217. I have also drifted for a long time
The road back is getting darker and darker, alone, lonely only accompanied by her own shadow, Gao Wanyue told herself that she can't look back, because she is afraid that she will not be able to help but go back, even if she leaves everything she has, what status, what dignity, you can do without it.
She can't be like this, even if the dignity is worthless, but she still has to hold it firmly in her hands, this is her last pride and can't give up, even if in the end all the people will leave her, only this dignity accompanies her, can't lose her integrity, isn't this righteousness in life!
"Okay... Let's go..."An Youju stood there, letting the cold wind hunt, unconsciously muttering, turned around and knelt back, silently put yellow paper in the copper basin uninterruptedly, maybe it was the best choice for her now, he couldn't give her anything, all he could do for her was to let go,
Originally, he was a person, and there was no one in this world who was his concern anymore, and he could let go of what he wanted to do, and he was back to the same as before, so he charged into battle without scruples, and he would become the general of Megatron of the Northern Qi Dynasty, and now, his prestige is still there, but the person with infinite scenery is no longer him!
"General An, you're really ruthless." A tone that seemed to be mocking came from a distance, and a purple dress jumped down from the roof leisurely, looking at An Youju coldly, such a proud appearance, like looking at a defeated rooster, decadent and old, without half of his fighting spirit.
The only way to record the passage of time in this empty house is the rising and setting of the sun, every day here, the feeling of loneliness becomes more and more deep, as if there is no hope here, cold as the cold winter wax moon, and there is no life here, he is reluctant to leave here, because here you can still occasionally see the shadow of Gao Wanyue's past,
It's just his own hallucination, but it was also the best time, a rare day, gone forever, just like he knew that she was about to become someone else's bride!
"Gongzi Huan came late at night, just to mock him?" An Youju patted the dust on his clothes, still looking at Huan Yu with a hostile face, tonight he seems to be a little different from usual, from the perspective of bearing, although he is still so warm as jade, but there is this indescribable feeling.
He walked over, the man was dressed in a light purple robe, the neckline and cuffs were embroidered with silver thread auspicious cloud patterns, a dark purple wide-brimmed brocade belt was tied around his waist, his eyebrows were delicate, a fair face seemed to be as soft as outline, half of his black hair was tied up, fixed with a silver crown, and the rest of the hair was high behind his head, draped over his shoulders, adding a bit of arbitrariness and chic, and exuding a warm bearing.
"Don't dare, you are still the Megatron general of the Northern Qi Dynasty, and as soon as His Majesty Longen is still alive, you should live in peace."
From the moment he arrived, everything about him was suspicious, all kinds of behaviors were hypocritical in An Youju's eyes, his arrogance, his elegance, and his smile were all false in his eyes, and he would not be a person who could be condescended to peace of mind
The people under him, let alone the people who are flattering His Majesty like now!
He is like the most dangerous animal in the forest, waiting for the opportunity to take action, not knowing what his purpose is, but looking at his actions now, cultivating power in the government and the opposition, excluding dissidents, he is not like a person who does not fight for anything.
"As you can see, there is no threat to you right now." An Youju smiled indifferently and politely, although this smile was sad and helpless, he was not afraid, he did not flinch, even in the face of Huan Yu, there was no retreat, after all, he had long been accustomed to life and death.
"It's that Gongzi Huan has high hopes for His Majesty Gao Yang and is appreciated by the eldest princess, so it's better not to let them down." He had already chosen to give up, and there was no excuse to get close to that woman, he could only watch her happiness from afar, and he didn't have to participate anymore, and everything about her would no longer listen to him.
"After all, this is also a matter of Qi's harem, it has nothing to do with you anymore, I heard that General An is going to leave Yecheng in a few days, and he can't return to Gyeonggi for a single step, Xiao Keke came to see you for the last time." There was a lot of sarcasm in his words, as if he was happy to see him fall and have to leave, to be banished from his homeland.
An Youju didn't think that Gao Wanyue would agree to this family business, but now that the wood is complete, "It has nothing to do with me, nor does it have anything to do with Gongzi Huan, it all depends on the choice of Her Royal Highness the eldest princess!" What's the use of talking too much, it's just that everything is not what they say, there are too many things to consider, and they have to be considered and calculated.
"Master Huan doesn't have to be so sad, if you have time to mock you, let's play less tricks!" An Youju glanced at him, only felt that this person was very insidious, he seemed to be gentle as jade, but in fact he deceived the world and stole his name, good at playing with the world, and would not have any sincerity, being close to him, in the end he would only hurt himself, and even be eaten back, and he didn't look like a good person.
At this time, the young man was dignified and high-spirited, it seemed that all the world's affairs and human feelings were under his control, and he coaxed His Majesty's favor in the palace, and even Her Royal Highness the eldest princess agreed to marry, and when he married himself, he even forced His Majesty to die, and his attitude was completely different.
Even the rest of the palace attendants and palace maids can say how good he is, it can be seen how powerful this person's means are, with his own intuition, he is definitely not a simple person, he is good at scheming, but he pretends to be indisputable, which is very suspicious!
It turns out that she always makes him forget all the past, and there is a reason why he wants to start over with him, since he was twelve years old, since he went to war with his father, he has long put life and death aside, and his hands have long been stained with blood, but he has never been confused, he has long forgotten when he first went to the battlefield, and he does not remember the confusion and fear at the beginning.
