Sometimes I feel that I am really looking for boring for myself, maybe because I am too idle, I feel that when I deliberately ignore her, it is more uncomfortable than when she ignores me, sometimes a few words of concern, but suddenly I am beaten back to the original shape by a good annoyance, which makes me overwhelmed, but now I may have gotten used to it, used to the kind of hot and cold, dispensable emotions, and it seems that I am used to the feeling of what I want to do when I am alone.

The day before yesterday, there was another family war with my mother, the fuse was still her, I didn't actually finish the words last night, because I didn't think there was any need to tell her, I knew it in my heart, my mother's idea may not be superfluous, there is a reason for her, and it is also considered from my point of view, I know very well in my heart, from childhood to adulthood, I have done so much for me, so that I am in accordance with the route they designed, constantly worrying about me, rushing, dealing with some human affairs, I don't know in my heart, I don't understand, every time I think of it, In fact, I'm more tired than them, so that I have been lacking in assertiveness since I was a child, until now I have my own ideas after joining the work, but I have never communicated with them, and I have developed a habit of knowing in my heart, in this relationship, sometimes I think about what my mother said, I don't know what the final outcome will be, and she never tells me what she thinks, if she can be strong-willed, maybe it will give me some courage to resist them, otherwise I don't know what will happen.

Alas! I don't want to, but there will be a day when I will know the result. Yesterday was the 100th day with her from acquaintance, and I wanted to do something for her, but she just had a minor operation and the arrival of her aunt, and finally it didn't happen.

At work, what should I do in the second half of the year, or stay put, according to what my uncle said, looking at the situation this year, it seems that I can only stay put, so how should I face it, I don't want to try people's hearts again, it will disappoint you, and it will make you desperate; Some things are good to know, and there is no need to say more; Some people just know each other, and they don't have to be deeply acquainted.

Do what you have to do, with love or without love, treat it safely. In the eyes, it is good to see who is leaving; In your heart, it's good to know who is good and who is bad!

In the face of so many familiar and unfamiliar faces, I can only occasionally listen, talk, laugh, and be the young man who thinks he is diligent and can do things in their eyes, and even I don't know how long I can last.

I hope that everything I have done today will eventually become a light and illuminate my path forward.