, listen to me."
Jason tried to communicate with Song He: "Don't make a decision now, this matter is too hasty, you must not be ready, even if you want to divorce, you are not in a hurry at this time, you should think about it again, okay?" ”
As Jason's words fell, Song He was like a child who wanted candy to eat without permission, and ate the candy in his heart, his face instantly changed color, and even the eyes that originally seemed to be calm burst out with fierce resistance and resistance.
"No, it's not." Song He tried to convince Jason to listen to his decision: "I'm calm, I really thought about it, I want a divorce, I don't want Yin Zheng to have a little to do with me!" ”
Jason saw that there was still a struggle in the fierce, almost crazy light in Song He's eyes, and she instantly understood Song He's intention - Song He had to be so constantly self-suggesting and self-hypnotic to be able to convince herself to give up Yin Zheng.
But at the same time, what makes Jason helpless is that he is incapable of convincing Song He, who has now completely lost his mind.
Song He saw that Jason was silent, thinking that she had moved Jason, a happy smile appeared on her face, and her eyes were full of incomparable seriousness when she looked at Jason: "I won't regret it, why should I regret it and leave...... Leaving Yin Zheng, I will be able to be free......"
"Really...... I was able to get rid of ......."
But Song He said and spoke, and suddenly choked up, she didn't know what was wrong with her, she had already decided on something, but why, when she said it to Jason, her heart felt a pain as if it was about to be torn apart?
Song He felt that he was going crazy, maybe he was really crazy, so that he would not wander and wander in this kind of reality and fantasy.
"Song He, don't say that." Jason interrupted Song He's constant repetition, not so much for Jason, but for her own hypnotizing of her own words, Jason gently hugged Song He, and said, "You need to sleep well now, when you wake up, you can say whatever you want, I will listen to you." ”
Even Jason recalled the actions of her nanny when she coaxed her to sleep in the past, hugging Song He, and gently patting her palms against her back.
Song He was tired, from yesterday to now, there was no moment in her heart that was relaxed, so Song He really followed Jason's patting, and gradually quieted down, like a child, at first she was extremely unwilling to cooperate and opened her eyes widely, but in the end, she couldn't bear the sleepiness and closed her eyes and fell asleep.
Jason waited until his arms were sore, and only after making sure that Song He was completely asleep did Jason dare to stand up, and his feet were extremely light, and he didn't dare to make a little noise and left Song He's hospital room.
Jason tried very hard to close the door of Song He's hospital room, and then, with a sigh, poured out of Jason's mouth in a heavy voice, Jason didn't know what kind of feelings he should have for Song He and Yin Zheng, but Jason was obviously very clear that in his heart, in addition to a little eagerness, Jason was more worried about Song He's psychological state.