"The world does not tolerate gentlemen." Huan Yu said righteously, there is no pure white in the absolute sense in this world, so even if it is contaminated with silt, as long as the original intention is good, this is what Gao Wanyue once told An Youju, I am afraid that this sentence is
The best explanation for the evil of the world is also the best excuse.
In order to live a happier life, someone has to make sacrifices, the predecessors planted trees, and the descendants enjoyed the shade, so the latecomers had to bear the honor and disgrace of the predecessors to move forward, and so did they!
"Master Huan, don't let anyone down, otherwise I won't let you go." His voice is very indifferent, it sounds like it makes people tremble, some regrets, destined to carry it for a lifetime, and now although his heart is like a knife, he still has to be ruthless to treat her like this!
After the pain, it will grow, and if it is lost, it will be cherished, this is the eternal truth, just like An Youju can only know the meaning of her life by her side, and the value of existence can only silently guard her by her side, but she can't tell her that she plays the role of a bad person, and if she hurts, she has to be more thorough.
She will only be sad for a while, as long as it passes, she will be the brightest woman in the entire Qi Palace, and become the eldest princess in this world, everyone envies Her Royal Highness, looking at Huan Yu at this moment, her heart is even more jealous, but she doesn't know that his heart is actually more painful.
"This General Megatron of the Qi Kingdom said this, Xiao Ke is a little scared, but Your Excellency should worry about yourself first, after today, Her Royal Highness the eldest princess is afraid that she will never want to see you again, how can you say that you will not let me go! If you're so ruthless, aren't you afraid that you'll hate you later? ”
Huan Yu smiled slyly, seeing that all this was done, he didn't mind showing his fangs in front of him, this mask of hypocrisy had already been seen by him clearly, and he didn't need to hide it, but he was also happy, looking at the slightly decadent An Youju in front of him couldn't hide the hostility.
This is also the pain in his heart, if he can exchange, he is willing to do everything to replace her pain tonight, but now he has nothing, and he can't share the pain for her, he can only look at her silently from a distance, and can only say to him coldly: "This is not the responsibility of Gongzi Huan, leave early." ”
"That's right, I'm afraid that I won't be able to find Xiao Ke in a while, so I'll leave first." Huan Yu was so proud, more like he was showing off, showing off his might, and waved his hand in the direction of An Youju, but he didn't know that a fierce gaze behind him had been watching him, and he clenched his fists silently.
Huan Yu also smiled, I don't know why I have such a move, as if it is to vent my evil anger, and he will not be so competitive, tonight, he doesn't know himself anymore, this breath has been blocked in his chest, but after such a thing has been done, he didn't feel happy, but he was more empty, because he knew that this was not true, just a momentary competitiveness.
He came to the place where he was separated from Gao Wanyue at the beginning, but he didn't see her shadow, only heard crying, followed the faint voice and walked over, and saw her hiding in the corner, hugging in a ball, crying very sadly, Huan Yu didn't say anything, took out a white handkerchief from his arms, and handed it to her.
Gao Wanyue raised her head, a pair of silver-gray
His eyes were full of tears, almost melting into tears, and his eyes were ruddy and shouted at him: "Where have you been, why can't I find you when I come back!" Wait for me here, how can you not believe it! ”
At this moment, she didn't know why she was so emotional, as if she had transferred all the emotions that she couldn't vent to An Youju onto him, but now except for him, I'm afraid that no one is willing to be so willing, let her vent her anger like this, and tolerate herself like this, so she dares to be so unscrupulous?
"Xiao Ke just walks around, you came back early." The corners of his mouth smiled, bent over, and tried to maintain the same level as her, looking at her gently, she didn't need much persuasion now, and she was not a person who could listen to others' persuasion, "But why are you crying here?" ”
He obviously knew everything, and when she was far away, he silently followed her in the distance, all the way to Anfu, and watched the two of them from the rooftop, seeing each other - approaching - until the break, everything was in full view, and he saw it in his eyes, but now he pretended not to know anything to ask her.
"I said that you were waiting for me here, you can't deceive me, besides, if I want to cry, I just want to cry, why do you want to ask so much, and you still want to care about me! Whining... Woooooooo
As an abandoned person, where can I still tell others about these things, no matter how hard it is, I can only swallow it in my stomach, I can't let people know, see my grievances and vulnerability, slowly I don't say it, slowly time passes bit by bit, and one day I will forget it, but now it seems that in a short time, I can't forget anything,
Touching his arms, it was a dagger sent by An Youju, this dagger was half narrower than the usual, a little shorter, but the blade was extraordinarily sharp, sharpened iron like clay, the handle of the knife was engraved with dragon scales, the shell was decorated with red gems and obsidian, and it was always in the sleeve or tied to the leg, keeping it for self-defense, slowly took out the dagger, and pulled out the sharp blade.
"What are you going to do!" Huan Yu grabbed her wrist tightly, afraid that she would do something stupid, now she can't control anything, and she doesn't know what dangerous things she will do, so her heart trembles, she is afraid, if she is impulsive, no one can stop it, and she is enough to choke.
"Let go, Huan Lu, you've trespassed." She wanted to break free of Huan's hand, but he grabbed her wrist and felt pain, and she couldn't break free, "What do you think this palace is going to do, will this palace be stupid and want to die?" The voice echoed in the empty streets, becoming colder and colder, resounding in the empty alleys.
Die? has come to the point where it is now, is it difficult to press = for the sake of this little thing, and abandon the planning and layout for so long? That's the stupidest thing to do, it's not good for her, then she won't be such a coward! At this moment, what she needs is the courage to face the future, rather than giving up this hard-won life easily.
(End of chapter)