Under the internal and external troubles of frustration of goals, team loss, and "death" of backbones, how much better can Yahan and I be? Our relationship is tense all day long, and a word or a casual gesture can start a war, big or small. After the initial crisis of the exchange of goods, especially the Dagang team, we are sitting in a crater that may erupt at any time every day. The most important thing is that Yahan has always taken all the credit for granted, and everything I have done for the team for more than three years is just the due contribution of a side department in Yahan's opinion, which makes my psychology extremely unbalanced. In order to be recognized by Yahan, we began to have a rational or emotional conversation and quarrel. We are too close, working together, living together, traveling together, just as the so-called distance produces beauty, and Yahan and I have long been intimate.

As always, Yahan poured all her energy into the list of newcomers, according to the concept of the system, this business should always focus on the bottom, the old people don't need much care, they can only be roasted dry by the raging fire below. And I am more and more confused, "clothes are not as good as new, people are not as good as the old", do you care about the newcomer or care more about the elderly? This has always been a huge disagreement between me and Yahan on team building. Although we have a common cause, a common goal, a common circle, and a common topic, we have never agreed on the business philosophy of Meilu, which is one of the keys to the contradiction between me and Yahan along the way.

We complement each other in terms of ability, and the two swords always complement each other in work, but in terms of personality, we have a huge conflict. Yahan is a lively and powerful type, and I am the perfect strength type, and both of us are too strong. Although I always let her go everywhere, once Yahan's completely uncontrollable anger poured out, it was impossible for me not to resist in my attitude and words. She is too much like a man and I am too "like" a woman, so that Teacher Xiao Yan often teases us at home that one is neither a woman nor a man, and the other is neither a man nor a woman, a natural pair.

I talked about getting married, and that was the promise of Yahan when we first got together. After drilling, because of Gu Xin's shadow, I didn't intend to mention it for a while, because as soon as this topic was mentioned, Yahan was concerned about Gu Zuo: I'm worried that Lin Chao is too lonely, the team has not yet taken shape, and it would be better for me to come forward as a side department, because the injuries caused by Gu Xin have not yet healed, and the team is in turmoil...... She always had a myriad of reasons and excuses. In her bones, Yahan has an extreme fear of marriage, her parents are not in agreement, the second brother divorced because of his addiction to online games, the eldest sister was on the verge of divorce because of Meilu, and the friends around her seem to have a lot of discord between husband and wife. There is no word for "love" in Yahan's dictionary, she never believed in love, and of course, I didn't believe that I loved her. She's just used to my kindness to her, and I'm used to my presence, with me everything in order and in order, she's always tired of dealing with any details, she's only keen on working the goal, and for so many years, anything that has nothing to do with the goal has been thrown to me with full authority.

Yahan begins to consult with the leader of the upper hand and some trusted side department diamonds about the relationship, she will tell our story anonymously, and she will also emphasize our personality conflicts, without exception she will come to a negative conclusion, all in line with her pessimistic expectations about the relationship for a long time. Mr. Yang even suggested that if you don't want to get married, you can live together for the rest of your life, and the only leader who supports me is Han Zuan from Inner Mongolia, she is the only one in the side department who knows the relationship between me and Yahan, and the impression I left on her in several collaborations seems to be quite good. In order to urge Yahan to marry me as soon as possible, Chen Zuan and his wife Lin Zuan took advantage of the gap in Chenggong Ridge to carry out ideological work until five o'clock in the morning, and Yahan was exhausted by them and still did not let go. It's been three years, and she still can't be sure if she loves me, and she can't be sure that I am the best choice for her life, and she doesn't even know what love is. In the world of feelings, she is so negative!

In the Great Recession of 2005, the entire northern market was devastated, and only a corner of southern China rose steadily. Guangzhou is the base camp of the crown system, and for me, who has always questioned the team's operation ideas and construction concepts, I am very eager to go to the south to learn from the experience. By July of that year, my own personal department had been sharply reduced from more than 50 people at the most glorious time more than a year ago to four or five people, and it was especially difficult to recommend new people, even if most of them were out of the front row, they could not survive for three months, and there was nothing worth nostalgic about in the Tianjin market, perhaps, it was time to let go, and I began to feel that the time was ripe to "study" in South China. The initial motivation was to go to the South China market dominated by the crown to learn from the experience and learn the most authentic beauty road; Later, I wanted to leave Yahan to prove my strength, and Yahan always said that I relied on her to get on the diamond, which has always made me indignant; Later, I added a few years of leaving for Yahan to taste the inconvenience and pain without me, and the distance produces beauty; Then there is the desire to give a few departments that are still "alive" a space to grow, and after following me for so long, they should also learn to be independent, after all, there is no grass under the big tree.

Chen Zuanben strongly suggested that I go directly to Guangzhou, while Zhu Ansheng, who was still in Jiangxi, strongly persuaded me to go to Yichun. At that time, there was no low discount in Jiangxi, and the market was still blank, with the support of Zhu Ansheng's center and team, it was better than a person in Guangzhou with a black eye. We have already lost a lot in several markets in the north, and Yahan also needs someone to go to Jiangxi to stabilize the team, so we agreed.

On August 3, 2005, after quitting my house, selling my car, paying off my bank loan, and distributing the more than 100 remaining customers to several departments by region, I went on the road with only 1,000 yuan. Before selling the car, I drove the car downstairs to Lin Chao's house, he sat in the car for a long time before he was willing to get down, we have shared the car for a long time, and he is also very affectionate. But Lin Chao got married and borrowed 200,000 yuan to buy a house, and he owed more than 20,000 yuan to do Meilu, and he couldn't afford to let him take 20,000 yuan to buy a car. We took a lot of photos around the "BMW No. 1" before we reluctantly sent the car to the dealer to transfer the ownership.

Before leaving, I said to Yahan: "I will take 1,000 yuan, and I will come back after three years." You can have a boyfriend casually in three years, and if you have another love, then I will never entangle and disappear; If you find out that I'm the best choice after three years, then we'll get married. In the past three years, I have kept myself clean and not stained with women, which is my unilateral commitment. ”

In half a life, whenever I can't move forward, I will choose to retreat, to retreat as advance, which great man's life is not twists and turns, three ups and downs to finally achieve hegemony? I left, leaving Tianjin where I had lived and struggled for 12 years, and embarked on another unknown and difficult journey, and my life will be rewritten from now on......