Chapter 149: Love is not possible

It's not that Zhang Fengyi is unintentional and indifferent to Xu Xiaoyu's dedication to him, but long before Xu Xiaoyu, his heart was already full of Fang Longxing, and he couldn't tolerate anyone anymore. He only has friendship, family affection, brotherhood, and brotherhood for Xu Xiaoyu, not the love Xu Xiaoyu wants.

No one will casually fall in love with someone other than themselves, someone is willing to open his or her heart to love us, this life is our honor and blessing. Even if we don't like it, we don't love it. We should also respect the person who has loved us, even if we have to reject it categorically, and do not hurt it too much, or trample on a heart that loves you. While respecting others, it also exalts oneself.

Of course, sometimes feelings cannot be settled, and they cannot be dragged with mud and water, and when appropriate, they must be dealt with quickly. Sometimes, the relationship that will be settled will have a good ending in the end, but that varies from person to person. As for how to love, it depends on our own hearts. See what kind of life we really want, what kind of results.

This is also the dead knot in Xu Xiaoyu's heart, his injuries and pains, and the hurdles that he will never be able to get over in his heart. He is competitive and unwilling to admit defeat. So he wanted to fight back, wanting to snatch Zhang Fengyi back from Fang Longxing's side. He wants his beloved to stay by his side, rather than throwing himself into the arms of another person.

If Fang Longxing didn't appear before, he could barely maintain this relationship with Zhang Fengyi, he was afraid of losing his little righteousness, so he could only use this method to maintain the relationship between them, but now seeing the person he loved, thrown into the arms of others, he was unwilling, especially this person was still Fang Longxing, he definitely couldn't swallow this breath.

Xu Xiaoyu's personality is different from Wang Haitao, Wang Haitao is humble enough to be self-aware; be able to recognize his position in Zhang Fengyi's heart; be able to recognize one's own identity; be able to know your own half a pound and eight taels; can exchange their grief for the happiness of their beloved. Wang Haitao has always hidden himself and turned into a blessing and fulfillment for his beloved. But Xu Xiaoyu can't do it, and it's absolutely impossible for him to swallow his anger.

"I'm your wife, can I leave you and go by myself? Look at you, what are you drinking? How much do you want to drink before you stop? Guan Yingai has changed her gentle attitude in the past, and in the face of the current Xu Xiaoyu, she can't be calm anymore, so her emotions seem a little excited.

"Wife? Oh, yes! You are the wife that I am marrying Xu Xiaoyu Mingmei! Hahaha...... Hahaha......" Xu Xiaoyu shook his head and smiled bitterly, his heart hurt again, and many emotions surged into his heart at the same time.

The woman in front of her filled Xu Xiaoyu with extreme disgust. He was sick to his stomach when he saw Guan Yingai, and he felt uncomfortable when he saw her, if it weren't for the fact that there were many reasons to scruple him, he really wanted to strangle her immediately. If it weren't for Guan Yingai at the beginning, she didn't retreat in Xu Xiaoyu's many marriage pranks, and insisted on marrying him, I'm afraid they wouldn't have been able to get married at all.

can't let Xu Xiaoyu be forced to get married like this; can't let his Xiaoyi come out to interfere in their marriage, and then let him have some kind of misunderstanding between him and Zhang Fengyi, which finally led to Zhang Fengyi and Xu Xiaoyu's future path, going farther and farther. Xu Xiaoyu hates this marriage, and hates even more the woman who is willing to stalk and wants to marry him.

From beginning to end, Xu Xiaoyu hated this woman, this woman who would entangle herself even if she died. His hatred is not because he loves too deeply, but because he hates it to the extreme. Why didn't Guan Yingai let him go and let her go in the first place?

Xu Xiaoyu couldn't understand: she knew that they were all victims of this marriage, so why did she want to jump into it? Is she so powerful, so greedy for money? Sure enough, she is a woman who would rather give up her lifelong happiness than keep her money. Xu Xiaoyu has always regarded Guan Yingai as a woman: a woman who sacrifices her personal happiness and sells her soul in order to keep her money.

