"In her suicide note to my dad and my suicide note, arrangements were made. She asked my dad to marry her sister into the door. Pei Shengyang said, "From the words, I guess that my aunt has coveted my dad for more than a day or two. ”

"My sister-in-law was several years younger than my mother, and at that time, she was always in the city, and when my mother took my dad back to the city, she was not married."

"I later learned that she liked my dad at that time."

Later, under the persecution of her family, she got married and married someone else. However, within a few days, she divorced again, and her family couldn't do anything about her. ”

"Anyway, I've been thinking about my dad, but it's just because of my mom, it seems, there isn't much contact."

"After my mom died, she moved into my house. With large bags and small bags. Pei Shengyang said.

"Later, he gave birth to a younger brother. My younger brother is 11 years younger than me. Pei Shengyang said.

"My relationship with my dad began to deteriorate around the time of my mom's death, and until now, there has been little easing between us. Even when we met, we didn't have anything in common to talk about. ”

"Now, that home is no longer my home, I am in that home, as if I am an outsider." Pei Shengyang said, "You can understand that feeling, right?" ”

"Yes, my father, my stepmother, my brother, the three of them are a family, and I am just an outsider." Pei Shengyang smiled.

"But don't worry, my dad can't take care of me, I have been living outside the school since I was very young, and later, when I left home, I was all on my own."

"Now, he's very polite to me. So, don't worry too much. When we got married, we didn't live with them. Pei Shengyang took Song Shanmei's hand, and said softly, a little choked, "We will have our own home." ”

"I wanted to leave that home very early. I also want to have a home of my own. ”

"I will run my own home well and love my own women and children well, don't worry." Pei Shengyang said.

"I will never cheat, and I will never treat you and the child badly." Pei Shengyang said.

Song Shanmei wanted to reach out and hug him, but she didn't, she just let him hold her hand and didn't pull away.

The tears on his face were very cold, but his hands were very warm.

No, there's a hint of chill.

He needs the warmth of others more than her, right?

Obviously, he is the one who needs to be loved the most, but he has been scattered by the cruel life, and the little warmth and love left is passed on to others.

Such a person is fragile and is, too, cold.

As soon as you reject him, he will, with a cold mask, cover himself up and wrap himself again.

He doesn't need the sympathy of others, he doesn't need it.

What he wants is a warmth that can give him a warm family.

Song Sun-mi asked herself, can she, can she really do it?

Accompany him, rain or shine, and move forward in thorns, even if there are no difficulties, they cannot separate each other.

He held her hand and didn't want to let go; He lowered his head, unwilling to let her, see his embarrassed posture; And she, just like that, let him go, and responded to him with silent tenderness.

She loved this man.

That kind of love is very fiery and very strong.

Can't erase, can't escape.

She loved his face and his body; She loved his strength and his vulnerability; She loved his carefulness and his sensitivity; She loved his tenderness, and she loved his ruthlessness; She loved the light and sweetness he bringed, but also the darkness and fear he bringed.

Yes, exactly.

All his strengths and weaknesses, she loves.

There is no way to give it up, and there is no choice.

He is a whole, and she can't, to divide him, and only choose the part she likes; Her love, too, is also a whole, and it cannot be separated.

"How about it, such a me, are you willing to accept it?" Pei Shengyang opened a pair of crying eyes, slightly drunk, and asked her.

Without waiting for her to answer, he said, "You must be scared today, right?" ”

"I also feel a little ashamed to indulge myself like this in front of you." Pei Shengyang said, "To be honest, since I was 10 years old, after my mother died, I have never cried, not once. ”

"Today, I have dried all the tears I have saved for more than ten years."

"It must be crazy. Will you laugh at me? Pei Shengyang was a little embarrassed, covered his eyes and face with his arms, and only let go for a long time, and said, "If I was in front of others, I would not be able to cry, but in front of you, I don't know why, obviously, I want to leave a good impression on you......"

His eyes were full of loneliness.

"No, it's good for you to do this, don't feel embarrassed, I didn't mean to laugh at you," Song Shanmei said, she looked at Pei Shengyang sincerely, and the sympathy in her eyes had disappeared. That's right, what this man needs, not sympathy.

Sympathy will only make him lose face, and it will only make him ashamed and hateful.

"I feel that what is presented in front of me is the most real you, and I am very happy." Song Shanmei said softly.

"This shows that, from the bottom of your heart, you have come to see me as the person you trust the most, the person closest to you." Song Shanmei said, "So, it's okay, it doesn't matter what." ”

"You can present your truest self in front of me without restraint, without pretense, and I can do the same," Song said, "and indulge yourself." ”

"Take it easy, it's nothing." Song Shanmei said.

"Then, in exchange, do you want to tell me what you have suppressed in your heart?" Pei Shengyang said, he laughed after crying, tilted his head sideways, propped himself on the table with his hands, and his eyes were full of fascination, confusion and a little drunkenness.

That's right, crying, and confiding is indeed the best way to vent stress.

The other party said it, but she didn't say anything, didn't she seem very sincere? Song Shanmei thought about it, but she really didn't have anything to say.

Let's talk about the family situation. After all, this is the first step to understanding.

"Well, I don't have anything to say," Song Shanmei said, "My parents are ordinary workers, my father went to the countryside from the city, met my mother, and married my mother." ”

"When my father was very young, because of an accident, he was disabled, his lumbar spine was injured, and he also had a lame leg, and he was basically paralyzed in bed in the early years, not to mention earning money to support the family, even eating, drinking, and Lazar, and relying on my mother to serve alone."

"Because of this, my dad felt sorry for my mother and dragged her down, and he had sought death many times, so he thought that after he died, my mother would be able to remarry and marry a good man."

"He said my mom was still young and he couldn't drag her down."

It was obviously a sad thing, but Song Shanmei's tone was very light and calm, and there was no excessive sadness in it.

If you want to say that there is, it is love, a faint, but long love, and warmth.

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