He often thinks: Guan Yingai is really ruthless enough, but she is really ruthless to herself! You can share a bed with a man without love and emotion. So Xu Xiaoyu hated this woman in his heart, this woman who made him sick, she was just a wife related to her name, a decoration that filled the façade and scene in her life.

From the beginning to the present, he has a deep misunderstanding of her, so don't expect him to have any crush on her! He had no sympathy for her, no pity, only disgust and hatred. Judging from her various performances, can he have a little pity for her? Can you generate a little bit of affection? And what capital does she have that keeps him from getting bored with her?

Xu Xiaoyu really misunderstood this woman, he didn't really face her and examine the relationship between them. He didn't know that Guan Yingai wanted to marry him because he admired him at the beginning, and then he admired him later. He had never paid serious attention to her, so he had not noticed that she had real feelings for him, and he had ignored all her feelings.

He hated, disliked, and hated this woman in his heart. For the sake of his parents' face, he had to be perfunctory in front of people, did enough scenes, and always showed affection with her in various ways, and was a model couple. The queen of people is unsatisfactory indifference and coldness, as if it is as cold as an iceberg for 10,000 years. There was a distance in his heart, and he made her never go near his heart.

Xu Xiaoyu's heart was full of resentment towards Guan Yingai, and he hated the way she looked. Because of a woman who can act, her heart is as vicious as a scorpion. He turned a blind eye to Guan Yingai's concern for him, and regarded it as a play. The better Guan Yingai treats him, the more he gets bored and resistant to her, and the deeper his misunderstanding of her becomes.

He thinks that a woman who is so good at acting and sympathizing with him is so scheming. It annihilates human nature and conscience, just for money. In order to get the support of the Xu family consortium in her own career, she didn't even care about her own lifelong happiness, and used him as a springboard for her own success.

He has seen a lot of such women, all of whom are greedy for money. If you are willing to do anything for money, you can sell your soul, let alone your body? How much is chastity worth? He has no good feelings for women who are greedy for money, or even disgusted, and of course it is impossible to look at Guan Yingai squarely. Xu Xiaoyu confused her with those dusty women, and there was resistance everywhere; exclusion everywhere; There are even times when it is difficult at every turn.

As long as he wants to spend money, what kind of woman can't he sleep with? Just pile up money in front of a woman, no matter who she is, it depends on the amount of money. This is a manifestation of Xu Xiaoyu's extremely distorted mind and extremely perverted mind. His experience is like this: a woman's body can be bought with money, and his upbringing experience makes him no longer believe in love, but even doubt love.

He doesn't have a good impression of women, especially women who love money like life, and it is true that he Xu Dagongzi spent money to get a lot of women's bodies. In his philosophy: as long as you are willing to spend money, there are beautiful women who want to sleep in any posture, as long as you can afford to pay.

Hiring a female star and raising a second wife is a common thing. If conditions permit, what Primary 3, Primary 4, Primary 5, Primary 6, Primary 7...... That's not a problem. In reality, this is indeed the case, and many women who know his identity and background will stick to him like a mung bean fly, and they can't get rid of him if they want to. Therefore, the women who disgusted him made his concept of love a mess and very confused, and he constantly paralyzed himself in this stimulation.

In Xu Xiaoyu's emotional world, only Zhang Fengyi exists, but his physical world is extremely chaotic. The more he vented his dissatisfaction to his distorted outlook on life, the more he felt empty, and he had no sense of hard work or belonging.

In the red dust, no one has really loved himself, even if he has slept together, what can he do? Isn't he alone in the end? Isn't that sad or what? Everyone saw the ticket in his eldest son's pocket, not falling in love with him. How pitiful and pathetic he was! Even the women he married into the family came for the power and money of his Xu family, what an ironic thing!

In fact, Xu Xiaoyu was wrong, and only put his heart on Zhang Fengyi alone. led to his indifference to his feelings for others and turned a blind eye. If you don't pay a little attention to others, how can you see clearly who loves him or not? He is with others just to vent his desires, hope, after venting his emotionless desires, after hope, he will go to seriously observe, who loves him and does not love him? What's more, he has never given anyone the opportunity to be close to him, to be close to him, or to be able to give him love.